Self-Forgiveness on Anger Triggered by a Situation

Note: the following is based on an article I published on my Chinese blog on October 12, 2009 where I discussed a situation which I also experiened just today.

I was doing my homework tonight while my mother called me. I felt disturbed and went into reaction. The first time the call did not get through and i did not know who was calling. The second time, it came through. I picked it up and heard my mother's voice. I experienced immense resistance and reluctance, and anger started to accumulate within me immediately because i felt disturbed by this call and that i had no time for this call at all. My mother's first question was "Why did not it get through?" With anger, i said "How would i know?"-- words full of reluctance/resistance/anger. Then my mother said she wanted to talk to me and wanted to see me. I was more angry inside but i suppressed it with words "I had no time!" Then my mother connected QQ requiring a video talk. I picked it up with reluctance/resistance/anger. I really did not want to get into any talk at that time. When the camera was connected, i did not watch my mother at all and went on with what i was doing. In a while my mother asked "Are your hairs falling off?" The irritation and anger burst out "I am doing homework！If you do not have anything important to day, we'd better stop it!" So the talk did not last for even a minute. After the talk, I could not focus on what i was doing and i blamed my mother and even cursed her for what i experienced within me.








I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to my mother with irritation/resistance/reluctance/anger because I feel that I have been disturbed.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate anger within me at that moment, instead of breathing through and stopping the anger within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as irritations/resistance/reluctance/anger and fuel them.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my mother for what i experienced within me instead of realizing that it has nothing to do with my mother at all -- it is all about what was going on within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to direct anger to my mother, judging her, blaming her, cursing her - instead of realizing that the anger I experienced is not about my mother - it is about me being angry with myself - and this situation is just showing me that there exists anger within me because I am dishonest with myself.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that there is only one type of anger that exists as one point of being angry at yourself, and that is when I've not been honest with myself and that I have fucked myself, I've become angry at yourself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress anger, instead of investigating why I am experiencing anger and sort it out so that I no longer go into such an experience over and over again.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that when I suppress that anger, that anger will resonate, manifest and be experienced in different ways within my world - to reflect to me that there exists anger within me.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anger with myself because I am dishonest to myself - because I am not honouring who i really am - because i am deliberatly against who i really am.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to deliberately fuck myself through being deliberately against myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be diliberately against myself as a way to blame and punish others.







I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that by being deliberately against who I really am - I am only fucking myself, I am destroying myself, I am dishonouring myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed being deliberately against who I really am as LIFE to become my accepted nature.







I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to create and manifest myself as the representation of being deliberately against LIFE.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful to LIFE instead of realizing that I am actually being spiteful to myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in self-spitefulness.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from LIFE through being spiteful to LIFE.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anger with myself because I know I am spiteful to LIFE and that I am dishonouring LIFE.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the manifestation of an event to show me that anger exists within me is through the accumulation of self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that anger is the outflow of me not being honest with me in my starting point in every moment, which culminates to anger.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest within my starting point - delaying what I know I should deal with because I just did not.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately postpone and resist that which I know I should give direction to.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny dealing with those emails that I know I should deal with.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate undealt-with emails.







I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately push away/shut away information about Desteni and withdraw myself from participating actively.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed undealt with issues to accumulate into the manifestation of anger within me and within my world.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anger with myself because I know I should give direction to situations in my world but I just did not do it.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-direction.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with myself because I have abdicated self-direction.







I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the desire to revenge Desteni because i believe that Desteni is the reason why I am experiencing the fuck up I am experiencing - instead of realizing that I am responsible for my experience that I have created and manifested even when I have 'forgotten' how I actually created and manifested such an experience.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the belief that Desteni is the reason why I am experiencing the fuck up that I am experiencing.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto that belief so that i can continue to blame instead of taking responsibility for myself - stand up and direct myself and correct that which I have created and manifested.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the belief that the reason why I am experiencing the fuck up I am experiencing is because I participated in this process - because I believed that all my problems came after I got involved with Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the strong belief within my mind which I have believed to be real - that Desteni is responsible for my experience of being fucked up.







