The catwalk is a narrow platform that is elevated and is used by models to show clothing and other accessories during the course of a fashion show.[1]
Let’s have a look at this phenomenon. What is it based on? Pictures. The models are putting on ‘perfect’ make-ups, being ‘perfectly’ dressed, walking ‘elegantly’ – doing what? Present a picture. We see pictures everywhere in this world and we start to program ourselves with pictures as we grow up in this world and eventually we have come to define ourselves according to pictures. We are not actually living in the physical reality. We are living in our mental reality – pictures (such as models on catwalks) triggering energetic experiences such as desire which we accept and allow to direct ourselves without even questioning where they come from in the first place. Through those pictures we have built an idea of what is beautiful and what is fashionable. But none of that is actually real but are merely picture-related ideas that exist within our mind. Yet we believe them to be real and make decisions according to it, which just shows how easily human beings can be manipulated and controlled by illusions. Are we actually making a self-directive decision to buy a specific product merely because they are demonstrated by the models to be fashionable or are we being directed by the ideas/beliefs within our mind that we are programmed with through pictures to make that decision? Then who is making that decision? And who is actually benefiting from that decision? You or the company selling the product? What are you paying for? Usually impractical and uncomfortable clothes/shoes/accessories etc to reproduce that picture presentation demonstrated by the models - a picture/idea which is not yours in the first place.
Look at it. It is really just a picture. The clothes/shoes/accessories on those fashion shows are not designed with practicality and comfortableness as priorities but picture presentation overrides everything else. Those high heel shoes which are difficult for the models to manage their steps on the catwalk and tend to fall off the ground are but one explicit example of that principle. Yet it is the comfortableness and practicality that actually supports our human physical body.
There is nothing ‘wrong’ with clothing/shoes/accessories per se. It is the disregard of practical functioning of them to support our physical body and transforming them into merely pictures supporting delusional ideas which lead to decisions that promote the current consumerism economic system furthering the destruction of the physical reality that is the problem.
Within the equal money system (EMS) such things as models on catwalk as it currently exist which are merely picture presentations to serve the interest of the current abusive destructive economic system will be no more. The point of clothing /shoes/accessories etc and fashion thereof can be transformed into physical support and self-expression where we can investigate what we each one can do creatively about them in expressing ourselves. So the concept of fashion will definitely change in the EMS. It does not mean that everybody has to wear the same clothes[2]; instead it is opening up the door of each one’s creative self-expression rather than becoming the duplicated picture presentation we are sold through the fashion industry at this moment in the world.
[1] catwalk: http://www.articleworld.org/index.php/Catwalk
[2] Will everyone wear the same clothes in an Equal Money
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tePgFCbxU68
http://forum.desteni.org/viewtopic.php?f=41&t=1700
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Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
Equal Money System FAQ: Will Aliens bring us advanced technology once we exist as one as equal?
Will Aliens bring us advanced technology once we exist as one as equal?
For us to exist as one and equal, we require to implement and live in an equal money system (EMS). The EMS is based on the principle of what is best for all. Within the principle of what is best for all is the understanding that what is best for all is what is best for self thus it is the consideration of all equal and one as self. Living in the EMS based on the principle of what is best for all is thus the practical realization of us existing as one as equal.
At the stage of implementing the EMS, such points as aliens and their advanced technology are not relevant. The problem on earth is a human problem. We have to take self-responsibility to sort out the shit we created on earth. If aliens with advanced technology do exist they would also want to entrust the advanced technology to a trustworthy species which can take self-responsibility, wouldn’t they? I mean, the point of ‘once we exist as one as equal’ is also a requirement that we as a human species be trustworthy, which can only be so through taking full self-responsibility, being fully accountable for our own creation.
The EMS ensures that we as a human species can be trusted as we live as one as equal and be responsible for ourselves and all as ourselves. In the EMS everything is based on the principle of what is best for all. Thus before implementation of an technology it will be first investigated to make sure that it indeed is what is best for all which entails that the technology is not abused in any way whatsoever. Obviously that is not the case in the current system where there are technologies used without proper consideration of consequences or advanced technologies that can benefit all being suppressed due to profit and greed. In the equal money system, those current advanced technologies that are best for all can already be implemented. And the development of science and technology in EMS will no longer be controlled by profit but determined by what is best for all. Thus our scientific and technological endeavor could go even much faster than it does right now, allowing advanced technology to be developed and implemented for the best benefit of all.
Only when we as a human species becomes trust-worthy as in the EMS do the points of alien and their advanced technology become relevant. Then we can investigate these more advanced points of whether aliens actually exist or whether they will bring us advanced technology. I mean, it is really up to the aliens if they do exist. But human species living in the EMS is definitely a species that is worth having contact with and being trustworthy of being revealed to those advanced technology as they know the technology will be used for what is best for all.
For us to exist as one and equal, we require to implement and live in an equal money system (EMS). The EMS is based on the principle of what is best for all. Within the principle of what is best for all is the understanding that what is best for all is what is best for self thus it is the consideration of all equal and one as self. Living in the EMS based on the principle of what is best for all is thus the practical realization of us existing as one as equal.
At the stage of implementing the EMS, such points as aliens and their advanced technology are not relevant. The problem on earth is a human problem. We have to take self-responsibility to sort out the shit we created on earth. If aliens with advanced technology do exist they would also want to entrust the advanced technology to a trustworthy species which can take self-responsibility, wouldn’t they? I mean, the point of ‘once we exist as one as equal’ is also a requirement that we as a human species be trustworthy, which can only be so through taking full self-responsibility, being fully accountable for our own creation.
The EMS ensures that we as a human species can be trusted as we live as one as equal and be responsible for ourselves and all as ourselves. In the EMS everything is based on the principle of what is best for all. Thus before implementation of an technology it will be first investigated to make sure that it indeed is what is best for all which entails that the technology is not abused in any way whatsoever. Obviously that is not the case in the current system where there are technologies used without proper consideration of consequences or advanced technologies that can benefit all being suppressed due to profit and greed. In the equal money system, those current advanced technologies that are best for all can already be implemented. And the development of science and technology in EMS will no longer be controlled by profit but determined by what is best for all. Thus our scientific and technological endeavor could go even much faster than it does right now, allowing advanced technology to be developed and implemented for the best benefit of all.
Only when we as a human species becomes trust-worthy as in the EMS do the points of alien and their advanced technology become relevant. Then we can investigate these more advanced points of whether aliens actually exist or whether they will bring us advanced technology. I mean, it is really up to the aliens if they do exist. But human species living in the EMS is definitely a species that is worth having contact with and being trustworthy of being revealed to those advanced technology as they know the technology will be used for what is best for all.
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Equal Money System FAQ: How will addictions be handled?
How will addictions be handled?
The extensiveness of addiction problems in the current system is due to its nature of not supporting life. The current economic system is based on survival. Life in the current system for many has become a constant struggle. People who have addictions such as alcohol or drugs mainly use them to escape reality and suppress themselves because they are not satisfied with life. The addictions create a hiding place where one does not face and deal with the true reality but try to forget everything or seek high experiences in illusionary realities in the mind, within which one actually becomes more defeated and abdicate self-responsibility and just accept self as a slave. Within the EMS, all people’s basic physical needs are met through providing an equal amount of money that is sufficient for the person to live a dignified life from birth to death. Thus there won’t be any survival stress that haunts anyone and we can actually start to give us the opportunity to explore what it means to live for the first time. People no longer have the motive to suppress themselves through using alcohol or drugs in order to escape reality and go into illusionary realities, because now they can find happiness and enjoy themselves in real life. Thus addiction problems will drop exponentially in the EMS. The EMS is a fundamental solution to get rid of the root of addiction problems.
In the current unequal abusive economic system, abuses related to addictions are actually promoted because of profit and greed instead of being stopped/intervened/prevented based on the principle of what is best for all. Have you ever wondered why alcohol is legal while drugs are illegal? Is it really because alcohol is less harmful and destructive than drugs? A scientific research [1][2] done by British researchers in 2010 shows ‘Presenting a new scale of drug harm that rates the damage to users themselves and to wider society, the scientists rated alcohol the most harmful overall and almost three times as harmful as cocaine or tobacco.’ ‘Professor David Nutt, chairman of the ISCD, whose work was published in the Lancet medical journal, said the findings showed that ‘aggressively targeting alcohol harms is a valid and necessary public health strategy.’ He said they also showed that current drug classification systems had little relation to the evidence of harm.’ If alcohol being legal is not based on the evidence of harm, what is it based on then? It all boils down to money! One major reason why alcohol is legal while drugs are illegal is because alcohol brings in far more money in tax to the government. When money comes into play everything else gives way. The consequences however are the prevalence of abuses due to alcohol consumption. In the family situation a major cause of child abuse, sexual abuse and domestic violence is due to the effect alcohol has on people using it to suppress themselves and become possessed by their anger and frustration and exert them onto other family members which may cause traumatic experiences or even physical harms on other family members – usually children and women. “The World Health Organization estimates that risks linked to alcohol cause 2.5 million deaths a year from heart and liver disease, road accidents, suicides and cancer -- accounting for 3.8 percent of all deaths. It is the third leading risk factor for premature death and disabilities worldwide.[1]” Within the EMS profit and greed are removed and what is best for all is the basic law. Such atrocities and abuses cannot be tolerated. Once the facts and effects of alcohol are researched thoroughly and are known to all we will all agree on the decision that alcohol should be outlawed. This is an act of intervention/prevention that is best for all rather than deliberate promotion of abuse based on profit as is in the current economic system.
In the EMS people who have developed addiction problems will be assisted immediately and effectively. Eventually technology will allow one’s DNA to be read and according to the output of a person’s DNA the person’s physical-chemical-psychological condition can be detected. Thus if there is an addiction problem it will be reflected on the output of the reading signal of DNA. The person can thus receive immediate assistance and support from necessary professionals at early stages of developing such a problem. There will be also a lot of changes with regards to psychology and psychiatry[11]. In the current system psychology and psychiatry are driven by the motive of making money from the patients and thus the patients’ problems are deliberately not cured actually so that they can continue to be exploited. In the EMS such things cannot be tolerated. Research being done will be focused on discovering the actual reasons for human being’s dysfunctional problems and find real effective practical solutions.
