Free Will

Note: The following article was posted on my Chinese blog on October 17, 2009, which I am now moving to the English blog.


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A comment on Youtube from Bella.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzI6BZ-Phpg

BellaBargilly



we say there is no free-will because you can´t stop eating or shitting and you can´t leave your body and return at will in full awareness - without dying.



we say there is no free-will - because `free-will´ has been used & abused to justify Separation - where one will justify words or actions saying "I have free-will!" - which becomes a problem when the will of an individual is not aligned with Life´s Will as CommonSense as what is Best for All.



prove your free-will by stopping your Mind.

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This comment put the relationships between "wills" into very straightforward perspective. My will as from the starting point of self-interest based on the abusive nature of the mind consciousness system always want to justify/protect its own existence -- free will is the most commonly used excuse/justification/reason to perpetuate the mind's own existence -- "I have free will. I have the right to do whatever i want to do." While the truth is that free will is just another system program to protect the system's own existence through the illusion of free will/free choice while the being who believe such a thing are actually following a program of the mind consciousness system without even knowing that what they are protecting is what is abusing who they really are as Life as all as one as equal. This "my will" is not aligned with Life's will as CommonSense as what's best for all, but based on self-interest -- the abuse of Life. By giving up free will, we give up the protection/defense mechanism of the mind which protects the mind's own existence whose nature is abuse of who we really are as Life as all as one as equal and which always choose self-interest over Life -- within this I replace my will/self-interest with Life's will as CommonSense as what's best for all -- I align myself with who i really am as Life as all as one as equal. Then my will is not personal, not based on self-interest, but the manifestation of Life's will as who i really am as all as one as equal. Give up free will. Give up self-interest. Give up the mind. Give up the personality definition. Give up the individual identity which is based on separation. Give up illusion! For what? For the redeem of who we really are as Life as all as one as equal; for what is real; for a real living. When Life's will is applied individually, heaven is on earth and Life is born in the physical. So this process is to give up my will which is an illusion and align myself with Life's will which is who i really am as who all really are as all as one as equal until it is done until all stand as Life's will as who we really are and we express we live we see what will happen.
 
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Self-Forgiveness on Judging and Reacting to Family

Note: The following self-forgiveness is an expansion of those that I posted on my Chinese blog on October 16, 2009.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my family as fucked up systems and that i'd better get away from them so that i do not get influenced.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am not fucked up systems through comparing myself with my family and form opinions about my family and about myself.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am equally fucked up as everyone else in this world and that I am no better than others in this process.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be superior to my family.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my family through judging them as less than me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as the teacher and savior of my family because I am apparently superior/better than/more than them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be influenced by my family.







I forgive myself that I have acceptedand allowed myself to connect being influenced by my family to fear - and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I can only be influenced by external influences unless I give them permission - thus my responsibility.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard my family as disgusted systems and that i'd better keep myself away from them.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape from my family instead of realizing that this process is not about keeping my family away from me (neither is it about continuing those family bullshits) - that will not assist and support me or my family or anyone.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that family can be of great support in this process of facing myself and seeing/realizing what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become - it is about the starting point of what I do.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that my family is one and equal with me as me, and that it is separation to judge my family for who they are currently.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people for who they are currently in their process.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my family through judging them for who they are currently in their process.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i should present myself as being harsh/cruel/ruthless in order to present myself as being self-honest, instead of realing that being harsh/cruel/ruthless should not be the starting point or the purpose of my action, but that the starting point should be of equality and oneness - standing one and equal with my family, assisting and supporting them as who they really are equal as me.







I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to accept my family as my equals.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am justified to just leave my family as what they are without taking actions - instead of realizing that within such an acceptance, I have also given permission to myself to be left to be who I am without assitance and support.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to leave my family as who they accept and allow them to be without taking action.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my family will not hear me anyway so i will not bother to communicate or do something about it.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the assumption that my family will not hear me anyway thus cutting off the communication with my family.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seclude myself from my family - defining such an act as of sel-honesty.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to experience the apparent argument/conflict if i challenge my family's self-definitions and shake them up because what i say they would not like to hear.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect argument/conflict to fear - and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not about my family - it is about who I am within my family - what I have accepted and allowed myself and my family to be and become.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place the starting point of my participation within my family to my family in separation of myself - instead of realizing that it is about who I am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to my family's self-dishonesties without taking action because i have accepted that they won't hear me anyway and what i have to say is unpleasent and may offend them so i'd better leave them alone.







I forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to give permission to self-dishonesties within other beings instead of realizing that by doing this i have given permission to self-dishonesties to exist/continue within me.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I may offend my family.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect offending my family to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that not fearing to offend others does not mean that I have to deliberately offend others in order to prove that I do not fear offending them - offending others should not become the starting point of my participation with others because then my starting point would be of separation from myself - towards others. If what is necessary to be said then it is simply said - not allowing myself to hold myself back out of fear that I may offend them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to my family's reactions towards me, feeling frustrated/threatened by them and fearing to experience such reactions again.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of frustrattion/being threatened when my family react to my words.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the emotional reaction of frustration/being threatened is who I am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give into reactions instead of reazlizing i was giving my power away to reactions to control/enslave me.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by energetic emotional reaction - instead of me directing myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to experience reactions to my family's reactions.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to connect reacting to my family's reactions to fear and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe i should not bother to challenge my family's dishonesties but give permission to them to continue, so that i won't offend them and then we are all OK - instead of realizing that this is how we are supporting each others personalities of the mind existing in self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i should avoid offending other beings and avoid conflicts in all situations instead of realizing that I am actually avoiding to face my own fear. -- However, it does not mean that I have to deliberately create situations of unnecessary conflicts.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react in guilt and sadness that i offended my family.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of guilt and sadness.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am required to go into guilt and sadness for having offended my family because apparently I have broken their hearts.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be conditioned by moraltiy as how I should behave within the family situation where I apparently broken my family's heart.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the manipulation of the minds' protection/defense mechanisms from my family.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family for my experience of falling for the manipulation of the mind instead of realizing that I am responsible for how I experienced myself emotionally/energetically.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not of a self-honest starting point to deliberately get invovled in arguments with my father to feed each other's ego.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that my family's reactions to me and my reactions to them are all protection/defense mechanisms of the mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and get angry for falling for the manipulation of the mind's protection/defense mechanisms.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family to manipulate me - instead of realizing that I am responsible for accepting allowing myself to be manipulated by my own mind.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to risk everything to do whatever needs to be done to chanllege all self-dishonesties/illusions no matter what.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear risking my self-definition as a good/nice person/son/brother.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to protect my own self-definitions/illusions/self-dishonesties through fear.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my father has his right to hold onto his beliefs, instead of realizing that by giving permission to my father the right to continue to exist as who he is I am also giving permission to myself the right to continue to exist as who I am of the mind - abusing who we all really are as Life. Unacceptable!







I will do whatever it takes and risk everything to not accept anyone less than who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that since i can not show love to my family, i must present myself as hate which is the polarity opposite of love.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I should not show love to my family instead of realizing that this sentence is indicating that I am still believing that love is something that is able to be presented to my family in some way.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if love is required to be shown to someone/something, it implies love is not real in fact as who we are but that the opposite actually exist in order for love to exist.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word love and hate through defining them in my family in separation of myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word love to my mother.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word love and from my mother through defining the word love within my mother in separation of myself.







I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to connec the word hate to my father.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word hate and from my father through defining the word father within the word hate in separation of myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto resentment/blame/anger/hatred towards my family, wanting to separate myself from my family, not allowing myself to actually stand one and equal with my family as my family to assist and support them as me.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control my family and let them do what I want them to do.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to do what I want them to do.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in expectations.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to force my family to do what I want them to do and who i want them to be.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry that my family did not do what I expected/wanted them to do.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to change my family the way I want them to be.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I can not force others to change - my starting point would then be of separation.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize my starting point within this process must be who I am as self - not in separation of myself.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not to force my family to change - but to change who I am and live the change as who I am within this process and assist and support those that i come to interaction with to change/transform themselves - but I can not force anyone to change and I can not change for anyone - each has to be willing to be self-willed equals to transform ourselves and this world as ourselves to bring heaven on earth.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as expectations and anticipations.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to change to the way I want them to be.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up my family within frustration that i can not change them because they did not do exactely what i expected them to do, and say "they'd better go fuck themselves" - instead of realizing that the starting point of forcing my family to change in the way I would them to be is fucked up in the first place - because then my focus point is not who I am but become all about my family.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take responsibility for myself first, transforming/changing myself and live the self-transformation/self-change as a living example of change to assist and support my family to transform/change as themselves equl and one as myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought 'they'd beter go fuck themselves'.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' with the emotional reaction of anger and spite.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in anger and spite.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as anger and spite.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty that i have participated in the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves'.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of guilt.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' as bad/wrong/negative.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' through judging the thought as bad/wrong/negative.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abandon my family by saying "they'd better go fuck themselves".







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for having the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' because I have regarded this thought as me abandoning my family.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as bad/wrong for having the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' coming up into my mind - from a morality perspective.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I must 'care' for my family and by saying 'they'd better go fuck themselves' within my mind, I am not doing what I am supposed to do within the context of 'care' as a morality standard within family.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I have done something wrong because I had the thought of abandoning my family and that I am not caring my family enough.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blinded/consumed by the family construct, disregarding the rest of the world.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that 'care' in the context of family construct is not real - because how can care exist if I do not care all equally but only care my own family?







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to agree with me to accept my point and when it is not i get frustrated/disappointed and go into spitefulness.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in expectation of myself to agree with me.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to support my ego through agreeing with my opinion.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel frustrated/disappointed and go into spitefulness because my opinion was not supported.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize the spitefulness towards my family is actually self-spite - me being spiteful to myself through my mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat "go fuck yourselves and suffer for what you do" as spitefulness as a punishment to my family.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat "You don't hear me. You will suffer."







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in spite and nastiness for not being able to control my family and let them do what I want them to do.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become spiteful and nasty for losing control.







I forgive that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my family to suffer because they did not want to hear me.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the true nature of me as spite and nastiness revealed when my ego/mind/opinions/control is not supported.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that who they really are is one and equal with who i really am -- we are one and equl as Life -- no matter how deep they are trapped, i will not give them up as who they really are -- i will do whatever it takes until they stand up, take self-responsibility to honour who we all really are as Life -- yet the first step is to take responsibility for myself.











I will not accept myself to react to my family's reactions because of feeling offended, instead i see that their reactions indicate that they are trapped in the mind consciousness systems and that is the suffering of Life the suffering of who i really am. I can not just stop there, saying i will give you up -- you do whatever you want to do. No! That is unacceptable! Within the understanding of Life suffering, within the understanding of their pains and sufferings, within my pains and sufferings, i will not stop until the abuse of Life/the abuse of whowho we all really are stops! If I am in such situations, what do I really need? Practical assistance and support if I have walked through the same points.







