Working on the Jealousy System in DIP

The following is extracted from my 8th assignment of the Introduction to Desteni Course within the Desteni I Process( http://desteniiprocess.com/ ) , where I worked on the Jealousy system.





Writing:




Recently we have been having quite some group discussions on QQ(a software that is like skype but mainly used by people in China Mainland). A person L who recently started to participate actively in Desteni Chinese seemed to have done a lot of reading on various materials and she has been answering people’s questions and directing the situation very effectively. After observing this person’s expressions and what she did, I had a thought of ‘Her contribution is more than me – the boss’(The actual thought is in Chinese“功高盖主”and here I am translating it into English for understanding). I compared myself with her and felt inferior and perceived that my thunder has been stolen. I experienced jealousy towards her for her expression. I noticed this point and applied self-forgiveness on it.



I this assignment I am working with the system of jealousy.







The various components I will be working with:



Thought: Her contribution is more than me – the boss.



Emotions and Feelings: Emotion: sadness



Words: Jealousy



Pictures: the picture is using a fist to beat a person’s head down onto the electric stove.



Memories: My father’s jealousy







The Thoughts Work-Sheet



Her contribution is more than me – the boss.





Self-Forgiveness



I forgive for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’ when I saw the person L was very effective in answering people’s questions in the Desteni QQ group.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’ to seeing the person L being very effective in answering people’s questions.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing seeing the person L being very effective in answering people’s questions to exist as a triggering point within me, triggering the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in the ability to answer people’s questions.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in knowledge and understanding.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in comparison and competition with L.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from L through participation in comparison and competition.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel inferior to L through my participation in comparison and competition.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that inferiority actually exists.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that superiority actually exists.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself in comparison to others as ‘more than’ or ‘less than’ them.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in knowledge and understanding of materials.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in answering people’s questions.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in information processing skills and reading abilities.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be superior.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the make-belief that I am superior.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard L as my subordinate and thus ‘supposedly’ inferior.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see/treat L as my equal.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from l through regarding L as my subordinate and me as the ‘boss’.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an idea of me being the boss and L as my subordinate.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be the boss and that my authority should not be challenged or threatened by my ‘subordinate’.



I forgive myself to perceive/believe that my status as a boss has been threatened because the subordinate is more than me the boss, instead of realizing that the ‘boss’ status is not real in the first place – it is just an idea within my mind which I used to hide the inferiority that exist within me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the boss belief of myself to hide/cover up the inferiority that exists within me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate and exist within the polarity design of inferiority and superiority.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel/perceive/believe that my status of superiority has been threatened by L, instead of realizing that the belief of me being superior is not real in the first place.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the self-definition of being superior.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing superiority to exist within and as me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use knowledge and information to create the belief of superiority/inferiority.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I know more than others then I am superior.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel inferior to a person when that person knows something that I do not know yet.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use/abuse/manipulate knowledge and information to hold onto my self-belief of being superior.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to always want to win within my mind.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to think that I know this knowledge that you do not know so I am still better than you – I am still superior to you.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself to believe that I am still superior to keep my superiority intact.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing the believed superior status that I have established within my mind.



I forgive myself to connect losing superiority to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the superiority status that I have established within my mind is not real and is just an idea/belief about myself.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the self-definition of being superior.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive that my thunder has been stolen by L because she is getting more attention than me in the group.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to get other people’s attentions because I have not given myself attention.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in how much attention is given to us.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire that people focus more on me than on L.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened when I see L gets more attention from others.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I cannot tolerate another person being more than me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the belief that the ‘subordinate’ should not be better than the ‘boss’.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have the desire to contain the person always less than me so that I can always be more than.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be always more than others.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to always want to win over others.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be jealous of L because I perceive/believe that L is more than me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than/more than, inferior/superior through comparison and competition with others.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the self-judgments as more than/less than, inferior/superior is real.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened by beings who I see as superior to me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use nastiness, spite and gossip to exalt myself as ego above the other being within my mind – so that I can feel like I have won and other being has lost.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and destroy whoever I am jealous about – through nastiness, spite and gossip.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the thought everybody falls as a means to make myself feel that I have won within my mind.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to put the being who I perceive to be more than me down so that I do not experience inferiority.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self-responsibility through believing that it is the person outside me who I perceive to be superior to me that is causing me to be inferior – instead of realizing that I am responsible for what I experience within me – the inferiority/superiority.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that within jealousy lies an opportunity for me to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about – so that I equalize myself with this being.





Self-Corrective Statements:



I accept and realize that comparison and competitions is of the mind, supporting the polarity game of superiority/inferiority, win/lose and does not support who I really am as Life.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in comparison and competition of the mind.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the polarity game of superiority/inferiority, win/lose of the mind through participation in comparison/competition.



I do not accept and allow myself to support my mind of the polarity game.



I support who I really am as LIFE here in breath.





I accept and realize that superiority/inferiority is not real – they are games played within my mind which I believed to be real. I accept and realize that the idea of me being the boss the superior and L being my subordinate the inferior is not real – it is just an idea within my mind and that it is not actually supporting anyone.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe that superiority/inferiority is real.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the mind game of superiority/inferiority.



I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the perception/idea/belief of me being the boss/superior and L being my subordinate/inferior.



I do not accept and allow myself to support the illusion of myself of my mind as perceptions/ideas/beliefs that I have created as myself which I have believed to be who I am.





I do not accept and allow myself to judge myself or others as less than/more than, superior/inferior through my participation in comparison/competition.



I do not accept and allow myself to judge others as that would be accepting and allowing myself to judge myself.





I accept and realize that whenever anything nasty comes up about another person, it is because I am jealous. I accept and realize that nastiness, spite and gossip are indicators of jealousy.



I accept and allow myself to investigate within myself the point of jealousy when nastiness, spite and gossip come up about another person.



I do not accept and allow myself to feed nastiness, spite and gossip through participation.



I do not accept and allow myself to feed the desire to win within my mind.



I do not accept and allow myself to feed the desire to destroy others, to bring them down because I am jealous of them.





I accept and realize that jealousy furthers the enslavement of separation.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in jealousy.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the enslavement of separation through participation in jealousy.





I accept and realize that within jealousy lies an opportunity for me to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about – so that I equalize myself with this being.



I accept and allow myself to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about.



I accept and allow myself to equalize myself with the person I am jealous about.



I accept and allow myself to equalize myself with the person L in information processing ability, reading ability, understanding, realizations, ability of answering questions effectively.





