SF on inner voice possession

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be possessed by the thought 'there is nothing you can do about it' and believe it to be real because it is said by Bernard in a video.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take Bernard's words as like reading a bible and that those words must apply to anything in this world without any context.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have defined Bernard as my God, separating myself from myself Here as Breath in the physical.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to trust Bernard but does not trust myself because i have defined myself to be so inferior and that Bernard is so superior and that i am not able to trust myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may get lost in my mind as the words/voices running constantly and continuously.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have believed the voices in my mind to be real and believe them to be me and allow them to direct me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for such perceptions/ideas/beliefs about Bernard to direct me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is impossible for me to stand equal with Bernard and that i must accept myself as being the inferior and that i believed that is also what Bernard wanted.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist as the self-definition as inferiority and justify my own acceptance and allowance and project it onto Bernard, and believe it to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have defined myself as the energetic-systematic entity that i have created within my mind about Bernard and have allowed myself to be directed by it because i have believed it to be real and have allowed it to possess me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for the existence of an entity existing within my mind which i have created through participating in it and believing it real.

I forgive myself that i have believed the entity to be my God -- the mind consciousness system becoming my God, existing in fear of the God entity within my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Bernard requires me to feel inferior to him and i accpeted such as real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have lived out my self-definition as infeiority and believed it to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i do not deserve to be equal to other beings in this world because i am aparently so inferior and unworthy.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in fear of God which i have projected onto Bernard and the entity thus created in my mind as the representation of my fear as the God, which is actually the fear of myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that although Bernard says that all are equal as one yet 'somehow' i am still not allowed to be equal to him as myself, which is but a perception/idea/belief/construct that i have believed to be real and have lived accordingly.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to turn Bernard's words into a religion where i believe that it must hold anywhere to anything in this world for example 'there is nothing you can do about it' must hold absolutely true and thus live it as if it is real.

I forgive myself that i have accetped and allowed myself to give permission for religion to influence me and have believed myself to become religious.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have turned Desteni into a religion based on my own acceptance and allowance.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have formed a perception/idea/belief about Desteni and Bernard, and believe it to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have defined myself as this that which i have believed to be real as the perceptions/ideas/beliefs that i have formed about Desteni and Bernard - turning them into a religion and me being the follower.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with Desteni and Bernard and blame Desteni and Bernard, existing in spitefulness and resentment - instead of taking self-responsibility for what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the belief constructs that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and hold onto this self-definition, existing in self-interest and not considering what is best for all.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have abdicated the principle of what is best for all -- which is abdicating myself as who i really am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use Bernard's words to support my own self-definition and self-limitation, to believe that 'there is nothing you can do about it'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have lived the mind-interpretation based on assumptions, perceptions, ideas, beliefs into the physical level, where it has become physically manifested.

I forgive myself that i have accetepd and allowed myself to exist as self-defeat and justify the self-defeat through believing that 'there is nothing you can do about it'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to defined myself as the little voice in my head, and have believed them to be real as me, allowing myself to be trapped and directed, enslaved and controled.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that there is nothing i can do to stop the voices in my mind -- instead of realizing that i am giving permission for mind possession to go further and deeper.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have given permission for the mind possession to take me over completely and believe that 'there is nothing you can do about it'.

Istop! I do not accept myself to be directed by thoughts/voices in my head! I do not trust thougths in my head! I do not allow myself to give my power away to the thoughts/voices in my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have given permission for the mind possession to develop into the second phase right now with regards to this thought where the thougt appears as the voice 'there is nothing you can do about it' to constantly and continuously to run in my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to trust vocies in my mind instead of realizing that they are not real but i have made myself to believe that they are real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from self-trust - trusting my mind instead of trusting myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to follow the mind chattering within my mind, believing them to be me instead of realizing that they are not real and that if i believe them to be real i will be trapped and lost in my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for 'there is nothing you can do about it' to infiltrate all over the place - to insert it into anywhere where i perceive it to be able to fit in.

I forgive mself that i havea ccepted and allowed myself to feel sleepy and lethargic and want to divert my attention from the point that i am working with.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in pictures/images/movies witin the cinema of my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to close my eyes and participate in fantasies so that i do not have to work with the point that i am working with.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have believed that there is nothing i can do about it because Bernard has ever said it then I believed that it automatically becomes true.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to go into my mind dimension to hide and divert myself from working through this point to deconstruct the mind definition that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and define as and believed to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for my mind to direct me instead of me directing myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to veer into my mind again. I stop. I direct.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate the self-directive principle as myself Here through believing that there is nothing i can do about it - thus allowing self-abuse, self-defeat and self-sabotage.