Can you just react in spitefulness, resentment because you perceive that you have been offended/you feel bad? Can you just abandon/reject/give up them because of your personal feelings/because you perceive that they offended you? Why do you hold such a grip towards resentment/unforgiveness? Can you place Life over your own personal feelings and emotions? Or do you place your own personal feelings/emotions/reactions over Life? What will you do? What is the honour of Life? Ask yourself. What does risking everything mean? Do you hold onto your own good name/fame/defintions? Give up self-interest entirely/completely! Honour LIFE as who we really are no matter what!

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Self-Forgiveness on Perceptual Reality of the Mind

Note: The following Self-Forgiveness is based on an article that I posted on my Chinese blog on October 15, 2009.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define reality according to what i perceive through my mind within the condition of my self-definition.








I forgive myself that i have not allowed mself to realize that my mind filters information deliberately according to self-definition.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that what i perceive through my mind is not the true expression of the reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that what i perceived through my mind is real and that reality is just perceptions that exists within my mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define what is real as the perceptions/ideas/beliefs that i have formed and created within my mind as my self-definition.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define existence as what exists within my mind as perceptions/ideas/beliefs, and created such a belief that whatever does not exist within my mind does not actually exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever does not come into mind/enter into my consciousness does not exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form perceptions/ideas/beliefs about reality, and project my perceptions/beliefs/ideas onto the physical reality, perceiving/believing them to be real expressions of reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the existence of perceptual reality and the apparent diversity of perceptual realities.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto my perceptions/ideas/beliefs because i have defined myself as them and fear losing them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that whatever i fear losing is not real, who i really am as LIFE can not actually be lost - only illusions can be lost.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to filter information/perceive reality through my mind/my self-definition, ignoring deliberately what do not fit into my perceptions/ideas/beliefs of/as the mind.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have built layers upon layers upon layers of self-definitions through perceiving that which only support my self-definitions and ignoring deliberately that does not support my self-defintions.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore deliberately that which i do not want to see/hear - perceiving/believing that by ignoring them they then do not exist.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by perceiving reality through my mind, I am not actually standin one and equal with reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in oblivion to what is really going on in reality by using my mind to perceive reality, creating perceptions/ideas/beliefs of the physical reality which is not what the physical reality really is and is not what is really going on in this world.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself by defining myself as my mind, and trusting my mind to perceive and interprete myself and the world as myself for me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to believe whatever i want to believe and that this is my free will/free choice to do so - instead of realizing that I am actually existing as a slave to my mind while believing myself to be free.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to interprete the reality at my own will, instead of realizing that I am actually justifying my illusionary perceptual reality of/as the mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live in self-deception by living in my mind illusionary perceptual reality, perceiving/interpreting reality through my mind consciousness system according to my self-definitions created through thoughts/emotions/feelings/perceptions/ideas/beliefs.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself to believe that everything in this world is OK and that this world should continue to exist as it is, by deliberately ignoring the suffering and pains of other beings in this world.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the right to not see/face/consider the abuse, sufferings and pains in this world.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge abuse/sufferings/pains as bad - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from abuse/sufferings/pains in this world - instead of standing one and equal with them and stop them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i can do nothing about the sufferings and pains of other beings so i will simply ignore them--pretending that they do not exist so that i can continue my own illusionary life.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up who i really am and exist as self-defeat by perceiving that i can do nothing to make a difference but to pretend that they do not exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as self-defeat/powerlessness/helplessness/giving up/abdication of self-responsibility.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have become numb to reports of murdings/killings/rapes/abuses/kidnappings/wars etc on newspapers, perceiving/believing that they are so far away from me and that as long as i am OK i will ignore them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the sufferings and pains of other beings as long as they do not influence me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i can do nothing about what is happening in this world and i will just ignore it as long as it does not influence me.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding everything in this physical reality I have disregarded myself as LIFE.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard LIFE - disregard other beings that exist in this physical reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that it is normal to have such reports as murdings/killings/kidnappings/rapes/abuses/wars etc, and justify the existence of such manifestations of abuse of Life.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever i did not see/hear/feel/experience do not exist, such as the slaughtering of animals, the raping of children, wars -- from the perspective of my mind, they seem to be so far away from me that i do not feel them so they do not exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to disregard deliberately the sufferings and pains in other beings by saying i do not feel like bothering myself to see/face such horrific manifestations - instead of realizing that I am actually resisting to see/face myself as what I have accepted and allowed, created and manifested within and as this world as who I am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the manifestation of abuses in this reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from other beings by existing in deliberate ignorance of what is actually going on in this world and what beings are actually experiencing.







I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to see the truth of this reality by deliberately ignoring that which i perceive to be uncomfortable because i know if i really see what is going on in this world i can not stand with what I am accepting and allowing.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the continuatioin of abuse in this reality by ignoring them deliberately.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself realize that sufferings and pains are physical experiences that are real -- they are not perceptions/ideas/beliefs that exist in the mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the physical reality and ignore what is actually going on and being experienced in the physical reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that sufferings and pains do not exist, by being addicted to and lost in my mind perceptual reality -- not even able to discern between what is real and what is not real.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify sufferings and pains by perceiving/believing that those beings deserve to experience those sufferings and pains as a punishement.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as my self-defintion as the perception/idea/belief that beings deserve to experience sufferings and pains. Unacceptable!