Rewriting the script:



When I see L being effective in answering people’s questions in Desteni QQ group, I do not accept myself to participate in the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me the boss’. I stop. I breathe. I do not accept myself to go into comparison and competition or create the self-judgment of inferiority, which is not real. Instead, I assist and support myself to equalize myself with the being in the ability of information processing ability, reading ability, understanding, realizations, ability of answering questions effectively. I stand one and equal with the being L as myself.







The Emotion or Feeling Work-Sheet



Emtion: Sadness



Self-Forgiveness:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotion of sadness.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the emotion of sadness to exist within and as me.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotion of disappointment.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the emotion of disappointment to exist within and as me.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the emotion of sadness as disappointment to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me-the boss’.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed when I perceive that L has surpassed me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because I believe that I have lost my forerunner position.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because I believe that I have been left behind by somebody who joined in later than me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being left behind.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being left behind to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I have lost my position as a forerunner.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive this process as running a race.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to my position in the process.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as being superior according to my position in the process.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because of the perceived ‘loss’.





Self-Corrective Statements:





I accept and realize that each one is in their individual process and that my position in the process does not define who I am. And that this process is not like running a race at all – who is the first runner, who runs better, who runs faster, who is ahead, who is behind etc.



I do not accept and allow myself to compare myself with others in where we are currently in our process.



I do not accept and allow myself to define myself according to my position in the process.



I do not accept and allow myself to define others according to their position in their process.



I do not accept and allow myself to use my position to support my ego superiority.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in comparison, competition like running a race in this process.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the emotion of sadness and disappointment based on illusions as ideas of running ahead or being left behind within the ‘race’.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the ‘race’ in this process.



I accept and allow myself to walk this process as who I am equal and one with others walking this process together with me – assisting and supporting each other as who we really are as LIFE.





I accept and realize that I ideas and values that I have attached to forerunner in the process is not real and that it does not support me or anyone.



I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the ideas and values that I have attached to forerunner.



I accept and allow myself to live here without the ideas and values attached to definitions separate from me here.





I accept and realize that the emotion of sadness and disappointment is based on the idea that I have apparently lost my position in the process and that it is not real.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the emotional experience off sadness and disappointment.



I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by an idea that I have apparently lost my position in the process because that idea is not real in the first place.



I accept and allow myself to drop the values ideas that I have attached to my position in the process.





Rewrite-scripture:



When the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me the boss’ comes up, I stop and breathe. I stop the emotional experience of sadness and disappointment. I accept the being as one and equal as me - assisting and supporting each other as who we really are as LIFE. I assist and support myself and others to equalize each other, learn from each other – not to abuse my position to feed my ego.





The Words Work-Sheet



Word-Web: Central word: Jealousy Connected word: Superior, inferior, Nasty, spitefulness, Comparison/competition, intolerable, Disappointment, Revenge, Best/Top, judgment, win, lose



Self-Forgiveness



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge the word jealousy with a negative value.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the word jealousy as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word jealousy through judging the word jealousy as bad/wrong/negative.







Superior:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word jealousy to the word superior.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word superior in polarity to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word superior and the word jealousy through defining the word superior in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Inferior:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word inferior to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word inferior within the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word inferior and from the word jealousy through defining the word inferior within the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Nasty:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word nasty to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word nasty within the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word nasty and from the word jealousy through defining the word nasty within the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Spitefulness:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word spitefulness to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word spitefulness within the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word spitefulness and from the word jealousy through defining the word spitefulness within the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Comparison/competition:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words comparison/competition to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the words comparison/competition within the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words comparison, competition, and jealousy through defining the word comparison and competition within the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Intolerable:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word intolerable to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word intolerable within the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word intolerable and from the word jealousy through defining the word intolerable within the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Disappointment:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word disappointment to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word disappointment within the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word disappointment and from jealousy through defining disappointment within the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Revenge:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word revenge to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word revenge within the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word revenge and from jealousy through defining the word revenge within the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Best/Top:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word best/top to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word best/top in polarity to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word best/top and the word jealousy through defining the word best/top in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Judgment:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word judgment to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word judgment within the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word judgment and from jealousy through defining the word judgment within the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Win:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word win to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word win in polarity to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word winand the word jealousy through defining the word win in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Lose:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word lose to the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word lose within the word jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word lose and from jealousy through defining the word lose within the word jealousy in separation of myself.





Re-define the word in the centre-circle of the word-web:



Jealousy is a mind consciousness system design which stems from inferiority, superiority, self-judgment and comparison and it is based on pictures and furthers the enslavement of separation – Jail-Us-In.







The Pictures Work-Sheet



The picture is using a fist to beat a person’s head down onto the electric stove: There is a burning electric stove in the middle. A woman’s head is facing downward on the electric stove with a fist hitting at the back of her head – hitting her head onto the electric stove.



Self-Forgiveness



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in my mind in the picture of using a fist hitting at the back of a woman’s head to force her head onto the burning electric stove.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the picture of using a fist hitting at the back of a woman’s head to force her head onto the burning electric stove to exist within and as me.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down to the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down within the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down and from the woman within the picture through defining these words within the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I have become the beast of jealousy represented and reflected by this picture within my mind.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the boss’ to exist as a trigger point within me, triggering the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the picture of using a fist to hit on the woman’s head onto the electric stove to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me the boss’.





Self-Corrective Statements



I accept and realize that this picture represents the jealousy that exist within and as me of the mind accompanied by nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse and beating down the being that I am jealous of. I accept and realize that the more I react to the picture the more attention and thus power I am giving it thus giving it permission to possess me. Who I really am is not a picture within my mind and that it is not acceptable to allow myself to be directed and controlled by such a picture in my mind.



I do not accept and allow myself to separate myself from my accepted nature as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse.



I accept and allow myself to see and investigate what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse and beating down reflected in the picture within my mind.



I accept and allow myself to stand up within it and take self-responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse.



I accept and allow myself to stand up, stop and transform my accepted nature of jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse to live as who I really am as LIFE here in breath.



Re-writing the scripture:



When the picture comes up into my mind again, I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back to the physical and participate something in the physical. If the picture keeps coming up over and over again, I check whether there are points that I am still holding onto which I have not applied self-forgiveness to release myself from. I stand up and take responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destruction and abuse. I do not allow myself to continue to live such applied nature. I remain here as breath in and as the physical assisting and supporting myself to walk transformation of my accepted nature into LIFE.