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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for the word 'irrelevant' to direct me - labling things as relevant or irrelevant without actually understanding what i am acutally saying but it has become merely a reative behavior.

I forgive myself that ihave accepted and allowed myself to give permission for such constant and continuous thought/voice manifestation to continue to exist within me instead of realizing that i am allowing my mind to possess me through my participation and permission.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have believed myself to be the voices in my mind, giving my power away to them instead of realizing that i am giving permission for enslavement and control of my mind through my own acceptance.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have believed that i can not stop the voices in my mind and have believed this to be real and have lived it out as myself as thus having become this definition which i have believed to be who i am - but it is not in fact.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have been lost in my mind in the voices in my mind and have given permission for my mind to take me over completely to manfiest consequences in my reality.

I forgive myself that ihave accepted and allowed myself to not be able to distinguish between me and my mind as the thoughts/voices/emotions/feelings as the programs that run within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have identified myself as my mind as thoughts/emotions/feelings.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to interprete 'standing equal and one with my mind' as 'believing myself to be my mind'.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have lived my self-definition as assumptions.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form assumptions about something before i actually do my homework and research and investigate what it really is.

SF on the God entity i created in my mind

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form assumptions, perceptions, ideas, beliefs about Desteni and have allowed myself to be directed by them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form assumptions, perceptions, ideas, beliefs about Bernard and have allowed myself to be directed by them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create an entity within my mind about Bernard based on assumptions, perceptions, ideas, beliefs, constructs, images, pictures, imaginations, fantacies, and have given my power away to an entity in my mind through talking to it and reacting to it through my participation, which i have believed to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the mind chatterings with the entities that i have created within my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger to the entity which i have believed to be Bernard.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to face this point and say in my mind i do not want to know why i got angry and want to divert my attention from this point instead of assisting and supporting myself to see this point which i have given permission to direct me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to get extremely angry to the entity in my mind which i have believed to be Bernard in that moment, and wanted to spite it and revenge it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participte in my mind the picture of spiting the children with the intention to blackmail the entity in my mind that i have created, instead of realizing that i am only spiting myself and that i have become the spitefulness that i have accepted.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have created a God entity in my mind which i placed a name of Bernard and believed it to be Bernard and talked to it, believing that i am talking to Bernard.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in reaction as anger towards the entity in my mind, and wanted to spite it - feeding in this way my accepted self-definition as energy addiction as the emotional reaction as anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to get addicted to the emotional reaction as anger and want to find ways to justify it through attaching more and more reactions to it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define anger as being powerful, believeing that i have become powerful within getting angry instead of realizing that i have given my power away to a program and thus having abused myself through such acceptance.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to belive that i am strong within the experience of anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become aggresive within anger and have placed value and worth in agression which i have attached an idea of power.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel myself to be weak and desire to be strong - within this desire i have placed the definition of 'strong' onto my experience of anger where i become aggressive.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to spite the children to spite the entity in my mind and a form of 'questioning' God yet not understanding that it is all a form of mind delusion -- the reaction towards the entity is not valid in the first place, let alone the spitefulness towards the children -- all a mind drama yet the acceptance revealed my accepted nature.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in this mind delusion of anger, agression, spitefulness, and abuse.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to divert my attention from here and face this point instead of realizing that it is from my mind wanting to hide and protect its own definition.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for my mind to divert my attention from this point that i am dealing with.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sleepy and lethargic and give permission for such experiences to direct me. I stop. I direct myself. I am not allowing lethargy and sleepiness to direct me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself through creating entities that are apperently alive - but only alive in my mind which i have given permission to enslave me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for energy addiction to direct me. Stop. I do not accept it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place my reaction towards Desteni over Life as what is best for all - existing in self-interest and justifying my self-definition.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to believe that i have the right to get angry - finding excuses why i participate in the energy addiction as the emotional reactions as anger that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to spite the children which is spitefulness towards myself - allowing myself to be possessed by anger and giving permission for abuses and atrocities to exist within me which also contributes to the abuses and atrocities in this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist as abuses and atrocities to perpetuate my self-definition which is protection of my self-interest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice other people to feed my self-interest - in this case sacrificing the children to apparently blackmail the God entity in my mind -- this is my accepted nature.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the drama in my mind and belived them to be real. How delusional can i be?