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to sufferings and pains in other beings by saying that "i do not feel like seeing these sufferings and pains which make me uncomfortable"--self-dishonesty. Unacceptable!







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding the rest of the world, i have given permission of disregard of who i really am as Life.







Till here no further! Stop! No longer valid! I do not accept myself to justify my mind/self-definitions/perceptual reality/perceptions/ideas/beliefs. No justification of abuses/pains/sufferings. No! Stop!







I am here as breath as the quantum moment as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression.







I transform myself in each and every single breath as each and every single moment till the abuse, sufferings and pains stop within me and within this world as me!







No more ignorace of what is really going on in this world. No more hiding in my mind perceptual reality!







Till here no further!

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Self-Forgiveness on Anger Triggered by a Situation

Note: the following is based on an article I published on my Chinese blog on October 12, 2009 where I discussed a situation which I also experiened just today.

I was doing my homework tonight while my mother called me. I felt disturbed and went into reaction. The first time the call did not get through and i did not know who was calling. The second time, it came through. I picked it up and heard my mother's voice. I experienced immense resistance and reluctance, and anger started to accumulate within me immediately because i felt disturbed by this call and that i had no time for this call at all. My mother's first question was "Why did not it get through?" With anger, i said "How would i know?"-- words full of reluctance/resistance/anger. Then my mother said she wanted to talk to me and wanted to see me. I was more angry inside but i suppressed it with words "I had no time!" Then my mother connected QQ requiring a video talk. I picked it up with reluctance/resistance/anger. I really did not want to get into any talk at that time. When the camera was connected, i did not watch my mother at all and went on with what i was doing. In a while my mother asked "Are your hairs falling off?" The irritation and anger burst out "I am doing homework！If you do not have anything important to day, we'd better stop it!" So the talk did not last for even a minute. After the talk, I could not focus on what i was doing and i blamed my mother and even cursed her for what i experienced within me.








I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to my mother with irritation/resistance/reluctance/anger because I feel that I have been disturbed.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate anger within me at that moment, instead of breathing through and stopping the anger within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as irritations/resistance/reluctance/anger and fuel them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my mother for what i experienced within me instead of realizing that it has nothing to do with my mother at all -- it is all about what was going on within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to direct anger to my mother, judging her, blaming her, cursing her - instead of realizing that the anger I experienced is not about my mother - it is about me being angry with myself - and this situation is just showing me that there exists anger within me because I am dishonest with myself.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that there is only one type of anger that exists as one point of being angry at yourself, and that is when I've not been honest with myself and that I have fucked myself, I've become angry at yourself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress anger, instead of investigating why I am experiencing anger and sort it out so that I no longer go into such an experience over and over again.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that when I suppress that anger, that anger will resonate, manifest and be experienced in different ways within my world - to reflect to me that there exists anger within me.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anger with myself because I am dishonest to myself - because I am not honouring who i really am - because i am deliberatly against who i really am.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to deliberately fuck myself through being deliberately against myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be diliberately against myself as a way to blame and punish others.







I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that by being deliberately against who I really am - I am only fucking myself, I am destroying myself, I am dishonouring myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed being deliberately against who I really am as LIFE to become my accepted nature.







I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to create and manifest myself as the representation of being deliberately against LIFE.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful to LIFE instead of realizing that I am actually being spiteful to myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in self-spitefulness.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from LIFE through being spiteful to LIFE.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anger with myself because I know I am spiteful to LIFE and that I am dishonouring LIFE.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the manifestation of an event to show me that anger exists within me is through the accumulation of self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that anger is the outflow of me not being honest with me in my starting point in every moment, which culminates to anger.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest within my starting point - delaying what I know I should deal with because I just did not.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately postpone and resist that which I know I should give direction to.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny dealing with those emails that I know I should deal with.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate undealt-with emails.







I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately push away/shut away information about Desteni and withdraw myself from participating actively.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed undealt with issues to accumulate into the manifestation of anger within me and within my world.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anger with myself because I know I should give direction to situations in my world but I just did not do it.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-direction.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with myself because I have abdicated self-direction.







I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the desire to revenge Desteni because i believe that Desteni is the reason why I am experiencing the fuck up I am experiencing - instead of realizing that I am responsible for my experience that I have created and manifested even when I have 'forgotten' how I actually created and manifested such an experience.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the belief that Desteni is the reason why I am experiencing the fuck up that I am experiencing.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto that belief so that i can continue to blame instead of taking responsibility for myself - stand up and direct myself and correct that which I have created and manifested.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the belief that the reason why I am experiencing the fuck up I am experiencing is because I participated in this process - because I believed that all my problems came after I got involved with Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the strong belief within my mind which I have believed to be real - that Desteni is responsible for my experience of being fucked up.