The Memories Work-Sheet



My father’s jealousy: Two years ago when I went back home in China from US. I showed my parents a video of me giving a lecture in English on a class which received some cool audience feedback. After seeing that video, my father also attempted to give a ‘lecture’ in front of us. My mother knew why he was doing that since they have been living together for so many years – the reason is that he was comparing with me in the video and was trying to show us that he is also able to do that sort of things – in my mother’s words he has such a strong ‘upward mobility’. Well, it’s basically driven by comparison and competition - even between father and son. This memory is related to the original thought in that now my father is in the role of the ‘boss’ and I am in the role of the ‘subordinate’ in the hierarchy interpretation of the father-son relationship, while the pattern is the same – comparison and competition.





Self-Forgiveness



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the memory of two years ago when I showed my parents a video of me giving a lecture in English on a class and my father participated in comparison and competition and attempted to prove to us that he is able to do the same by trying to give us a lecture.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my father for his participation in comparison and competition.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from my father through my participation in judgment of my father.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to shift responsibility onto my father instead of realizing that I have become exactly the same as my father within participation in comparison, competition and jealousy.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to the video of me giving a lecture in English.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word self-expression to the video of me giving a lecture in English.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define self-expression within the video of me giving a lecture in English.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from self-expression through defining self-expression within the lecture video in separation of myself.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the memory of me showing my parents a lecture video of me where my father participated in comparison and competition to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the boss’.



Self-Corrective Statements:



I accept and realize that judging my father for his participation in comparison, competition and jealousy is me shifting my responsibility to others so that I do not face my accepted and allowed mind pattern of comparison, competition and jealousy.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in my mind in memories trying to divert my attention from myself to others so that I can shift my responsibility of working with what I have accepted and allowed.



I do not accept and allow myself to divert my attention away from taking self-responsibility through working with the pattern that I have accepted and allowed.



I do not accept and allow myself to use mental projections to escape from facing myself.



I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility, investigating and working with what I am experiencing and who I am within my experience.





I accept and realize that self-expression is here as who I am in every moment as every breath – not defined by a video where I see myself as being expressive.



I do not accept and allow myself to define my self-expression within a lecture video which I see myself as being expressive.



I do not accept and allow myself to separate myself from self-expression through defining my self-expression within a video.



I accept and allow my self-expression here as who I am in every moment as every breath.





Re-writing the script:



When the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me – the boss(功高盖主)’ comes up, I stop and breathe. I do not accept myself to go into my mind participating in memories – shifting my responsibility to others within memories. I remain here as the breath of life, taking self-responsibility for the point that I am dealing with, and express myself as who I am in the moment as breath.


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Working on the Trust System in DIP

The following is extracted from my 7th assignment of the Introduction to Desteni Course within the Desteni I Process( http://desteniiprocess.com/ ) , where I worked on the Trust system.





Writing:




I will take the most relevant part of an event that happened in my world for the purpose of this assignment.



The event that took place involved another two persons which I will use F and A to represent them. F and I had disagreements on some issues. F sent to A an email which involved something about me, but I did not know the specific content of that email. But from A’s response, I had a thought that ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.’



The related system design I am going to work on in this assignment is trust.







Various Components I will be working with:



Thought: The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.



Emotion: anger



Words: distrust/trust



Pictures: No specific picture is related to the original thought.



Memories: College entrance examination







The Thoughts Work-Sheet



The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.



Self-Forgiveness:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.’





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me’ to my interpretation of A’s response by taking it personally.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my interpretation of A’s response through taking it personally to exist as a trigger point within me, triggering the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me’.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself and my trust from myself through placing my trust outside me separate from me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from myself, from my own self-trust, and from the being A through defining and placing my trust within A separate from me.





I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that trusting another outside of me separate from me, defining my trust outside of myself is actually a manifestation of me being a wimp, using an excuse for not trusting myself because I actually fear taking self-responsibility.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust outside of me because I fear myself – fear what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear realizing and trusting my own self-honesty – taking responsibility for myself, my life and my creation as this world.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place trust in someone else so that if they fuck up, then I am able to blame them and then I am not being responsible.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try to get other people to trust me because if they trust me, I can manipulate them to have my way and control my world.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be unwilling to admit that I participated in manipulation and control within wanting other people to trust me because then I am a bad person.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as a bad person because I have judged the word manipulation and control.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the words manipulation and control as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words manipulation and control through judging the words manipulation and control as bad/wrong/negative – in separation of myself.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want/desire/need others to trust me so that I can manipulate and control others for my own advantage of my ego of self-interest.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want people to trust me so that I can manipulate them to get what I want/need/desire of self-interest.





I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that if I place my trust in another, then they will betray and deceive me – equal and one to my starting point of self-deception within placing my trust outside of me.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that betrayal does not actually exist – what exists is self-betrayal within the very starting point of trusting others and placing trust in separation from myself thus self-dishonesty and therefore I am responsible.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I am responsible for the manifested experience of betrayal because I have betrayed myself through separating myself from self-trust.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that trust has never existed, but trust has been existing as a system hiding deception – what exists behind trust is deception and this world exists in deception.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that placing my trust out there in other human beings creates and compounds emotions and feelings and thoughts and memories and pictures inside the mind, thus assisting and supporting the manifestation and generation of the mind consciousness system within me.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that ‘trust’ is the relationship connection line that connects relationships as the mind consciousness systems, which is manifesting this existence of separation.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am self-dishonest from the very starting point of placing my trust within another outside of me separate from me.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the web of self-dishonesty and separation is woven through relationship connections of placing trust outside and separate from self, instead of here as self – I am self-trust, I take self-responsibility.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define trust outside separate from me, creating relationship connections of ‘attempting and trying to hide’.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide behind relationships instead of facing myself and taking self-responsibility within the application of self-honesty.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that who I am as one as equal as myself is here as every breath and in defining my trust separate from myself within another human being or other human beings within this world, I have separated me from myself which is self-dishonesty because I am separating myself from myself and existing in separation with another human being – which is manifesting a relationship, where two mind systems come together and experience each other together and support and assist each other as mind consciousness systems.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rely on memories to tell me what to do/who to be.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust my mind to tell me what to do and who to be.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust my memories instead of trusting myself.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self-responsibility to my mind in trusting my mind rather than me.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish my self-trust through continuously choosing my mind over me – following what my mind tells me to do, suppressing myself – instead of doing and saying what I see requires to be done or spoken in a moment.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing to act in breath here within the context of what is best for all, live here completely, embracing what is best for all – trusting myself and being trustworthy.





