Suicide and Free Will/Free Choice

Note: the following is based on an article I published in my Chinese blog on Octobor 1, 2009, which I am now moving here to my English blog with some modifications.

Human beings are so obsessed with the idea of Free Will/Free Choice that we would do all and everything to protect such a belief as if it is the very proof of our dignity as human beings, while never realizing that Free Will/Free Choice never existed and that it is but a beLIEf and ILLusion.



There is even a philosophy justifying suicide as the demonstration of Free Will/Free Choice: "I can not choose my birth, but i can choose my death. My consciousn deliberate choice of death is the proof that i have Free Will/Free Choice. I would use suicide as my last protection and defense of my belief in Free Will/Free Choice. Within suicide, the meaning of my existence as Free Will/Free Choice is demonstrated."

While the reason human beings would use such drastic means as suicide as the last defense of Free Will/Free Choice in the first place is because we know that we do not have Free Will/Free Choice in the real world. We know it very clearly. However, we treasure Free Will/Free Choice so much that we define it as our very meaning of existence and we can not live without it. That's why we will seek all and every possible way to demonstrate we have Free Will/Free Choice which we have defined as who we are as our very meaning of existence. Well, in reality the belief of Free Will/Free Choice is an illusion. Within desperation, the only place that seems to be able to demonstrate our faith in Free Will/Free Choice is death. --"I choose to die the way i like. I end my life the way I like. I make this decision of killing myself with free will on purpose. See, i have free will. See, i have free choice. See, i have fulfilled the meaning of my existence within my deliberate choice of death."

What are we actually saying? Oh, Free Will/Free Choice! You are my God! I can not live without you! You are the very meaning of my existence! I would sacrifice myself for you! Take me! Accept me! I honour you!


Unfortunately, the Free Will to die/Free Choice of death is also an illusion, preprogrammed preordained as a system. Human beings actually have no power over death. Human beings can not control death.


Free Will/Free Choice is the polarity manifestation of oppresion and control, which we use to deceive ourselves and attempt to escape from reality. Any better way to control you while giving you the illusion of Free Will/Free Choice? The best slaves are those that do not know they are slaves.



See this world. Where have Free Will/Free Choice brought us? Where are we? What are we experiencing day in and day out? Pathetic self-deceptive self-manipulative illusions! This is a vivid demonstration of a tragedy -- Human Beings...

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Self Forgiveness on Sleep Paralysis

Note: the following is an expansion of an article I published in my Chinese blog on Octobor 1, 2009, which I am now moving here to my English blog.

I used to experience sleep paralysis when i was in high school and college. I remember there was a period of time when i even feared to go into sleep due to the fear of sleep paralysis and also the fear of losing awareness/myself in sleep. Here is a post on the forum that is assisting: http://desteni.co.za/forum/viewtopic.php?f=33&t=3673


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to go into sleep.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect going into sleep to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.



I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing myself in sleep.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect losing myself in sleep to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to lose myself.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I may not be able to wake up again from sleep.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect not being able to wake up again from sleep to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard sleep as a form of death/preparation for death and feared to go into sleep because of fear of death.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear death.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect death to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my own fear.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may not be able to exist any more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect not being able to exist any more to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my own fear.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to fight with sleep.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react in panic when i was experiencing sleep paralysis.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in panic.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be directed by panic instead of me standing as the self-directive-principle, directing myself.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to sleep paralysis by reacting to it with fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel less than the experience of sleep paralysis - instead of standing one and equal with this pattern and direct it as myself to stop it.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want some other people to come and wake me up while at the same time feeling embarassed to ask for help.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of feeling embarassed to ask for help.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the experience of embarassment to be who I am.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the experience of embarassment - instead of me directing myself and assisting and supporting myself.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged if i seek help from others.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being judged if I seek help from others to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel terrified when i can not move myself or speak or scream in sleep paralysis.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the experience of feeling terrified.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect not being able to move, speak or scream in sleep paralysis to fear - and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.


I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that sleep paralysis occurs when i as who i am wake up while the mind consciousness system within me is still asleep.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed the mind consciousness system within me which i defined as who i am to control my human physical body to function for me instead of existing here one and equal with and as the human physical body.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to seaprate myself from my HPB as me through the MCS by powering it through my participation in thoughts/emotions and feelings.


I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i need thoughts/emotions/feelings to funtion for me instead of realizing that thoughts/emotions/feelings are programs that powe and charge the mind consciousness system which separates me from the human physical body.


I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to stand one and equal as the human physical body as life and no more exist as a mind system in separation.


I forgive myselff that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into reactions/fears when I experience sleep paralysis instead of stabilizing myself and being aware of myself here as the breath of LIFE.



Self-Corrective-Statements:


I accept and realize that sleep paralysis occurs when who I am wake up without the mind consciousness system and that reactions and fear do not assist and support me in such an experience.


I do not accept and allow myself to go into reactions and fears when i experience sleep paralysis.


I accept and allow myself to stablize myself here as awareness in the breath of LIFE.


I accept and allow myself to stand one and equal with and as my human physical body as Life.

I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by fear and reactions.


I accept and allow myself to assist and support myself to transcend fear.
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Desteni website: http://www.desteni.co.za/


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My Chinese Blog: http://blog.sina.com.cn/qiudaozhe

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