Self-Forgiveness on Perceptual Reality of the Mind

Note: The following Self-Forgiveness is based on an article that I posted on my Chinese blog on October 15, 2009.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define reality according to what i perceive through my mind within the condition of my self-definition.








I forgive myself that i have not allowed mself to realize that my mind filters information deliberately according to self-definition.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that what i perceive through my mind is not the true expression of the reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that what i perceived through my mind is real and that reality is just perceptions that exists within my mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define what is real as the perceptions/ideas/beliefs that i have formed and created within my mind as my self-definition.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define existence as what exists within my mind as perceptions/ideas/beliefs, and created such a belief that whatever does not exist within my mind does not actually exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever does not come into mind/enter into my consciousness does not exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form perceptions/ideas/beliefs about reality, and project my perceptions/beliefs/ideas onto the physical reality, perceiving/believing them to be real expressions of reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the existence of perceptual reality and the apparent diversity of perceptual realities.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto my perceptions/ideas/beliefs because i have defined myself as them and fear losing them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that whatever i fear losing is not real, who i really am as LIFE can not actually be lost - only illusions can be lost.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to filter information/perceive reality through my mind/my self-definition, ignoring deliberately what do not fit into my perceptions/ideas/beliefs of/as the mind.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have built layers upon layers upon layers of self-definitions through perceiving that which only support my self-definitions and ignoring deliberately that does not support my self-defintions.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore deliberately that which i do not want to see/hear - perceiving/believing that by ignoring them they then do not exist.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by perceiving reality through my mind, I am not actually standin one and equal with reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in oblivion to what is really going on in reality by using my mind to perceive reality, creating perceptions/ideas/beliefs of the physical reality which is not what the physical reality really is and is not what is really going on in this world.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself by defining myself as my mind, and trusting my mind to perceive and interprete myself and the world as myself for me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to believe whatever i want to believe and that this is my free will/free choice to do so - instead of realizing that I am actually existing as a slave to my mind while believing myself to be free.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to interprete the reality at my own will, instead of realizing that I am actually justifying my illusionary perceptual reality of/as the mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live in self-deception by living in my mind illusionary perceptual reality, perceiving/interpreting reality through my mind consciousness system according to my self-definitions created through thoughts/emotions/feelings/perceptions/ideas/beliefs.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself to believe that everything in this world is OK and that this world should continue to exist as it is, by deliberately ignoring the suffering and pains of other beings in this world.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the right to not see/face/consider the abuse, sufferings and pains in this world.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge abuse/sufferings/pains as bad - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from abuse/sufferings/pains in this world - instead of standing one and equal with them and stop them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i can do nothing about the sufferings and pains of other beings so i will simply ignore them--pretending that they do not exist so that i can continue my own illusionary life.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up who i really am and exist as self-defeat by perceiving that i can do nothing to make a difference but to pretend that they do not exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as self-defeat/powerlessness/helplessness/giving up/abdication of self-responsibility.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have become numb to reports of murdings/killings/rapes/abuses/kidnappings/wars etc on newspapers, perceiving/believing that they are so far away from me and that as long as i am OK i will ignore them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the sufferings and pains of other beings as long as they do not influence me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i can do nothing about what is happening in this world and i will just ignore it as long as it does not influence me.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding everything in this physical reality I have disregarded myself as LIFE.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard LIFE - disregard other beings that exist in this physical reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that it is normal to have such reports as murdings/killings/kidnappings/rapes/abuses/wars etc, and justify the existence of such manifestations of abuse of Life.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever i did not see/hear/feel/experience do not exist, such as the slaughtering of animals, the raping of children, wars -- from the perspective of my mind, they seem to be so far away from me that i do not feel them so they do not exist.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to disregard deliberately the sufferings and pains in other beings by saying i do not feel like bothering myself to see/face such horrific manifestations - instead of realizing that I am actually resisting to see/face myself as what I have accepted and allowed, created and manifested within and as this world as who I am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the manifestation of abuses in this reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from other beings by existing in deliberate ignorance of what is actually going on in this world and what beings are actually experiencing.







I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to see the truth of this reality by deliberately ignoring that which i perceive to be uncomfortable because i know if i really see what is going on in this world i can not stand with what I am accepting and allowing.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the continuatioin of abuse in this reality by ignoring them deliberately.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself realize that sufferings and pains are physical experiences that are real -- they are not perceptions/ideas/beliefs that exist in the mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the physical reality and ignore what is actually going on and being experienced in the physical reality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that sufferings and pains do not exist, by being addicted to and lost in my mind perceptual reality -- not even able to discern between what is real and what is not real.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify sufferings and pains by perceiving/believing that those beings deserve to experience those sufferings and pains as a punishement.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as my self-defintion as the perception/idea/belief that beings deserve to experience sufferings and pains. Unacceptable!







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to sufferings and pains in other beings by saying that "i do not feel like seeing these sufferings and pains which make me uncomfortable"--self-dishonesty. Unacceptable!







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding the rest of the world, i have given permission of disregard of who i really am as Life.







Till here no further! Stop! No longer valid! I do not accept myself to justify my mind/self-definitions/perceptual reality/perceptions/ideas/beliefs. No justification of abuses/pains/sufferings. No! Stop!







I am here as breath as the quantum moment as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression.







I transform myself in each and every single breath as each and every single moment till the abuse, sufferings and pains stop within me and within this world as me!







No more ignorace of what is really going on in this world. No more hiding in my mind perceptual reality!







Till here no further!

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Muscle Twitching and Asking Questions

Note: This is not a new article. It is an article I published on my Chinese blog on September 17, 2009. I am now moving it to this English blog as a part of the process of reorganizing my blogs.