Reference:
[1]: http://www.reuters.com/article/2010/11/01/us-drugs-alcohol-idUSTRE6A000O20101101
[2]:http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/39938704/ns/health-addictions/t/alcohol-more-dangerous-heroin-cocaine-study-finds/
[3]: http://www.urban75.com/Drugs/drugten.html
[4]: http://vodpod.com/watch/5672242-equal-money-system-and-drug-addiction
[5]: http://equalmoney.org/2011/04/war-on-drugs-creates-more-crime-%e2%80%93-equal-money-dip-is-solution/
[6]: http://equalmoney.org/2011/06/why-alcohol-makes-you-a-pre-historic-zombie-moron/
[7]: http://equalmoney.org/2011/03/all-co-hole-ism-till-5-am-from-today/
[8]: http://cathy4worldequality.wordpress.com/2011/08/23/addiction-is-mind-control-you-want-to-stop-the-solution-is-here/
[9]: http://shsbarbi.blogspot.com/2011/04/equal-money-system-solution.html
[10]: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sFPv3Xuzpvo
[11]: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z6Fo1I6mc2A
[12]: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fysPM0mP84
The extensiveness of addiction problems in the current system is due to its nature of not supporting life. The current economic system is based on survival. Life in the current system for many has become a constant struggle. People who have addictions such as alcohol or drugs mainly use them to escape reality and suppress themselves because they are not satisfied with life. The addictions create a hiding place where one does not face and deal with the true reality but try to forget everything or seek high experiences in illusionary realities in the mind, within which one actually becomes more defeated and abdicate self-responsibility and just accept self as a slave. Within the EMS, all people’s basic physical needs are met through providing an equal amount of money that is sufficient for the person to live a dignified life from birth to death. Thus there won’t be any survival stress that haunts anyone and we can actually start to give us the opportunity to explore what it means to live for the first time. People no longer have the motive to suppress themselves through using alcohol or drugs in order to escape reality and go into illusionary realities, because now they can find happiness and enjoy themselves in real life. Thus addiction problems will drop exponentially in the EMS. The EMS is a fundamental solution to get rid of the root of addiction problems.
In the current unequal abusive economic system, abuses related to addictions are actually promoted because of profit and greed instead of being stopped/intervened/prevented based on the principle of what is best for all. Have you ever wondered why alcohol is legal while drugs are illegal? Is it really because alcohol is less harmful and destructive than drugs? A scientific research [1][2] done by British researchers in 2010 shows ‘Presenting a new scale of drug harm that rates the damage to users themselves and to wider society, the scientists rated alcohol the most harmful overall and almost three times as harmful as cocaine or tobacco.’ ‘Professor David Nutt, chairman of the ISCD, whose work was published in the Lancet medical journal, said the findings showed that ‘aggressively targeting alcohol harms is a valid and necessary public health strategy.’ He said they also showed that current drug classification systems had little relation to the evidence of harm.’ If alcohol being legal is not based on the evidence of harm, what is it based on then? It all boils down to money! One major reason why alcohol is legal while drugs are illegal is because alcohol brings in far more money in tax to the government. When money comes into play everything else gives way. The consequences however are the prevalence of abuses due to alcohol consumption. In the family situation a major cause of child abuse, sexual abuse and domestic violence is due to the effect alcohol has on people using it to suppress themselves and become possessed by their anger and frustration and exert them onto other family members which may cause traumatic experiences or even physical harms on other family members – usually children and women. “The World Health Organization estimates that risks linked to alcohol cause 2.5 million deaths a year from heart and liver disease, road accidents, suicides and cancer -- accounting for 3.8 percent of all deaths. It is the third leading risk factor for premature death and disabilities worldwide.[1]” Within the EMS profit and greed are removed and what is best for all is the basic law. Such atrocities and abuses cannot be tolerated. Once the facts and effects of alcohol are researched thoroughly and are known to all we will all agree on the decision that alcohol should be outlawed. This is an act of intervention/prevention that is best for all rather than deliberate promotion of abuse based on profit as is in the current economic system.
In the EMS people who have developed addiction problems will be assisted immediately and effectively. Eventually technology will allow one’s DNA to be read and according to the output of a person’s DNA the person’s physical-chemical-psychological condition can be detected. Thus if there is an addiction problem it will be reflected on the output of the reading signal of DNA. The person can thus receive immediate assistance and support from necessary professionals at early stages of developing such a problem. There will be also a lot of changes with regards to psychology and psychiatry[11]. In the current system psychology and psychiatry are driven by the motive of making money from the patients and thus the patients’ problems are deliberately not cured actually so that they can continue to be exploited. In the EMS such things cannot be tolerated. Research being done will be focused on discovering the actual reasons for human being’s dysfunctional problems and find real effective practical solutions.
Reference:
[1]: http://www.reuters.com/article/2010/11/01/us-drugs-alcohol-idUSTRE6A000O20101101
[2]:http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/39938704/ns/health-addictions/t/alcohol-more-dangerous-heroin-cocaine-study-finds/
[3]: http://www.urban75.com/Drugs/drugten.html
[4]: http://vodpod.com/watch/5672242-equal-money-system-and-drug-addiction
[5]: http://equalmoney.org/2011/04/war-on-drugs-creates-more-crime-%e2%80%93-equal-money-dip-is-solution/
[6]: http://equalmoney.org/2011/06/why-alcohol-makes-you-a-pre-historic-zombie-moron/
[7]: http://equalmoney.org/2011/03/all-co-hole-ism-till-5-am-from-today/
[8]: http://cathy4worldequality.wordpress.com/2011/08/23/addiction-is-mind-control-you-want-to-stop-the-solution-is-here/
[9]: http://shsbarbi.blogspot.com/2011/04/equal-money-system-solution.html
[10]: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sFPv3Xuzpvo
[11]: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z6Fo1I6mc2A
[12]: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fysPM0mP84
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Equal Money System FAQ: Cars - who will make them and who will get one
Cars - who will make them and who will get one
Cars are practical tools in the transportation system for us to move around to different locations physically in the world. So cars will still be manufactured and distributed in the Equal Money System. This can be part of the transportation system within the global logistical system for the support and distribution to all equally in EMS. How exactly that is going to work we will all have to decide within the principle of what is best for all.
Practically there exists the necessity of both public transportation such as trains, buses and private transportation such as personal cars.
In the current consumerism economic system, people are promoted to buy and use personal cars as much as possible because of the profit linked to the car industry, which is currently also directly connected to the massive profit-involved oil industry through the dependency of oil consumption by cars. Because of the system is driven by profit and greed rather than consideration of practical living, cars as well as other products in the current system are not made to last long. They have to break so that people can buy more. More products are sold, more profits are gained. Cars with lower quality have to be deliberately manufactured to serve the need of those with lower income. It does not make sense to produce a product with a lower quality when we have the ability to produce it in higher quality, does it? Why not produce all of the products in the highest possible quality? Yet that is what is promoted in our current economic system - a system without common sense. In the EMS this will change. The EMS is based on the principle of what is best for all – a principle of practical common sense. Profit and greed will no longer be the driving force but consideration of life, practical functionality and expression. All cars will be manufactured in the highest possible quality. So that people driving in the car can be well protected rather than injured or die in case of an accident because the car is deliberately made of a lower quality due to profit factor.
From a common sense consideration, it is also still necessary to have a person get a license to ensure their qualification before they drive a vehicle so that they actually know how to drive and what to do in different situations when driving a vehicle so that it does not cause potential danger to anyone. That is best for everyone’s safety.
The various brands of cars will not exist in the EMS. If you look at all the brands in the current system, what is the actual practical functionality of them? Is there actually any? Do they hold value merely because people believe in them through advertisement to generate ideas/beliefs/desires within people’s minds so that more products can be sold and more profits can be gained?
The air pollution problem of vehicle exhaust can also be solved more easily when the profit and cost factors do not stand in the way in the EMS. Our current technology has already been able to make cars that do not depend on oil and pollute the air, but use water, electricity, hydrogen, or compressed air etc and thus more friendly to the environment. The major resisting factor to the implementation of these solutions is still profit. In the current system, the car industry and the oil industry are dependent on each other. If cars no longer use oil, the oil companies will lose profit. In the EMS, with the removal of the profit factor, we will all be able to make informed decisions on what fuel we use for cars within the principle of what is best for all. That of course includes the consideration of our influence on the environment we live in – on the air that we breathe because everything we produce and place into our environment will have an influence back onto ourselves. We have to consider the consequences of what we do onto our environment and thus onto ourselves.
With regards to who will get a car in the EMS that will depend on whether there is such a need for a car. Each one having a car is not necessarily practical. If there are too many cars in this world, there may not be enough space among cars for the traffic to move effectively or enough places to park cars. Imagine the extreme situation where the surface of the whole planet is covered with cars then not even one car can move. Of course the effects of too many cars do not have to get to such an extreme to be revealed. You only need to consider the hours wasted in traffic jams each day you go to work or when you spent half an hour finding a parking lot. Cars are supposed to make life easier not the opposite. Implementing more effective public transportation is a suggested practical solution. In the current economic system, the public transportation is not designed and functioning at its fullest potential. One reason is the profit-driven factor to promote the car industry so the public transportation is suppressed. If we establish well developed effective public transportation such as bus, train, and subway etc, people will start to realize the merit of public transportation and may start to like taking them because it is practical. Then we can effectively reduce the unnecessary amount of cars and help solving the corresponding traffic issues. It is also possible that we can find practical solutions to solve the current traffic problems even without reducing the amount of cars so that the transportation system is more private-transportation based. So there may still exist the two aspects of public transportation and private transportation in the transportation system in EMS. We will just have to see and decide how exactly to make these two aspects work together as effectively as possible.
Read and watch related discussions:
Equal Money system - Transportation solution
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCLaOx0Ws5k
Transport & Equal Money
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NE3pMwkzYYo
Cars in an Equal Money System - Equal Money FAQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sFPv3Xuzpvo
Practical solution for Transportaion that is Best for ALL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nt0xRDPuOZs
Cars are practical tools in the transportation system for us to move around to different locations physically in the world. So cars will still be manufactured and distributed in the Equal Money System. This can be part of the transportation system within the global logistical system for the support and distribution to all equally in EMS. How exactly that is going to work we will all have to decide within the principle of what is best for all.
Practically there exists the necessity of both public transportation such as trains, buses and private transportation such as personal cars.