I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to live the word trust as who I am as the expression of the application of self-honesty as who I am.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that within the illusion of defining my trust within another separate from me I am not actually able to trust anything or anyone within this world and within this existence – because self-trust is here as who I am in every moment of every breath.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that self-trust is the expression of self that manifests in application of self-honesty as self in every moment of every breath.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that self-trust is an infinite expression of self, is an infinite statement of self in application that remains as self in every moment of every breath.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that self-trust cannot exist without self-honesty.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to live self-honesty as me and within self-honesty trust me.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that self-honesty and self-trust are equal and one in expression and application.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that self-honesty is the application and self-trust is the expression of the application of self-honesty – both self-honesty and self-trust as one living example of self is who I am here in every moment of every breath.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be self-dishonest with the experience of myself in the moment (instead of doing and saying what I see requires to be done or spoken in a moment) and continued that self-dishonesty within me in ignoring what I am actually experiencing within me – within that I have ‘lost’ that expression of me of self-honesty and just do what everyone else wants me to do – in that inverting and suppressing myself – and in that my trust is dispersed.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the way my trust is connected to relationships outside of me is because I have suppressed my own self-honesty and therefore no self-trust exists and then I defined my self-trust separate from myself because I have separated myself from my own self-honesty.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to establish self-certainty as ‘who I am’ in every moment of every breath as the expression of self-trust within and as the application of self-honesty.





Self-Corrective Statements:



I accept and realize that trust is self-dishonesty because within placing trust outside of me, I am separating myself from myself, my trust and other human beings.



I do not accept and allow myself to place trust outside of me separate from me – I accept and allow trust the expression of who I am equal and one with the application of self-honesty as who I am in every moment as every breath.





I accept and realize that defining my trust outside of myself is actually a manifestation of me being a wimp, using an excuse to not trust myself because of fear of taking self-responsibility. And that by placing trust outside of me separate from me – I can use that as an excuse to blame if things fuck up so that I do not have to take self-responsibility.



I do not accept and allow myself to blame others if things fuck up because apparently I have placed trust within them while they have dishonored my trust.



I accept and allow myself to trust my own self-honesty – taking responsibility for myself, my life and my creation as this world.





I accept and realize that me wanting other people to trust me is because I want to manipulate others to have it my way and control my world to support my ego of self-interest



I do not accept and allow myself to use trust to manipulate and control.



I do not accept myself to support my ego of self-interest under the disguise of trust.



I accept and allow myself to stop the manipulation and control under the disguise of trust.



I accept and allow myself to live self-trust as the expression of who I am of self-honesty here in breath.





I accept and realize that the starting-point of/as trusting another outside of self is deception – and that is what I will manifest because I am deceiving myself in the very starting-point of placing my trust outside of self. I accept and realize that I am responsible for the manifested experience of betrayal because I have betrayed myself through separating myself from self-trust.



I do not accept and allow self-betrayal as my starting point of/as separating myself from my self-trust through placing trust outside of me separate from me.



I do not accept and allow myself to blame others to betray me instead I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility within self-honesty and sort out my starting point of self-betrayal.





I accept and realize that trust has never actually existed, but trust has been existing as a system hiding deception. I accept and realize that placing my trust out there in other human beings creates and compounds emotions and feelings and thoughts and memories and pictures inside the mind, thus assisting and supporting the manifestation and generation of the mind consciousness system within me and the manifestation of this existence of separation. I accept and realize that the web of self-dishonesty and separation is woven through relationship connections of placing trust outside and separate from self where two mind systems come together and experience each other together and support and assist each other as mind consciousness systems, instead of self-trust being here as self.



I do not accept and allow myself to hide behind relationships through placing and defining trust outside separate from me thus supporting the mind consciousness system and this manifested consciousness existence of separation.





I accept and realize that if I am continuously dishonest with myself – I’ll lose all trust in myself, because in moments I required to speak or act in self-honesty I followed my mind and suppressed myself and did not do it.



I do not accept myself to rely on my past/memories, thoughts, emotions, and feelings as my mind to tell me what to do and who I am.



I do not accept and allow myself to diminish my self-trust through continuously choosing my mind over me – following what my mind tells me to do, suppressing myself.



I accept and allow myself to assist and support myself to do and say what I see requires to be done or spoken in the here moment in breath within the context of what is best for all - live here completely, embracing what is best for all – trusting myself and being trustworthy.



I accept and allow myself and to take self-responsibility within the application of self-honesty as me here and express myself in self-trust accordingly in the moment of breath as who I am as one as equal as myself here within the consideration of what is best for all.





Re-scripture of the practical solution for the trigger point



When an event occurs which is unclear to me yet, I slow down and breathe. I do not accept myself to rush into reactions. If any reactions such as panic, anger, blame etc come up, I breathe and stop them. I do not accept myself to go into assumptions and interpretations, jump into conclusions, and create opinions and make-beliefs within my mind about what this event is. If such assumptions/interpretations/opinions/beliefs etc do come up, I bring them back to myself and investigate within self-honesty why do such things exist within me – if any points are revealed within investigation I apply self-forgiveness and self corrective application to sort myself out.







The Emotion or Feeling Work-Sheet



Anger



Self-Forgiveness:



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to connect the emotion of anger and grievance to the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.’



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the thought/assumption/perception/idea/belief/interpretation that ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened’ and that has caused A to trust me’ to exist as a trigger point within me, triggering the emotion of grievance and anger.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the emotional experience of anger because I believed that it is all F’s fault to mispresent information to A about me which caused A to distrust me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry because I feel that I am not trusted anymore.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be trusted by other people.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only that exists is the anger of self because of self-dishonesty.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the anger that I directed and blamed onto F is actually the anger that exist within me due to my participation in self-dishonesty.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I am self-dishonest within the very starting point of placing trust within A in separation of myself so that I can manipulate and control.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the emotion of anger because I can no longer manipulate and control if people do not trust me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the emotion of anger because my self-dishonesty is not supported.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the emotion of anger because I believed I am the victim in this event and F is the one who abused me so that I have the right to be angry and blame F.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I have the right to be angry because apparently I am the victim in this event and F is the one who abused me.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify my anger through manipulating myself to go into the victim self-definition of being treated unfairly.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame F for my emotional reaction of anger which originates from my own accepted and allowed self-dishonesty of placing trust outside of me separate from me, so that I do not have to take self-responsibility for my accepted and allowed self-dishonesty.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame F for my emotional reaction of anger instead of realizing that I am responsible for my emotional reaction because the anger is actually revealing my accepted and allowed self-dishonesty of placing my trust in separation of myself.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotional experience of grievance because I felt that I had been treated unfairly due to mispresented information about me by F.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame F for my emotional reaction of anger and grievance.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the emotional experience based on an assumption that F sent A an email with mispresented information about me while that is merely an assumption and I do not know whether that is a fact or not.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe the assumption that I have made within my mind to be real.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be directed by my own make-beliefs within my mind that is not based on facts but based on assumptions.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to jump into conclusions based on assumptions/opinions/perceptions/ideas/beliefs – conning myself with illusions that I have conjured up within my mind.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be deluded by my conclusions/assumptions/opinions/perceptions/ideas/beliefs that I have made about an event that took place.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place myself into the self-definition of a victim based on make-beliefs that I have convinced myself to be real.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to victimize myself using make-beliefs that I have created within my mind so that I can define myself as a victim and participate in the emotion of grievance, blame and anger.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to victimize myself so that I can just dwell on blame instead of taking self-responsibility.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in self-manipulation within manipulating myself into self-victimization so that I do not take self-responsibility.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to the self-victimization.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself into a victim state to abdicate self-responsibility.