I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to want to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to destroy myself so that I can prove Desteni wrong as a form of revenge.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful to Desteni as a form of revenge.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately fuck myself up so that I can continue to blame Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed revenging Desteni to become my accpeted nature because I have been obsessed and possessed with the belief that Desteni is responsible for my experience of being fucked up.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed and possessed by the desire to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed by the desire to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuck myself deliberately so that I can prove that it is all Desteni's fault.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beliberately destroy myself as a means to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be possessed by the anger system Demon - because I have accpeted and allowed myself to be consumed by and become the manifestation of anger.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuck myself up through jumping into conclusions based on the part of Desteni materials that I have read.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with myself because I fucked myself up through jumping into conclusions in reading Desteni materials.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame Desteni materials to mislead me instead of realizing that I accepted and allowed myself to jump into conclusions in reading Desteni materials - thus I am responsible for those assumptions/interpretations/perceptions/ideas/beliefs that I have created within myself which I have believed to be what Desteni is proposing.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not responsible for the conclusions/assumptions/interpretations that I made within reading Desteni materials because those would be the only conclusions that I could draw from those materials based on my understanding at that moment.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the grudge against Desteni materials.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to take responsibility for the conclusions/assumptions/interpretations that I have made within reading Desteni materials.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see within common sense that the best way is to immediately correct myself instead of holding onto the grduge.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to convince myself that I am not responsible for those conclusions/assumptions/interpretations that I have made about Desteni materials - so that I do not have to take self-responsibility for what I have created and manifested.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that holding onto grudge against Desteni materials is not going to do me or anybody any good - but to continue fuck myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue to fuck myself through holding onto the belief that Desteni materials have misled me and that it is all Desteni's fault that I have fucked myself.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to attempt to convice myself that it is real/true that I have been misled by Desteni materials.







I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to believe it to be real/true that i have been misled by Desteni materials - because I have persuaded myself to believe it.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to believe something to be real jsut because I have told myself so many times that it is real.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to want to believe that I have been misled by Desteni materials and that Desteni is responsible for my experience of being fucked - so that I do not have to stand up and take responsibility for the fuck-up that I have created and manifested as myself.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed to continue to screw myself up so that I can continue to blame Desteni for my fuck-up.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to prove that it is because of my participation in Desteni that I have fucked myself up - even through deliberately fucking myself up in my process.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that if I fuck myself up in my process then that proves my belief that my participation in Desteni is the reason why I fucked myself up.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my fucking up is able to prove that Desteni is responsible for my fucking up.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite myself in order to spite Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful to myself - instead of realizing that I am merely harming myself.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to abuse myself as a way to revenge Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that by abusing/tortuing/fucking myself I am actually revenging Desteni.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in self-abuse and self-torture deliberately as a means of spitefulness to Desteni which is actually self-spitefulness.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the delusion that I have been misled by Desteni materials and that is why I fucked myself up.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed by delusions within my mind which I have believed to be so real.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become delusional.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be able to distinguish reality from delusions clearly - because I have become delusional.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by delusions instead of living here in and as the physical reality as the breath of life here in every moment.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed by delusions.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose contact with reality through being obsessed with delusions within my mind.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with delusions within my mind which I have firmly believed to be real.















I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as having a bad temper as my father.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as having a bad temper -- being very easy to get irritated and angry.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as irritation and anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my temper believing that the bad temper is who i am instead of realizing that it is a program within me that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe to be who i am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that since my father has a bad temper then it is normal/ordinary/natural for me to have the same bad temper.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the shit of bad temper instead of realizing that the temper is a program that i have inherited from my parents or from my environment that i have defined as who i am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled/manipulated/directed by emotions within me which i perceived to be originating from my bad temper.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the mind consciousness system within me through participating in emotions and feelings within my mind.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to be present in the moment the anger started to take control over me and stop it immediately.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out the shit system that i inherited from my father.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to copy reactions and behaviors from my father and define myself as such reactive behaviors.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my father for why i have such a bad temper and that if i had a different father i would not need to deal with this and experience such reactive behaviors.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my father for my experience instead of realizing that i am responsible for what i was experiencing within me and that by blaming others i was abidicating self-responsibility.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what i was experiencing within me instead of realizing that it is through my permission and participation that the systems within me manifest.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to vent my anger on somebody when i experience anger within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to any beings within my world just to find excuses to vent my anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to my mother's words just to find excuses to vent my anger and frustration.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel released when i have vent my anger on somebody else.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be deceived by the apparent releas of anger when i direct it onto beings in my world.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that if i do not vent my anger on somebody i will explode.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel good after i have vent my anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as anger, being consumed by anger.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that when i was participating in anger and venting my anger onto other beings i was actually allowing myself to be a slave to the systems within me which i have defined as who i am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the anger system within me, and live out my self-definition as the anger system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the reactive habitual behavior when i experienced anger within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give into anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel good when i curse somebody just to vent my anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to suppress anger when i experienced them within me, instead of realizing that suppressing anger is resisting anger and that what i resist persists, thus the anger will finally come out.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as suppression of anger, perceiving that i suppress it it will disappear.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as suppression of anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to copy my father's behavior of beating somebody/something to vent my anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be possessed by anger, becoming the power source of the system within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself by participating in anger and charging the system within me without realizing what i was actually supporting.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad that i have done something out of the control of impulsion of anger.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard anger to be more than me, perceive that i have no power over anger, and that i can not direct anger one and equal.





