Self-Forgiveness on Perceptual Reality of the Mind

Note: The following Self-Forgiveness is based on an article that I posted on my Chinese blog on October 15, 2009.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define reality according to what i perceive through my mind within the condition of my self-definition.








I forgive myself that i have not allowed mself to realize that my mind filters information deliberately according to self-definition.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that what i perceive through my mind is not the true expression of the reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that what i perceived through my mind is real and that reality is just perceptions that exists within my mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define what is real as the perceptions/ideas/beliefs that i have formed and created within my mind as my self-definition.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define existence as what exists within my mind as perceptions/ideas/beliefs, and created such a belief that whatever does not exist within my mind does not actually exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever does not come into mind/enter into my consciousness does not exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form perceptions/ideas/beliefs about reality, and project my perceptions/beliefs/ideas onto the physical reality, perceiving/believing them to be real expressions of reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the existence of perceptual reality and the apparent diversity of perceptual realities.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto my perceptions/ideas/beliefs because i have defined myself as them and fear losing them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that whatever i fear losing is not real, who i really am as LIFE can not actually be lost - only illusions can be lost.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to filter information/perceive reality through my mind/my self-definition, ignoring deliberately what do not fit into my perceptions/ideas/beliefs of/as the mind.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have built layers upon layers upon layers of self-definitions through perceiving that which only support my self-definitions and ignoring deliberately that does not support my self-defintions.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore deliberately that which i do not want to see/hear - perceiving/believing that by ignoring them they then do not exist.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by perceiving reality through my mind, I am not actually standin one and equal with reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in oblivion to what is really going on in reality by using my mind to perceive reality, creating perceptions/ideas/beliefs of the physical reality which is not what the physical reality really is and is not what is really going on in this world.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself by defining myself as my mind, and trusting my mind to perceive and interprete myself and the world as myself for me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to believe whatever i want to believe and that this is my free will/free choice to do so - instead of realizing that I am actually existing as a slave to my mind while believing myself to be free.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to interprete the reality at my own will, instead of realizing that I am actually justifying my illusionary perceptual reality of/as the mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live in self-deception by living in my mind illusionary perceptual reality, perceiving/interpreting reality through my mind consciousness system according to my self-definitions created through thoughts/emotions/feelings/perceptions/ideas/beliefs.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself to believe that everything in this world is OK and that this world should continue to exist as it is, by deliberately ignoring the suffering and pains of other beings in this world.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the right to not see/face/consider the abuse, sufferings and pains in this world.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge abuse/sufferings/pains as bad - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from abuse/sufferings/pains in this world - instead of standing one and equal with them and stop them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i can do nothing about the sufferings and pains of other beings so i will simply ignore them--pretending that they do not exist so that i can continue my own illusionary life.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up who i really am and exist as self-defeat by perceiving that i can do nothing to make a difference but to pretend that they do not exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as self-defeat/powerlessness/helplessness/giving up/abdication of self-responsibility.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have become numb to reports of murdings/killings/rapes/abuses/kidnappings/wars etc on newspapers, perceiving/believing that they are so far away from me and that as long as i am OK i will ignore them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the sufferings and pains of other beings as long as they do not influence me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i can do nothing about what is happening in this world and i will just ignore it as long as it does not influence me.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding everything in this physical reality I have disregarded myself as LIFE.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard LIFE - disregard other beings that exist in this physical reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that it is normal to have such reports as murdings/killings/kidnappings/rapes/abuses/wars etc, and justify the existence of such manifestations of abuse of Life.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever i did not see/hear/feel/experience do not exist, such as the slaughtering of animals, the raping of children, wars -- from the perspective of my mind, they seem to be so far away from me that i do not feel them so they do not exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to disregard deliberately the sufferings and pains in other beings by saying i do not feel like bothering myself to see/face such horrific manifestations - instead of realizing that I am actually resisting to see/face myself as what I have accepted and allowed, created and manifested within and as this world as who I am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the manifestation of abuses in this reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from other beings by existing in deliberate ignorance of what is actually going on in this world and what beings are actually experiencing.







I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to see the truth of this reality by deliberately ignoring that which i perceive to be uncomfortable because i know if i really see what is going on in this world i can not stand with what I am accepting and allowing.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the continuatioin of abuse in this reality by ignoring them deliberately.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself realize that sufferings and pains are physical experiences that are real -- they are not perceptions/ideas/beliefs that exist in the mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the physical reality and ignore what is actually going on and being experienced in the physical reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that sufferings and pains do not exist, by being addicted to and lost in my mind perceptual reality -- not even able to discern between what is real and what is not real.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify sufferings and pains by perceiving/believing that those beings deserve to experience those sufferings and pains as a punishement.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as my self-defintion as the perception/idea/belief that beings deserve to experience sufferings and pains. Unacceptable!