Muscle twitching is an indication of system manifestation within the human physical body. I have experienced this for some time. My human physical body has been assisting and supporting me for a long time but most of the time I did not recoganize what my body was telling me. What is crucial is to identify specifically the systems within the human physical body from the manifested symptoms such as muscle twitching. And structural resonance alignment training course based on muscle testing which is communication with muscles by asking specific questions to identify manifested systems within the human physical body will assist a lot. At this moment i have not yet been able to communicate specifically with my muscles but i have been aware of the manifested symptoms such as muscle twitching and pains at specific points of my human physical body.

Today i have just had such an experience. I have been experiencing some struggle in deciding whether to ask or answer questions in class and my starting point of doing so. In the class of solid state physics today, the professor asked a question and after a while no one could give an answer. In order to break this perceived uncomfortable silence (merely a perceptoin through the mind) i gave it a shot. The answer turned out to be incorrect. I immediately felt that i made a stupid mistake. I judged myself to be like an idiot and moron and judged myself as being stupid. Later on I also felt that my answer was based on a naive shallow guess and showed no 'profound thinking'. I also feared other students in the class juding me as being stupid. I experienced anxiety and discomfort after i realized that the answer was not correct. I defined it as a humiliation and perceived that i had 'lost my face'. My face got hot due to blood flushing in and i dropped my head down imagining that other students are looking at me and judging me, fearing to face the professor and other students. I tried to pretend to be cool and divert my attention from what i am thinking of myself by picking up a pile of documents and put it somewhere else which had no meaning at all but to divert attention. The lecture moved on and i had almost no intent in hearing what the professor was presenting. After a while a student asked a very basic question regarding a definition which i perceived to be too trivial and i judged him to have asked a stupid question which in part is because i wanted to feel better by perceiving that others did the same stupid thing i did. All those are self-judgement and judgement of others as myself. I experienced sharp pain points in my body, besides the belly button specifically. Then i wanted to save my face by giving some profound answers that can prove my intelligence and smartness. (Right now as i was typing these words i experienced muscle twitching and pain again on my left arm. It seems that i have triggered some specific points within my human physical body.) So i searched eagerly for opportunities to answer some questions to save face. And i did. I was directed by the desire to prove myself to others and present myself to others. I was so eager to spit out what i know and get accepted and confirmed by others. I did not want to appear to be stupid. And i feared to be regarded as being stupid. Yeah, desire to prove to others that i am not stupid. And when i was trying to present my intellectuality and smartness i existed in anticipation and expectation. I was anxious, excited, anticipating to spit out my knowledge. This strong desire, anxiety and anticipation caused almost my whole body to tremble and twitch. After i answered some answers that i felt satisfactory, i experienced an apparent relief and superiority, believing that i have saved my face and established my intellectuality. So this whole scenario of asking and answering questions was done from the starting point of supporting my ego.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive the question to be too trivial to deserve an answer.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the question to be stupid.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there are stupid questions and answers.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel puzzled and confused and fear to ask questions to clear it up.

I forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to fear that i may ask stupid questions.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that the question i asked may be too trivial and may reflect my stupidity.


i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge questions and judge myself for asking questions.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i can only ask profound questions and give profound answers.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i should avoid asking questions that do not reflect my profoundness and intellectuality even the question may assist me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to use asking questions and giving answers as a means to present myself to support my own self-definition as being intellectual and smart.


i forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed to hold onto and live out my self-definition as being smart and intellectual and fear losing my self-definition.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive i have lost my self-definition of being smart, intellectual, superior by answering questions incorrectly and I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel stupid, idiotic, ashamed, embarrasing, humiliated, having lost face that i did not answer the question correctly.


I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to be clear with the starting point of asking and answering questions.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the questions other students asked and perceive them to be stupid to ask such trivial questions.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge questions and answers.



I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel that i have made a stupid mistake by giving an incorrect answer.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from judgement.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and judge others as myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i was the only one who appeared to be stupid.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to desire to see that others made the same stupid mistakes i made and find all ways to manipulate myself to believe that others really made the same stupid mistakes i did while the starting point is i judged myself in the first place.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel good to see or believe that others made the same mistakes i made and perceive myself to not be the only one that is stupid.

I forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to fear to be the only one who appeared to be stupid which is self-judgement in the first place, and feel that my stupidity has been alleviated with the presence of other beings' stupidity.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel that if others made the same mistakes i made, the mistakes become lesser.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to save face which is to save my self-definition as being intellectual and smart.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in comparison and competition in class with other students exist in the imaginary competition and perceive myself to be superior if i have answered a question perfectly.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place value and worth in answering questions correctly and gain praise and confirmation from teachers.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to gain favor from teacheres.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i can only accept myself when i have proved to others that i am intellectual and smart.


I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to accept myself unconditionally, instead i separated myself from self-acceptance by desiring acceptance and confirmation and favor from teachers.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to become a pet of the teachers.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define asking and answering questions as opportunities to perpetuate my MCS and self-definition.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i need to save my face by giving profound answers and perceive that i can save my face.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to experience anticipation and expectation and anxiety when i desired to spit out something that i perceive to be important.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as anticipation and expectation and the experienced anxiety.

I forgive myself that ihave accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as anticipation, expectation and experienced anxiety.


I forgive myself that ihave accepted and allowed myself to be anxious when i expect a certain result after i answer the question.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place value, worth, importance in answering questions correctly and profoundly.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have accepted and allowed myself to have the desire to prove to other beings a certain presentation of myself that ihave defined as who i am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to present myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the picture presentation of myself.
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