I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to want to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to destroy myself so that I can prove Desteni wrong as a form of revenge.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful to Desteni as a form of revenge.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately fuck myself up so that I can continue to blame Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed revenging Desteni to become my accpeted nature because I have been obsessed and possessed with the belief that Desteni is responsible for my experience of being fucked up.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed and possessed by the desire to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed by the desire to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuck myself deliberately so that I can prove that it is all Desteni's fault.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beliberately destroy myself as a means to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be possessed by the anger system Demon - because I have accpeted and allowed myself to be consumed by and become the manifestation of anger.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuck myself up through jumping into conclusions based on the part of Desteni materials that I have read.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with myself because I fucked myself up through jumping into conclusions in reading Desteni materials.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame Desteni materials to mislead me instead of realizing that I accepted and allowed myself to jump into conclusions in reading Desteni materials - thus I am responsible for those assumptions/interpretations/perceptions/ideas/beliefs that I have created within myself which I have believed to be what Desteni is proposing.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not responsible for the conclusions/assumptions/interpretations that I made within reading Desteni materials because those would be the only conclusions that I could draw from those materials based on my understanding at that moment.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the grudge against Desteni materials.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to take responsibility for the conclusions/assumptions/interpretations that I have made within reading Desteni materials.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see within common sense that the best way is to immediately correct myself instead of holding onto the grduge.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to convince myself that I am not responsible for those conclusions/assumptions/interpretations that I have made about Desteni materials - so that I do not have to take self-responsibility for what I have created and manifested.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that holding onto grudge against Desteni materials is not going to do me or anybody any good - but to continue fuck myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue to fuck myself through holding onto the belief that Desteni materials have misled me and that it is all Desteni's fault that I have fucked myself.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to attempt to convice myself that it is real/true that I have been misled by Desteni materials.







I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to believe it to be real/true that i have been misled by Desteni materials - because I have persuaded myself to believe it.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to believe something to be real jsut because I have told myself so many times that it is real.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to want to believe that I have been misled by Desteni materials and that Desteni is responsible for my experience of being fucked - so that I do not have to stand up and take responsibility for the fuck-up that I have created and manifested as myself.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed to continue to screw myself up so that I can continue to blame Desteni for my fuck-up.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to prove that it is because of my participation in Desteni that I have fucked myself up - even through deliberately fucking myself up in my process.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that if I fuck myself up in my process then that proves my belief that my participation in Desteni is the reason why I fucked myself up.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my fucking up is able to prove that Desteni is responsible for my fucking up.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite myself in order to spite Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful to myself - instead of realizing that I am merely harming myself.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to abuse myself as a way to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that by abusing/tortuing/fucking myself I am actually revenging Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in self-abuse and self-torture deliberately as a means of spitefulness to Desteni which is actually self-spitefulness.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the delusion that I have been misled by Desteni materials and that is why I fucked myself up.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed by delusions within my mind which I have believed to be so real.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become delusional.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be able to distinguish reality from delusions clearly - because I have become delusional.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by delusions instead of living here in and as the physical reality as the breath of life here in every moment.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed by delusions.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose contact with reality through being obsessed with delusions within my mind.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with delusions within my mind which I have firmly believed to be real.















I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as having a bad temper as my father.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as having a bad temper -- being very easy to get irritated and angry.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as irritation and anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my temper believing that the bad temper is who i am instead of realizing that it is a program within me that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe to be who i am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that since my father has a bad temper then it is normal/ordinary/natural for me to have the same bad temper.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the shit of bad temper instead of realizing that the temper is a program that i have inherited from my parents or from my environment that i have defined as who i am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled/manipulated/directed by emotions within me which i perceived to be originating from my bad temper.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the mind consciousness system within me through participating in emotions and feelings within my mind.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to be present in the moment the anger started to take control over me and stop it immediately.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out the shit system that i inherited from my father.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to copy reactions and behaviors from my father and define myself as such reactive behaviors.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my father for why i have such a bad temper and that if i had a different father i would not need to deal with this and experience such reactive behaviors.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my father for my experience instead of realizing that i am responsible for what i was experiencing within me and that by blaming others i was abidicating self-responsibility.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what i was experiencing within me instead of realizing that it is through my permission and participation that the systems within me manifest.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to vent my anger on somebody when i experience anger within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to any beings within my world just to find excuses to vent my anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to my mother's words just to find excuses to vent my anger and frustration.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel released when i have vent my anger on somebody else.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be deceived by the apparent releas of anger when i direct it onto beings in my world.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that if i do not vent my anger on somebody i will explode.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel good after i have vent my anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as anger, being consumed by anger.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that when i was participating in anger and venting my anger onto other beings i was actually allowing myself to be a slave to the systems within me which i have defined as who i am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the anger system within me, and live out my self-definition as the anger system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the reactive habitual behavior when i experienced anger within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give into anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel good when i curse somebody just to vent my anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to suppress anger when i experienced them within me, instead of realizing that suppressing anger is resisting anger and that what i resist persists, thus the anger will finally come out.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as suppression of anger, perceiving that i suppress it it will disappear.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as suppression of anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to copy my father's behavior of beating somebody/something to vent my anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be possessed by anger, becoming the power source of the system within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself by participating in anger and charging the system within me without realizing what i was actually supporting.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad that i have done something out of the control of impulsion of anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard anger to be more than me, perceive that i have no power over anger, and that i can not direct anger one and equal.





I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from anger, instead of standing one and equal with anger, realizing that anger is a program within me and that it is not who ireally am thus simply stop it.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to follow anger which is following programs and systems within me which i have accepted and allowed myself to define as who iam.

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Self-Forgiveness on Judgment of the System

Note: The following self-forgiveness is based on an article published on my Chinese blog on October 11, 2009, which I am now moving here to this English blog.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the system as bad.








I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word system with a negative value.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the system through judging the system as bad.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear the system.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the system to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-responsibility - abdicating responsibility for what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge nature, the animal kingdom, and the physical manifested universe as being bad/worthless/useless because we are currently in the system and from my idea/perception/belief that the system is bad, i was judging all and everything in this world as bad.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from nature, animal kingdom, the physical manifested universe through judging them as bad.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that what makes a difference is whether we are of the system or not, not whether we are in the system (actually everything is in the system).