In the current consumerism economic system, people are promoted to buy and use personal cars as much as possible because of the profit linked to the car industry, which is currently also directly connected to the massive profit-involved oil industry through the dependency of oil consumption by cars. Because of the system is driven by profit and greed rather than consideration of practical living, cars as well as other products in the current system are not made to last long. They have to break so that people can buy more. More products are sold, more profits are gained. Cars with lower quality have to be deliberately manufactured to serve the need of those with lower income. It does not make sense to produce a product with a lower quality when we have the ability to produce it in higher quality, does it? Why not produce all of the products in the highest possible quality? Yet that is what is promoted in our current economic system - a system without common sense. In the EMS this will change. The EMS is based on the principle of what is best for all – a principle of practical common sense. Profit and greed will no longer be the driving force but consideration of life, practical functionality and expression. All cars will be manufactured in the highest possible quality. So that people driving in the car can be well protected rather than injured or die in case of an accident because the car is deliberately made of a lower quality due to profit factor.
From a common sense consideration, it is also still necessary to have a person get a license to ensure their qualification before they drive a vehicle so that they actually know how to drive and what to do in different situations when driving a vehicle so that it does not cause potential danger to anyone. That is best for everyone’s safety.
The various brands of cars will not exist in the EMS. If you look at all the brands in the current system, what is the actual practical functionality of them? Is there actually any? Do they hold value merely because people believe in them through advertisement to generate ideas/beliefs/desires within people’s minds so that more products can be sold and more profits can be gained?
The air pollution problem of vehicle exhaust can also be solved more easily when the profit and cost factors do not stand in the way in the EMS. Our current technology has already been able to make cars that do not depend on oil and pollute the air, but use water, electricity, hydrogen, or compressed air etc and thus more friendly to the environment. The major resisting factor to the implementation of these solutions is still profit. In the current system, the car industry and the oil industry are dependent on each other. If cars no longer use oil, the oil companies will lose profit. In the EMS, with the removal of the profit factor, we will all be able to make informed decisions on what fuel we use for cars within the principle of what is best for all. That of course includes the consideration of our influence on the environment we live in – on the air that we breathe because everything we produce and place into our environment will have an influence back onto ourselves. We have to consider the consequences of what we do onto our environment and thus onto ourselves.
With regards to who will get a car in the EMS that will depend on whether there is such a need for a car. Each one having a car is not necessarily practical. If there are too many cars in this world, there may not be enough space among cars for the traffic to move effectively or enough places to park cars. Imagine the extreme situation where the surface of the whole planet is covered with cars then not even one car can move. Of course the effects of too many cars do not have to get to such an extreme to be revealed. You only need to consider the hours wasted in traffic jams each day you go to work or when you spent half an hour finding a parking lot. Cars are supposed to make life easier not the opposite. Implementing more effective public transportation is a suggested practical solution. In the current economic system, the public transportation is not designed and functioning at its fullest potential. One reason is the profit-driven factor to promote the car industry so the public transportation is suppressed. If we establish well developed effective public transportation such as bus, train, and subway etc, people will start to realize the merit of public transportation and may start to like taking them because it is practical. Then we can effectively reduce the unnecessary amount of cars and help solving the corresponding traffic issues. It is also possible that we can find practical solutions to solve the current traffic problems even without reducing the amount of cars so that the transportation system is more private-transportation based. So there may still exist the two aspects of public transportation and private transportation in the transportation system in EMS. We will just have to see and decide how exactly to make these two aspects work together as effectively as possible.
Read and watch related discussions:
Equal Money system - Transportation solution
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCLaOx0Ws5k
Transport & Equal Money
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NE3pMwkzYYo
Cars in an Equal Money System - Equal Money FAQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sFPv3Xuzpvo
Practical solution for Transportaion that is Best for ALL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nt0xRDPuOZs
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Working on the Jealousy System in DIP
The following is extracted from my 8th assignment of the Introduction to Desteni Course within the Desteni I Process( http://desteniiprocess.com/ ) , where I worked on the Jealousy system.
Writing:
Recently we have been having quite some group discussions on QQ(a software that is like skype but mainly used by people in China Mainland). A person L who recently started to participate actively in Desteni Chinese seemed to have done a lot of reading on various materials and she has been answering people’s questions and directing the situation very effectively. After observing this person’s expressions and what she did, I had a thought of ‘Her contribution is more than me – the boss’(The actual thought is in Chinese“功高盖主”and here I am translating it into English for understanding). I compared myself with her and felt inferior and perceived that my thunder has been stolen. I experienced jealousy towards her for her expression. I noticed this point and applied self-forgiveness on it.
I this assignment I am working with the system of jealousy.
The various components I will be working with:
Thought: Her contribution is more than me – the boss.
Emotions and Feelings: Emotion: sadness
Words: Jealousy
Pictures: the picture is using a fist to beat a person’s head down onto the electric stove.
Memories: My father’s jealousy
The Thoughts Work-Sheet
Her contribution is more than me – the boss.
Self-Forgiveness
I forgive for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’ when I saw the person L was very effective in answering people’s questions in the Desteni QQ group.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’ to seeing the person L being very effective in answering people’s questions.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing seeing the person L being very effective in answering people’s questions to exist as a triggering point within me, triggering the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in the ability to answer people’s questions.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in knowledge and understanding.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in comparison and competition with L.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from L through participation in comparison and competition.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel inferior to L through my participation in comparison and competition.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that inferiority actually exists.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that superiority actually exists.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself in comparison to others as ‘more than’ or ‘less than’ them.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in knowledge and understanding of materials.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in answering people’s questions.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in information processing skills and reading abilities.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the make-belief that I am superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard L as my subordinate and thus ‘supposedly’ inferior.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see/treat L as my equal.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from l through regarding L as my subordinate and me as the ‘boss’.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an idea of me being the boss and L as my subordinate.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be the boss and that my authority should not be challenged or threatened by my ‘subordinate’.
I forgive myself to perceive/believe that my status as a boss has been threatened because the subordinate is more than me the boss, instead of realizing that the ‘boss’ status is not real in the first place – it is just an idea within my mind which I used to hide the inferiority that exist within me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the boss belief of myself to hide/cover up the inferiority that exists within me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate and exist within the polarity design of inferiority and superiority.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel/perceive/believe that my status of superiority has been threatened by L, instead of realizing that the belief of me being superior is not real in the first place.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the self-definition of being superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing superiority to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use knowledge and information to create the belief of superiority/inferiority.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I know more than others then I am superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel inferior to a person when that person knows something that I do not know yet.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use/abuse/manipulate knowledge and information to hold onto my self-belief of being superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to always want to win within my mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to think that I know this knowledge that you do not know so I am still better than you – I am still superior to you.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself to believe that I am still superior to keep my superiority intact.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing the believed superior status that I have established within my mind.
I forgive myself to connect losing superiority to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the superiority status that I have established within my mind is not real and is just an idea/belief about myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the self-definition of being superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive that my thunder has been stolen by L because she is getting more attention than me in the group.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to get other people’s attentions because I have not given myself attention.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in how much attention is given to us.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire that people focus more on me than on L.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened when I see L gets more attention from others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I cannot tolerate another person being more than me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the belief that the ‘subordinate’ should not be better than the ‘boss’.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have the desire to contain the person always less than me so that I can always be more than.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be always more than others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to always want to win over others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be jealous of L because I perceive/believe that L is more than me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than/more than, inferior/superior through comparison and competition with others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the self-judgments as more than/less than, inferior/superior is real.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened by beings who I see as superior to me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use nastiness, spite and gossip to exalt myself as ego above the other being within my mind – so that I can feel like I have won and other being has lost.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and destroy whoever I am jealous about – through nastiness, spite and gossip.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the thought everybody falls as a means to make myself feel that I have won within my mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to put the being who I perceive to be more than me down so that I do not experience inferiority.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self-responsibility through believing that it is the person outside me who I perceive to be superior to me that is causing me to be inferior – instead of realizing that I am responsible for what I experience within me – the inferiority/superiority.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that within jealousy lies an opportunity for me to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about – so that I equalize myself with this being.
Self-Corrective Statements:
I accept and realize that comparison and competitions is of the mind, supporting the polarity game of superiority/inferiority, win/lose and does not support who I really am as Life.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in comparison and competition of the mind.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the polarity game of superiority/inferiority, win/lose of the mind through participation in comparison/competition.
I do not accept and allow myself to support my mind of the polarity game.
I support who I really am as LIFE here in breath.
I accept and realize that superiority/inferiority is not real – they are games played within my mind which I believed to be real. I accept and realize that the idea of me being the boss the superior and L being my subordinate the inferior is not real – it is just an idea within my mind and that it is not actually supporting anyone.
I do not accept and allow myself to believe that superiority/inferiority is real.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the mind game of superiority/inferiority.
I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the perception/idea/belief of me being the boss/superior and L being my subordinate/inferior.
I do not accept and allow myself to support the illusion of myself of my mind as perceptions/ideas/beliefs that I have created as myself which I have believed to be who I am.
I do not accept and allow myself to judge myself or others as less than/more than, superior/inferior through my participation in comparison/competition.
I do not accept and allow myself to judge others as that would be accepting and allowing myself to judge myself.
I accept and realize that whenever anything nasty comes up about another person, it is because I am jealous. I accept and realize that nastiness, spite and gossip are indicators of jealousy.
I accept and allow myself to investigate within myself the point of jealousy when nastiness, spite and gossip come up about another person.
I do not accept and allow myself to feed nastiness, spite and gossip through participation.
I do not accept and allow myself to feed the desire to win within my mind.
I do not accept and allow myself to feed the desire to destroy others, to bring them down because I am jealous of them.
I accept and realize that jealousy furthers the enslavement of separation.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in jealousy.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the enslavement of separation through participation in jealousy.
I accept and realize that within jealousy lies an opportunity for me to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about – so that I equalize myself with this being.
I accept and allow myself to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about.
I accept and allow myself to equalize myself with the person I am jealous about.
I accept and allow myself to equalize myself with the person L in information processing ability, reading ability, understanding, realizations, ability of answering questions effectively.
Rewriting the script:
When I see L being effective in answering people’s questions in Desteni QQ group, I do not accept myself to participate in the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me the boss’. I stop. I breathe. I do not accept myself to go into comparison and competition or create the self-judgment of inferiority, which is not real. Instead, I assist and support myself to equalize myself with the being in the ability of information processing ability, reading ability, understanding, realizations, ability of answering questions effectively. I stand one and equal with the being L as myself.
