Osho: Trust is Not Transferable
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qWwMwE_phOE
Note: The following self-forgiveness was published on my Chinese blog on October 11, 2009, which I am now moving here to this English blog.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to knowledge and information, instead of living that which i have realized one and equal as myself, manifesting myself as the realization.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to i have to remeber the realization in order to not forget it, instead of realizing that the reason i am able to forget is because i am existing in separation from that which i am trying to remember with my mind instead of actually living the realization.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to live one and equal the realization through physical application, manifesting myself as that which i have realized one and equal as myself, thus not being able to forget what i have realized and also no need for memoring the realization as merely knowledge and information.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to base my trust on my past moments according to specific applications that i feel effective, instead of trusting myself here in the moment -- a brand new moment, no attachment to the past moments.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to see with common sense that if i am here in the moment completely, i can not have any attachment to the past moments that i have experienced -- i am entirely here in this new moment honouring who i really am in this entirely brand-new moment.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that the past moment has already passed, and i am now in the brand new moment, why would i allow myself to still be attached that which has already passed while not honouring myself here in this new moment?
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that the power is here in this moment and when i participate in my mind and hold onto attachments towards the past moments, i am only missing the moment that is here, not completely being here honouring the moment making the fullest use of the moment here.
I forgive myself that ihave not allowed myself to see with common sense that when i am here why do i have the need to be attached to the past moments?
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my past realizations that is of common sense.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my past, fear my past, perceive/believe that i must separate myself from my past in order to be self-honest.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my past realizations are completely useless and that i must do exactly the opposite in order to become self-honest.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-trust that i have built and self-realizations from my past experiences.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to define self-trust according to the past moments instead of realizing self-trust can only exist in every moment -- every moment is a new moment, I am here in the moment then i apply what is here in the moment. I do not accept myself to be defined by my past.
I am not past-defined. I am here in the moment as the moment as breath. I am brand new in every moment. I trust myself as every moment. I am not past-defined. My application is in every moment as every moment as self-trust. No attachment to the past!
I am here! I am here! I am the moment! I am in every moment! I express myself as every brand new moment! I honour myself in every new moment! I trust myself as every new moment!
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Saturday, June 11, 2011
Friday, May 6, 2011
Stability in Removing Polarity
I was confused when I heard that I am required to release polarity, such as good/bad, right/wrong, positive/negative. How can I live without them? This question itself indicates that I have lived according to polarities, with which I used to define what is acceptable and what is not acceptable - the good/right/positive is acceptable and the bad/wrong/negative is unacceptable - particularly in the construct of morality as morality is based on polarity. The result of living according to polarity is seeking/desiring good/right/positive while repeling/rejecting/resisting/denying the bad/wrong/negative. I feared that if I were to release the polarity construct, I would have no reference as to what is acceptable what is unacceptable. I applied self-forgiveness to release the polarity construct with such a hidden fear. And the result is that I created/manifested such a fear where I had no reference of deciding what is acceptable and what not - thus I was very unstable and struggled a lot.
Also there was the perception/idea/belief that if something is not good, it must be bad and thus unacceptable and if something is not bad, it must be good and thus acceptable. This polarity flipping also manifested - I turned myself into the complete opposite of what I lived before. After applying self-forgiveness for the positive, they are no loger the positive. Now my mind tried to fathom what it is from the starting point of polarity. The mind only knows positive/good/right and negative/bad/wrong. If it is not positive, it must be negative. If it is negative, it is bad - thus it is unacceptable. After applying self-forgivenss for the negative, they are no longer the negative. By my mind - if it is not negative, it must be positive. If it is positive, it is good - thus it is acceptable. This way I turned what I lived before into the complete opposite - yet still existing in polarities. Later on I realized this situation. I again applied self-forgiveness and the polarity turned over again - but still in polarities. Then I applied self-forgiveness for both polarities at the same time. My mind then ended up in total confusion. What the fuck is it if it is neither positive nor negative? lol
Now I've realized that the problem is that I have relied on polarity to decide what to accept and allow and what not. Within applying self-forgiveness to release definitions of polarity, I 'lost' the principle to live by. I did not undersatnd that what is acceptable and what is unacceptable can be determined from a principle that is not of polarity - the Principle of Equality and Oneness as Life as All as One as Equal - that which supports LIFE as what is Best for All practically is acceptable, that which does not support LIFE or what is Best for All is unacceptable. What is Best for All is not of polarity. LIFE is not of polarity.