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to sufferings and pains in other beings by saying that "i do not feel like seeing these sufferings and pains which make me uncomfortable"--self-dishonesty. Unacceptable!







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding the rest of the world, i have given permission of disregard of who i really am as Life.







Till here no further! Stop! No longer valid! I do not accept myself to justify my mind/self-definitions/perceptual reality/perceptions/ideas/beliefs. No justification of abuses/pains/sufferings. No! Stop!







I am here as breath as the quantum moment as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression.







I transform myself in each and every single breath as each and every single moment till the abuse, sufferings and pains stop within me and within this world as me!







No more ignorace of what is really going on in this world. No more hiding in my mind perceptual reality!







Till here no further!

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Resistance and Procrastination Self-forgiveness

Note: the following is an expansion of an article that I published on my Chinese blog on September 30, 2009.


The most prominent point that i am dealing with is resistance to the system and the resulting procrastination.



I am currently in the education system, yet i had a resistance of being in it. Within this resistance, there is a reluctance of participating in the system and a desire to escape from the system. With the reluctance of participation and desire to escape, procrastination is born.


I have been experiencing these resistance, reluctance, desire to escape and procrastination for a long time. I regard what was here presented to me in the moment as bad or less important. I desired to do something else that i perceive to be more important and more desirable. So i will postpone doing what is here in the moment until i have to do it with anxiety and frustration to meet the dealines. Such experiences have been pertetuating for a long time.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate, defining myself as and living out my self-definition as procrastination.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to procrastination, perceiving that i can not make a difference in what i am experiencing day in and day out - enslaved, controled and trapped in the mind consciousness system.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give power and life to procrastination.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that procrastination is more than me.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a slave to the mind consciousness system.







I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to stand one and equal with my mind consciousness system and direct it as myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify procrastination, perceiving/believing that it is not a big deal and that procrastination can make me very efficient.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my self-definition as procrastination and find all kinds of excuses, reasons and justifications to hold onto my self-definition as procrastination within which i am trapped as a MCS constantly and continuously experiencing anxiety and frustration day in and day out.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety and frustration, define my self as the anxiety and frustration that i experience within me, and live out such self-definitions.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself by allowing myself to be trapped within the now of the unified consciousenss field, experiencing anxiety and frustration constantly and continuously day in and day out, charging the MCS within me which i define as who i am while abusing who i really am as Life as all as one as equal.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to systems within me to abuse who i really am as Life as all as one as equal, giving my power away to systems.







I forgive myself thati have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as self-abuse.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as self-defeat and live out my self-definition as self-defeat, perceiving that i can not make a difference in what i am experiencing within me day in and day out.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as lack of self-discipline and justify my self-definition as lack of self-discipline.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify self-abuse, self-defeat, lack of self-discipline.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by programs within me, giving my power away to programs.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as event-driven and live out my self-definition as being event-diven instead of me directing myself and me moving myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be driven by dealines and experience anxity and frustration constantly and continuously within me day in and day out, giving my power away to programs and systems within me which i define as who i am and justify their existence within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to protect programs and systems within me, giving permission to systems and programs to abuse who i really am as Life as all as one as equal.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to become dealine-riven or time-driven, giving my power away to dealines and time and live out my self-deifinition as dealine-driven and time-driven.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to programs and systems within me to trap me in the system as the now of the unified consciousness field.







