Self Forgiveness on Stagnation

Note: the following self forgiveness is an expansion on those published on my Chinese blog on October 03, 2009.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to exist within and as stagnation because of self-doubt/self-uncertainty/self-distrust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define mself according to and as stagnation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt/distrust myself all the time, thus existing in uncertainty of what I am doint or what I will do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in and as ambivalence.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the experience of ambivalence.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the experience of ambivalence and thus finding it difficult to make decisions - instead of directing myself within standing as the self-directive-principle.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to escape from situations which I find difficult to make a decision.


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that escaping from a situation is not going to solve the problem - instead the problem is merely accumulating due to ineffective direction.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to direct the situation that I am facing.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel less than what I am facing - instead of standing one and equal with it within the realization that I created such a situation and that I require to correct myself within giving direction to the situation and walk through the consequences that I manifested.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self directive principle.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to preoccupy myself with things that I am able to handle while not giving myself 'time' to deal with those situations that I believe I cannot handle.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what I am facing in my world.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect what I am facing in my world to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf to fear my own fear.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I do not have power to direct my world and what I am facing.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my power through abdicating my responsibility for what I have created and manifested as myself within my world.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to beliefs within my mind to have power to control and direct me - instead of me directing myself.


I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the reason the beliefs within myself have power to direct me is because I have believed these beliefs to be real and within that giving power and life to them.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the beliefs within my mind to be real.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be mind-controlled by beliefs that I have believed to be real.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be held back by beliefs within my mind - istead of allowing myself to move beyond the limitations that I have created through the belief systems that I have believed to be real.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to prevent me from moving and expanding myself through fear--fear of fucking up, fear of doing the wrong thing, fear not being allowed to do this/that.


I forgive myself that  I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fucking up to fear - and thus I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf to connect doing the wrong thing to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being wrong.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being wrong to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the stupidity of being held back by fear - not allowing myself to go beyond the limitations that I have set up for myself due to fear.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live as stagnation instead of allowing myself to move/expand.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed stagnation to become my accepted nature.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe stagnation to be normal/ordinary because I have become the self-defined nature of stagnation.


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to move with the group together equal and one.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto fixations within my mind about myself - thus not allowing myself to move and expand.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea about being constant - perceiving believing that being constant means holding onto/maintaining a fixed idea about myself.


I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to suppress my self-expression instead of allowing my self-expression to flow.





I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to break through limitations/boundaries and express myself unconditionally.



I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to express myself unconditionally.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from selff-expression_r.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as stagnation and live out my definition as stagnation, not allowing myself to move myself within self-trust and self-honesty.


I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to trust myself within self-movement.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i can not figure out why my left pinky and the rim of my left palm are numb.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the manifestation of numbness within my left hand, instead of realizing that the manifested symptom is assisting and supporting me to realize what i am accepting and allowing within me which is not supporting who i really am as Life as all as one as equal.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to see and face the manifested symptom of numbness within my left hand, merely desiring that such manifestated symptoms go away without looking into how i have manifested it in the first place through my own participation in my mind consciousness system which is supporting my self-definition and not who i really am.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire that the diseases i experienced go away without questioning how i have manifeseted them in the first place, what they are showing to me and where i am not standing within oneness and equality.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as diseases and perceive them to be normal manifestations, not allowing myself to see what they are showing me for me to correct myself and align myself with oneness and equality as Life as all as one as equal.


I forgive myself that i have accetped and allowed myself to judge diseases, separating myself from diseases.


I forgive myself that i have not allowed me to trust me within self-trust and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately ignore the manifested disease and justify their manifestations to be normal/ordinary/random and that i am only in bad luck to get them.


I forgive myself to justify my self-dsihonesty as deliberate ignorance/blindness/forgetfulness.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i have free will/free choice to not see what i do not want to see, trapping myself into self-dishonesty that i do not want to see.


I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to embrace myself unconditionally.


I forigive myself that i have accepted anda llowed myself to exist in judgement/denial/resistance, separating myself from what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the self-honesties that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, not allowing myself to embrace myself unconditionally--embrace all and everything that i have accepted and allowed myself to become.


I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that separating myself from my self-dishonesty with judgement/denial/resistance is preventing me from seeing what i have accetped and allowed myself to be and become and thus preventing me from transforming myself, expanding myself and moving myself but keeping me within stagnation.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear what i have accepted and allowed myself to become instead of realizing that fear itself is a program that prevents me from moving/transforming myself within self-honesty and thus keeping me blind with the self-dishonesty.


I forigive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the right/free will/free choice to not look into the self-dishonesty that ihave accepted and allowed myself to be and become because i do not feel like facing them.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the justifications/excuses/reasons to justify why i do not stand up and make a definitive intervention of what i am accepting and allowing within me which does not serve who i really am as Life as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have deliberately deceived/manipulated myself to not see the actual truth of me as the nature/beingness of me as what i have accepted and allowed myself to become which is self-honesty and not a good picture.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to the truth of who i have accepted and allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to use Free Will/Free Choice as excuses/justifications/reasons to keep me in stagnation within selff-dishonesty.


Till Here No Further!!!


I stop myself as the programs that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.


I stop self-doubt and self-distrust. I stop inferiority. I stop superiority. I stop anxiety. I stop justifying patterns/habitual behaviors/patterns. I stop mind fucking myself. I stop Free Will/Free Choice. I stop justifications/reasons/excuses that prevent me from seeing the truth as my nature/beingness as what i have accepted and allowed myself to become. I stop stagnation.
Till here no further!


I move. I direct. I am the directive principle of me. I am here as the breath of LIFE in every moment.

I am all. I am one. I am equal. I am Life. I am words. I live words. I am the living word. I am sound. I am harmony. I am the sound harmonic expression. I am Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression. I am nature. I am earth. I am my human physical body. I am Here. I am breath. I live breath. I am self-movement. I am self-direction. I am self-trust. I am self-dedication. I am self-commitement. I am self-application. I live self-forgiveness.

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