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify that i have a right to be spiteful because i was angry and that i can not control it -- instead of realizing that it is invalid to blame my anger for what i have done in the name of it - I am responsible for what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, I became anger as me the moment i give permission for it to possess me and direct me and thus i am responsible for the spitefulness that i have accepted and allowed within anger possession.

I forgive myself that i have acccepted and allowed myself to define myself as anger, participating in it, allowing it to possess me and direct me, instead of standing as the self-directive priniciple here directing myself within self-honesty.

Self-forgiveness on emotional reaction towards missing an appointment again

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad that i missed the appointment with Leila again.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as being stupid and feel guilty that i have missed the appointment instead of realizing that self-judgement and the emotion of guilt is not going to make a difference but trap myself further into this loop where i have to face myself again to stop the self-judgement and the emotional reaction.


I stop self-judgement. I stop the emotional reaction. I am here as breath.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to receive Leila's emails about me missing the appointment because i fear that i may be blamed.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to look at Leila's emails because i have attached an negative emotional energetic charge to the email which represents blame for me.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react emotionally towards people who has ever blamed me for something that i have done 'wrong'.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the polarity of right/wrong and good/bad, giving permission for polarity to direct me and enslave me.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to develop a pattern of protective/defensive reaction towards people who i perceive to be going to blame me.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame the person who i perceive to be going to blame me as the cause for why i feel bad about myself and react to that person emotionally, instead of realizing that the emotional reaction exists within me as the power source of me as a MCS as i participate within it, thus i am responsible for allowing myself to go into reactions.


I forgive myself that ihave accepted and allowed myself to participate in my mind in the picture of attacking the person who i believed is going to blame me and cause me to feel bad and at the same time imprint the emotional energy onto that picture through my participation in reaction, forming a particular thought/emotion construct within in my mind which i have defined as and belived to be who i am.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have formed this habitual pattern of reacting to the person who i believe to have caused me to feel bad about myself through participation in reaction when i encounter the same situation.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have defined/identified myself as this thought/emotion construct as pictures together with emotional energetic imprint, thus participating in it everytime in the same situation, instead of realizing that it is a system construct and that it is not who i really am -- if i allow myself to participate in such constructs i am allowing self-abuse.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape the negative feeling through defense/protection mechanism as emotional reactions towards that which i believed to be the source of my negative feeling out there separate from me, instead of realizing that defense/protection mechanism is not solving the problem at all, but just another MCS pattern/construct which further enslaves me into the mind trap when i participate in it and define myself as it.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself through participation in my mind in such a particular thought/emotion construct to charge my MCS to continue to enslave myself into a systematic construct further.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to check my email account because i fear to experience that 'bad' feeling within me instead of realizing that the feelings and emotions as energetic charges experinced within me is a MCS design - it is not who i really am.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for apparent 'negative'energetic feeling within me to direct and move me, going into resistance towards that which i perceive as 'negative', instead of realizing that i am allowing myself to be enslaved by my mind through my acceptance of being directed by energetic charge.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have identifed myself with the emotional/feeling energetic movements within me, allowing myself to be directed by such energetic movements, instead of realizing that they are not real, and simply stop, breathe and direct myself.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give into the experience of being directed by energetic charges within me, instead of realizing that i am allowing myself to abdicate self-directive principle and allowing myself to give my power away to the MCS which i have accepted and allowed myself to become and define myself as.


I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to direct myself - to stand as the self directive principle, not allowing thoughts/emotions/feelings/energetic movements to direct and move me.



I direct myself. I move myself.

Knowledge, Comparison and competition, rushing ahead

knowledge without application is contradiction
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPQ1_U2BD1k

Knowledge as words not lived:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as knowledge as words that are not lived but merely exist in my mind as something that i know but which i do not live or which i believe i have lived.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the words i speak which i did not live and have turned words into knowledge in my mind existing in conflict as separation.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that the reason that knowledge existed in my mind as contradictions are because i have separated myself from my words and that what i live is in contradiction with the words i speak.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that so many contradictions that i see within desteni materials is actually a reflection of what i am actually living as myself - as knowledge in my mind as words that i did not live, existing in conflict.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to see that the problem of contradictions and inconsistencies that i perceived a lot from Desteni materials is actually existing within me - the origin is within me, the source is within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry because i perceived that i had been wronged being regarded as 'finding fault', participating in emotional reactions as anger to feed my self-definition as a MCS through energetic charge.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate within my mind in the picture/image of abusing/attacking the person who i have believed that has wronged me and imprint the energetic charge as anger into this picture, forming a construct within my mind which i define as who i am and get addicted to, to feed it more and more through justification that i have the rigth to get angry.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame Desteni for my experience, believing that i am not responsible for my experience instead of realizing that i am responsible for what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become which manifested as my experience in my world and this world in its entirety. I am responsible.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i have been misled by Desteni instead of realizing that i have accepted and allowed myself to be misled by my own self-deception as knowledge as words not lived which i have placed value in and which i have defined as who i am -- believing that i am living while not actually living.

