Wei - the Way of Life

No More Models on Catwalks

2011-12-13T15:27:00.000-05:00

The catwalk is a narrow platform that is elevated and is used by models to show clothing and other accessories during the course of a fashion show.[1]

Let’s have a look at this phenomenon. What is it based on? Pictures. The models are putting on ‘perfect’ make-ups, being ‘perfectly’ dressed, walking ‘elegantly’ – doing what? Present a picture. We see pictures everywhere in this world and we start to program ourselves with pictures as we grow up in this world and eventually we have come to define ourselves according to pictures. We are not actually living in the physical reality. We are living in our mental reality – pictures (such as models on catwalks) triggering energetic experiences such as desire which we accept and allow to direct ourselves without even questioning where they come from in the first place. Through those pictures we have built an idea of what is beautiful and what is fashionable. But none of that is actually real but are merely picture-related ideas that exist within our mind. Yet we believe them to be real and make decisions according to it, which just shows how easily human beings can be manipulated and controlled by illusions. Are we actually making a self-directive decision to buy a specific product merely because they are demonstrated by the models to be fashionable or are we being directed by the ideas/beliefs within our mind that we are programmed with through pictures to make that decision? Then who is making that decision? And who is actually benefiting from that decision? You or the company selling the product? What are you paying for? Usually impractical and uncomfortable clothes/shoes/accessories etc to reproduce that picture presentation demonstrated by the models - a picture/idea which is not yours in the first place.

Look at it. It is really just a picture. The clothes/shoes/accessories on those fashion shows are not designed with practicality and comfortableness as priorities but picture presentation overrides everything else. Those high heel shoes which are difficult for the models to manage their steps on the catwalk and tend to fall off the ground are but one explicit example of that principle. Yet it is the comfortableness and practicality that actually supports our human physical body.

There is nothing ‘wrong’ with clothing/shoes/accessories per se. It is the disregard of practical functioning of them to support our physical body and transforming them into merely pictures supporting delusional ideas which lead to decisions that promote the current consumerism economic system furthering the destruction of the physical reality that is the problem.

Within the equal money system (EMS) such things as models on catwalk as it currently exist which are merely picture presentations to serve the interest of the current abusive destructive economic system will be no more. The point of clothing /shoes/accessories etc and fashion thereof can be transformed into physical support and self-expression where we can investigate what we each one can do creatively about them in expressing ourselves. So the concept of fashion will definitely change in the EMS. It does not mean that everybody has to wear the same clothes[2]; instead it is opening up the door of each one’s creative self-expression rather than becoming the duplicated picture presentation we are sold through the fashion industry at this moment in the world.

[1] catwalk: http://www.articleworld.org/index.php/Catwalk

[2] Will everyone wear the same clothes in an Equal Money
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tePgFCbxU68
http://forum.desteni.org/viewtopic.php?f=41&t=1700

The End of Animal Extinction Caused by Greed/Profit/Harming the Environment

2011-12-13T03:25:00.001-05:00

Our current economic system is based on greed and profit. Obviously within such a system life is not the first priority as everything is equated in terms of how much profit can be gained to feed man’s greed. The result is this world as currently is – where we are busy destroying everything on earth that which is real which is the physical reality as nature, ocean and the animal kingdom, within which we are also creating our own demise. The problem of animal extinction due to human activities harming the environment through our acceptance and allowance of the current economic system is but a precise reflection of what we are busy doing to ourselves.

There may be different causes for species extinction. However habitat destruction due to human activities has been identified currently as the main cause of species extinction worldwide. “Clearing habitats for agriculture is the principal cause of habitat destruction. Other important causes of habitat destruction include mining, logging, trawling and urban sprawl.” Actually all human activities can be traced back to money and how money functions in our current economic system which is through each and every single human being’s acceptance, allowance and participation and thus we are all equally responsible for the current status of this world – in this specific example the destruction of habitat and species extinction. Money has a say on everything we do. If we investigate that within self-honesty, we will see that everywhere – we can see how money determines our life on an individual scale and how this whole world functions on the bigger scale.

It is self-evident and beyond discussion that nature, the animal kingdom and the entire earth are being abused by human – used by human for profit and greed which only feeds human ego as the illusionary idea that somehow human species is more than other species on earth. The fucked-upness of this world doubtlessly reveals the true nature of man. Earth is our home. Animals are our equals. What advanced species would be stupid enough to destroy one’s own home and treat its equals as slaves?

The equal money system (EMS) is the solution for mankind so that we can actually live as custodians of earth in harmony with nature and the animal kingdom and everything that is here. The EMS is based on the principle of what is best for all – best for all the living beings. Profit and greed will be no more the driving force as they currently are in the current economic system. And thus human, animal, plant and the natural environment are all equally considered so that all living beings on earth can enjoy our living here on earth. Particularly, the principal cause of species extinction which is habitat destruction due to agriculture will be solved in the EMS due to the change in how food will be manufactured and produced in EMS [2] as only very little land will be required to mass-produce food under controlled environments using the technology that already exist in this world. A lot of stuff that are involved with biofuel such as sugar and corn etc that are produced in the current system will no more be needed due to the end of competition and thus many species’ habitats will be restored as vast regions of earth return to its natural condition. “Most of the farmland in the world will become the home of animals again, and most of the fences will be removed so that animals can roam the world again…” [2] Fascinating, EMS will bring heaven on earth – a heaven for all living beings!

