My definition of self-discipline is self-initiative in Living of/as Self as the Principle. I see the word principle hidden in the word discipline -- hard to see and it actually took me quite a while to understand what discipline means to me that can assist and support me as who i really am.
Self-discipline is freedom. Self-discipline is freedom as self as the Principle. Self-discipline is not constraint/limitation/regulation -- such things exist when self does not live as the Principle so that external methods are imposed on self to control/contain self.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
innocence
I have got an insight into the word innocence = in no sins. By word origin, innocence= in + noc [harm]+ence. So, innocence=in no sins=harmless. What is sin? The originonal sin is spitefulness which in essence is to harm. Thus the two perspectives "in no sins" and "harmless" are compatible with each other. From a more general perspective, "sin" is the infraction of The Divine Law--the Law of Equality and Oneness which exists everywhere always in all ways in the universe. The Divine Law has already determined the destiny of the universe -- the birth of Life as all as one as equal Here. Sin as infraction of the Divine Law is actually infraction of who i really am as who we really are as Life as all as one as equal, which is equal to self-dishonesty-- sin=self-dishonesty. Sin=self-dishonesty=infraction of who i really am as who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal as the destiny of the universe within and as the Law of Equality and Oneness.
Another perspective of sin is the sine function and cosine function in mathematics. These two functions, according to Euler formula: e^(i x)=cos x + i sin x, forms the unit circle--circle=loop= infinity=trap. Sin is manifested as the design of infinity as the Fibonacci spiral which is base design of consciousness. Consciousness is the representation of sin as self-dishonesty as the infraction of who i really am as who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal.
The Law of Equality and Oneness -> Life as all as one as equal as who i really am as who we all really are -> Common Sense as what is best for all.
Another perspective of sin is the sine function and cosine function in mathematics. These two functions, according to Euler formula: e^(i x)=cos x + i sin x, forms the unit circle--circle=loop= infinity=trap. Sin is manifested as the design of infinity as the Fibonacci spiral which is base design of consciousness. Consciousness is the representation of sin as self-dishonesty as the infraction of who i really am as who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal.
The Law of Equality and Oneness -> Life as all as one as equal as who i really am as who we all really are -> Common Sense as what is best for all.
Here to change
I registered a course of biophysics this semester, because i got interested in the functioning of DNA and wanted to understand more about how it works. I expected this course to be interesting and we can discuss a lot of the most recent progresses in biology, which, however, is just my idea of how this course should be.
In the actual course, i felt disappointed. There are seven students who are in this course and only two of us is native students and the other five, including me, are Chinese students. The teacher is also Chinese. Chinese students, obviously not all, tend to muddle through courses without much participation and contribution in class. I thought this course would turn into a dull one because of so many Chinese students. I really do not want to just muddle through this course and get a high score without really learning something at least. So this generated a feeling of disappointment and despondency within me.
Today i actually participated in my first class of this course. The lecture turned out to be not so dull. I actually had some discussions and insights during the lecture, which released much of the despondency that i felt previously. When having discussions in class, i felt anxiety within wanting to speak and fearing to speak at the same time which manifested as energy movement in my solar plexus and quickened heart beats. This pattern has accompanied me for quite a while. The anxiety arises when i have the desire to speak up and express myself but i prevent myself from doing so out of fear and this suppressed expression will accumulate within me and creates anxiety. The fear that i experienced which prevent me from speaking at the moment is based on a couple of factors: one factor is the concern whether i am speaking at the right time--will I disrupt the professor's lecture; another fator is expectation; also fear of judgement--what other students might think about me. The Chinese student definition is underlying this whole experience, which i have formed during my years in Chinese education system. I had the concern whether i am acting like a Chinese student and whether i am too different than a typical Chinese student. LOL. It is really ridiculous. Why the fuck do i have to act like a Chinese student? Why the fuck do i define myself as a Chinese student who have certain specific behavior patterns? LOL. Absolute limitation. It is a program. I have already had certain awareness of this pattern and I am breaking down this pattern. This also explains why i have difficulty fitting into the Chinese group -- i no longer allow myself to define myself according to a national personality.
Then i realized this point: i am here to make a difference. I am not just here when everything is perfect so that the only thing that i am here to do is just enjoy. This world/the current system requires change and that is what i need to bring out and that is why i am here. I am Here to make a difference. No disappointment is necessary. Just do what is Here necessary to be done--bring out the change required. That is it.
In the actual course, i felt disappointed. There are seven students who are in this course and only two of us is native students and the other five, including me, are Chinese students. The teacher is also Chinese. Chinese students, obviously not all, tend to muddle through courses without much participation and contribution in class. I thought this course would turn into a dull one because of so many Chinese students. I really do not want to just muddle through this course and get a high score without really learning something at least. So this generated a feeling of disappointment and despondency within me.