The Emotion or Feeling Work-Sheet
Emtion: Sadness
Self-Forgiveness:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotion of sadness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the emotion of sadness to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotion of disappointment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the emotion of disappointment to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the emotion of sadness as disappointment to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me-the boss’.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed when I perceive that L has surpassed me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because I believe that I have lost my forerunner position.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because I believe that I have been left behind by somebody who joined in later than me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being left behind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being left behind to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I have lost my position as a forerunner.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive this process as running a race.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to my position in the process.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as being superior according to my position in the process.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because of the perceived ‘loss’.
Self-Corrective Statements:
I accept and realize that each one is in their individual process and that my position in the process does not define who I am. And that this process is not like running a race at all – who is the first runner, who runs better, who runs faster, who is ahead, who is behind etc.
I do not accept and allow myself to compare myself with others in where we are currently in our process.
I do not accept and allow myself to define myself according to my position in the process.
I do not accept and allow myself to define others according to their position in their process.
I do not accept and allow myself to use my position to support my ego superiority.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in comparison, competition like running a race in this process.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the emotion of sadness and disappointment based on illusions as ideas of running ahead or being left behind within the ‘race’.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the ‘race’ in this process.
I accept and allow myself to walk this process as who I am equal and one with others walking this process together with me – assisting and supporting each other as who we really are as LIFE.
I accept and realize that I ideas and values that I have attached to forerunner in the process is not real and that it does not support me or anyone.
I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the ideas and values that I have attached to forerunner.
I accept and allow myself to live here without the ideas and values attached to definitions separate from me here.
I accept and realize that the emotion of sadness and disappointment is based on the idea that I have apparently lost my position in the process and that it is not real.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the emotional experience off sadness and disappointment.
I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by an idea that I have apparently lost my position in the process because that idea is not real in the first place.
I accept and allow myself to drop the values ideas that I have attached to my position in the process.
Rewrite-scripture:
When the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me the boss’ comes up, I stop and breathe. I stop the emotional experience of sadness and disappointment. I accept the being as one and equal as me - assisting and supporting each other as who we really are as LIFE. I assist and support myself and others to equalize each other, learn from each other – not to abuse my position to feed my ego.
The Words Work-Sheet
Word-Web: Central word: Jealousy Connected word: Superior, inferior, Nasty, spitefulness, Comparison/competition, intolerable, Disappointment, Revenge, Best/Top, judgment, win, lose
Self-Forgiveness
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge the word jealousy with a negative value.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the word jealousy as bad/wrong/negative.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word jealousy through judging the word jealousy as bad/wrong/negative.
Superior:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word jealousy to the word superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word superior in polarity to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word superior and the word jealousy through defining the word superior in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Inferior:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word inferior to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word inferior within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word inferior and from the word jealousy through defining the word inferior within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Nasty:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word nasty to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word nasty within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word nasty and from the word jealousy through defining the word nasty within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Spitefulness:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word spitefulness to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word spitefulness within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word spitefulness and from the word jealousy through defining the word spitefulness within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Comparison/competition:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words comparison/competition to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the words comparison/competition within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words comparison, competition, and jealousy through defining the word comparison and competition within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Intolerable:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word intolerable to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word intolerable within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word intolerable and from the word jealousy through defining the word intolerable within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Disappointment:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word disappointment to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word disappointment within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word disappointment and from jealousy through defining disappointment within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Revenge:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word revenge to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word revenge within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word revenge and from jealousy through defining the word revenge within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Best/Top:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word best/top to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word best/top in polarity to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word best/top and the word jealousy through defining the word best/top in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Judgment:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word judgment to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word judgment within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word judgment and from jealousy through defining the word judgment within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Win:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word win to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word win in polarity to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word winand the word jealousy through defining the word win in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Lose:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word lose to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word lose within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word lose and from jealousy through defining the word lose within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Re-define the word in the centre-circle of the word-web:
Jealousy is a mind consciousness system design which stems from inferiority, superiority, self-judgment and comparison and it is based on pictures and furthers the enslavement of separation – Jail-Us-In.
The Pictures Work-Sheet
The picture is using a fist to beat a person’s head down onto the electric stove: There is a burning electric stove in the middle. A woman’s head is facing downward on the electric stove with a fist hitting at the back of her head – hitting her head onto the electric stove.
Self-Forgiveness
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in my mind in the picture of using a fist hitting at the back of a woman’s head to force her head onto the burning electric stove.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the picture of using a fist hitting at the back of a woman’s head to force her head onto the burning electric stove to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down to the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down within the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down and from the woman within the picture through defining these words within the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I have become the beast of jealousy represented and reflected by this picture within my mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the boss’ to exist as a trigger point within me, triggering the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the picture of using a fist to hit on the woman’s head onto the electric stove to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me the boss’.
Self-Corrective Statements
I accept and realize that this picture represents the jealousy that exist within and as me of the mind accompanied by nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse and beating down the being that I am jealous of. I accept and realize that the more I react to the picture the more attention and thus power I am giving it thus giving it permission to possess me. Who I really am is not a picture within my mind and that it is not acceptable to allow myself to be directed and controlled by such a picture in my mind.
I do not accept and allow myself to separate myself from my accepted nature as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse.
I accept and allow myself to see and investigate what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse and beating down reflected in the picture within my mind.
I accept and allow myself to stand up within it and take self-responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse.
I accept and allow myself to stand up, stop and transform my accepted nature of jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse to live as who I really am as LIFE here in breath.
Re-writing the scripture:
When the picture comes up into my mind again, I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back to the physical and participate something in the physical. If the picture keeps coming up over and over again, I check whether there are points that I am still holding onto which I have not applied self-forgiveness to release myself from. I stand up and take responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destruction and abuse. I do not allow myself to continue to live such applied nature. I remain here as breath in and as the physical assisting and supporting myself to walk transformation of my accepted nature into LIFE.
The Memories Work-Sheet
My father’s jealousy: Two years ago when I went back home in China from US. I showed my parents a video of me giving a lecture in English on a class which received some cool audience feedback. After seeing that video, my father also attempted to give a ‘lecture’ in front of us. My mother knew why he was doing that since they have been living together for so many years – the reason is that he was comparing with me in the video and was trying to show us that he is also able to do that sort of things – in my mother’s words he has such a strong ‘upward mobility’. Well, it’s basically driven by comparison and competition - even between father and son. This memory is related to the original thought in that now my father is in the role of the ‘boss’ and I am in the role of the ‘subordinate’ in the hierarchy interpretation of the father-son relationship, while the pattern is the same – comparison and competition.
Self-Forgiveness
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the memory of two years ago when I showed my parents a video of me giving a lecture in English on a class and my father participated in comparison and competition and attempted to prove to us that he is able to do the same by trying to give us a lecture.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my father for his participation in comparison and competition.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from my father through my participation in judgment of my father.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to shift responsibility onto my father instead of realizing that I have become exactly the same as my father within participation in comparison, competition and jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to the video of me giving a lecture in English.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word self-expression to the video of me giving a lecture in English.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define self-expression within the video of me giving a lecture in English.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from self-expression through defining self-expression within the lecture video in separation of myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the memory of me showing my parents a lecture video of me where my father participated in comparison and competition to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the boss’.
Self-Corrective Statements:
I accept and realize that judging my father for his participation in comparison, competition and jealousy is me shifting my responsibility to others so that I do not face my accepted and allowed mind pattern of comparison, competition and jealousy.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in my mind in memories trying to divert my attention from myself to others so that I can shift my responsibility of working with what I have accepted and allowed.
I do not accept and allow myself to divert my attention away from taking self-responsibility through working with the pattern that I have accepted and allowed.
I do not accept and allow myself to use mental projections to escape from facing myself.
I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility, investigating and working with what I am experiencing and who I am within my experience.
I accept and realize that self-expression is here as who I am in every moment as every breath – not defined by a video where I see myself as being expressive.
I do not accept and allow myself to define my self-expression within a lecture video which I see myself as being expressive.
I do not accept and allow myself to separate myself from self-expression through defining my self-expression within a video.
I accept and allow my self-expression here as who I am in every moment as every breath.
Re-writing the script:
When the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me – the boss(功高盖主)’ comes up, I stop and breathe. I do not accept myself to go into my mind participating in memories – shifting my responsibility to others within memories. I remain here as the breath of life, taking self-responsibility for the point that I am dealing with, and express myself as who I am in the moment as breath.
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Writing:
Recently we have been having quite some group discussions on QQ(a software that is like skype but mainly used by people in China Mainland). A person L who recently started to participate actively in Desteni Chinese seemed to have done a lot of reading on various materials and she has been answering people’s questions and directing the situation very effectively. After observing this person’s expressions and what she did, I had a thought of ‘Her contribution is more than me – the boss’(The actual thought is in Chinese“功高盖主”and here I am translating it into English for understanding). I compared myself with her and felt inferior and perceived that my thunder has been stolen. I experienced jealousy towards her for her expression. I noticed this point and applied self-forgiveness on it.
I this assignment I am working with the system of jealousy.
The various components I will be working with:
Thought: Her contribution is more than me – the boss.
Emotions and Feelings: Emotion: sadness
Words: Jealousy
Pictures: the picture is using a fist to beat a person’s head down onto the electric stove.
Memories: My father’s jealousy
The Thoughts Work-Sheet
Her contribution is more than me – the boss.
Self-Forgiveness
I forgive for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’ when I saw the person L was very effective in answering people’s questions in the Desteni QQ group.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’ to seeing the person L being very effective in answering people’s questions.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing seeing the person L being very effective in answering people’s questions to exist as a triggering point within me, triggering the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in the ability to answer people’s questions.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in knowledge and understanding.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in comparison and competition with L.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from L through participation in comparison and competition.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel inferior to L through my participation in comparison and competition.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that inferiority actually exists.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that superiority actually exists.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself in comparison to others as ‘more than’ or ‘less than’ them.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in knowledge and understanding of materials.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in answering people’s questions.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in information processing skills and reading abilities.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the make-belief that I am superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard L as my subordinate and thus ‘supposedly’ inferior.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see/treat L as my equal.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from l through regarding L as my subordinate and me as the ‘boss’.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an idea of me being the boss and L as my subordinate.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be the boss and that my authority should not be challenged or threatened by my ‘subordinate’.