Self-Corrective Statements:



I accept and realize that my grievance and anger has nothing to do with F or A because these emotions exist within me and I am responsible for my participation in them – and that I can not blame F for my emotional reaction because blame is abdication of self-responsibility.



I do not accept and allow myself to blame others for my emotional reaction which exist within me and which I accepted and allowed myself to participate in.



I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility to stop the blame that I have directed to F.



I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility to stop the emotion of grievance and anger that I participated in.



I do not accept and allow myself to justify the emotion of grievance and anger using the construct of blame or any other self-manipulation techniques.





I accept and realize that the anger that I experienced is actually anger of myself due to self-dishonesty and that I am self-dishonest from the very starting point of separating myself from my self-trust and desire trust from others so that I can manipulate and control.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the self-dishonesty of placing trust outside of me separate from me.



I do not accept and allow myself to desire/want/need trust from others just so that I can manipulate and control.





I accept and realize that my emotional reaction of anger and grievance is based on an Assumption that F mispresented information about me in an email to A – that is not based on facts but based on assumptions/perceptions/ideas/beliefs/opinions within/of my mind, which is not real and that I am delusional to believe those make-beliefs to be real. I accept and realize that I am manipulating myself into the self-definition of a victim through my make-beliefs so that I can blame instead of taking self-responsibility.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe assumptions/perceptions/ideas/beliefs/opinions to be real.



I do not accept and allow myself to delude myself into believing that which come up into my mind must be real and true.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe whatever my mind tells me merely because those thoughts pop up into my mind.



I do not accept and allow myself to trust my self-deluded make-beliefs.



I do not accept and allow myself to be led into emotional reactions of grievance and anger due to my accepted and allowed delusions as make-beliefs.



I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by make-beliefs/perceptions/ideas/interpretations/assumptions that come up into my mind.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in self-manipulation, manipulating myself into the self-definition as a victim.



I do not accept and allow myself to victimize myself and abdicate self-responsibility.



I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility for myself for what I have accepted and allowed - the make-beliefs that I have created within my mind in the first place and my self-created definition of a victim and the self-manipulation techniques I used to manipulate myself into believing myself to be a victim and the emotional reactions of grievance, anger and blame.





Re-scripture of the practical solution for the trigger point



Please refer to the script that I have written at the end of the thought work-sheet.







The Words Work-Sheet



Word-Web: Central word: Trust/distrust Connected word: Deception, Betrayal, value/worth, Acceptance, Expectation, Disappointment, Control, Manipulation, Resentment, Distrust, The memory of college entrance examination





Self-Forgiveness



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word trust with a positive value.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word trust as positive/good/right.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word positive/good/right through judging it as positive/good/right.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word trust with a negative value.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word trust as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word trust through judging them as bad/wrong/negative.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word deception with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word betrayal with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word value/worth with a positive value and judge it as good/positive/right.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word acceptance with a positive value and judge it as good/positive/right.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word expectation with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word disappointment with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word control with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word manipulation with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word resentment with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word distrust with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the memory of college entrance examination with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative





deception:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word deception to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word deception in polarity to the word trust.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word deception and from the word trust through defining the word deception in polarity to the word distrust – in separation of myself.





Betrayal:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word betrayal to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word betrayal in polarity to the word trust



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word betrayal and the word trust through defining the word betrayal in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.





value/worth:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word value/worth to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word value/worth within the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word value/worth and the word trust through defining the word value/worth within the word trust – in separation of myself.





Acceptance:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word acceptance to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word acceptance within the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word acceptance and the word trust through defining the word acceptance within the word trust – in separation of myself.





Expectation



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word expectation to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word expectation within the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word expectation and the word trust through defining the word expectation within the word trust – in separation of myself.





Disappointment



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word disappointment to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word disappointment in polarity to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word disappointment and the word trust through defining the word disappointment in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.





Control



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word control to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word control in polarity to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word control and the word trust through defining the word control in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.





Manipulation:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word manipulation to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word manipulation in polarity to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word manipulation and the word trust through defining the word manipulation in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.





Resentment:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word resentment to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word resentment in polarity to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word resentment and the word trust through defining the word resentment in polarity to the word trust in separation of myself.





Distrust:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word distrust to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word distrust in polarity to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word distrust and the word trust through defining the word distrust in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.





College entrance examination:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word college entrance examination to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word college entrance examination in polarity to the word trust.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word college entrance examination and the word trust through defining the word college entrance examination in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.





Re-define the word in the centre-circle of the word-web:



New definition of the word trust:



Trust placed outside of self separate from self is self-dishonesty which manifests as relationship connections supporting mind consciousness systems and this consciousness existence of separation.



Self-trust is the expression of self that manifests in application of self as self-honesty as who I am here in every moment of every breath.







The Pictures Work-Sheet



No specific pictures are related to that original thought.







The Memories Work-Sheet



College entrance examination: The memory is about my college entrance examination which was about eight years ago. I did not perform well enough to be able to enter the top two universities in China as my father expected. My father was disappointed and angry. His claim was that he had provided me with everything he could do for my study and exam, and thus of course it was my fault that I was not able to enter the top 2 universities as he so eagerly desired. I was disgusted with his drastic change in attitude before and after the exam. I felt betrayed at the difficult time when I needed his support while what he did is to rub salt into my wound. He rubbed his nose in it many times for quite a long period of time after the exam, mentioning to me and others in conversation that my other classmates have entered those top two universities while just left me out. I see that all he cared about me entering the top 2 universities is to gain him glory. When I did not fulfill his desire and meet his expectation, he transformed himself into a completely different man. The ‘trust’ between us was ruptured – although that was not the first time but it was definitely a prominent event which burned into my mind.