Today i actually participated in my first class of this course. The lecture turned out to be not so dull. I actually had some discussions and insights during the lecture, which released much of the despondency that i felt previously. When having discussions in class, i felt anxiety within wanting to speak and fearing to speak at the same time which manifested as energy movement in my solar plexus and quickened heart beats. This pattern has accompanied me for quite a while. The anxiety arises when i have the desire to speak up and express myself but i prevent myself from doing so out of fear and this suppressed expression will accumulate within me and creates anxiety. The fear that i experienced which prevent me from speaking at the moment is based on a couple of factors: one factor is the concern whether i am speaking at the right time--will I disrupt the professor's lecture; another fator is expectation; also fear of judgement--what other students might think about me. The Chinese student definition is underlying this whole experience, which i have formed during my years in Chinese education system. I had the concern whether i am acting like a Chinese student and whether i am too different than a typical Chinese student. LOL. It is really ridiculous. Why the fuck do i have to act like a Chinese student? Why the fuck do i define myself as a Chinese student who have certain specific behavior patterns? LOL. Absolute limitation. It is a program. I have already had certain awareness of this pattern and I am breaking down this pattern. This also explains why i have difficulty fitting into the Chinese group -- i no longer allow myself to define myself according to a national personality.
Then i realized this point: i am here to make a difference. I am not just here when everything is perfect so that the only thing that i am here to do is just enjoy. This world/the current system requires change and that is what i need to bring out and that is why i am here. I am Here to make a difference. No disappointment is necessary. Just do what is Here necessary to be done--bring out the change required. That is it.
Friday, January 15, 2010
separation
The starting point of separation creats/manifests separation as a result. Self becomes less than that which self has separated self from. Only when self stands within and as oneness and equality does self has the ability to transform/chang self as the manifestation.
Life is no separation in any way what so ever. Life is not separate from consciousness, because any separation is an indication of less than. Life is not less than consciousness. Consciousness is less than Life. Consciousness is separation, including the starting point of separaton and the consequential outflow of creation/manifestation as separation. Life is no separation, including the starting point of/as no separation and the resulting living manifestation as no separation.
There seems to be a paradox which can not be understood within human mathematics/equation. Life is able to stand one and equal with consciousness. Consciousness is not able to stand one and equal with Life. Are Life and consciousness separate? It depends on the starting point of self. When self stands as Life within and as oneness and equality, then consciousness is not a separate manifestation but that which is self for self-purification/transformation/change. When self stands within and as separation, self stands as consciousness and self as consciousness is seprate from self as Life. When self is HERE, self exists within oneness and equality as all and everything that is self including consciousness manifestations that is HERE. When self is separate from HERE, self becomes less than what is HERE as self and self gets trapped within infinity cycles that is Here as self stretched out and looped into the infinity symbol. It depends on the starting point of SELF.
Does time and infinity cycle exist or not? It depends on the starting point of self. When self is Here, time and infinity cycle does not exist and that which is stretched out into time and looped into infinity cycles are HERE as self. When self is not Here, self gets trapped in consciousness as that which is HERE stretched out and looped into infinity cycles.
When answering a question, take into consideration who/what self is. Self is the question. Self is the answer.
Self is the starting point. All and everything is self. Self can manifest self as consciousness within and as the starting point of/as separation through and as self's acceptance and allowance; self can manifest self as Life within and as the starting point of /as no separation through and as self's acceptance and allowance. This process is to stand one and equal with and as all and everything as self (stop separation within the starting point) to purify/transform/change self within the principle of equality and oneness as Life as wholeness to manifest self as wholeness as Life (manifest self as non-separation as the result). Separation also happens within and as the separation of the starting point from applicaiton - this is also self-deception and lead to consciousness entrapment. However, the separation of the starting point from application must have its origin of separtion in the starting point -- self-deception has already existed within the starting point.
Life has no separatoin in any way what so ever. No separation in the starting point (standing), application and living manifestation and expression. The starting point is one and equal with application; application is one and equal with the living manifestation and expression.
Life is no separation in any way what so ever. Life is not separate from consciousness, because any separation is an indication of less than. Life is not less than consciousness. Consciousness is less than Life. Consciousness is separation, including the starting point of separaton and the consequential outflow of creation/manifestation as separation. Life is no separation, including the starting point of/as no separation and the resulting living manifestation as no separation.