I forgive myself to perceive/believe that my status as a boss has been threatened because the subordinate is more than me the boss, instead of realizing that the ‘boss’ status is not real in the first place – it is just an idea within my mind which I used to hide the inferiority that exist within me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the boss belief of myself to hide/cover up the inferiority that exists within me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate and exist within the polarity design of inferiority and superiority.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel/perceive/believe that my status of superiority has been threatened by L, instead of realizing that the belief of me being superior is not real in the first place.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the self-definition of being superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing superiority to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use knowledge and information to create the belief of superiority/inferiority.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I know more than others then I am superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel inferior to a person when that person knows something that I do not know yet.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use/abuse/manipulate knowledge and information to hold onto my self-belief of being superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to always want to win within my mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to think that I know this knowledge that you do not know so I am still better than you – I am still superior to you.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself to believe that I am still superior to keep my superiority intact.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing the believed superior status that I have established within my mind.
I forgive myself to connect losing superiority to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the superiority status that I have established within my mind is not real and is just an idea/belief about myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the self-definition of being superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive that my thunder has been stolen by L because she is getting more attention than me in the group.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to get other people’s attentions because I have not given myself attention.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in how much attention is given to us.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire that people focus more on me than on L.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened when I see L gets more attention from others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I cannot tolerate another person being more than me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the belief that the ‘subordinate’ should not be better than the ‘boss’.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have the desire to contain the person always less than me so that I can always be more than.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be always more than others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to always want to win over others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be jealous of L because I perceive/believe that L is more than me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than/more than, inferior/superior through comparison and competition with others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the self-judgments as more than/less than, inferior/superior is real.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened by beings who I see as superior to me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use nastiness, spite and gossip to exalt myself as ego above the other being within my mind – so that I can feel like I have won and other being has lost.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and destroy whoever I am jealous about – through nastiness, spite and gossip.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the thought everybody falls as a means to make myself feel that I have won within my mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to put the being who I perceive to be more than me down so that I do not experience inferiority.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self-responsibility through believing that it is the person outside me who I perceive to be superior to me that is causing me to be inferior – instead of realizing that I am responsible for what I experience within me – the inferiority/superiority.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that within jealousy lies an opportunity for me to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about – so that I equalize myself with this being.
Self-Corrective Statements:
I accept and realize that comparison and competitions is of the mind, supporting the polarity game of superiority/inferiority, win/lose and does not support who I really am as Life.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in comparison and competition of the mind.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the polarity game of superiority/inferiority, win/lose of the mind through participation in comparison/competition.
I do not accept and allow myself to support my mind of the polarity game.
I support who I really am as LIFE here in breath.
I accept and realize that superiority/inferiority is not real – they are games played within my mind which I believed to be real. I accept and realize that the idea of me being the boss the superior and L being my subordinate the inferior is not real – it is just an idea within my mind and that it is not actually supporting anyone.
I do not accept and allow myself to believe that superiority/inferiority is real.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the mind game of superiority/inferiority.
I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the perception/idea/belief of me being the boss/superior and L being my subordinate/inferior.
I do not accept and allow myself to support the illusion of myself of my mind as perceptions/ideas/beliefs that I have created as myself which I have believed to be who I am.
I do not accept and allow myself to judge myself or others as less than/more than, superior/inferior through my participation in comparison/competition.
I do not accept and allow myself to judge others as that would be accepting and allowing myself to judge myself.
I accept and realize that whenever anything nasty comes up about another person, it is because I am jealous. I accept and realize that nastiness, spite and gossip are indicators of jealousy.
I accept and allow myself to investigate within myself the point of jealousy when nastiness, spite and gossip come up about another person.
I do not accept and allow myself to feed nastiness, spite and gossip through participation.
I do not accept and allow myself to feed the desire to win within my mind.
I do not accept and allow myself to feed the desire to destroy others, to bring them down because I am jealous of them.
I accept and realize that jealousy furthers the enslavement of separation.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in jealousy.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the enslavement of separation through participation in jealousy.
I accept and realize that within jealousy lies an opportunity for me to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about – so that I equalize myself with this being.
I accept and allow myself to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about.
I accept and allow myself to equalize myself with the person I am jealous about.
I accept and allow myself to equalize myself with the person L in information processing ability, reading ability, understanding, realizations, ability of answering questions effectively.
Rewriting the script:
When I see L being effective in answering people’s questions in Desteni QQ group, I do not accept myself to participate in the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me the boss’. I stop. I breathe. I do not accept myself to go into comparison and competition or create the self-judgment of inferiority, which is not real. Instead, I assist and support myself to equalize myself with the being in the ability of information processing ability, reading ability, understanding, realizations, ability of answering questions effectively. I stand one and equal with the being L as myself.
The Emotion or Feeling Work-Sheet
Emtion: Sadness
Self-Forgiveness:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotion of sadness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the emotion of sadness to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotion of disappointment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the emotion of disappointment to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the emotion of sadness as disappointment to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me-the boss’.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed when I perceive that L has surpassed me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because I believe that I have lost my forerunner position.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because I believe that I have been left behind by somebody who joined in later than me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being left behind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being left behind to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I have lost my position as a forerunner.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive this process as running a race.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to my position in the process.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as being superior according to my position in the process.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because of the perceived ‘loss’.
Self-Corrective Statements:
I accept and realize that each one is in their individual process and that my position in the process does not define who I am. And that this process is not like running a race at all – who is the first runner, who runs better, who runs faster, who is ahead, who is behind etc.
I do not accept and allow myself to compare myself with others in where we are currently in our process.
I do not accept and allow myself to define myself according to my position in the process.
I do not accept and allow myself to define others according to their position in their process.
I do not accept and allow myself to use my position to support my ego superiority.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in comparison, competition like running a race in this process.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the emotion of sadness and disappointment based on illusions as ideas of running ahead or being left behind within the ‘race’.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the ‘race’ in this process.
I accept and allow myself to walk this process as who I am equal and one with others walking this process together with me – assisting and supporting each other as who we really are as LIFE.
I accept and realize that I ideas and values that I have attached to forerunner in the process is not real and that it does not support me or anyone.
I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the ideas and values that I have attached to forerunner.
I accept and allow myself to live here without the ideas and values attached to definitions separate from me here.
I accept and realize that the emotion of sadness and disappointment is based on the idea that I have apparently lost my position in the process and that it is not real.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the emotional experience off sadness and disappointment.
I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by an idea that I have apparently lost my position in the process because that idea is not real in the first place.
I accept and allow myself to drop the values ideas that I have attached to my position in the process.
Rewrite-scripture:
When the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me the boss’ comes up, I stop and breathe. I stop the emotional experience of sadness and disappointment. I accept the being as one and equal as me - assisting and supporting each other as who we really are as LIFE. I assist and support myself and others to equalize each other, learn from each other – not to abuse my position to feed my ego.
The Words Work-Sheet
Word-Web: Central word: Jealousy Connected word: Superior, inferior, Nasty, spitefulness, Comparison/competition, intolerable, Disappointment, Revenge, Best/Top, judgment, win, lose
Self-Forgiveness
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge the word jealousy with a negative value.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the word jealousy as bad/wrong/negative.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word jealousy through judging the word jealousy as bad/wrong/negative.
Superior:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word jealousy to the word superior.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word superior in polarity to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word superior and the word jealousy through defining the word superior in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Inferior:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word inferior to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word inferior within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word inferior and from the word jealousy through defining the word inferior within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Nasty:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word nasty to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word nasty within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word nasty and from the word jealousy through defining the word nasty within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Spitefulness:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word spitefulness to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word spitefulness within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word spitefulness and from the word jealousy through defining the word spitefulness within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Comparison/competition:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words comparison/competition to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the words comparison/competition within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words comparison, competition, and jealousy through defining the word comparison and competition within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Intolerable:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word intolerable to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word intolerable within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word intolerable and from the word jealousy through defining the word intolerable within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Disappointment:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word disappointment to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word disappointment within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word disappointment and from jealousy through defining disappointment within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Revenge:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word revenge to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word revenge within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word revenge and from jealousy through defining the word revenge within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Best/Top:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word best/top to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word best/top in polarity to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word best/top and the word jealousy through defining the word best/top in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Judgment:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word judgment to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word judgment within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word judgment and from jealousy through defining the word judgment within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Win:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word win to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word win in polarity to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word winand the word jealousy through defining the word win in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Lose:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word lose to the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word lose within the word jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word lose and from jealousy through defining the word lose within the word jealousy in separation of myself.
Re-define the word in the centre-circle of the word-web:
Jealousy is a mind consciousness system design which stems from inferiority, superiority, self-judgment and comparison and it is based on pictures and furthers the enslavement of separation – Jail-Us-In.
The Pictures Work-Sheet
The picture is using a fist to beat a person’s head down onto the electric stove: There is a burning electric stove in the middle. A woman’s head is facing downward on the electric stove with a fist hitting at the back of her head – hitting her head onto the electric stove.
Self-Forgiveness
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in my mind in the picture of using a fist hitting at the back of a woman’s head to force her head onto the burning electric stove.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the picture of using a fist hitting at the back of a woman’s head to force her head onto the burning electric stove to exist within and as me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down to the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down within the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down and from the woman within the picture through defining these words within the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I have become the beast of jealousy represented and reflected by this picture within my mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the boss’ to exist as a trigger point within me, triggering the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the picture of using a fist to hit on the woman’s head onto the electric stove to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me the boss’.
Self-Corrective Statements
I accept and realize that this picture represents the jealousy that exist within and as me of the mind accompanied by nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse and beating down the being that I am jealous of. I accept and realize that the more I react to the picture the more attention and thus power I am giving it thus giving it permission to possess me. Who I really am is not a picture within my mind and that it is not acceptable to allow myself to be directed and controlled by such a picture in my mind.
I do not accept and allow myself to separate myself from my accepted nature as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse.
I accept and allow myself to see and investigate what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse and beating down reflected in the picture within my mind.
I accept and allow myself to stand up within it and take self-responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse.
I accept and allow myself to stand up, stop and transform my accepted nature of jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse to live as who I really am as LIFE here in breath.
Re-writing the scripture:
When the picture comes up into my mind again, I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back to the physical and participate something in the physical. If the picture keeps coming up over and over again, I check whether there are points that I am still holding onto which I have not applied self-forgiveness to release myself from. I stand up and take responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destruction and abuse. I do not allow myself to continue to live such applied nature. I remain here as breath in and as the physical assisting and supporting myself to walk transformation of my accepted nature into LIFE.
The Memories Work-Sheet
My father’s jealousy: Two years ago when I went back home in China from US. I showed my parents a video of me giving a lecture in English on a class which received some cool audience feedback. After seeing that video, my father also attempted to give a ‘lecture’ in front of us. My mother knew why he was doing that since they have been living together for so many years – the reason is that he was comparing with me in the video and was trying to show us that he is also able to do that sort of things – in my mother’s words he has such a strong ‘upward mobility’. Well, it’s basically driven by comparison and competition - even between father and son. This memory is related to the original thought in that now my father is in the role of the ‘boss’ and I am in the role of the ‘subordinate’ in the hierarchy interpretation of the father-son relationship, while the pattern is the same – comparison and competition.