Note: some of the descriptions above were made from the starting point of emotional reactions. I will sort them out in self-forgiveness.





Self-Forgiveness





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the memory of ‘my college entrance examination ‘failure’ where my father changed dramatically in his attitude towards me before and after the exam and rubbing salt into my wound within which I experienced disgust, betrayal, anger and blame’ to the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.’





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the memory of ‘my college entrance examination ‘failure’ where my father changed dramatically in his attitude towards me before and after the exam and rubbing salt into my wound within which I experienced disgust, betrayal, anger and blame’.





I forgive for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the memory because I see it as a traumatic experience where I saw the deceptive nature of my father’s ‘care’ and that I have defined the word betrayal, deception, disgust, and anger within this memory.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto this college entrance exam failure memory because I have defined it as a trauma – instead of realizing that the trauma is of the mind consciousness system and not of who I really am – who I really am as LIFE cannot actually be harmed or traumatized.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive believe that I have been harmed emotionally by my father instead of realizing that it is merely a perception of the mind consciousness system within me which I have believed to be who I am.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the words betrayal, deception, disgust, anger and blame within the college entrance exam failure memory.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words betrayal, deception, disgust, anger through defining these words within the college entrance exam failure memory in separation of myself.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am equal and one with these words betrayal, deception, disgust, anger and that I am responsible for my experience as these words betrayal, deception, disgust and anger because I betrayed and deceived myself from my very starting point of placing trust within my father in separation of myself and thus the disgust and anger I experienced towards my father is actually what I am experiencing within myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as self-dishonesty in self-separation.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I am responsible for my experience of betrayal, deception, disgust, and anger and that I cannot blame my father for what I experienced because then that would be abdication of self-responsibility.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto disgust, anger and blame towards my father instead of taking responsibility for myself for what I have accepted and allowed of self-dishonesty.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my father for not supporting me when I was having a difficult time while what he did is to ‘rub salt into my wound’.



I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I have separated myself from self-support through placing support into my father in separation of myself.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my father because apparently it is his fault to ‘rub salt into my wound’ instead of realizing that my reaction towards his reaction is my own responsibility.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my father’s words personally – while what he was saying and what he was doing was merely expressing and reflecting what was going on within himself.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am responsible for taking my father’s words and actions personally and participating in reactions to my father’s reactions.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my father for rubbing his nose in it many times for quite a long period of time after the exam, mentioning to me and others in conversation that my other classmates have entered those top two universities while just left me out.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to my father’s words of rubbing his nose in it about my college entrance exam failure – instead of realizing that I am responsible for taking them personally and reacting to those words.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self-responsibility through blaming my father for my reactions towards his words and actions through taking them personally.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotional reaction of anger, disgust and blame based on my own reactions towards my father’s words and actions.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to and as the emotional reaction of anger, disgust and blame – instead of taking self-responsibility for my reactions and stop them.





Self-Corrective Statements:



I accept and realize that I am responsible for my experience of betrayal, deception, disgust and anger because I betrayed and deceived myself from my very starting point of placing trust, care and support within my father in separation of myself and thus the disgust and anger I experienced towards my father is actually what I am experiencing within myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as self-dishonesty in self-separation.



I accept and realize that I am self-responsible for taking my father’s words and actions personally and thus reacting to him and I accept and realize that blaming my father for my reactions is an act of abdication of self-responsibility.



I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility and sort out my starting point of self-dishonesty as placing trust, care, and support within my father in separation of myself.



I accept and realize trust, care, support is here as who I am in every moment of every breath.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the construct of blame, abdicating self-responsibility.



I do not accept and allow myself to take my father’s words and actions personally or reacting to them.



Re-scripture of the practical solution for the trigger point:



When the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me’ and the word ‘trust’ comes up into my mind, I stop and breathe, I do not accept and allow myself to continue to participate in this thought and go into the memory of college entrance examination failure. I tell myself to ‘Stop!’ ‘Delete!’ If it comes up over and over again I investigate the memory to see whether there are still points that I have not dealt with yet and assist and support myself with effective self-forgiveness and self-corrective-application.

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Working on the Energy Fluntuation System in DIP

The following is extracted from my 6th assignment of the Introduction to Desteni Course within the Desteni I Process( http://desteniiprocess.com/ ) , where I worked on the energy fluctuation system.


Writing:

The experience I am writing here is related to the design of energy fluctuation that I experienced in my office. When I was studying the Introduction course material in the afternoon after I had some food, I became lethargic/sleepy when I came to the point of the design of anger, which I know is a transcendence point I was facing. This lethargic/sleepy experience also happened before - although not necessarily as this particular case of studying Desteni materials. A thought ‘tired’ – one singular word – came into my mind. I applied self-forgiveness. Later I began to struggle to keep myself awake and I had a strong desire to lie down on the couch in my office to have a rest – that’s also when the thoughts of ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ and ‘I have lie down on the couch’ etc came up into my mind. I also applied SF on them. As I continued to read I dropped into this experience again – my head started to become heavy, the reading became stagnant and ineffective and I just wanted to close my eyes and sleep. I closed my eyes and struggled to open them up several times – each time I was experiencing myself to be like in a dreaming state with pictures or segments of scenarios playing out in my mind. I had the thoughts ‘I can no longer keep myself awake’ and ‘I can’t win the battle if I fight with my mind’ somewhere in between those experiences as wanting to give into this experience. I did not go lie down on the couch and sleep as I did sometimes before. OK. So this is what I am going to work on in this assignment.





Components I'll be working with: 

Thought: I have to take a nap on the couch.



Emotions and Feelings: Lethargy/sleepiness



Words: Lethargy/sleepiness



Pictures: The picture of me lying on the couch comfortably and sleep



Memories: The memory in essence is the same as the picture as Sleeping on the couch experience – just in a different place.







The Thought worksheet:



Self-Forgiveness:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch.’