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge nature/animal kingdon/the physical manifested universe merely because they are in the system instead of realizing that nature/animal kingdom/the physical manifested universe has stood up within oneness and equality, taking responsibility for what has been accepted and allowed,and that the only manifestation that has not yet stood up as Life as all as one as equal is human beings who are trapped in the mind consciousness systems which human beings have perceived/believed to be who we are.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that since the whole physical universe is the manifestation of the mind consciousness system, the whole physical universe deserves to be destroyed.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the destruction of the physical manifested universe.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize my oneness and equality with nature/animal kingdom/the manifested physical universe, and i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take the manifested physical universe for granted.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that destroying the world is a solution.







I forgive mself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be trapped by perceptions/ideas/beliefs based on the mind consciousness system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge who i am one and equal with the manifestd physical universe simply because we are currently system manifestations.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for me in the system instead of realizing that what makes a difference is whether i am of the system or not.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to separate myself from what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a mind consciousness system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take the unconditional assistance and support from nature/animal kingdom/the manifeseted physical universe for granted.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to disregard all and everything in this world, instead of realizing that i have disregarded myself as Life.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from Life as who i really am as all as one as equall as the living word as the sound harmonic expression.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take myself for granted.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge animals to be stupid or dumb, perceiving myself to be superior/smart/intelligent, perceiving/believing that animals do not understand oneness and equality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify killing/murdering animals. It is unacceptable!







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in self-rightousness, superiority, and arrogance. Unacceptable!







Be in the system yet not of the system! Stand up, take self-responsibility, live who i really am as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression.







No more judgment of nature/animal kingdom/the manifested physical universe!



No more separation from nature/animal kingdom/the manifested physical universe!



No more separation from that which stands as who i really am as Life as all as one as equal!







I am here assisting and supporting myself to be/live one and equal with nature/animal kingdom/the physical manifested universe!







I am here assisting and supporting myself as the breath of Life as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression!



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self-forgivess on Trust

Osho: Trust is Not Transferable

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qWwMwE_phOE



Note: The following self-forgiveness was published on my Chinese blog on October 11, 2009, which I am now moving here to this English blog.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to knowledge and information, instead of living that which i have realized one and equal as myself, manifesting myself as the realization.








I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to i have to remeber the realization in order to not forget it, instead of realizing that the reason i am able to forget is because i am existing in separation from that which i am trying to remember with my mind instead of actually living the realization.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to live one and equal the realization through physical application, manifesting myself as that which i have realized one and equal as myself, thus not being able to forget what i have realized and also no need for memoring the realization as merely knowledge and information.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to base my trust on my past moments according to specific applications that i feel effective, instead of trusting myself here in the moment -- a brand new moment, no attachment to the past moments.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to see with common sense that if i am here in the moment completely, i can not have any attachment to the past moments that i have experienced -- i am entirely here in this new moment honouring who i really am in this entirely brand-new moment.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that the past moment has already passed, and i am now in the brand new moment, why would i allow myself to still be attached that which has already passed while not honouring myself here in this new moment?







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that the power is here in this moment and when i participate in my mind and hold onto attachments towards the past moments, i am only missing the moment that is here, not completely being here honouring the moment making the fullest use of the moment here.







I forgive myself that ihave not allowed myself to see with common sense that when i am here why do i have the need to be attached to the past moments?







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my past realizations that is of common sense.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my past, fear my past, perceive/believe that i must separate myself from my past in order to be self-honest.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my past realizations are completely useless and that i must do exactly the opposite in order to become self-honest.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-trust that i have built and self-realizations from my past experiences.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to define self-trust according to the past moments instead of realizing self-trust can only exist in every moment -- every moment is a new moment, I am here in the moment then i apply what is here in the moment. I do not accept myself to be defined by my past.







I am not past-defined. I am here in the moment as the moment as breath. I am brand new in every moment. I trust myself as every moment. I am not past-defined. My application is in every moment as every moment as self-trust. No attachment to the past!






I am here! I am here! I am the moment! I am in every moment! I express myself as every brand new moment! I honour myself in every new moment! I trust myself as every new moment!

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Desteni website: http://www.desteni.co.za/

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Self-Forgiveness on Participation in Class

Note: The following self-forgiveness was published on my Chinese blog on October 03, 2009, which I am now moving to this English blog.



I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to be clear with my starting point of participating in class.








I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form the ideat that Chinese students have the tendency to not participate in class.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be sepcial if i particpate in class asking answering questions or pointing out mistakes of the professor.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my participation in class to support my personality design instead of speaking the words/communicating one and equal as me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel special when i participate in class because all other Chinese students dare not to do this.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to feel special about myself and prove that i am special or superior.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in competition with other Chinese students.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want impress the students and professors while participating in class, only supporting my own self-definition.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have been so suppressed all these years in class that i place much value/worth in participation in class.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place muchh value/worth in participation in class.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard participation in class to be very special/brave/difficult/challenging and feel nervous/anxious when i participate.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to design an idea of me as being out of the box, feeling superior/good about myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in class with the desire that other students notice me and regard me to be special/smart/clever/brave/different/profound.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to get attention from other students and the professor.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to present myself as being iintelligent/smart/clever/insightful/superior when i participate in class.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire a specific outcome when i participate in class instead of simply me being here communicating as myself.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to participate in class with the starting point of assisting and supporting myself to stop programs within me.