Self-Forgiveness
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the memory of two years ago when I showed my parents a video of me giving a lecture in English on a class and my father participated in comparison and competition and attempted to prove to us that he is able to do the same by trying to give us a lecture.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my father for his participation in comparison and competition.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from my father through my participation in judgment of my father.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to shift responsibility onto my father instead of realizing that I have become exactly the same as my father within participation in comparison, competition and jealousy.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to the video of me giving a lecture in English.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word self-expression to the video of me giving a lecture in English.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define self-expression within the video of me giving a lecture in English.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from self-expression through defining self-expression within the lecture video in separation of myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the memory of me showing my parents a lecture video of me where my father participated in comparison and competition to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the boss’.
Self-Corrective Statements:
I accept and realize that judging my father for his participation in comparison, competition and jealousy is me shifting my responsibility to others so that I do not face my accepted and allowed mind pattern of comparison, competition and jealousy.
I do not accept and allow myself to participate in my mind in memories trying to divert my attention from myself to others so that I can shift my responsibility of working with what I have accepted and allowed.
I do not accept and allow myself to divert my attention away from taking self-responsibility through working with the pattern that I have accepted and allowed.
I do not accept and allow myself to use mental projections to escape from facing myself.
I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility, investigating and working with what I am experiencing and who I am within my experience.
I accept and realize that self-expression is here as who I am in every moment as every breath – not defined by a video where I see myself as being expressive.
I do not accept and allow myself to define my self-expression within a lecture video which I see myself as being expressive.
I do not accept and allow myself to separate myself from self-expression through defining my self-expression within a video.
I accept and allow my self-expression here as who I am in every moment as every breath.
Re-writing the script:
When the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me – the boss(功高盖主)’ comes up, I stop and breathe. I do not accept myself to go into my mind participating in memories – shifting my responsibility to others within memories. I remain here as the breath of life, taking self-responsibility for the point that I am dealing with, and express myself as who I am in the moment as breath.
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Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Self-Forgiveness on Judging and Reacting to Family
Note: The following self-forgiveness is an expansion of those that I posted on my Chinese blog on October 16, 2009.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my family as fucked up systems and that i'd better get away from them so that i do not get influenced.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am not fucked up systems through comparing myself with my family and form opinions about my family and about myself.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am equally fucked up as everyone else in this world and that I am no better than others in this process.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be superior to my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my family through judging them as less than me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as the teacher and savior of my family because I am apparently superior/better than/more than them.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be influenced by my family.
I forgive myself that I have acceptedand allowed myself to connect being influenced by my family to fear - and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I can only be influenced by external influences unless I give them permission - thus my responsibility.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard my family as disgusted systems and that i'd better keep myself away from them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape from my family instead of realizing that this process is not about keeping my family away from me (neither is it about continuing those family bullshits) - that will not assist and support me or my family or anyone.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that family can be of great support in this process of facing myself and seeing/realizing what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become - it is about the starting point of what I do.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that my family is one and equal with me as me, and that it is separation to judge my family for who they are currently.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people for who they are currently in their process.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my family through judging them for who they are currently in their process.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i should present myself as being harsh/cruel/ruthless in order to present myself as being self-honest, instead of realing that being harsh/cruel/ruthless should not be the starting point or the purpose of my action, but that the starting point should be of equality and oneness - standing one and equal with my family, assisting and supporting them as who they really are equal as me.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to accept my family as my equals.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am justified to just leave my family as what they are without taking actions - instead of realizing that within such an acceptance, I have also given permission to myself to be left to be who I am without assitance and support.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to leave my family as who they accept and allow them to be without taking action.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my family will not hear me anyway so i will not bother to communicate or do something about it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the assumption that my family will not hear me anyway thus cutting off the communication with my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seclude myself from my family - defining such an act as of sel-honesty.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to experience the apparent argument/conflict if i challenge my family's self-definitions and shake them up because what i say they would not like to hear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect argument/conflict to fear - and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not about my family - it is about who I am within my family - what I have accepted and allowed myself and my family to be and become.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place the starting point of my participation within my family to my family in separation of myself - instead of realizing that it is about who I am.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to my family's self-dishonesties without taking action because i have accepted that they won't hear me anyway and what i have to say is unpleasent and may offend them so i'd better leave them alone.
I forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to give permission to self-dishonesties within other beings instead of realizing that by doing this i have given permission to self-dishonesties to exist/continue within me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I may offend my family.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect offending my family to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that not fearing to offend others does not mean that I have to deliberately offend others in order to prove that I do not fear offending them - offending others should not become the starting point of my participation with others because then my starting point would be of separation from myself - towards others. If what is necessary to be said then it is simply said - not allowing myself to hold myself back out of fear that I may offend them.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to my family's reactions towards me, feeling frustrated/threatened by them and fearing to experience such reactions again.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of frustrattion/being threatened when my family react to my words.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the emotional reaction of frustration/being threatened is who I am.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give into reactions instead of reazlizing i was giving my power away to reactions to control/enslave me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by energetic emotional reaction - instead of me directing myself.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to experience reactions to my family's reactions.
I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to connect reacting to my family's reactions to fear and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe i should not bother to challenge my family's dishonesties but give permission to them to continue, so that i won't offend them and then we are all OK - instead of realizing that this is how we are supporting each others personalities of the mind existing in self-dishonesty.
I forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i should avoid offending other beings and avoid conflicts in all situations instead of realizing that I am actually avoiding to face my own fear. -- However, it does not mean that I have to deliberately create situations of unnecessary conflicts.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react in guilt and sadness that i offended my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of guilt and sadness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am required to go into guilt and sadness for having offended my family because apparently I have broken their hearts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be conditioned by moraltiy as how I should behave within the family situation where I apparently broken my family's heart.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the manipulation of the minds' protection/defense mechanisms from my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family for my experience of falling for the manipulation of the mind instead of realizing that I am responsible for how I experienced myself emotionally/energetically.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not of a self-honest starting point to deliberately get invovled in arguments with my father to feed each other's ego.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that my family's reactions to me and my reactions to them are all protection/defense mechanisms of the mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and get angry for falling for the manipulation of the mind's protection/defense mechanisms.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family to manipulate me - instead of realizing that I am responsible for accepting allowing myself to be manipulated by my own mind.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to risk everything to do whatever needs to be done to chanllege all self-dishonesties/illusions no matter what.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear risking my self-definition as a good/nice person/son/brother.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to protect my own self-definitions/illusions/self-dishonesties through fear.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my father has his right to hold onto his beliefs, instead of realizing that by giving permission to my father the right to continue to exist as who he is I am also giving permission to myself the right to continue to exist as who I am of the mind - abusing who we all really are as Life. Unacceptable!
I will do whatever it takes and risk everything to not accept anyone less than who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that since i can not show love to my family, i must present myself as hate which is the polarity opposite of love.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I should not show love to my family instead of realizing that this sentence is indicating that I am still believing that love is something that is able to be presented to my family in some way.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if love is required to be shown to someone/something, it implies love is not real in fact as who we are but that the opposite actually exist in order for love to exist.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word love and hate through defining them in my family in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word love to my mother.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word love and from my mother through defining the word love within my mother in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to connec the word hate to my father.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word hate and from my father through defining the word father within the word hate in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto resentment/blame/anger/hatred towards my family, wanting to separate myself from my family, not allowing myself to actually stand one and equal with my family as my family to assist and support them as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control my family and let them do what I want them to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to do what I want them to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in expectations.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to force my family to do what I want them to do and who i want them to be.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry that my family did not do what I expected/wanted them to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to change my family the way I want them to be.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I can not force others to change - my starting point would then be of separation.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize my starting point within this process must be who I am as self - not in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not to force my family to change - but to change who I am and live the change as who I am within this process and assist and support those that i come to interaction with to change/transform themselves - but I can not force anyone to change and I can not change for anyone - each has to be willing to be self-willed equals to transform ourselves and this world as ourselves to bring heaven on earth.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as expectations and anticipations.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to change to the way I want them to be.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up my family within frustration that i can not change them because they did not do exactely what i expected them to do, and say "they'd better go fuck themselves" - instead of realizing that the starting point of forcing my family to change in the way I would them to be is fucked up in the first place - because then my focus point is not who I am but become all about my family.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take responsibility for myself first, transforming/changing myself and live the self-transformation/self-change as a living example of change to assist and support my family to transform/change as themselves equl and one as myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought 'they'd beter go fuck themselves'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' with the emotional reaction of anger and spite.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in anger and spite.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as anger and spite.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty that i have participated in the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of guilt.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' as bad/wrong/negative.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' through judging the thought as bad/wrong/negative.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abandon my family by saying "they'd better go fuck themselves".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for having the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' because I have regarded this thought as me abandoning my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as bad/wrong for having the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' coming up into my mind - from a morality perspective.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I must 'care' for my family and by saying 'they'd better go fuck themselves' within my mind, I am not doing what I am supposed to do within the context of 'care' as a morality standard within family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I have done something wrong because I had the thought of abandoning my family and that I am not caring my family enough.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blinded/consumed by the family construct, disregarding the rest of the world.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that 'care' in the context of family construct is not real - because how can care exist if I do not care all equally but only care my own family?
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to agree with me to accept my point and when it is not i get frustrated/disappointed and go into spitefulness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in expectation of myself to agree with me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to support my ego through agreeing with my opinion.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel frustrated/disappointed and go into spitefulness because my opinion was not supported.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize the spitefulness towards my family is actually self-spite - me being spiteful to myself through my mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat "go fuck yourselves and suffer for what you do" as spitefulness as a punishment to my family.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat "You don't hear me. You will suffer."
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in spite and nastiness for not being able to control my family and let them do what I want them to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become spiteful and nasty for losing control.
I forgive that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my family to suffer because they did not want to hear me.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the true nature of me as spite and nastiness revealed when my ego/mind/opinions/control is not supported.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that who they really are is one and equal with who i really am -- we are one and equl as Life -- no matter how deep they are trapped, i will not give them up as who they really are -- i will do whatever it takes until they stand up, take self-responsibility to honour who we all really are as Life -- yet the first step is to take responsibility for myself.