I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from anger, instead of standing one and equal with anger, realizing that anger is a program within me and that it is not who ireally am thus simply stop it.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to follow anger which is following programs and systems within me which i have accepted and allowed myself to define as who iam.

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Idea of Self-honesty and Self-dishonesty

Note: The following self-forgiveness is an expansion of those that I published on my Chinese blog on October 03, 2009.


What i have realized is that self-honesty can be designed and developed into an ideas as the polar opposite of the idea of self-dishonesty.








I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form an idea of self-honesty, designing self-idea into an idea which is not lived but merely exist as knowledge and information.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to design self-honesty into the polar opposite of the idea of self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an idea of self-honesty which I have created within my mind, perceiving/believing myself to be self-honest while not actually applying/living self-honesty.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have already become self-honest and that i am self-honest while it is but a perception/idea/belief within my mind and not the actuality of living application.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the idea of self-honesty which I have created within my mind to protect and hide the actual truth of me as the self-dishonesty that I have accepted and allowed.







I forgive myself that i have accetped and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i am self-honest and there is not much self-dishonesty within me so that i do not need to be diligent within deprogramming myself and releasing myself from the definition of my mind consciousness system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i am self-honest and that all the people around me in my world are all but fucked-up mind consciousness systems living in hypnosis.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel special/superior because i am participating in the process with awareness.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be more than people around me because aparently i believe myself to be self-honest while all the people around me are all self-dishonest fuck-ups.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel that i am the only one that is sober while all others are in hynosis.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have known THE truth and that I am fucking enlightened.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to judge "the fucked-up mind consciousness systems" around me.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in judgment of people in their own processes.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with the idea that people around me are all fucked-up systems instead of realizing I am actually seeing how fucked I am because I did not even see that but existing in a delusion about myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I must withdraw myself from participation and interaction with all the people within my world because apparently they are all self-dishonest fucked-up systems.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself in the polar opposite of the ideas that I have projected onto people within my world as self-dishonest fucked-up systems while me existing in the idea of me being self-honest.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the idea that I have projected onto other people is actually a reflection about myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in comparison and competition with people around me and create an idea about myself as being more than while regarding people around me as being less than.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel miserable that i am alone with the realization that we are fucked-up mind consciousness systems and that i have to live in the system full of fucked-up systems.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge/deny/resist the system - instead of taking self-responsibility and make a difference in this world through assisting and supporting myself to change myself and live the change in my world as an example.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to claim that "I am self-honest. You are all self-dishonest. You are all fucked-up."







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought 'you are all fucked-up' to be real and to be me speaking instead of realizing that it is a thought.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by a thought within my mind.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by a belief that I have constructed within my mind which I have believed to be real.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to communicate/interact with other people because i fear that i may be contaminated/influenced by their "fucked-up systems".







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that nobody/nothing can actually influence me unless I give it permission.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being contaminated/influenced by fucked up systems to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect communicating/interacting with other people to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by holding myself back from communicating/interacting with other people in my world - I am actually preventing myself from facing myself.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that facing myself is here in every moment - not having to hold myself back so that I can focus on myself or going out there so that I can apparently face myself - no, facing self is here in every moment of every breath - no matter where I am and with whom I am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as fucked-up systems within this defining myself as the polar opposite idea of self-honesty and perceive/believe that i need to seclude myself from communicating/interacting with the system and other people in order to prevent me from being influenced/contaminated - which is actually protecting the idea I have created about myself as apparently being self-honest.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am actually protecting the idea I have created about as being apparently self-honest while actually hiding the actual truth of me as being self-dishonest through preventing me from interacting with people in my world out of fear.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by fear instead of being Here directing myself.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word self-honesty to the word self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to define the word self-honesty in polarity to the word self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word self-honesty and self-dishonesty through defining the word self-honesty in polarity to the word self-dishonesty in separation of myself.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in judgement/denial/resistance toward self-dishonesty/system - instead of realizing the judgment is actually the act of fear.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge/deny/resist what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a mind consciousness system.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed fear myself as a system of self-dishonesty.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect myself as a system of self-dishonesty to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may be discovered to be self-dishonest because i feared to be judged instead of realizing that self-judgement is actually protecting the self-dishonesty within me.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to connect me being discovered to be self-dishonest to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as the polar opposite of self-dishonesty and live out my self-definition as an idea of self-honesty formed, developed and created through/with/as my mind.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i need to present myself to be self-honest instead of living self-honesty in fact.