Another idea that I created within my mind is that discernment is of polarity. Obiviously there is a discernment between self-honesty and self-dishonesty. There is no half measure between self-honesty and self-dishonesty. The question is why can't we just regard self-dishonesty and self-honesty as a pair of polarity and define self-honesty as good and self-honesty as bad? Isn't it just another form of re-definition?
Polarity exists as consciousness and supports the mind. When existing in polarity, the negative/bad/wrong is judged/denied/resisted. If I define self-dishonesty as bad, I will judge/deny/resist self-dishonesty, which is separation. In this process I can not separate myself from the self-dishonesties that I have accepted and allowed - I can not judge/deny/resist self-dishonesty although self-dishonesty is unacceptable. Why? The existence of self-dishonesty is through my acceptance and allowance - self-dishonesty is what I have accepted and allowed myself to become and thus I am responsible for its existence. Within defining self-dishonesty as bad and judging/denying/resisting it, I am separating myself from what I have accepted and allowed myself to become, abdicating self-responsibility, and thus having no power to stop/change/transform myself of self-dishonesty. Only when I take self-responsibility and stand one and equal with the self-dishonesties that I have accetped and allowed myself to become, do I have to the power to transform/purify it within the understanding that it is unacceptable because it is not who I really am as Life.
Another perspective about the statement that self-honesty and self-dishonesty is not a polarity pair is that self-honesty is not dependent on self-dishonesty. Self can exist in pure self-honesty without self-dishonesty. The existence of self-honesty is not dependent on the existence of self-dishonesty.
Life has always been here. Life is not dependent on Consciousness. Life is absolute. While in polarity the polar opposites are interdependent on each other to exist. Life is what is real while consciouseness is illusionary. What is real is not dependent on what is illusionary. The illusion can be eliminated/purified entirely. Life does not need consciousness to contrast its existence. Life is.
The solution is to remove/release polarity constructs within the absolute standing of/as Life as all as one as equal and state clearly what is accepatable and what is not acceptable according to what supports Life as what is best for all and what not. Thus release mind consciousness system construct and stand up as Life at the same time. The removal of consciousness/self-dishonesty and the standing up as Life within self-honesty is the same process. The Principle of Equality and Oneness as Life as all as one as equal is the stability point when all that has ever been known of self-dishonesty/the mind consciousness system crumble in applying self-forgiveness and the unkown as Life steps forth and is born from the physical.
Self is not Life currently but in the process of birthing Life. Self purifies self's self-dishonesty within and as self-honesty until all self-dishonesty is purified and Life is born from the physical. Self-honesty: Honor Self as LIFE.
"To stand as the Principle of Equality and Oneness Here – and stand as the living-statement of what self will accept and allow and what not."
Then it is to live what is acceptable and what is not acceptable PRACITALLY AND SPECIFICALLY within one's everday life every moment as every breath where self has true power.
So what can I do in my everyday life to assist and support myself? The following are some points that I have identified within myself and my world:
Bring myself here as breath whenever I go up into my mind.
Be aware of what is here - what I see what I hear what I smell what I taste what I touch within awareness that all is me. -- Be one and equal with the entire moment.
Observe/study myself as a mind consciousness system as thoughts, emotions, feelings, reactive behaviors, personalities, habits etc,-- the whole package of my self-definition as a MCS.
Stop participating in my mind as thoughts, emotions and feelings.
Apply the tools of self-forgiveness, self-corrective action, breathing and writing.
Discipline myself to be specific and practical.
Read/study materials of destni to assist and support self-awareness, self-realization.
Push myself through limitations/boundaries.
Stop existing in seclusion.
Participate actively in my everyday life to apply practically self forgiveness and what I have realized.
Express myself within self-honesty and self-trust. Point out self-dishonesties that I see in other beings, assisting and supporting other beings one and equal with me as me.