I will not accept myself to react to my family's reactions because of feeling offended, instead i see that their reactions indicate that they are trapped in the mind consciousness systems and that is the suffering of Life the suffering of who i really am. I can not just stop there, saying i will give you up -- you do whatever you want to do. No! That is unacceptable! Within the understanding of Life suffering, within the understanding of their pains and sufferings, within my pains and sufferings, i will not stop until the abuse of Life/the abuse of whowho we all really are stops! If I am in such situations, what do I really need? Practical assistance and support if I have walked through the same points.
Can you just react in spitefulness, resentment because you perceive that you have been offended/you feel bad? Can you just abandon/reject/give up them because of your personal feelings/because you perceive that they offended you? Why do you hold such a grip towards resentment/unforgiveness? Can you place Life over your own personal feelings and emotions? Or do you place your own personal feelings/emotions/reactions over Life? What will you do? What is the honour of Life? Ask yourself. What does risking everything mean? Do you hold onto your own good name/fame/defintions? Give up self-interest entirely/completely! Honour LIFE as who we really are no matter what!
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my family as fucked up systems and that i'd better get away from them so that i do not get influenced.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am not fucked up systems through comparing myself with my family and form opinions about my family and about myself.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am equally fucked up as everyone else in this world and that I am no better than others in this process.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be superior to my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my family through judging them as less than me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as the teacher and savior of my family because I am apparently superior/better than/more than them.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be influenced by my family.
I forgive myself that I have acceptedand allowed myself to connect being influenced by my family to fear - and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I can only be influenced by external influences unless I give them permission - thus my responsibility.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard my family as disgusted systems and that i'd better keep myself away from them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape from my family instead of realizing that this process is not about keeping my family away from me (neither is it about continuing those family bullshits) - that will not assist and support me or my family or anyone.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that family can be of great support in this process of facing myself and seeing/realizing what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become - it is about the starting point of what I do.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that my family is one and equal with me as me, and that it is separation to judge my family for who they are currently.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people for who they are currently in their process.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my family through judging them for who they are currently in their process.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i should present myself as being harsh/cruel/ruthless in order to present myself as being self-honest, instead of realing that being harsh/cruel/ruthless should not be the starting point or the purpose of my action, but that the starting point should be of equality and oneness - standing one and equal with my family, assisting and supporting them as who they really are equal as me.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to accept my family as my equals.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am justified to just leave my family as what they are without taking actions - instead of realizing that within such an acceptance, I have also given permission to myself to be left to be who I am without assitance and support.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to leave my family as who they accept and allow them to be without taking action.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my family will not hear me anyway so i will not bother to communicate or do something about it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the assumption that my family will not hear me anyway thus cutting off the communication with my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seclude myself from my family - defining such an act as of sel-honesty.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to experience the apparent argument/conflict if i challenge my family's self-definitions and shake them up because what i say they would not like to hear.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect argument/conflict to fear - and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not about my family - it is about who I am within my family - what I have accepted and allowed myself and my family to be and become.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place the starting point of my participation within my family to my family in separation of myself - instead of realizing that it is about who I am.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to my family's self-dishonesties without taking action because i have accepted that they won't hear me anyway and what i have to say is unpleasent and may offend them so i'd better leave them alone.
I forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to give permission to self-dishonesties within other beings instead of realizing that by doing this i have given permission to self-dishonesties to exist/continue within me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I may offend my family.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect offending my family to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that not fearing to offend others does not mean that I have to deliberately offend others in order to prove that I do not fear offending them - offending others should not become the starting point of my participation with others because then my starting point would be of separation from myself - towards others. If what is necessary to be said then it is simply said - not allowing myself to hold myself back out of fear that I may offend them.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to my family's reactions towards me, feeling frustrated/threatened by them and fearing to experience such reactions again.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of frustrattion/being threatened when my family react to my words.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the emotional reaction of frustration/being threatened is who I am.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give into reactions instead of reazlizing i was giving my power away to reactions to control/enslave me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by energetic emotional reaction - instead of me directing myself.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to experience reactions to my family's reactions.
I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to connect reacting to my family's reactions to fear and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe i should not bother to challenge my family's dishonesties but give permission to them to continue, so that i won't offend them and then we are all OK - instead of realizing that this is how we are supporting each others personalities of the mind existing in self-dishonesty.
I forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i should avoid offending other beings and avoid conflicts in all situations instead of realizing that I am actually avoiding to face my own fear. -- However, it does not mean that I have to deliberately create situations of unnecessary conflicts.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react in guilt and sadness that i offended my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of guilt and sadness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am required to go into guilt and sadness for having offended my family because apparently I have broken their hearts.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be conditioned by moraltiy as how I should behave within the family situation where I apparently broken my family's heart.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the manipulation of the minds' protection/defense mechanisms from my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family for my experience of falling for the manipulation of the mind instead of realizing that I am responsible for how I experienced myself emotionally/energetically.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not of a self-honest starting point to deliberately get invovled in arguments with my father to feed each other's ego.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that my family's reactions to me and my reactions to them are all protection/defense mechanisms of the mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and get angry for falling for the manipulation of the mind's protection/defense mechanisms.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family to manipulate me - instead of realizing that I am responsible for accepting allowing myself to be manipulated by my own mind.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to risk everything to do whatever needs to be done to chanllege all self-dishonesties/illusions no matter what.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear risking my self-definition as a good/nice person/son/brother.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to protect my own self-definitions/illusions/self-dishonesties through fear.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my father has his right to hold onto his beliefs, instead of realizing that by giving permission to my father the right to continue to exist as who he is I am also giving permission to myself the right to continue to exist as who I am of the mind - abusing who we all really are as Life. Unacceptable!
I will do whatever it takes and risk everything to not accept anyone less than who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that since i can not show love to my family, i must present myself as hate which is the polarity opposite of love.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I should not show love to my family instead of realizing that this sentence is indicating that I am still believing that love is something that is able to be presented to my family in some way.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if love is required to be shown to someone/something, it implies love is not real in fact as who we are but that the opposite actually exist in order for love to exist.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word love and hate through defining them in my family in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word love to my mother.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word love and from my mother through defining the word love within my mother in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to connec the word hate to my father.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word hate and from my father through defining the word father within the word hate in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto resentment/blame/anger/hatred towards my family, wanting to separate myself from my family, not allowing myself to actually stand one and equal with my family as my family to assist and support them as me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control my family and let them do what I want them to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to do what I want them to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in expectations.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to force my family to do what I want them to do and who i want them to be.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry that my family did not do what I expected/wanted them to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to change my family the way I want them to be.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I can not force others to change - my starting point would then be of separation.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize my starting point within this process must be who I am as self - not in separation of myself.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not to force my family to change - but to change who I am and live the change as who I am within this process and assist and support those that i come to interaction with to change/transform themselves - but I can not force anyone to change and I can not change for anyone - each has to be willing to be self-willed equals to transform ourselves and this world as ourselves to bring heaven on earth.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as expectations and anticipations.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to change to the way I want them to be.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up my family within frustration that i can not change them because they did not do exactely what i expected them to do, and say "they'd better go fuck themselves" - instead of realizing that the starting point of forcing my family to change in the way I would them to be is fucked up in the first place - because then my focus point is not who I am but become all about my family.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take responsibility for myself first, transforming/changing myself and live the self-transformation/self-change as a living example of change to assist and support my family to transform/change as themselves equl and one as myself.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought 'they'd beter go fuck themselves'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' with the emotional reaction of anger and spite.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in anger and spite.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as anger and spite.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty that i have participated in the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of guilt.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' as bad/wrong/negative.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' through judging the thought as bad/wrong/negative.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abandon my family by saying "they'd better go fuck themselves".
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for having the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' because I have regarded this thought as me abandoning my family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as bad/wrong for having the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' coming up into my mind - from a morality perspective.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I must 'care' for my family and by saying 'they'd better go fuck themselves' within my mind, I am not doing what I am supposed to do within the context of 'care' as a morality standard within family.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I have done something wrong because I had the thought of abandoning my family and that I am not caring my family enough.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blinded/consumed by the family construct, disregarding the rest of the world.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that 'care' in the context of family construct is not real - because how can care exist if I do not care all equally but only care my own family?
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to agree with me to accept my point and when it is not i get frustrated/disappointed and go into spitefulness.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in expectation of myself to agree with me.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to support my ego through agreeing with my opinion.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel frustrated/disappointed and go into spitefulness because my opinion was not supported.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize the spitefulness towards my family is actually self-spite - me being spiteful to myself through my mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat "go fuck yourselves and suffer for what you do" as spitefulness as a punishment to my family.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat "You don't hear me. You will suffer."
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in spite and nastiness for not being able to control my family and let them do what I want them to do.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become spiteful and nasty for losing control.
I forgive that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my family to suffer because they did not want to hear me.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the true nature of me as spite and nastiness revealed when my ego/mind/opinions/control is not supported.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that who they really are is one and equal with who i really am -- we are one and equl as Life -- no matter how deep they are trapped, i will not give them up as who they really are -- i will do whatever it takes until they stand up, take self-responsibility to honour who we all really are as Life -- yet the first step is to take responsibility for myself.
I will not accept myself to react to my family's reactions because of feeling offended, instead i see that their reactions indicate that they are trapped in the mind consciousness systems and that is the suffering of Life the suffering of who i really am. I can not just stop there, saying i will give you up -- you do whatever you want to do. No! That is unacceptable! Within the understanding of Life suffering, within the understanding of their pains and sufferings, within my pains and sufferings, i will not stop until the abuse of Life/the abuse of whowho we all really are stops! If I am in such situations, what do I really need? Practical assistance and support if I have walked through the same points.
Can you just react in spitefulness, resentment because you perceive that you have been offended/you feel bad? Can you just abandon/reject/give up them because of your personal feelings/because you perceive that they offended you? Why do you hold such a grip towards resentment/unforgiveness? Can you place Life over your own personal feelings and emotions? Or do you place your own personal feelings/emotions/reactions over Life? What will you do? What is the honour of Life? Ask yourself. What does risking everything mean? Do you hold onto your own good name/fame/defintions? Give up self-interest entirely/completely! Honour LIFE as who we really are no matter what!