There seems to be a paradox which can not be understood within human mathematics/equation. Life is able to stand one and equal with consciousness. Consciousness is not able to stand one and equal with Life. Are Life and consciousness separate? It depends on the starting point of self. When self stands as Life within and as oneness and equality, then consciousness is not a separate manifestation but that which is self for self-purification/transformation/change. When self stands within and as separation, self stands as consciousness and self as consciousness is seprate from self as Life. When self is HERE, self exists within oneness and equality as all and everything that is self including consciousness manifestations that is HERE. When self is separate from HERE, self becomes less than what is HERE as self and self gets trapped within infinity cycles that is Here as self stretched out and looped into the infinity symbol. It depends on the starting point of SELF.
Does time and infinity cycle exist or not? It depends on the starting point of self. When self is Here, time and infinity cycle does not exist and that which is stretched out into time and looped into infinity cycles are HERE as self. When self is not Here, self gets trapped in consciousness as that which is HERE stretched out and looped into infinity cycles.
When answering a question, take into consideration who/what self is. Self is the question. Self is the answer.
Self is the starting point. All and everything is self. Self can manifest self as consciousness within and as the starting point of/as separation through and as self's acceptance and allowance; self can manifest self as Life within and as the starting point of /as no separation through and as self's acceptance and allowance. This process is to stand one and equal with and as all and everything as self (stop separation within the starting point) to purify/transform/change self within the principle of equality and oneness as Life as wholeness to manifest self as wholeness as Life (manifest self as non-separation as the result). Separation also happens within and as the separation of the starting point from applicaiton - this is also self-deception and lead to consciousness entrapment. However, the separation of the starting point from application must have its origin of separtion in the starting point -- self-deception has already existed within the starting point.
Life has no separatoin in any way what so ever. No separation in the starting point (standing), application and living manifestation and expression. The starting point is one and equal with application; application is one and equal with the living manifestation and expression.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Stagnation vs Stability
Stagnation is the unchanging of self-definition as knowledge and experience of self as interpretation of reality through knowledge -- dead, static and limited -- the old pattern repeting over and over and over and over and over again, never changing -- nothing new.
Stability is the unchanging of who i really am as Life as all as one as equal beyond any defintion in this world -- no matter where i am, with whom i am, within what situation i am, what form i take -- whatever changes, who i really am as Life as all as one as equal does not change, remain stable. The experience of self is self-expression as Life-expression as the unfolding of the infinite potential of who i really am as who we really are within oneness and equality -- not stagnant, static, dead, limited, but dynamic and expressive, yet stable within and as who i am and who we all are as Life as all as one as equal. Who I AM as LIFE as all as one as equal does not change as the stability/stillness as the core of being, yet the experience of self is the unfolding of the unknown manifestation and expression of the infinite potential -- never ending, never boring, never limited.
I remember a metaphor as a jet -- being stable/still yet moving very fast at the same time. Or the metaphor of the stillness of breath within a storm. Or the metaphor of typhoon -- the eye of typhoon as the inner core of being as stillness as stability and the outer realm of tyhoon as the experience of self as-expression.
Stability is the unchanging of who i really am as Life as all as one as equal beyond any defintion in this world -- no matter where i am, with whom i am, within what situation i am, what form i take -- whatever changes, who i really am as Life as all as one as equal does not change, remain stable. The experience of self is self-expression as Life-expression as the unfolding of the infinite potential of who i really am as who we really are within oneness and equality -- not stagnant, static, dead, limited, but dynamic and expressive, yet stable within and as who i am and who we all are as Life as all as one as equal. Who I AM as LIFE as all as one as equal does not change as the stability/stillness as the core of being, yet the experience of self is the unfolding of the unknown manifestation and expression of the infinite potential -- never ending, never boring, never limited.
I remember a metaphor as a jet -- being stable/still yet moving very fast at the same time. Or the metaphor of the stillness of breath within a storm. Or the metaphor of typhoon -- the eye of typhoon as the inner core of being as stillness as stability and the outer realm of tyhoon as the experience of self as-expression.
world/self view
Be open. Always be ready to change according to where the universal process requires. Yet at the same time there is the stability -- the stability of who i am as Life as all as one as equal. Who i am is not defined by anything -- not by knowledge, not by information, not by relationships, not by what i look like, not by race, not by color, not by the form that i take, not by anything in this world. Who i am is Life as all as one as equal and this is the stability as who i am. Because of this stability of who i am as Life as all as one as equal, i will not hold onto anything in this world because i do not define myself according to anything in this world, thus i do not fear changing any of these things -- they are not who i am. Thus i am not static. I am dynamic. Yet who i am as Life as all as one as equal is stable. Who i am is not defined by anything in this world and that is why i am willing to change, that is why i do not resist change. If i fear change, that simply indicates that i have defined myself according to something.
Here i found an analogue. The static self view corresponds to entity reality world view. The dynamic stable self view corresponds to the realization of self as substance as Life as all as one as equal within the unending process as the unfolding of the infinite potential as self-expression.
Change and live the world/self view to be in harmony with reality!!!!!!