Design/develop practical solutions in my everyday life to assist and support myself to be effective.
Stop buying all unnecessary stuffs.
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The above is a modified version of two blog posts that I publised on my Chinese blog on JULY-08-2009 and JULY-10-2009 which I am now moving here to this English blog.
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Desteni website: http://www.desteni.co.za/
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Also there was the perception/idea/belief that if something is not good, it must be bad and thus unacceptable and if something is not bad, it must be good and thus acceptable. This polarity flipping also manifested - I turned myself into the complete opposite of what I lived before. After applying self-forgiveness for the positive, they are no loger the positive. Now my mind tried to fathom what it is from the starting point of polarity. The mind only knows positive/good/right and negative/bad/wrong. If it is not positive, it must be negative. If it is negative, it is bad - thus it is unacceptable. After applying self-forgivenss for the negative, they are no longer the negative. By my mind - if it is not negative, it must be positive. If it is positive, it is good - thus it is acceptable. This way I turned what I lived before into the complete opposite - yet still existing in polarities. Later on I realized this situation. I again applied self-forgiveness and the polarity turned over again - but still in polarities. Then I applied self-forgiveness for both polarities at the same time. My mind then ended up in total confusion. What the fuck is it if it is neither positive nor negative? lol
Now I've realized that the problem is that I have relied on polarity to decide what to accept and allow and what not. Within applying self-forgiveness to release definitions of polarity, I 'lost' the principle to live by. I did not undersatnd that what is acceptable and what is unacceptable can be determined from a principle that is not of polarity - the Principle of Equality and Oneness as Life as All as One as Equal - that which supports LIFE as what is Best for All practically is acceptable, that which does not support LIFE or what is Best for All is unacceptable. What is Best for All is not of polarity. LIFE is not of polarity.
Another idea that I created within my mind is that discernment is of polarity. Obiviously there is a discernment between self-honesty and self-dishonesty. There is no half measure between self-honesty and self-dishonesty. The question is why can't we just regard self-dishonesty and self-honesty as a pair of polarity and define self-honesty as good and self-honesty as bad? Isn't it just another form of re-definition?
Polarity exists as consciousness and supports the mind. When existing in polarity, the negative/bad/wrong is judged/denied/resisted. If I define self-dishonesty as bad, I will judge/deny/resist self-dishonesty, which is separation. In this process I can not separate myself from the self-dishonesties that I have accepted and allowed - I can not judge/deny/resist self-dishonesty although self-dishonesty is unacceptable. Why? The existence of self-dishonesty is through my acceptance and allowance - self-dishonesty is what I have accepted and allowed myself to become and thus I am responsible for its existence. Within defining self-dishonesty as bad and judging/denying/resisting it, I am separating myself from what I have accepted and allowed myself to become, abdicating self-responsibility, and thus having no power to stop/change/transform myself of self-dishonesty. Only when I take self-responsibility and stand one and equal with the self-dishonesties that I have accetped and allowed myself to become, do I have to the power to transform/purify it within the understanding that it is unacceptable because it is not who I really am as Life.
Another perspective about the statement that self-honesty and self-dishonesty is not a polarity pair is that self-honesty is not dependent on self-dishonesty. Self can exist in pure self-honesty without self-dishonesty. The existence of self-honesty is not dependent on the existence of self-dishonesty.
Life has always been here. Life is not dependent on Consciousness. Life is absolute. While in polarity the polar opposites are interdependent on each other to exist. Life is what is real while consciouseness is illusionary. What is real is not dependent on what is illusionary. The illusion can be eliminated/purified entirely. Life does not need consciousness to contrast its existence. Life is.
The solution is to remove/release polarity constructs within the absolute standing of/as Life as all as one as equal and state clearly what is accepatable and what is not acceptable according to what supports Life as what is best for all and what not. Thus release mind consciousness system construct and stand up as Life at the same time. The removal of consciousness/self-dishonesty and the standing up as Life within self-honesty is the same process. The Principle of Equality and Oneness as Life as all as one as equal is the stability point when all that has ever been known of self-dishonesty/the mind consciousness system crumble in applying self-forgiveness and the unkown as Life steps forth and is born from the physical.