I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to present self-honesty to the world out there somewhere - instead of realizing that that is not actual self-honesty from the starting point of self as who I am.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to misplace my starting point out there somewhere - instead of realizing that this process is for me as me as from me as the starting point of me as who I am.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to perceive/believethat I am able to prove to other people or the world that I am self-honest - instead of living who I am as the self-proof of who I am - it is not about proving anything to anybody; it is about who I am.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to put on the personality suit as the idea about myself being self-honest to protect the actual self-dishonesty within.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed to embrace me unconditionally including self-dishonesty which i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, within this embracing to transform/change/stop the self-dishonesty that I have accepted and allowed.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to see with self-honesty what i have accepted and allowed within me.







I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that judgement/denial/resistance of self-dishonesty and the presentation of me as the idea of self-honesty is preventing me from facing what i have accepted and allowed within me and is prolonging my own process of self-realization as who I am as LIFE of oneness and equality.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use excuses/reasons/justifications to prevent me from seeing the truth of me as my nature/beingness as what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become of self-dishonesty as the mind.





I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to face the self-dishonesty that i have accetped and allowed.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape from what i have acccepted and allowed within me instead of assisting and supporting myself to stand up, take self-responsibility and stop my existence as self-dishonesty as what i have always been.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with beings around me and feel good about me because i believe myself to be self-honest while all other people are self-dishonest.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to participate in the feeling of good for the idea of me being apparently self-honest.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to place value and worth in an idea of me being self-honest - in separation of myself.







I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to accept the word self-honesty as who I am and live as the word self-honesty.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be so chickshitted to face what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become that i wanted to use all kinds excuses/reasons/justifications to not face myself and take self-responsibility.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad about myself when i see the self-dishonesty that i have accepted and allowed.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to judge self-dishonesty as bad.







I forgive myelf that I have accpeted and allowed myself to charge self-dishonesty with a negative value.







I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to separate myself from self-dishonesty through judging it as bad.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the choice to not see/face the self-dishonesty that i have accepted and allowed.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form an idea about myself as being self-honest and hold onto the self-definition of me being self-honest which is an illusion protecting the real truth as self-dishonesty within me.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not want to see my self-dishonesty which means not wanting to take self-responsibility for what i have accepted and allowed.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use free will/free choice as excuses/justifications/reasons to not face the self-dishonesty i have accepted and allowed and continue to exist as and protect the self-dishonesty, which is perpetuating the world to exist as it currently exist which is a fuck-up.







I forigive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore deliberately my self-dishonesty instead of facing myself with brutal self-honesty, embracing what i have become and stopping it completely.







I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out self-deception as the personality suit as the idea of self-honesty which i have created within my mind.







Till here no further!!!











I stop my self-definition as the personality suit of the idea of self-honesty which is protecting the self-dishonesty within me.







I do not accept and allow myself to hide behind an idea of self-honesty which I created within my mind to protect my self-definitions of/as the mind.







I accept and allow myself to stop my knowledge/information/idea/belief about self-honesty and actually live self-honesty within practical application as who I am.







I do not accept and allow myself to judge beings around me as fucked-up mind consciousness systems which only support my own self-definition as the polar opposite as the idea of self-honesty which i hold onto and to protect the truth of me as self-dishonesty.







I do not accept and allow myself to project the truth of me as fucked-up systems onto others.







I do not accept and allow myself to live in the illusion/delusion of me being apparently self-honest while all others are self-dishonest fucked-up systems.







I do not accept and allow myself to escape/hide from what I have accepted and allowed as who I am.







I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility and correct myself and chage/transform myself so that I no longer continue to exist within and as that which I have always existed as - of/as the mind of self-dishonesty.







I do not accept and allow myself to use self-judgment as a means to protect my accepted and allowed self-dishonesty.

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