i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the system as bad, exist in resitance towards being in the system and desire to escape from the system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the system, fear the system and give my power away to the system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as judgement, resistance, reluctance to be in the system and desire to escape from the system, and live out my self-defintion as resistance, reluctance to be in the system and desire to escape from the system, instead of realizing that the system exists as it currently exists is through my own participation, design and manifestation and that it is my self-responsibility to transform my own experience within what i am experiencing myself within the system to no longer allow myself to be defined by the system, i.e. to be in the sytem yet not of the system.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that existing in judgement, fear, resistance, reluctance and trying to escape is not going to solve the problem and that i must take self-responsibility to transform myself within the system and live the solution as myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify my self-definition as judgement, fear, resistance, reluctance and desiring to escape from the system instead of taking self-responsibility to transform my experience within the system to live the solution equal and one as myself to no longer be defined by the system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify procrastination and live out my self-definition as procrastination, experiencing anxiety and frustration constantly and continuously day in and day out charging and giving my power away to the mind consciousness system within me and abusing who i really am as Life as all as one as equal.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize the self-dishonesty and self-abuse that i have been doing onto myself merely by giving my power away to habitual behavior of procrastination.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to habitual behavior of procrastination, giving permission to such a program to direct me instead of me directing myself and moving myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as program/system driven and live out my self-definition as program/system driven and justify my self-definition according to system and programs, while abusing who i really am as Life as all as one as equal.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to get rid of the program of procrastination that is directing me currently.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to follow programs and allow programs to direct me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself deliberately into the program of procrastination instead of realizing that what i am doing is self-abuse.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to enjoy self-abuse. WTF!!!







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I actually enjoy self-abuse.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to form a belief about myself as enjoying self-abuse.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to deceive myself to forget what i experienced when i was driven by dealines -- the anxiety, frustration and discomfort within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as deliberate fogetfulness which is actually me being reluctant to see what i am doing to myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create forgetfulness as myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that it is justified to be forgetful.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to forgetfulness.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that since i am not experiencing the anxiety and frustration right now then it is OK for me to procrastinate instead of realizing the consequence of giving permission to such a program to direct me.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to just want to survive the experience of procrastination.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by survival instead of standing as the self directive principle, directing myself and my world.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself that there is plenty of time for me to do something and that it is OK to procrastinate.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to procrastination.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the lure of procrastination which is a program leading to self-dishonesty and self-abuse.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to sacrifice myself as Life to the system as programs.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have been falling into the program of procrastination for so long.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate myself, not really seeing what i have been experiencing within me for such a long time.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-responsibility.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to take self-responsibility to really see within me what i have been experiencing within me day in and day out, being drained by anxiety and frustration which charge the systems within me that i have defined as who i am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that i am disgusted with what i am experiencing within me while at the same did nothing to really make a difference.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed to realize that "I will never to this again" is not real because after such an experience i immediately forget what i said to myself - thus creating immediate self-invalidation and self-defeat.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to be aware of the words that I speak.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget words immediately after I have said them - indicating that I am actually in direct opposite to the words that I spoke.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to live the words as myself instead allowed myself to abuse the words i spoke as who i am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form a habitual behavior of saying "I will never do this again" while at the same still participate that which is perpetuating my experience day in and day out, denstrating that those words are not real.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create self-defeat through making statements that I did not live and actually lived the direct opposite of that which I stated.







Be careful with the word never. Rather say I will not do it again and then apply the words one and equal as self.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have abused myself as words by not living the words one and equal as myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to make false statmenets that i do not live and discipline myself to apply.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to live and apply that which i see need to be done in every moment as every breath.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize the self-dishonesty and self-abuse of not living and applying that which i see need to be done.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself by not living the words i speak.







I forgive myself that i have accepted anda llowed myself to justify the program of procrastination using other people's behavior of procrastination.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel/perceive/believe that i can only do my homework in the night.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that it is not the right time to do homework in the day.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use excuses, reasons and justifications to procrastinate, giving my power away to programs to direct me in stead of taking my power, directing and moving myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as the habitual behavior of doing my howework in the last minute.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to play the game of selective forgetfulness to justify my self-definition as programs, systems, and habitual behaviors, instead of realizing that i am only deceiving and manipulating myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive that manipulate myself through the game of selective forgetfulness.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use selective forgetfulness to create personality definitions which I have defined as who I am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as deception and manipulation, live out my self-defintion as deception and manipulation, and justify deception and manipulation.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify self-abuse.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself and live out my self-definition as inferiority towards the patterns, habitual behaviors and programs within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as self-defeat by perceiving that i can not stand up and make a direct intervention to stop the porgrams within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may fall back to the pattern of procrastination again.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect falling back to the pattern of procrastination again to fear and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







Till here no further!



I do not accept porgrams, patterns, habitual behaviors to direct me and move me!



I do not accept myself to become dealine-driven, event driven, or time-driven.



I stop myself as procrastination.



I do not accept procrastination within me.



I do not accept fear.



I do not accept self-abuse.



I do not accept self-dishonesty.







I assist and support and discipline myself to stop procrastination for 21 days!!!







I do not accept empty words!!!



I do not accept abuse of words as who i am!!!



Till here no further!!!







I assist and support myself to stop the programs and systems within me and start to move and direct myself.



