sex/masturbation

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use pictures/images within my mind to masturbate to fulfill my desire.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use other beings' pictures/images to masturbate without permission instead of realizing that i was actually raping the being.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to resist, deny, judge, justify my behavior of using other beings' images/pitures to masturbate and want to make it less than what it is to just make myself feel better.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create fantacies within my mind while i masturbate, instead of realizing that i am only fucking myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to support porn industry through watching porn photos, going through porn websites instead of realizing that i was supporting abuse of sexual expression.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to fear and deny the consequences that i have created in my participations in porn, and abdiate self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to take responsibility for the consequences that i have created through my support in pornography.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to say in my mind "I am not responsible for that. I only watched porn on the internet. What consequences can that have?"

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take pornography for granted, perceiving/believing that it is the way it is and it's OK.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that there is no consequence of pornography because everybody else is doing the same.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify my support of pornography, only holding onto my own self-interest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that since everybody else is watching pornography, then it is OK for me to do the same.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to follow society, fit into society, instead of trusting myself as who i really am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify my self-interest using the excuse that everybody else is doing the same.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to give up my self-interest. I stop! I give up my self-interest completely entirely!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the justification that "The law can not punish the mass." as an excuse for my self-interest of fulfilling my desire.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel secure among the mass because I perceived/believed if there are really consequences, all of us will pay, which i perceived to be OK.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that if many people commit a crime collectively, the law can not punish the mass and i will be able to get away from the consequences.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hide in the mass, seek my self-interest, and do the most spiteful thing.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful while hiding in the mass, perceiving that nobody will discover me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the spitefulness that i epxressed within the mass is the true nature that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become..

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desrie to fuck the world, create disorders while i was hiding in the mass.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that as long as i hide in the mass, i will be secure and safe; and no matter what i do, i will be able to get away.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want others/the whole to pay for my own self-interest and spitefulness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that there will be no consequences in my behaviors and actions.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i can esape the consequences that i have created for myself, instead of realizing that each will face all and everything of self that self has accepted and allowed self to be and become -- it is impossible to escape self.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself with the desire for sex and masturbation within my mind and be obsessed/possessed with the fulfillment of desire.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use alll kinds of justifications/excuses and do what ever it takes to fulfill my desire for sex and masturbation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from other beings in this world by giving permission to desrie for sex and masturbation to obsess me and possess me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from beings in the world and separate myself from who i really am as LIFE as all as one as equal within me identifying myself with the desire for sex and masturbation and search for fulfillment of this desire, disregarding completely entirely all and everything else in this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to seek the fulfillment of my own desire and self-interest within the pains and sufferings of other beings.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that for me to fulfillment my desire of sex and masturbation using pictures/images within my mind, I have supported the porn industry and has enslaved many beings involved.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to disregard the beings' experiences in porn videos, porn photos and pornography.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to resist/deny to see that i have accepted and allowed myself to become who which seeks self-interest within other beings' sufferings and pains. I stop denial, resistance, and judgement. I stand one and equal with this point as this point. I embrace this point completely entirely and stop this point as myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to see that i have become such a person.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have become cruel, brutal, and cold-blooded within the pursuit of my own enlightened self-interest within the pains and sufferings of others. I stop judging, denying and resisting this point. I embrace this point completely entirely and stop this point.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not give a fuck of what others are actually experiencing -- pains and sufferings -- but only being concerned with my own enlightened self-interest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to say in my mind:"I am not responsible for their pains and sufferings. They deserve that." Fuck! I stop!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being cruel, brutal and cold-blooded and perceive/believe that this is who i am and that i can not change this. Fuck! Till here no further.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to see what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the ugly, darkness within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress the ugly, darkness within me instead present myself to be good to hide the truth within me that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire females to suck my dick.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the desire that a female suck my dick.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create all kinds of fantaties about females sucking my dick just to fulfill my desire.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with such a desire to such an extent that i even desired teenagers, little girls or even babies to suck my dick.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself to the females including teenagers, little girls and babies in the porn, not taking into consideration what their experiences, disregarding them completely entirely within the pursuit of my own enlightened self-interest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine in my mind that it must feel like in a paradise when my dick is sucked by a female and imprint energetic euphoria to these pictures and images within my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the fantasies that i created within the illusory reality within my mind to mastrubate, charging the systems within me, fucking and abusing myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to say in my mind "It is stupid to stand one and equal with those bitches." Fuck! Unacceptable!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form a perception/idea/belief that females are bitches who like sucking dicks from the 'teaching' of pornography.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame pornography for why i have become what i have become instead of realizing that it is through my acceptance and allowance that i have become who i am, thus i am 100 percent responsible for who i am and i take full self-responsibility to stop myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from females, judging females, being spiteful towards females, abusing females verbally within my mind -- all separations that i have created supporting my male ego.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself with the male ego, separating the female flowing expression with the male structural expression.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the right to judge females as 'fucking bitches'. Unacceptable! I stop separating myself from female expressions. I stop judging females.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to say in my mind "i do not accept female expression. I do not need femal expression." -- the male ego taking over. I stop!

