Ideas of self-honesty, Self-rightousness, Superiority

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition according to the ideas that i have formed about self-honesty, and have placed values and worths onto the my ideas of self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am self-honest in my past year after i have discovered desteni.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in the illusion that my past is self-honest, valuable and worthy, and thus unwilling to see with self-honesty what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be mesmerized by the ideas of self-honesty that i have formed, and projected this idea of self-honesty onto my past and whatever i did in my past.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live according to the ideas i have formed about self-honesty and believe what i did in my past year after discovering desteni is really self-honest, while the truth is that i am using the word self-honesty to hide the real self-dishonesty that i have accepted and allowed within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto my past because i have believed that those are self-honest expressions and i have placed much values and worths on it and that if i admit that they are actually self-dishonest i will lose that self-definition and the values and worths i have placed onto them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my self-definition according to the ideas that i have formed about self-honesty which i have projected onto my past.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am self-honest which is an idea within my mind not actual living.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to confuse the idea of self-honesty with actual self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the word self-honesty to define my past experiences while the truth of my past experience is actually self-limitation, within this mesmerization of the word self-honesty i have mistook self-limitation with self-honesty and lived that out and unwilling to let go.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to change myself and break down the self-limitation that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become becausee i have believed that i am self-honest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing self-definitions, self-value and self-worth which i have placed onto my past whose nature is in fact accepted self-limitation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to face the truth that most of my past year is in absolute accepted self-limitation and that i have existing in this self-limitation for so long that i have allowed myself to diminish so much.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify self-limitation because i have defined that to be self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have fucked myself with the ideas that i have formed about self-honesty which i have projected onto my experience of self-limitation.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that it is actually self-dishonesty that i hold onto the belief that my past is self-honest without actually investigating and seeing what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to let go and break down self-limitation because i have placed value/worth on it according to my idea of self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself, self-value, self-worth according to my past, instead of realizing that who i really am is Here in every moment as every breath, not defined by past/present/future.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to face the self-dishonesty that i have accepted and allowed but want to run away from/deny/resist/cover up so that i do not have to be honest with myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to cover actual self-dishonesty with my idea of self-honesty, which is very sneaky and deceptive.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my idea of self-honesty as an excuse and justification for why i do not face myself with real self-honesty and change/transform myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to trap myself with the idea of self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to protect my self-definition.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that me as my mind will throw baits to test the true nature of me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to see what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to attack beings who point out my self-dishonesties because me as a MCS wants to protect its own existence.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify/protect me as a system with abuse/threaten within my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to people who i know has threatened my definition as a MCS and me as a MCS reacted within a defense mechanism.

I forgive myself that i havea ccetped and allowed myself to define myself as the defense mechanism that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have given permission for me to be fucked by my mind and trained myself into self-limitation which i believed to be self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel that i am speaking redundant words without going anywhere.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with desteni because i perceive that desteni members are not living what they propose and their actions are invalidating their words, instead of realizing that i have misinterpreted the words of desteni documents and videos based on ideas and assuptions within my mind about what is said in desteni documents and videos and that i am living according to my mind interpretation of words in desteni documents and videos and evaluating desteni members' actions according to what i am living which is misterpretation and misunderstanding of the words.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am living self-honesty while desteni members are not living self-honesty, which is a clear indication that there is something wrong.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to get angry with desteni because i perceive that i have been deceived -- i believe that i am living what is presented in the documents and videos while other desteni members are not living the words; and i do not fucking enjoy my experience while some desteni members are enjoying their experiences.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel deceived because i believe that i have lived what is presented by desteni according to my idea while that is not what desteni actually supports and when i found out that what i lived is not self-honesty i became angry because i felt that what i have lived is a waste of time.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to time and become angry if i believe that i have wasted my time.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be furious because i believe that no matter i do it is not fucking right, and that i can "never" get it right.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i am doing what i am doing "for" desteni instead of realizing that it is all about self -- it has nothing to do with desteni it is all about who i am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my past memory that my father is extremely picky and that he is never satisfied with me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to project the relationship that i have formed with my father onto desteni, being angry with desteni instead of realizing that i am actually angry with my father.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to do something and live for my father and want to satisfy him but can never satisfy him because he is picky.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry because i perceive that i did exactly what i am told to do but now you have changed your mind and what i did became useless.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine within my mind the picture of strangling the portal which is a reflection of anger. Why the fuck am i angry with the portal? Why am i fucking angry with myself? What is it that i am angry with myself?