Self is not Life currently but in the process of birthing Life. Self purifies self's self-dishonesty within and as self-honesty until all self-dishonesty is purified and Life is born from the physical. Self-honesty: Honor Self as LIFE.
"To stand as the Principle of Equality and Oneness Here – and stand as the living-statement of what self will accept and allow and what not."
Then it is to live what is acceptable and what is not acceptable PRACITALLY AND SPECIFICALLY within one's everday life every moment as every breath where self has true power.
So what can I do in my everyday life to assist and support myself? The following are some points that I have identified within myself and my world:
Bring myself here as breath whenever I go up into my mind.
Be aware of what is here - what I see what I hear what I smell what I taste what I touch within awareness that all is me. -- Be one and equal with the entire moment.
Observe/study myself as a mind consciousness system as thoughts, emotions, feelings, reactive behaviors, personalities, habits etc,-- the whole package of my self-definition as a MCS.
Stop participating in my mind as thoughts, emotions and feelings.
Apply the tools of self-forgiveness, self-corrective action, breathing and writing.
Discipline myself to be specific and practical.
Read/study materials of destni to assist and support self-awareness, self-realization.
Push myself through limitations/boundaries.
Stop existing in seclusion.
Participate actively in my everyday life to apply practically self forgiveness and what I have realized.
Express myself within self-honesty and self-trust. Point out self-dishonesties that I see in other beings, assisting and supporting other beings one and equal with me as me.
Design/develop practical solutions in my everyday life to assist and support myself to be effective.
Stop buying all unnecessary stuffs.
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The above is a modified version of two blog posts that I publised on my Chinese blog on JULY-08-2009 and JULY-10-2009 which I am now moving here to this English blog.
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Check out the following websites:
Desteni I Process: http://desteniiprocess.com/
Desteni website: http://www.desteni.co.za/
Equal Money System: http://www.equalmoney.org/
My Youtube Channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/WeiWuHere?feature=mhum
My Chinese Blog: http://blog.sina.com.cn/qiudaozhe
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Sunday, April 24, 2011
Starting point of creation and Process
I am currently in the process of reorganizing my blogs. I have one Chinese blog(http://blog.sina.com.cn/qiudaozhe) and one English blog which is this one. There are some articles that I wrote in English previously and placed in my Chinese blog which I am now moving to this English blog (with possible corrections/modifications). The following is one of those articles (with date indicated).
The starting point is very important.
We create/manifest/experience from our starting point. Creation/manifestation/experience is equal and one with the starting point.
The starting point of creation has changed. The previous starting point of creation is of separation. Thus we manifested creation as consciousness manifested as mind consciousness systematic reality within which we experience ourselves as mind consciousness systems--all outflows of our starting point of separation.
Now the starting point of creation has changed to equality and oneness as all as one as equal. The constructs that has ever supported separation has been removed--thus separation is no longer supported--but the new starting point of oneness and equality as all as one as equal is supported!
The Process is about our starting point - transforming our starting point from separation to oneness and equality as life as all as one as equal as the living word as who we really are every here moment as breath within and as self-honesty/self-trust as self walk the princle of equality and oneness manifesting heaven on/as earth.
So I have to be very careful about my starting point - because I manfiest/experience my starting point - I must make sure my starting point is not of separation but of life as all as one as equal as the living word as who I really am.
Within applying self-forgiveness, realise that self-forgiveness is self as self, not applying self-forgiveness from the starting point of separation. Some points of separation in applying self-forgivenss are wanting/desiring to change/lessen a consequence; comparing/competeing with others in the Process etc.
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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare/compete with other desteni forum members and within this comaprison/competition I perceived myself to be less than/inferior to other forum memebers and want/desire to be one and equal with them, not realising the starting point of such a want/desire is separation.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that comparison/competition is of separation.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that the inferiority that I have experienced is unnecessary and needs to be released.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that by wanting/desiring to be one and equal with others as me, I am actually existing in/as separation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others through participation in comparison/competition.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form an idea of oneness and equality which is based on separation and attempted to become my idea of oneness and equality with other beings as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that only after I have done something/achieved something/been somebody else can I be one and equal with other beings as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I have achieved oneness and equality with other beings as me after I have done specific applications instead of realising I only succeeded in deceiving myself into my idea of oneness and equality which is not the absolute self-realisation of oneness and equaltiy.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I am already one and equal with other beings as me and that I only simply need to realise it for/as myself.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I do not need to do specific applications in order to become/achieve oneness and equality -I only need to realise oneness and equality.
