SF on the God entity i created in my mind

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form assumptions, perceptions, ideas, beliefs about Desteni and have allowed myself to be directed by them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form assumptions, perceptions, ideas, beliefs about Bernard and have allowed myself to be directed by them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to create an entity within my mind about Bernard based on assumptions, perceptions, ideas, beliefs, constructs, images, pictures, imaginations, fantacies, and have given my power away to an entity in my mind through talking to it and reacting to it through my participation, which i have believed to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the mind chatterings with the entities that i have created within my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react in anger to the entity which i have believed to be Bernard.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to face this point and say in my mind i do not want to know why i got angry and want to divert my attention from this point instead of assisting and supporting myself to see this point which i have given permission to direct me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to get extremely angry to the entity in my mind which i have believed to be Bernard in that moment, and wanted to spite it and revenge it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participte in my mind the picture of spiting the children with the intention to blackmail the entity in my mind that i have created, instead of realizing that i am only spiting myself and that i have become the spitefulness that i have accepted.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have created a God entity in my mind which i placed a name of Bernard and believed it to be Bernard and talked to it, believing that i am talking to Bernard.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in reaction as anger towards the entity in my mind, and wanted to spite it - feeding in this way my accepted self-definition as energy addiction as the emotional reaction as anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to get addicted to the emotional reaction as anger and want to find ways to justify it through attaching more and more reactions to it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define anger as being powerful, believeing that i have become powerful within getting angry instead of realizing that i have given my power away to a program and thus having abused myself through such acceptance.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to belive that i am strong within the experience of anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become aggresive within anger and have placed value and worth in agression which i have attached an idea of power.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel myself to be weak and desire to be strong - within this desire i have placed the definition of 'strong' onto my experience of anger where i become aggressive.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to spite the children to spite the entity in my mind and a form of 'questioning' God yet not understanding that it is all a form of mind delusion -- the reaction towards the entity is not valid in the first place, let alone the spitefulness towards the children -- all a mind drama yet the acceptance revealed my accepted nature.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in this mind delusion of anger, agression, spitefulness, and abuse.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to divert my attention from here and face this point instead of realizing that it is from my mind wanting to hide and protect its own definition.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for my mind to divert my attention from this point that i am dealing with.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel sleepy and lethargic and give permission for such experiences to direct me. I stop. I direct myself. I am not allowing lethargy and sleepiness to direct me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself through creating entities that are apperently alive - but only alive in my mind which i have given permission to enslave me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for energy addiction to direct me. Stop. I do not accept it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place my reaction towards Desteni over Life as what is best for all - existing in self-interest and justifying my self-definition.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to believe that i have the right to get angry - finding excuses why i participate in the energy addiction as the emotional reactions as anger that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to spite the children which is spitefulness towards myself - allowing myself to be possessed by anger and giving permission for abuses and atrocities to exist within me which also contributes to the abuses and atrocities in this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist as abuses and atrocities to perpetuate my self-definition which is protection of my self-interest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice other people to feed my self-interest - in this case sacrificing the children to apparently blackmail the God entity in my mind -- this is my accepted nature.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the drama in my mind and belived them to be real. How delusional can i be?

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify that i have a right to be spiteful because i was angry and that i can not control it -- instead of realizing that it is invalid to blame my anger for what i have done in the name of it - I am responsible for what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, I became anger as me the moment i give permission for it to possess me and direct me and thus i am responsible for the spitefulness that i have accepted and allowed within anger possession.

I forgive myself that i have acccepted and allowed myself to define myself as anger, participating in it, allowing it to possess me and direct me, instead of standing as the self-directive priniciple here directing myself within self-honesty.