Yet still, it is not to follow Desteni materials blindly and turn Desteni into a religion and form belief constructs, but to apply and test out by self.

Practicality: When speaking words or sharing perspectives, consider specifically what it practically entails to live the words, then live those words accordingly as self in every way to become the embodiment of the words - the living word as the living flesh.


Comparison and competition, superiority/inferiority, hierarchy structure:

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the polarity construct of superiority/inferiority and the hierachy structure through comparison and competition.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in comparison and competition, wanting to be superior compared to those who i perceive to be inferior.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to win within the polarity of winning/losing and superiority/inferiority through comparison and competition, instead of realizing that within polarity no one is winning, everyone is losing, thus it is stop polarity and live equality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior compared to those who i perceived to be superior, and define myself as inferiority instead of realizing that such definition is not real and it is acceptance of self-abuse. Stop.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape from inferiority through pursuing superiority and believe that i am able to become superior through a 'process' of acquiring that which i believe to be able to use to define myself as superior, instead of realizing that becoming superior through self-definition is self-deception - it is only an idea existing in my mind that i have believed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that pursuing superiority implies the acceptance of self-definition as inferiority, thus the accepted nature as inferiority will manifest as the polarity flips from superiority into inferiority - superiority is but an illusion and inferiority as the accepted truth always 'wins'.

I forgive myself that i have placed myself in a hierarchy structure within the polarity construct of superiority/inferiority through comparison and competition, having believed the hierarchy structure and polarity construct to be real, allowing myself to be directed by these belief constructs within my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be trapped within an illusionary reality as the hierarchy structure and polarity construct within my mind, instead of realizing that they are not real but i have made them to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live such a belief system through family and cultural programming.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family and the culture for programming me with the belief system instead of realizing that i have accepted and allowed such programming and that i have the ability to stop/diffuse/release such programmings.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define my farther as being superior and define myself as being inferior, still holding onto this child image/memory of myself being inferior to my father.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to accept myself to be equl to those who i perceived to be supeior previously.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize and live the realization that both superiority and inferiority are self-abuse and thus it is to stop living in self-abuse as inequality as polarity construct and start actual living as equality as Life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i do not deserve to be equal to those who i have perceived to be superior to me, and that in order for me to be equal i must prove myself through becoming that which i perceived to be superior - not allowing myself to accept myself as equals and live in equality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to not dare to accept myself as equal to my parents, believing that such a thing is too 'unatural' and 'unusual', and that i'd better accept my place as inferiority.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for what i have believed to be 'natual' and 'usual' to direct me instead of realizing that i am allowing myself to be directed cultural programming as knowledge and information construct which does not stand as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give into resistances out of the perception of being equal to be 'unnatural' and 'unusual', instead of realizing that i am giving permission to self-abuse - allowing myself to be abused by MCS dictating my behavior.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to call my parents by their names, believing and fearing that i will offend them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear reactions from my parents instead of realizing that fear is not real - it is acceptance of self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in order for me to be equal to my parents and call them by their names i must present myself in a condescendating manner which is but an idea of equality - actually it is superiority hiding the accepted self-definition as inferiority.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to call my parents by their names consistently and push through the resistances and 'unnatural'/'unusual' feelings.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not apply what i have realized consistently to live it into reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to live myself consistently.

I forgive myself that i h ave accepted and allowed myself to give into old habits out of fear of challenge.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to avoid pushing through resistances, the 'unnatural'/'unusual' feelings and the old habitual patterns.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that not living that which i see/realize to be lived is self-dishonesty and allowing self-deception.