I embrace the female expression as me one and equal.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to desire that the teenager girl suck my dick when i watch the porn photos without taking into consideration the girls' actual physical experience.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to be in the position of the girl while only wanting to fulfill my desire -- separation to the extreme. Unacceptable.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to seek my own enlightened self-interest within other beings' pains and sufferings.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to copy/download abuses to females through pictures/images/videos that i saw on porn website.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the pictures/images/videos and give permission to the abusive nature to imprint onto me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse females in my mind through the imprinting of abusive nature of the pictures/images/videos on porn websites.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself with the pictures/images/videos on porn websites and believed me to be the abusive nature in these mateirals. I stop! Till here no further!

I forgive myself to judge myself for having all these pictures/images within my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to face what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and want to defend my self-definition through justifications, excuses, reasons, denials etc instead of realizing that only my mind wants to protect itself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself with the monster that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and perceive that it is just who i am and that's it instead of realizing that the monster within me is not who i really am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be ashamed of myself to admit that i desired babies to suck my dick.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to protect my self-definition and self-interest. Unacceptable!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed msyelf to judge myself for having desired babies to suck my dick.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to manipulate myself to not go deep into the core of my accepted nature. Unacceptable!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to ignore deliberately the ugly, the darkness that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that the baby's mouth is so small that it must feel very tight when my dick is sucked. I stop! This is unacceptable! Till here no further!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that babies are stupid, they know nothing, they can not speak, so i can do whatever i want to do onto them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in my mind in the thought of killing/murdering babies. Unacceptable! Till here no further!

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize how cruel, brutal, cold-blooded i have become within the pursuit of self-interest within other beings' sufferings and pains and to what extent i have allowed myself to be consumed by the monster within me and how little there has left of me as Life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as being cruel, brutal, cold-blooded. I stand one and equal with all these definitions and stop them as me. I no longer accept these definitions within me. I stop! Till here no further! This is not who i really am!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to apply self-forgiveness from the starting point of wanting to make me feel better instead of unconditionally forgive myself.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that what i do onto others is what i do onto myself.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to really see what i have done to myself within the pursuit of enlightened self-interest within the pains and sufferings of other beings as me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have enslaved other beings as me, abused other beings as me, disregarded other beings as me -- within all these i have dishonoured who i really am as Life as all as one as equal and has reduced myself to a system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the mind consciousness system as being stupid, instead of realizing that this is separation. I stop separation from the mind consciousness system that i have accepted and allowed myself to define as who i am. I stand one and equal with the mind consciousness system and stop it as self.

I stop! Till here no further!

I do not allow myself to masturbate using pictures/images in my mind.

I do not allow myself to seek my enlightened self-interest within the pains and sufferrings of others.

I do not allow my mind consciousness system to direct me, control me and manipulate me.

I am here. I am breath of Life as Life as all as one as equal. I direct. I move. I act. I live. I apply. I express.