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the lethargic/sleepy experience to the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the lethargic/sleepy experience to exist as a trigger point within me – triggering the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ as who I am.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to take a nap on the couch.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give power to a thought in the belief that it is me; that it is me telling me that I have to take a nap on the couch.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe a thought.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ to be real.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe what my mind tells me through/as a thought.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am tired and that I must go to couch to take a nap.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that tiredness exists.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act upon thoughts through believing it to be real.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question the thought which I have accepted to be so normal.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the thought real through believing it to be real.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that thoughts are not who I really am as LIFE – but a design of consciousness within my mind.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed thoughts to tell me who I am, how I must experience myself, what I should do and how I should do.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be mind-controlled through believing and acting upon thoughts within my mind which I have believed to be who I am.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto my self-definition according to and as thoughts within my mind.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thinking.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as the act of thinking.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be alive within participation of the act of thinking.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that within participation of thinking I am creating and manifesting my experience in this world and for the rest of humanity.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be subject to energy.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dependent on energy to experience myself.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as energy of/as a thought.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled/directed by energy through believing thoughts to be who I am.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience energy in the belief that energy is me.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am energy.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in energy fluctuations instead of realizing that who I am is constant – no fluctuation in any way whatsoever.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that highs and lows as energy fluctuations that I experienced to be real instead of realizing that they are of consciousness and only exist within my mind.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make energy fluctuations real through believing in them.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by energy fluctuations and go into the experiences of highs and lows/ups and downs – instead of me directing myself and expressing myself as who I am here as the breath of life.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as energy fluctuations and thus make them real.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe energy fluctuations actually exist.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depleted.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to be depleted instead of realizing that the experience of depletion is actually me allowing my mind to suppress who I am as LIFE.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe energy depletion to be real and thus experience it through my acceptance and allowance of such a belief.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that energy exists through my belief in thoughts and then manifest and experience thoughts – which is energy.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the construct of energy.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that energy is a construct of consciousness and is not who I really am as LIFE.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by energy instead of standing as the self-directive-principle in my world.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-responsibility through give permission for energy to manifest in my world creating my experience in my world to tell me how I must experience, who and what I must be, how I must act etc.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to express me as LIFE of oneness and equality as who I am.





Self-Corrective-Statements:



I accept and realize that energy is the experience of a thought – when I think a thought, I believe that thought to be me, I then manifest and experience that thought through voicing that thought and then I experience the ‘energy’ of that thought.



I accept and realize that ‘energy’ is when a system and me come together as one and I think I am that system, I give power to that system and I experience that system – that’s what ‘energy’ is.



I do not accept and allow myself to define myself according to thoughts/systems.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe thoughts/systems to be who I am.



I do not accept and allow myself to give power to thoughts/systems – creating and manifesting them in the form of energy.



I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility to stop giving my power away to thoughts/systems.



I accept and allow myself to stand up and take my power back from thoughts/systems.



I accept and allow myself to honor who I am as the breath of LIFE – rather than honoring thoughts/systems.



I do not accept and allow myself to be mind-controlled through believing thoughts/systems to be who I am and acting upon them.



I do not accept and allow thoughts to tell me who I am, how I must experience myself, what I should do and how I should do.





I accept and realize that participation in thoughts/act of thinking is not an indication of me being alive – and that within participation of thinking I am creating and manifesting my experience in this world and for the rest of humanity.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe that if I have thoughts running in my mind/participate in thinking then I am alive – that is not being alive.



I do not accept and allow thoughts and energy to manifest in my world creating my experience in my world to tell me how I must experience, who and what I must be, how I must act etc.





I accept and allow myself to live here as the breath of life – being here as self-presence and self-awareness within and as everything I touch: “Here I am” – here.



I accept and allow myself to apply self-forgiveness to assist me to discharge of the already placed and manifested thoughts in this world and to release the enslavement and control of the thoughts, as well as the emotions and feelings that I have allowed within me.





I accept and realize that I will still be able to communicate and speak with other human beings the moment the silence within me exist, where only who I am remain as the breath of life, remaining silent and here with all that surrounds me.



I accept and realize that what will change is the experience of who I am – the words I speak, how I experience and express myself will come from within me, as me as one with who I am which I live and breathe in every moment as I remain here as who I am.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe that without thoughts/the act of thinking I am not able to function effectively in this world such as communication/participation in activities in my world or that I must become dumb/stupid/idiotic/dysfunctional within stopping thoughts/the act of thinking.



I accept and allow myself to be more effective and expressive within my participation in my world within the process of stopping thoughts/act of thinking.



I accept and allow myself to take responsibility to stop thoughts/act of thinking within my mind through self-forgiveness.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depleted.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to be depleted instead of realizing that the experience of depletion is actually me allowing my mind to suppress who I am as LIFE.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe energy depletion to be real and thus experience it through my acceptance and allowance of such a belief.





I accept and realize that energy is a construct of consciousness and is not real and that it only exists in the mind – who I am and the expression of me is not dependent on energy.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe energy to be real.



I do not accept and allow myself to be dependent on energy to experience myself.



I do not accept and allow energy fluctuations to tell me who I am, how I should experience myself, what I should experience, what I should do etc.



I accept and allow myself to stand as the self-directive-principle in my world.





I accept and realize that when I experience fluctuation, I am participating in energy, because who I am is constant, stable – only energy fluctuates.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe in energy fluctuations.



I do not accept and allow myself to participate in energy fluctuations.



I do not accept and allow myself to go into the experience of highs and lows/ups and downs of energy fluctuations – that’s not who I am.



I accept and allow myself to live who I am here as the constancy and stability as the breath of life without energy fluctuations.





Re-scripture of the practical solution for the trigger point



When I experience myself as being lethargic/sleepy, I stop and breathe and realize that it is of my mind and is not real. If necessary, speak self-forgiveness/self-statement aloud to stop this experience of energy fluctuation. If it continues, take some physical actions, such as jumping up and down or using some water to wash my face – actions that can shake this lethargic experience off.







The Emotion and Feeling Worksheet:



Self-Forgiveness on emotion/feeling:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the experience of lethargy/sleepiness is real.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the emotional experience of lethargy/sleepiness because I wanted to hide/escape from facing myself.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use lethargy/sleepiness as a means to hide/escape from facing myself.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness so that I do not have to face myself.



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that lethargy/sleepiness in this particular case is the mechanism of my mind to protect its existence – it is me as the mind manipulating so that I do not have to face myself.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with myself through giving into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness in order to avoid facing my transcendent point so that I can continue my self-dishonest existence of/as the mind – instead of facing myself Here and transcend the point that I am facing and no longer allow myself to continue to exist as a slave to my mind.