I forgive myself that i have not lived words consistently as myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live as knowledge as words not lived instead of living words as who i am to embody the words i speak and write to become the living words as the living flesh.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to push through the fear that i experience.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed msyelf to give into fear and avoid situations where i would experience fear, instead of facing the fear head on and push through it consistently until it becomes the living manifestation as who i am.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that avoiding fear is not assisting and supporting myself but only prolonging my own process.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be moved and directed by fear going into resiatances and old habitual patterns, instead of enforcing change within self-movement and self-direction.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel that i have been suffocated by limitation instead of realizing that i am allowing myself to be suffocated by limitation through being directed by fear - abdication of the self-directive-principle and self-responsibility.

Practicality on comparison/competition, superiority/inferiority: SF on specific points of superiority/inferiority construct to release the memory, knowledge and belief construct that exist within my mind which is directing me. When finding myself going into comparison/competition and superiority/inferiority construct, immediately stop and breathe to bring myself back here to focus on what is here. At some 'suitable' time or in the evening, apply SF on those moments. Remind myself that the desire to win over another through comparison and competition will lead to failure. Remind myself that comparison/competition and polarity construct is not who i really am and it is acceptance of self-abuse. Investigate what supports such polarity construct, and see what is necessary to be done to make a difference and live the practical solution consistently until it manifests in fact.

Practicality on fear: Specific SF on fear and resistance to see and release the hold of such self-definitions. When fear arises, stop and breathe and realize that this reaction is not who i really am and that if i allow myself to be directed by fear i am allowing self-abuse. Push through the unrational fear (which contradicts common sense) to do deliberately that which i fear or believe that i fear. Push through fear consistently, not just pushing one time or in one situation but to apply consistently until the fear pattern stops. Do not judge, critisize, accuse and punish myself if I did not 'make it'.


Rushing ahead:

I forgive myself that i have accetped and allowed myself to want to rush ahead and write a lot of self-forgiveness, defining writing a lot of self-forgiveness in a short time as a perception of superior or better than.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to become superior or better than through rushing ahead, comparing and competing with other people's process.

I stop allowing myself to participate in comparison and competition, and the desire to rush ahead in order to be apparently more than those who are apparently behind.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that within rushing ahead, i am not stable within each step that i do, and that i am creating a lot of 'mistakes' that loop myself over and over and voer again.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that within rushing ahead, i was not effective within what i do -- when i tried to do more i actually get less done.

I forgive myself that i h ave not allowed myself to slow down within what i do and first establish consistency within me to walk step by step breath by breath.

I actually have noticed my typing reflecting my process - when i type words, i tend to type it very fast and expect myself to do that, but when i rush within typing, the words i typed out have a lot of misspellings and that those misspellings repeat over and over again - yet i was so busy with rushing ahead, i repeated those mistakes over and over again not even considering to slow down and correct myself.

I forgive myself that ihave accepted and allowed myself to define myself as rushing ahead, wanting to win to be better than superior, fearing to be left behind being the inferior and less than.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in comparison and competition, existing in the polarity of superiority/inferiority placed within the position i am within my process, defining being ahead as being more than and being behind as being less than.

I forgive myself that ihave not allowed myself to realize taht i did not give myself opportunity to correct myself with regards to what i have accepted, allowed, created and manifested when i am in a rush.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to move ahead with the idea of rushing ahead while not realizing that when i a rushing i am not seeing and i am not actually moving fast.

I forgive myself that ih ave accepted and allowed myself to want to move superfast which manifested as the opposite as stagnation beyond imagination because i was actually crawling forward within falling due to the rush.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to establish myself first then move forward steadily.

I forgive myself that i hhave accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for falling and not moving fast - and desire to move fast yet the more i desire to move fast the less i am actually moving but falling into cycles that i have created along the way.

Stop. Slow down. Breathe. Establish self here. Move steadily. Self-correction step by step.

Practicality: Stay here, deal with one point each time, get it done then move on to the next point - stop wanting to do too much, opening up too many points at the same time and not being effective in each point. If there are several points to deal with, list an order, and do them sequentially so that each time there is only one point to be dealt with. Being present within dealing with one point, not allowing myself to rush into my mind thinking about another point already while dealing with one point. When finding myself in a rush, stop, slow down, breathe, establish self here, then move on step by step.

Asking questions

I used to suppress myself within asking questions about Desteni material. How to ask questions specifically that can assist and support myself? When is asking questions from the starting point of finding fault and when is asking questions from the starting point of self-support?

self-driven change

Change is always self-driven -- either self as Life willed or self as cause equal to and one with consequence - enforced. Easy way or hard way?

application for the development of political leaders

http://desteni.co.za/forum/viewtopic.php?t=16495

Hi Bernard,

I intend to become politically active in People's Republic of China.