I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to manipulate/interprete my experience to appear to be more than who I really am/what I really experienced.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that others have done something stupid or are not able to do something that I am able to, within this imagination/illusionary scenario, I gained a feeling of being more than/superior while regarding others as less than, and in order to hold onto this feeling of being more than/superior I experienced in my mind illusionary reality I persuaded myself that what I imagined in my mind to be real to justify my experience.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the inferiority that I have actually experienced by fearing to face/avoiding the inferiority within me, instead I attempted/tried to cover the inferiority with illusionary superiority that I created in my mind illusionary reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the illusionary superiority that I have experienced in my mind illusionary reality, fearing to face the actual experience of me as inferiority which I have accepted and allowed within me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to my mind/the illusionary mind reality to escape from what i actually experience.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the illusion of superiority/strength/intelligence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to face what is real/fear to face the true nature that I have accepted and allowed within me.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to be brave enough to face the true nature of me that I have accepted and allowed within me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe myself to be less than what I actually experienced, fearing to face what is real, hiding in illusion, separating myself from what is real here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the true nature that I have accepted and allowed within me, perceiving/believing myself to be incapable/powerless to face the true nature of me, instead I chose to escape from what is real here and live in a mind illusionary reality where I can experience myself to be superior/worthy/valuable/powerful as I wish.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dependent on the mind to create a mind illusionary reality for me to experience myself as superior/worthy/valuable/powerful.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my mind and the mind illusionary reality, hold onto my mind, and fear losing my mind and my mind illusionary reality where I experience myself to be superior/worthy/valuable/powerful.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I experience in my mind is real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so stuck in my mind that I can not discriminate between what is real and what is not real/what I actually experienced and what I did not actually experience but manipulated/interpreted my experience in my mind and believed it to be real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate/tamper with my experience in my mind and believe the experience after manipulation to be real.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to be absoultely self-honest about my experience without interpretation and manipulation through my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dependent on my mind to experience myself which is of separation.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I have been so stuck in my mind illusionary reality that I am not aware when I manipulate/interprete my experience.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I have been so sophisticated in manipulating/interpretation my experience that without absolute self-honesty I do not recoginse/see/realise the manipulation/interpretation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify why I should continue existing in/as defining myself as my mind/mind illusionary reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my mind, fear losing my mind illusionary reality where I experience/perceive/define myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in deliberate self-dishonesty, using justifications/excuses to continue existing in/as my mind.
Till here no further.
I stop existing in/as my mind depending on my mind to perceive/experience myself in an illusionary reality.
I stop defining mysself as my mind.
I stand one and equal as life as all as one as equal.
I assist and support myself to be effective in applying myself within/as the principle of equality and oneness as life within/as self-honesty/self-trust/self-expression.
I direct. I will. I move. I act. I apply. I express. I live.
I live/walk the principle of equality and oneness as life.
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Starting point of creation and Process
(2009-06-14 06:56:47)The starting point is very important.
We create/manifest/experience from our starting point. Creation/manifestation/experience is equal and one with the starting point.
The starting point of creation has changed. The previous starting point of creation is of separation. Thus we manifested creation as consciousness manifested as mind consciousness systematic reality within which we experience ourselves as mind consciousness systems--all outflows of our starting point of separation.
Now the starting point of creation has changed to equality and oneness as all as one as equal. The constructs that has ever supported separation has been removed--thus separation is no longer supported--but the new starting point of oneness and equality as all as one as equal is supported!
The Process is about our starting point - transforming our starting point from separation to oneness and equality as life as all as one as equal as the living word as who we really are every here moment as breath within and as self-honesty/self-trust as self walk the princle of equality and oneness manifesting heaven on/as earth.
So I have to be very careful about my starting point - because I manfiest/experience my starting point - I must make sure my starting point is not of separation but of life as all as one as equal as the living word as who I really am.