I direct myself.



I move myself.



I am the directive principle of me.



I am breath every here moment.



I express.



I live.



I live who i really am as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression_r of Life as Life.


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Obligation vs Responsibility

The difference between obligation and responsibility. From my experience, obligation is something that is done with resistance or reluctance while responsibility is self-motivated self directive action - the ability to respond to Self as LIFE.



Life is not an obligation. What is best for all is not an obligation. To do what is best for all is honouring who I really am as Life as all as one as equal - thus no resistance or reluctance. Resistance to what is best for all is indication of self-definitions of self-interest.

The ultimate and only agreement of Life as who I really am as who we really are as the ultimate oneness and equality as all as one as equal is to bring Life itself into living manifestation. This is the inherent nature of Life. Thus we do what is best for all - not out of obligation but out of self-responsibility and self-realization.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define LIFE as an obligation.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist LIFE as who I really am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from LIFE as indicated by the resistance of LIFE.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my mind and believe myself to be the mind which I have accepted as who I am - within this, separating myself from LIFE.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word LIFE through connecting the word obligation to LIFE.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word obligation within the word LIFE - in separation of myself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define LIFE as a word which I see through my

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to comprehend LIFE through my mind and give LIFE a definition that I am able to understand through my mind - believing that is LIFE while it is my interpretation of LIFE.


I forgive myself that I have not accepted LIFE as who I am.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that LIFE exist outside of me separate from me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the memory when my mother once said 'then you are enslaved by LIFE' - spoken from the starting point of spitefulness.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to my mother's words.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I have been influced by my mother's words instead of realizing that I am only able to be influenced if I give it permission.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for my mother's words to influence me - instead of realizing that I have given permission for my own self-enslavement.


I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I may perceive LIFE to be separate from me and get lost in this perception.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect my perception of LIFE to be separate from me and getting lost in such a perception to fear - thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and manifest my fear of being lost in the separation from LIFE through my participation in the mind.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist what is best for all - instead of realizing that I am resisting/denying who I really am as LIFE.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat 'irrelevant' when it comes to what is best for all.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive what is best for all as empty words because I have not yet lived the words as who I am one and equal.


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to substantiate the words what is best for all through living the words as who I am in practical application in my world.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give permission for my ego to take over me through my participation in the backchat 'irrelevant' when it comes to what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define doing what is best for all as an obligation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to my mind telling me that 'I am not interested' - instead of realizing this is me of self-interest of the mind justifying self-interest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify self-interest through participating in the backchat 'I am not interested' when it comes to what is best for all.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to turn something that I previously would like to do into an obligation which I then resists doing.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define what is best for all as something I am forced to do instead of realizing that what is best for all is the self-directive action of who I really am as LIFE.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought 'I will do whatever it takes to fight against whatever imposed on me'.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in the perception that I am being forced to do something even when it is not in fact - but a perception of myself - because of my past experiences when I almost transformed everything I do into a forced action which created extensive resistance.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the bizzare pattern - when I am doing something that I actually enjoy, I then go into the experience of the perception that it is an obligation and then I exist in resistance towards it.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed mself to define myself as the pattern of transforming that which I know I would enjoy doing into an obligation which I resist doing.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as the polarity of forcing and resisting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to transform my expression into a forcing/resisting polarity construct.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage that which I enjoy doing through forcing it into an obligation which I resist.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to prevent myself from enjoying what I do.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define joy as purely of the mind and that I am not allowed to have any expression of joy.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with myself for not allowing the expression of joy to flow as me.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create such a definition of suffering when doing what I do.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as the pattern of suffering when doing what I do.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my past expreiences when I did not allow myself to enjoy what I do.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create such a perception/interpretation that I am not allowed to enjoy doing anything that is directly Desteni related - within this deliberately making my experience of participation in my world difficult when it is completely unnecessary.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with myself for deliberately making my epxerience difficult.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my mind to act like a big boss over my shoulder - telling me what to do - judging and talking bullshit.


I forgive myself that I hae accepted and allowed myself to exist in the delusion that I am being forced to do everything and resist extensively because of this delusion/interpretation that I created by myself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to victimize myself while I created and manifested these experiences as myself through my acceptance and allowance.


Self-suggestion:
Stop the perception of being forced to do everything. Stop the perception that what I do is an obligation and thus existing in resistance. Stop the 'forcing' action in polarity to 'resistance' when what I do does not require being forced. Allow myself to enjoy myself. Enjoy what I truly enjoy doing.

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