I see the inevitability of the realization of self as Life as all as one as equal -- the desteni of the universe. The whole Existence is in this process of self-realization. The intrinsic meaning of "my life" Here exists within aligning myself with this process and contributing to my best to bring all to the realization of self as Life within oneness and equality.

Within the context of the Process of the whole existence, i see the inevitalbe realization of equality among all human beings within the current unequal status. What is necessary to be done to bring all human beings to equality is the implementation of the equality system -- equal money,equal labor and equal education system -- to replace the current system that is supporting abuses of Life and atrocities in this world. The equality system requires actual physical implementation.

Considering the current situation of the world being separated by countries, the implementation of the equality system world wide requires adjustments and preparations in individual countries with leaders/participants understanding the big picture of the unification of all human beings to equality within the context of the whole existence being in the Process of realization of self as Life as all as one as equal. Thus participation in politics in individual conturies is required to bring the equality system world-wide into reality.

Considering my placement in this world in terms of what i can do to contribute in this Process,specifically the preparation within individual countries for the implementation of the equality system , i immediately see my effective position in China -- the country where i was born and spent most of my life. In China there is the main party in power -- the Chinese Communist Party. Although what this party is currently doing is not supporting equality, the fact that it is at least named a communist party with its maximum program being the realization of Communism and its tenet "Serve the people wholeheartedly" that is being widely propagandized are at least not in contradiction with the equality and oneness principle. The political foundation that is laid out by the Chinese Communist party is able to be used for the implementation of an equality system world-wide. Actually in Janunary this year, I had this 'idea' coming up of transforming the Chinese Communist Party into Life Party -- that is what i named it at that time. I even thougt about some basic principles for this party. The foundation of this party is based on the 'trinity': The Law of equality and oneness -> Equality and Oneness as Life as all as one as equal as who I really am as who we all really are -> Common Sense as what is best for all. The tenet of the party is "Serve the best interest of all wholeheartedly" as an analogy of the tenet of the Chinese Communist Party. I placed the maximum program of the Chinese Communist Party i.e. 'realization of Communism' as the medium program in Life Party. What i mean by 'realization of communism' is the realization of the equality system in the whole world and thus the realization of equality among all human beings. I placed the maximum program of the Life Party as 'Realization of the authentic self as Life as all as one as equal', i.e. the realization of the whole existence as self as Life as all as one as equal -- the desteni of the universe. The minimum program of Life Party needs to be designed specifically according to different situations, but it must be in agreement with and serve for the realization of the medium program and finally the maximum program. Considering the current situation in the world, the main goal of the minum program is to make preparations in individual countries for the realization of the equality system. So my 'plan' is to join the Chinese Communist Party, transform it into Life Party, and implement the three programs of Life Party practically and physically until it is done.

I know that is not going to be easy. I have to take into consideration of my current situation and prepare myself effectively. Currently i am majoring in physics as a graduate student in USA. In order to go back to China in the future and participate in politics effectively to implement my 'plan', I am required to align myself with the process and prepare myself efffectively. I have taken two main actions regarding my current situation in aligning and preparing myself within this process. One action is the participation in the SRAT course, which assists and supports me in understanding how the mind works and stopping the mind constructs effectively, although i am currently having difficulty keeping up with the course. The other action is to change my research field to a more potentially useful and practical area -- biochemical physics -- which is closely related to 「System Theory」 which studies in general the properties of complex systems, although the word system used here may not be of the exact same connotation as is used in desteni. Also since i have never been interested in or even considered politics before, i am required to familiarize myself with how politics works and especially i need to know Chinese Communist Party more. So I have done some research on Chinese Communist Party and found that some of the words they used, the specific word placements, and the way sentences are structured are effective. Although the main problem of the party is that the words are not lived/applied/implemented effectively. In this research process i also found some real beings in China -- those who really care and are making a difference within their current situations, who i will probablly work with in the future. However, this level of preparation in politics is far from sufficient. I want to participate in the 'development of political leaders' to receive specific trainings to prepare specifically the way before me -- going back to China and implementing the plan of transforming the Chinese Communist Party into Equal Life Party and preparing for the implementation of the equality system, realizing the equality system and finally the realization of all self as Life within oneness and equality.
This is the reason why i want to take this road.