Experience confirms knowledge! But how could this happen? Interpretation! Knowledge as self-definition is the mind as the prism perceiving reality. When you use this prism to perceive reality, you interpret reality according to what you know -- experience is always limited within the knowledge because experience is interpretation through knowledge, thus experience always confirms the knowledge within limitation. If you regard knowledge as a static entity you will always confirm the limitation that you have accepted and allowed through experience as limited interpretation through knowledge. So it is a closed loop: knowledge -> interpretation of reality as experience through knowledge -> confirming knowledge -> ... It is dangerous to hold onto a vision of knowledge as fixed static truth of reality because this will lead to confirmation of limitation by experience which is interpretation of reality through knowledge as limitation. Be ready to change! Break down knowledge as limitation. Do not hold onto a view of static fixed knowledge as the truth of reality.
Ego is fixed static dead knowledge as limitation, seeking all ways to protect itself to remain unchanged. I can not find who i really am as stability within knowledge because knowledge is not reality as it is. (the living word expressed as written and spoken words is self as reality but only when applied and applied become who i really am).
Self is seeking stability, but has mistaken knowledge as self, thus protecting knowledge as self-definition. And this leads to absolute stagnation and limitation. Self as stability does not exist in knowledge -- trying to make knowledge stable is limitation.
Here i found an analogue. The static self view corresponds to entity reality world view. The dynamic stable self view corresponds to the realization of self as substance as Life as all as one as equal within the unending process as the unfolding of the infinite potential as self-expression.
Change and live the world/self view to be in harmony with reality!!!!!!
Experience confirms knowledge! But how could this happen? Interpretation! Knowledge as self-definition is the mind as the prism perceiving reality. When you use this prism to perceive reality, you interpret reality according to what you know -- experience is always limited within the knowledge because experience is interpretation through knowledge, thus experience always confirms the knowledge within limitation. If you regard knowledge as a static entity you will always confirm the limitation that you have accepted and allowed through experience as limited interpretation through knowledge. So it is a closed loop: knowledge -> interpretation of reality as experience through knowledge -> confirming knowledge -> ... It is dangerous to hold onto a vision of knowledge as fixed static truth of reality because this will lead to confirmation of limitation by experience which is interpretation of reality through knowledge as limitation. Be ready to change! Break down knowledge as limitation. Do not hold onto a view of static fixed knowledge as the truth of reality.
Ego is fixed static dead knowledge as limitation, seeking all ways to protect itself to remain unchanged. I can not find who i really am as stability within knowledge because knowledge is not reality as it is. (the living word expressed as written and spoken words is self as reality but only when applied and applied become who i really am).
Self is seeking stability, but has mistaken knowledge as self, thus protecting knowledge as self-definition. And this leads to absolute stagnation and limitation. Self as stability does not exist in knowledge -- trying to make knowledge stable is limitation.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Starting point of equality and oneness as Life as all as one as equal
It is not to judge/resist/deny/throw away everything that i have learned. It is to transform the starting point of whatever i do. Everything is potentially useful to support all equally within the starting point of equality and oneness as Life as all as one as equal. Life as all as one as equal is not empty words -- Life has to be lived practically in this world. And it is to use whatever that is available/accesible within the starting point of support Life as all as one as equal -- to integrate everything that is effective to support Life. So it is to transform whatever i do and use whatever that is available to me within this new starting point as Life as all as one as equal -- to support, manifest and realize Life as all as one as equal practically. Everything is potentially useful to support Life as all as one as equal. There is no need to judge/deny/resist/ridicule/throw away everything -- that disempowers myself as Life within practicality. It is to integrate whatever that is available to assist Life within commen sense application and practicality to substantiate Life!!! Always remember the starting point. Use the starting point to transform everything into support of Life as all as one as equal. Be consistent within and as this new starting point as who i really am as who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal. The new starting point as the foundation to build everything -- the starting point/the foundation has to be established to make a difference. If we only build upon a foundation that has always existed, we are getting nowhere but repeating the old the past again and again and again. The foundation has to be different than before to make a difference. It is not to repair what has always been here -- repair is not going to work. The foundation has to be changed. The starting point has to be changed. And this new starting point/foundation is who i really am as who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal. So what is this process? Live who i really am as who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal. Be consistent with this starting point in every moment as every breath. Whatever decision that is made always in all ways take into consideration who i really am as who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal, not based on mind manifested personality definition that always seeks self-interest/desire/want/need that is based on self-separation. Is the decision based on who i really am as who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal taking into consideration what is best for all OR is the decision made based on self-interest seeking desire/want/need that is to fulfill mind manifested personality deifinition? What is your starting point in making a decision? What is directing you? Is it yourself as who you really are directing yourself OR is it you as a program that is directing you? Which one?
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