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have deceived myself because i have followed my mind and dropped into a mind pattern.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto this anger towards my father and imagine within my mind abusing my father as a revenge.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in anger and then when it dissipates i apply self-forgiveness -- it is not real but abusing self-forgiveness to support the anger manifestation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form a perrception/idea/belief that desteni is very picky not consistent -- this is what i have misinterpreted through me following my mind interpretation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to suppress the anger within me because i have judged anger as bad -- it does not mean that i have to act upon the anger that is also self-dishonesty -- neither suppressing nor acting upon anger but to use it to stand up and stop self-anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to slash out anger in a violent way within my mind, imagining all those abusive, violent pictures in my head.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to allow myself to be obsessed and possessed by anger which i perceive to be justified because i am deceived, instead of realizing that i have actually deceived myself through trusting my mind and following mind interpretations, ideas and beliefs which is how i have fucked myself through my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define what i am living as self-honesty which is actually an idea of self-honesty not self-honesty as a fact.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want everybody else to live what i am living because i believe what i am living to be self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to belive that what i am living is right, living my self-definition as self-rightousness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to project my idea of self-honesty onto other people and want other people to do the same as me which i believed to be self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge people who do not do the same thing as i do.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to get irritated and angry towards people who are not doing what i want them to do which i believed to be self-honesty and what is best for all and for them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to wanna control other people and force them into doing what i believed to be best for all and best for them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to get frustrated/angry/spiteful when people are not doing what i believed to be what is best for all and what is best for them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to threaten people into doing what is best for all instead of realizing that this is a reflection of what i am doing to myself -- threatening myself into doing what is best for all not from the starting point of self-movement within self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may be punished if i do not do what is best for all thus forcing myself from the starting point of fear of punishment not self-movement within understanding why i am doing what i am doing.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use "If you do not do this, you will ..." as a threaten to force myself to do something.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as self-threaten.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in the illusion of self-movement based on self-threaten.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that if i do this, or if i do not do this then i am self-dishonest, and i deserve to be punished.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as self-punishement.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to develop a pattern of imagining a picture of me forcing my head onto the ground saying "You fucking do this." furiously.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to imagine that there is something outside of me separate from me more powerful than me forcing me to do something.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as such a picture within my head and play it out constantly and continuously within my head.

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Self-rightousness, Superiority

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with my father's self-rightousness instead of realizing that my reaction towards my father's self-rightousness is a projection of what i am doing myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to say in my mind, "please, i am not self-righous.", instead of really doing self-introspection and see what i am actually accepting and allowing.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i am self-honest and self-rightous while all other people are self-dishonest so that i am special, i am superior, i am valuable, i am worthy.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard people around me being less than me because i have defined people as being fucked up MCS so that they are valueless and worthless.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that people deserve to be killed because they are fucked up MCS.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i have the right to punish other people's self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form an idea of me according to a punishing God.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior to my mother, my sister, my father and people in my world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to be right, want to do the right thing.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to attack other people and impose my rightousness which i believed to be self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to communicate with other people from the starting point of wanting to be right, wanting to attack other people who do not agree with me and impose my rightousness instead of assisting and supporting the being equal and one with me as me.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to be clear with the starting point of my communication with other people.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people in my world are all less than me and that they are clueless of what is going on in this world, which gives me a feeling of superiority and specialness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel superior and special because i am participating on desteni forum and knowing something that other people do not understand.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people in my world are not qualified to assist and support me because i have formed such an opinion that they are inferior to me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only people who are superior to me and more than me has the qualification to assist and support me and that people who i believed to be inferior to me and less than can only learn from me and not the other way around.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to categorize people into those who are superior to and more than me and those who are inferior and less than me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that people around me are less than me and people on desteni forum are more than me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that old birds are more than newbies.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition according to the time i joined desteni forum, perceiving/believing that i am less than those who joined the forum earlier than me while superior to those who joined the forum later than me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define newbies as inferior and less than which is an idea that i have formed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the right to laugh at and ridicule newbies because i have become an old bird.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i am living according to the social structure of hierarchy that i have been programmed since i was a child in the family structure, education system and the influence of society and culture.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that everyboday is equal with me as me, not more than or less than.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i am not able to learn anything from my peers or people around me because i have assumed them to be less than me so that they are qualified to "teach" me something.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that the instructors are all fucked-up MCS and that whatever they teach me is just going to fuck me up so that i will just ignore the lecture and block the information.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge people in my world in general because i have formed an idea of them being less than because they are fucked up MCS while me being supeiror because i am self-honest which is also an idea that i have formed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my idea of self-honesty to gain power to define me as being superior which is self-dishonesty in nature.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to unconditionally accept all as myself.

I stop defining myself as the polarity of superiority and infeirority. I accept all as one as equal as me, i am you as you are me within and as oneness and equality.

I assist and support all equally as myself. All as one as equal as me assist and support me equally.