I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel anxious/nerous when i participate in class because i placed too much value/worth in such an action and desire a specific outcome.







I frogive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in anticipation/expectation and desire to present myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned with whether i am doing good/right, what is my performance etc.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned with my performance when i participate in class instead of realizing that this indicates i am placing value/worth in what other people think about me which is actually supporting the self-image i hold of myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold a self-image of myself which i expect/desire other people to believe in or buy.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may be judged as being stupid if i dare to ask some "stupid" questions or answer incorrectly where i may be judged as being stupid.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may ask trivial questions which can not show my profoundness.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to build my self-image as being knowlegable/smart/clever/profound and fear that i may not be able to present my self-image in such a way successfully. Holy Fuck!







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by a self-image instead of me directing myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to move accroding to my self-image, being controlled/enslaved by such a self-image.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become a slave to a self-image.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live for my self-image, an idea of myself which i present myself as which is not real.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to move according to programs/ideas/perceptions/beliefs within me instead of me moving myself/expressing myself as who i really am unconditionally.







I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to realize what unconditional self-expression_r means and what self-movement means.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may behave stupid which will my self-image as being smart/clever/profound.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become a slave to a picture within my mind which i hold as who i am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire other students to worship me or admire me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to impress the professor.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable/anxious/upset after i have answered a question/asked a question/pointed out a mistake because i am concerned with my performance and with what other people may think about me.







i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to replay the scene that has just happened in my mind and feel that it is difficult to feel peaceful.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel distrubed when i participated in class.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go up in my mind after i participated in class, replaying the scene again and again, not being able to hear what the professor is talking about.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be intimidated to participate in class.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may make mistakes in participation in class, and fear being judged.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for participating in the class fearing that i may not be behaving well enough.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate with a certain expectation that the professor will notice me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned with how i can find an advisor to get into a research group.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to what i am facing/dealing with/handling, separating myself from the situation.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear other people may be judging my Englihs pronunciation.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my English pronuciation.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad that my pronunciation of the stress of words is incorrect.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to make mistakes.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel stressed out withh how to find an advisor.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire that everything will turn out naturally solved without any effort.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may not be able to find an advisor.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that Verbarschot may backbite me so that i may lose all the opportunities of finding an advisor.







Till Here no further! Stop!







I stop anticipation/expectation of presenting myself according to my self-image within participation in class.







I stop my self-image through my mind as an idea/perception/believe of who i am.







I stop desiring to get attention from the students and professor.







I stop existing in stress/anxiety about finding an advisor.







Till here no further.







I am here as breath as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression_r. I direct. I move. I am self-commitment. I am self-dedication. I am nature. I am earth. I am my human physical body.



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Idea of Self-honesty and Self-dishonesty

Note: The following self-forgiveness is an expansion of those that I published on my Chinese blog on October 03, 2009.


What i have realized is that self-honesty can be designed and developed into an ideas as the polar opposite of the idea of self-dishonesty.








I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form an idea of self-honesty, designing self-idea into an idea which is not lived but merely exist as knowledge and information.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to design self-honesty into the polar opposite of the idea of self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an idea of self-honesty which I have created within my mind, perceiving/believing myself to be self-honest while not actually applying/living self-honesty.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have already become self-honest and that i am self-honest while it is but a perception/idea/belief within my mind and not the actuality of living application.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the idea of self-honesty which I have created within my mind to protect and hide the actual truth of me as the self-dishonesty that I have accepted and allowed.







I forgive myself that i have accetped and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i am self-honest and there is not much self-dishonesty within me so that i do not need to be diligent within deprogramming myself and releasing myself from the definition of my mind consciousness system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i am self-honest and that all the people around me in my world are all but fucked-up mind consciousness systems living in hypnosis.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel special/superior because i am participating in the process with awareness.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be more than people around me because aparently i believe myself to be self-honest while all the people around me are all self-dishonest fuck-ups.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel that i am the only one that is sober while all others are in hynosis.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have known THE truth and that I am fucking enlightened.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to judge "the fucked-up mind consciousness systems" around me.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in judgment of people in their own processes.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with the idea that people around me are all fucked-up systems instead of realizing I am actually seeing how fucked I am because I did not even see that but existing in a delusion about myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I must withdraw myself from participation and interaction with all the people within my world because apparently they are all self-dishonest fucked-up systems.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself in the polar opposite of the ideas that I have projected onto people within my world as self-dishonest fucked-up systems while me existing in the idea of me being self-honest.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the idea that I have projected onto other people is actually a reflection about myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in comparison and competition with people around me and create an idea about myself as being more than while regarding people around me as being less than.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel miserable that i am alone with the realization that we are fucked-up mind consciousness systems and that i have to live in the system full of fucked-up systems.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge/deny/resist the system - instead of taking self-responsibility and make a difference in this world through assisting and supporting myself to change myself and live the change in my world as an example.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to claim that "I am self-honest. You are all self-dishonest. You are all fucked-up."







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought 'you are all fucked-up' to be real and to be me speaking instead of realizing that it is a thought.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by a thought within my mind.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by a belief that I have constructed within my mind which I have believed to be real.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to communicate/interact with other people because i fear that i may be contaminated/influenced by their "fucked-up systems".