Within applying self-forgiveness, realise that self-forgiveness is self as self, not applying self-forgiveness from the starting point of separation. Some points of separation in applying self-forgivenss are wanting/desiring to change/lessen a consequence; comparing/competeing with others in the Process etc.
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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare/compete with other desteni forum members and within this comaprison/competition I perceived myself to be less than/inferior to other forum memebers and want/desire to be one and equal with them, not realising the starting point of such a want/desire is separation.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that comparison/competition is of separation.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that the inferiority that I have experienced is unnecessary and needs to be released.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that by wanting/desiring to be one and equal with others as me, I am actually existing in/as separation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from others through participation in comparison/competition.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form an idea of oneness and equality which is based on separation and attempted to become my idea of oneness and equality with other beings as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that only after I have done something/achieved something/been somebody else can I be one and equal with other beings as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I have achieved oneness and equality with other beings as me after I have done specific applications instead of realising I only succeeded in deceiving myself into my idea of oneness and equality which is not the absolute self-realisation of oneness and equaltiy.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I am already one and equal with other beings as me and that I only simply need to realise it for/as myself.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I do not need to do specific applications in order to become/achieve oneness and equality -I only need to realise oneness and equality.
I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to manipulate/interprete my experience to appear to be more than who I really am/what I really experienced.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that others have done something stupid or are not able to do something that I am able to, within this imagination/illusionary scenario, I gained a feeling of being more than/superior while regarding others as less than, and in order to hold onto this feeling of being more than/superior I experienced in my mind illusionary reality I persuaded myself that what I imagined in my mind to be real to justify my experience.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the inferiority that I have actually experienced by fearing to face/avoiding the inferiority within me, instead I attempted/tried to cover the inferiority with illusionary superiority that I created in my mind illusionary reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the illusionary superiority that I have experienced in my mind illusionary reality, fearing to face the actual experience of me as inferiority which I have accepted and allowed within me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to my mind/the illusionary mind reality to escape from what i actually experience.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be addicted to the illusion of superiority/strength/intelligence.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to face what is real/fear to face the true nature that I have accepted and allowed within me.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to be brave enough to face the true nature of me that I have accepted and allowed within me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe myself to be less than what I actually experienced, fearing to face what is real, hiding in illusion, separating myself from what is real here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the true nature that I have accepted and allowed within me, perceiving/believing myself to be incapable/powerless to face the true nature of me, instead I chose to escape from what is real here and live in a mind illusionary reality where I can experience myself to be superior/worthy/valuable/powerful as I wish.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dependent on the mind to create a mind illusionary reality for me to experience myself as superior/worthy/valuable/powerful.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my mind and the mind illusionary reality, hold onto my mind, and fear losing my mind and my mind illusionary reality where I experience myself to be superior/worthy/valuable/powerful.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I experience in my mind is real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so stuck in my mind that I can not discriminate between what is real and what is not real/what I actually experienced and what I did not actually experience but manipulated/interpreted my experience in my mind and believed it to be real.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate/tamper with my experience in my mind and believe the experience after manipulation to be real.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to be absoultely self-honest about my experience without interpretation and manipulation through my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dependent on my mind to experience myself which is of separation.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I have been so stuck in my mind illusionary reality that I am not aware when I manipulate/interprete my experience.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realise that I have been so sophisticated in manipulating/interpretation my experience that without absolute self-honesty I do not recoginse/see/realise the manipulation/interpretation.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify why I should continue existing in/as defining myself as my mind/mind illusionary reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my mind, fear losing my mind illusionary reality where I experience/perceive/define myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in deliberate self-dishonesty, using justifications/excuses to continue existing in/as my mind.
Till here no further.
I stop existing in/as my mind depending on my mind to perceive/experience myself in an illusionary reality.
I stop defining mysself as my mind.
I stand one and equal as life as all as one as equal.
I assist and support myself to be effective in applying myself within/as the principle of equality and oneness as life within/as self-honesty/self-trust/self-expression.
I direct. I will. I move. I act. I apply. I express. I live.
I live/walk the principle of equality and oneness as life.
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