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Monday, June 20, 2011
Self-Forgiveness on Perceptual Reality of the Mind
Note: The following Self-Forgiveness is based on an article that I posted on my Chinese blog on October 15, 2009.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define reality according to what i perceive through my mind within the condition of my self-definition.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed mself to realize that my mind filters information deliberately according to self-definition.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that what i perceive through my mind is not the true expression of the reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that what i perceived through my mind is real and that reality is just perceptions that exists within my mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define what is real as the perceptions/ideas/beliefs that i have formed and created within my mind as my self-definition.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define existence as what exists within my mind as perceptions/ideas/beliefs, and created such a belief that whatever does not exist within my mind does not actually exist.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever does not come into mind/enter into my consciousness does not exist.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form perceptions/ideas/beliefs about reality, and project my perceptions/beliefs/ideas onto the physical reality, perceiving/believing them to be real expressions of reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the existence of perceptual reality and the apparent diversity of perceptual realities.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto my perceptions/ideas/beliefs because i have defined myself as them and fear losing them.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that whatever i fear losing is not real, who i really am as LIFE can not actually be lost - only illusions can be lost.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to filter information/perceive reality through my mind/my self-definition, ignoring deliberately what do not fit into my perceptions/ideas/beliefs of/as the mind.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have built layers upon layers upon layers of self-definitions through perceiving that which only support my self-definitions and ignoring deliberately that does not support my self-defintions.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore deliberately that which i do not want to see/hear - perceiving/believing that by ignoring them they then do not exist.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by perceiving reality through my mind, I am not actually standin one and equal with reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in oblivion to what is really going on in reality by using my mind to perceive reality, creating perceptions/ideas/beliefs of the physical reality which is not what the physical reality really is and is not what is really going on in this world.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself by defining myself as my mind, and trusting my mind to perceive and interprete myself and the world as myself for me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to believe whatever i want to believe and that this is my free will/free choice to do so - instead of realizing that I am actually existing as a slave to my mind while believing myself to be free.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to interprete the reality at my own will, instead of realizing that I am actually justifying my illusionary perceptual reality of/as the mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live in self-deception by living in my mind illusionary perceptual reality, perceiving/interpreting reality through my mind consciousness system according to my self-definitions created through thoughts/emotions/feelings/perceptions/ideas/beliefs.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself to believe that everything in this world is OK and that this world should continue to exist as it is, by deliberately ignoring the suffering and pains of other beings in this world.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the right to not see/face/consider the abuse, sufferings and pains in this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge abuse/sufferings/pains as bad - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from abuse/sufferings/pains in this world - instead of standing one and equal with them and stop them.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i can do nothing about the sufferings and pains of other beings so i will simply ignore them--pretending that they do not exist so that i can continue my own illusionary life.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up who i really am and exist as self-defeat by perceiving that i can do nothing to make a difference but to pretend that they do not exist.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as self-defeat/powerlessness/helplessness/giving up/abdication of self-responsibility.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have become numb to reports of murdings/killings/rapes/abuses/kidnappings/wars etc on newspapers, perceiving/believing that they are so far away from me and that as long as i am OK i will ignore them.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the sufferings and pains of other beings as long as they do not influence me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i can do nothing about what is happening in this world and i will just ignore it as long as it does not influence me.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding everything in this physical reality I have disregarded myself as LIFE.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard LIFE - disregard other beings that exist in this physical reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that it is normal to have such reports as murdings/killings/kidnappings/rapes/abuses/wars etc, and justify the existence of such manifestations of abuse of Life.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever i did not see/hear/feel/experience do not exist, such as the slaughtering of animals, the raping of children, wars -- from the perspective of my mind, they seem to be so far away from me that i do not feel them so they do not exist.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to disregard deliberately the sufferings and pains in other beings by saying i do not feel like bothering myself to see/face such horrific manifestations - instead of realizing that I am actually resisting to see/face myself as what I have accepted and allowed, created and manifested within and as this world as who I am.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the manifestation of abuses in this reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from other beings by existing in deliberate ignorance of what is actually going on in this world and what beings are actually experiencing.
I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to see the truth of this reality by deliberately ignoring that which i perceive to be uncomfortable because i know if i really see what is going on in this world i can not stand with what I am accepting and allowing.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the continuatioin of abuse in this reality by ignoring them deliberately.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself realize that sufferings and pains are physical experiences that are real -- they are not perceptions/ideas/beliefs that exist in the mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the physical reality and ignore what is actually going on and being experienced in the physical reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that sufferings and pains do not exist, by being addicted to and lost in my mind perceptual reality -- not even able to discern between what is real and what is not real.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify sufferings and pains by perceiving/believing that those beings deserve to experience those sufferings and pains as a punishement.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as my self-defintion as the perception/idea/belief that beings deserve to experience sufferings and pains. Unacceptable!
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to sufferings and pains in other beings by saying that "i do not feel like seeing these sufferings and pains which make me uncomfortable"--self-dishonesty. Unacceptable!
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding the rest of the world, i have given permission of disregard of who i really am as Life.
Till here no further! Stop! No longer valid! I do not accept myself to justify my mind/self-definitions/perceptual reality/perceptions/ideas/beliefs. No justification of abuses/pains/sufferings. No! Stop!
I am here as breath as the quantum moment as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression.
I transform myself in each and every single breath as each and every single moment till the abuse, sufferings and pains stop within me and within this world as me!
No more ignorace of what is really going on in this world. No more hiding in my mind perceptual reality!
Till here no further!
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I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define reality according to what i perceive through my mind within the condition of my self-definition.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed mself to realize that my mind filters information deliberately according to self-definition.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that what i perceive through my mind is not the true expression of the reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that what i perceived through my mind is real and that reality is just perceptions that exists within my mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define what is real as the perceptions/ideas/beliefs that i have formed and created within my mind as my self-definition.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define existence as what exists within my mind as perceptions/ideas/beliefs, and created such a belief that whatever does not exist within my mind does not actually exist.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever does not come into mind/enter into my consciousness does not exist.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form perceptions/ideas/beliefs about reality, and project my perceptions/beliefs/ideas onto the physical reality, perceiving/believing them to be real expressions of reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the existence of perceptual reality and the apparent diversity of perceptual realities.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto my perceptions/ideas/beliefs because i have defined myself as them and fear losing them.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that whatever i fear losing is not real, who i really am as LIFE can not actually be lost - only illusions can be lost.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to filter information/perceive reality through my mind/my self-definition, ignoring deliberately what do not fit into my perceptions/ideas/beliefs of/as the mind.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have built layers upon layers upon layers of self-definitions through perceiving that which only support my self-definitions and ignoring deliberately that does not support my self-defintions.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore deliberately that which i do not want to see/hear - perceiving/believing that by ignoring them they then do not exist.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by perceiving reality through my mind, I am not actually standin one and equal with reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in oblivion to what is really going on in reality by using my mind to perceive reality, creating perceptions/ideas/beliefs of the physical reality which is not what the physical reality really is and is not what is really going on in this world.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself by defining myself as my mind, and trusting my mind to perceive and interprete myself and the world as myself for me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to believe whatever i want to believe and that this is my free will/free choice to do so - instead of realizing that I am actually existing as a slave to my mind while believing myself to be free.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to interprete the reality at my own will, instead of realizing that I am actually justifying my illusionary perceptual reality of/as the mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live in self-deception by living in my mind illusionary perceptual reality, perceiving/interpreting reality through my mind consciousness system according to my self-definitions created through thoughts/emotions/feelings/perceptions/ideas/beliefs.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself to believe that everything in this world is OK and that this world should continue to exist as it is, by deliberately ignoring the suffering and pains of other beings in this world.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the right to not see/face/consider the abuse, sufferings and pains in this world.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge abuse/sufferings/pains as bad - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from abuse/sufferings/pains in this world - instead of standing one and equal with them and stop them.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i can do nothing about the sufferings and pains of other beings so i will simply ignore them--pretending that they do not exist so that i can continue my own illusionary life.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up who i really am and exist as self-defeat by perceiving that i can do nothing to make a difference but to pretend that they do not exist.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as self-defeat/powerlessness/helplessness/giving up/abdication of self-responsibility.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have become numb to reports of murdings/killings/rapes/abuses/kidnappings/wars etc on newspapers, perceiving/believing that they are so far away from me and that as long as i am OK i will ignore them.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the sufferings and pains of other beings as long as they do not influence me.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i can do nothing about what is happening in this world and i will just ignore it as long as it does not influence me.
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding everything in this physical reality I have disregarded myself as LIFE.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard LIFE - disregard other beings that exist in this physical reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that it is normal to have such reports as murdings/killings/kidnappings/rapes/abuses/wars etc, and justify the existence of such manifestations of abuse of Life.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever i did not see/hear/feel/experience do not exist, such as the slaughtering of animals, the raping of children, wars -- from the perspective of my mind, they seem to be so far away from me that i do not feel them so they do not exist.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to disregard deliberately the sufferings and pains in other beings by saying i do not feel like bothering myself to see/face such horrific manifestations - instead of realizing that I am actually resisting to see/face myself as what I have accepted and allowed, created and manifested within and as this world as who I am.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the manifestation of abuses in this reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from other beings by existing in deliberate ignorance of what is actually going on in this world and what beings are actually experiencing.
I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to see the truth of this reality by deliberately ignoring that which i perceive to be uncomfortable because i know if i really see what is going on in this world i can not stand with what I am accepting and allowing.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the continuatioin of abuse in this reality by ignoring them deliberately.
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself realize that sufferings and pains are physical experiences that are real -- they are not perceptions/ideas/beliefs that exist in the mind.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the physical reality and ignore what is actually going on and being experienced in the physical reality.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that sufferings and pains do not exist, by being addicted to and lost in my mind perceptual reality -- not even able to discern between what is real and what is not real.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify sufferings and pains by perceiving/believing that those beings deserve to experience those sufferings and pains as a punishement.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as my self-defintion as the perception/idea/belief that beings deserve to experience sufferings and pains. Unacceptable!
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to sufferings and pains in other beings by saying that "i do not feel like seeing these sufferings and pains which make me uncomfortable"--self-dishonesty. Unacceptable!
I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding the rest of the world, i have given permission of disregard of who i really am as Life.
Till here no further! Stop! No longer valid! I do not accept myself to justify my mind/self-definitions/perceptual reality/perceptions/ideas/beliefs. No justification of abuses/pains/sufferings. No! Stop!
I am here as breath as the quantum moment as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression.
I transform myself in each and every single breath as each and every single moment till the abuse, sufferings and pains stop within me and within this world as me!
No more ignorace of what is really going on in this world. No more hiding in my mind perceptual reality!
Till here no further!
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