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that nobody/nothing can actually influence me unless I give it permission.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being contaminated/influenced by fucked up systems to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect communicating/interacting with other people to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by holding myself back from communicating/interacting with other people in my world - I am actually preventing myself from facing myself.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that facing myself is here in every moment - not having to hold myself back so that I can focus on myself or going out there so that I can apparently face myself - no, facing self is here in every moment of every breath - no matter where I am and with whom I am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as fucked-up systems within this defining myself as the polar opposite idea of self-honesty and perceive/believe that i need to seclude myself from communicating/interacting with the system and other people in order to prevent me from being influenced/contaminated - which is actually protecting the idea I have created about myself as apparently being self-honest.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am actually protecting the idea I have created about as being apparently self-honest while actually hiding the actual truth of me as being self-dishonest through preventing me from interacting with people in my world out of fear.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by fear instead of being Here directing myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word self-honesty to the word self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to define the word self-honesty in polarity to the word self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word self-honesty and self-dishonesty through defining the word self-honesty in polarity to the word self-dishonesty in separation of myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in judgement/denial/resistance toward self-dishonesty/system - instead of realizing the judgment is actually the act of fear.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge/deny/resist what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a mind consciousness system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed fear myself as a system of self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect myself as a system of self-dishonesty to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may be discovered to be self-dishonest because i feared to be judged instead of realizing that self-judgement is actually protecting the self-dishonesty within me.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to connect me being discovered to be self-dishonest to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as the polar opposite of self-dishonesty and live out my self-definition as an idea of self-honesty formed, developed and created through/with/as my mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i need to present myself to be self-honest instead of living self-honesty in fact.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to present self-honesty to the world out there somewhere - instead of realizing that that is not actual self-honesty from the starting point of self as who I am.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to misplace my starting point out there somewhere - instead of realizing that this process is for me as me as from me as the starting point of me as who I am.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to perceive/believethat I am able to prove to other people or the world that I am self-honest - instead of living who I am as the self-proof of who I am - it is not about proving anything to anybody; it is about who I am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to put on the personality suit as the idea about myself being self-honest to protect the actual self-dishonesty within.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed to embrace me unconditionally including self-dishonesty which i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, within this embracing to transform/change/stop the self-dishonesty that I have accepted and allowed.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to see with self-honesty what i have accepted and allowed within me.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that judgement/denial/resistance of self-dishonesty and the presentation of me as the idea of self-honesty is preventing me from facing what i have accepted and allowed within me and is prolonging my own process of self-realization as who I am as LIFE of oneness and equality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use excuses/reasons/justifications to prevent me from seeing the truth of me as my nature/beingness as what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become of self-dishonesty as the mind.





I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to face the self-dishonesty that i have accetped and allowed.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape from what i have acccepted and allowed within me instead of assisting and supporting myself to stand up, take self-responsibility and stop my existence as self-dishonesty as what i have always been.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with beings around me and feel good about me because i believe myself to be self-honest while all other people are self-dishonest.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to participate in the feeling of good for the idea of me being apparently self-honest.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to place value and worth in an idea of me being self-honest - in separation of myself.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to accept the word self-honesty as who I am and live as the word self-honesty.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be so chickshitted to face what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become that i wanted to use all kinds excuses/reasons/justifications to not face myself and take self-responsibility.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad about myself when i see the self-dishonesty that i have accepted and allowed.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to judge self-dishonesty as bad.







I forgive myelf that I have accpeted and allowed myself to charge self-dishonesty with a negative value.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to separate myself from self-dishonesty through judging it as bad.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the choice to not see/face the self-dishonesty that i have accepted and allowed.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form an idea about myself as being self-honest and hold onto the self-definition of me being self-honest which is an illusion protecting the real truth as self-dishonesty within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not want to see my self-dishonesty which means not wanting to take self-responsibility for what i have accepted and allowed.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use free will/free choice as excuses/justifications/reasons to not face the self-dishonesty i have accepted and allowed and continue to exist as and protect the self-dishonesty, which is perpetuating the world to exist as it currently exist which is a fuck-up.







I forigive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore deliberately my self-dishonesty instead of facing myself with brutal self-honesty, embracing what i have become and stopping it completely.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out self-deception as the personality suit as the idea of self-honesty which i have created within my mind.







Till here no further!!!











I stop my self-definition as the personality suit of the idea of self-honesty which is protecting the self-dishonesty within me.







I do not accept and allow myself to hide behind an idea of self-honesty which I created within my mind to protect my self-definitions of/as the mind.







I accept and allow myself to stop my knowledge/information/idea/belief about self-honesty and actually live self-honesty within practical application as who I am.







I do not accept and allow myself to judge beings around me as fucked-up mind consciousness systems which only support my own self-definition as the polar opposite as the idea of self-honesty which i hold onto and to protect the truth of me as self-dishonesty.







I do not accept and allow myself to project the truth of me as fucked-up systems onto others.







I do not accept and allow myself to live in the illusion/delusion of me being apparently self-honest while all others are self-dishonest fucked-up systems.







I do not accept and allow myself to escape/hide from what I have accepted and allowed as who I am.







I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility and correct myself and chage/transform myself so that I no longer continue to exist within and as that which I have always existed as - of/as the mind of self-dishonesty.







I do not accept and allow myself to use self-judgment as a means to protect my accepted and allowed self-dishonesty.

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Check out the following websites:

Desteni I Process: http://desteniiprocess.com/


Desteni website: http://www.desteni.co.za/


Equal Money System: http://www.equalmoney.org/


My Youtube Channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/WeiWuHere?feature=mhum


My Chinese Blog: http://blog.sina.com.cn/qiudaozhe


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I am a DIP agent. If you like what I do, you can work with me in the DIP.