I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that when I give into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness and actually sleep on the couch – I am actually charging and boosting up my mind to apparently compensate the depletion that I experienced.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the emotion of lethargy/sleepiness to the thought ‘I have to go to take a nap on the couch’.





Self-Corrective Statements:



I accept and realize that the lethargy/sleepiness is actually the mechanism of my mind to protect its existence – it is me as the mind manipulating so that I do not have to face myself/my transcendent point and can continue my self-dishonest existence of/as the mind– thus giving into this experience is deliberately self-dishonest.



I do not accept and allow myself to be controlled/directed by the experience of lethargy/sleepiness.



I do not accept and allow myself to give into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness.



I do not accept and allow myself to fall for the trick/manipulation of myself of/as the mind as the experience of lethargy/sleepiness.



I do not accept and allow myself to escape myself/my transcendent point through giving into/falling for the mind trick of lethargy/sleepiness.



I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility and face myself Here and transcend the point that I am facing to no longer allow myself to continue to exist as a slave to my mind of self-dishonesty.





I accept and realize that when I give into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness and actually sleep on the couch – I am actually recharging/rejuvenating/boosting up my mind to apparently compensate the depletion that I experienced, which gives my mind power and control to enslave me.



I do not accept and allow myself to give into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness and actually go sleep on the couch when my mind tells me to through thoughts in my mind.



I do not accept and allow myself to recharge/rejuvenate/boost up my mind through giving into the lethargy/sleepiness and actually go sleep on the couch.



I do not accept and allow myself to follow what my mind tells me that I am sleepy/lethargic and that I must go sleep on the couch.



I do not accept and allow myself to give my mind power and control to enslave me.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe that depletion actually exists.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe that I need to compensate depletion through going to sleep on the couch when my mind uses that opportunity to recharge/rejuvenate/boost up itself to enslave who I am - self-enslavement.



I do not accept and allow myself to give my mind the opportunity to recharge/rejuvenate/boost up itself to enslave who I am.







The Words Work-Sheet



Word-Web: Central Word: Lethargy/sleepiness Connecting word: Tired, Depletion, Avoid, Escape, bullshit, dishonesty, Yawning, Comfort, Couch, Sluggish, Low energy, normal



Self-Forgiveness:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the words lethargy/sleepiness with a negative value.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word lethargy/sleepiness as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the words lethargy/sleepiness through judging them as bad/wrong/negative.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word tired with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word depletion with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word avoid with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word escape with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word dishonesty with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word bullshit with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word yawning with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word comfort with a positive value and judge it as good/right/positive.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word couch with a positive value and judge it as good/right/positive.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word sluggish with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word low energy with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word normal with a positive value and judge it as good/right/positive.





Tired:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word tired to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word tired within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word tired and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word tired within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.





Depletion:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word depletion to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word depletion within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word depletion and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word depletion within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.





Avoid:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word avoid to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word avoid within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word avoid and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word avoid within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.





Escape:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word escape to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word escape within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word escape and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word escape within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.





Dishonesty:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word dishonesty to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word dishonesty within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word dishonesty and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word dishonesty within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.





Bullshit:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bullshit to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bullshit within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word bullshit and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word bullshit within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.





Yawning



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word yawning to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word yawning within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word yawning and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word yawning within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.





Comfort



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word comfort to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word comfort in polarity to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word comfort and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word comfort in polarity to the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.



Couch



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word couch to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word couch within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word couch and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word couch within the word lethargy/sleepiness in separation of myself.





Sluggish



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word sluggish to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word sluggish within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word sluggish and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word sluggish within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.



Low energy



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word low energy to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word low energy within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word low energy and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word low energy within the word lethargy/sleepiness in separation of myself.





Normal



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word normal to the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word normal within the word lethargy/sleepiness.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word normal and from the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word normal within the word lethargy/sleepiness in separation of myself.





Re-define the word in the centre-circle of the word-web:



New definition of the word lethargy: the experience of/through the mind as being of less energy, which is not real but can be perceived to be real through one’s own acceptance and allowance of belief in thoughts/systems/mind.





The Pictures Work-Sheet



The picture of me lying on the couch comfortably and sleep: There is a couch in our office. It is rather comfortable although pretty ragged. In the middle of this picture is just this chair while I am lying on the couch sleeping comfortably. My head is on the armrest on the left side of the picture – my feet on the right side.



Self-Forgiveness:



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the picture that I am lying on the couch sleeping comfortably with my head on the armrest on the left while my feet on the right – to exist within and as me.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the words comfort, rest, relax, sleep, attraction to the picture of me lying on the couch sleeping comfortably.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the words comfort, rest, relax, sleep, attraction within the picture of me lying on the couch sleeping comfortably.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the words comfort, rest, relax, sleep, attraction through defining them within the picture of me lying on the couch sleeping comfortably – in separation of myself.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge a positive value to the picture of me lying on the couch sleeping comfortably.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the picture as good/positive/right.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the picture through judging it as good/positive/right.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow what a picture within my mind tells me to do.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by a picture and the energy attached to the picture instead of standing as the self directive principle in my world.





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the picture of me lying on the couch comfortably sleeping to the thought of ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ to exist as a trigger point within me – triggering the picture of me lying on the couch comfortably together with the positive energetic charge that I have attached to the picture.





Self-Corrective Statements:



I accept and realize that the picture of me lying on the couch sleeping comfortably together with the positive charge that I attached to this picture is not who I am and that within following what this picture presents and the energy attached to it, I am actually falling for the manifestation of the original thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ – which is done from the starting point of escaping/avoiding to face myself/my transcendent point.



I accept and realize that it is not that there is something ‘wrong’ with sleeping on the couch comfortably – it is being directed by a picture and energy in the manifestation of a thought instead of me directing myself that is the problem.



I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by a picture within my mind telling me what to do.



I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by the energy attached to a picture telling me what to do.



I do not accept and allow myself to be dependent on thought/picture/energy to experience myself and do what I do.



I do not accept and allow myself to believe in what a picture and energy presents within my mind telling me what to do.



I accept and allow myself to stand as the self directive principle – me directing me – not being directed by thoughts/pictures/energy.





Re-scripture:



When the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ come up into my mind, I stop and breathe. I do not accept myself to go into my mind participating in this picture, imagining how comfortable and attractive it is to lie down on the couch and just sleep. Even if the picture comes up, I stop and breathe through the energetic charge if any. I do not allow myself to follow and be directed by the energy.







The Memories Work-Sheet



The memory is in essence the same as the picture.



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