Reference:

[1] Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Habitat_destruction#cite_note-1

[2] How would food be manufactured and produced?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmAx60pUfKg
http://forum.desteni.org/viewtopic.php?f=41&t=1526&p=7957&hilit=How+will+food+be+manufactured+and+produced%3F#p7957

No More Homeless with Equal Money

2011-12-12T18:18:00.007-05:00

No doubt the problem of homelessness is prominent in our current system. According to researches done on the homeless problem in America – “EVEN IN THE FACE OF 1990s ECONOMIC PROSPERITY, homeless statistics show the number of homeless has remained stubbornly high. Between five and six hundred thousand people are considered ‘homeless’ at any given time - without a ‘permanent, safe, decent, affordable place to live’. (Granruth and Smith*).”[1]

The causes of homelessness such as poverty, economic depression, high housing cost and low salary [1] are all considered within the accepted framework of the current economic system without challenging the current system itself and sourcing the actual real origin point of the problem. Thus these factors are actually merely outflows of underlying fundamental problem (‘Fund Mental’ lol that says it all). The problem is deeply rooted within our accepted Mentality of life and money and the current economic system that is an external representation and reflection of/as who we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be within, where within we fund/invest in our mind system/mental reality while destroying our physical body – equal and one without manifested as the destruction of the physical reality as nature/animal kingdom/ocean through and as funding/investing in our current economic system.

Isn’t it insane that we have come to accept and allow that we have accepted survival as the way of life? Isn’t it insane that we have come to accept and allow money to determine whether we live or die? If you have no money - you have no food, you have no drinking water, you have no clothes to wear, you have no house to live in and thus you have no right to live in this world. We have come to accept and allow that we require to buy the right to live and thus life has become a constant struggle and survival! And we call this living? What a fucking joke!

Within in an Equal Money System(EMS) the whole paradigm changes. Life rather than abuse of life, is honored. Equality and what is Best for All is the foundational principle. Each one born into this reality is ensured a dignified life. The basic needs of everyone such as food, drinking water, clothes, housing, health care and education etc will be taken care of on the basis that we are living beings. And thus our lives will not be based on survival but actual living. Poverty, economic depression and high housing cost etc that are equated as causes of homelessness in the framework of our current economic system will also exist no more in EMS as they are outflow derivatives of our current economic system that is based on profit and greed and driven by survival. (To learn more how EMS works please read reference [2]). Thus EMS solves the problem of homelessness from the root rather than just bandaging it.

No more homeless with equal money!

Reference:

[1] PREVENTING HOMELESSNESS IN AMERICA:

http://www.solutionsforamerica.org/thrivingneigh/homelessness.html

[2] Equal money System:

http://wiki.destonians.com/Equal_Money_System

Equal Money System FAQ: Who decides the prices of products and services?

2011-11-21T13:55:00.002-05:00

Who decides the prices of products and services.

There is an interim before equal money system called BIG(basic income grant). In the BIG age, products and services still exist and are related to the basic income. In the equal money system prices of products or services will no longer be relevant because life will be the only value. Prices indicate that one will have to buy the right to life. In the equal money system each one is born with the right to life and taken care of automatically and thus one does not need to strive to get money to buy the right to life as in the current system where if you do not have money you will die. Thus we will be no longer be driven by survival but start to actually live, explore and enjoy ourselves. In the equal money system the basic principle is what is best for all. Everything will be in the service of life. Thus all the resources provided by the earth and nature will belong to everyone and will be applied effectively to make sure that everyone could have the best life possible. You will also have access to new things that people come up with, which they do a labour in the form of love to honour other human beings or themselves. These products will be presented on a global scale. If there are enough people willing to work with it or enjoy it, it will be manufactured and made available to all those who want it equally. In this way you will participate in decision making on whether you want the product or not. The basic labour in the equal money system will be done through a conscription system where young people will work in a society management system. They will learn how to produce food and related products and services in a commune-style where they can have fun and parties, interacting with their peers, becoming a fully developed human beings and developing a healthy social structure.

Reference:

[1] Who decides the prices of products and services
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZTGN9HAaG44

[2] How would food be manufactured and produced? - Equal Money FAQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmAx60pUfKg

Equal Money System FAQ: Will Aliens bring us advanced technology once we exist as one as equal?

2011-11-21T08:27:00.001-05:00

Will Aliens bring us advanced technology once we exist as one as equal?

For us to exist as one and equal, we require to implement and live in an equal money system (EMS). The EMS is based on the principle of what is best for all. Within the principle of what is best for all is the understanding that what is best for all is what is best for self thus it is the consideration of all equal and one as self. Living in the EMS based on the principle of what is best for all is thus the practical realization of us existing as one as equal.

At the stage of implementing the EMS, such points as aliens and their advanced technology are not relevant. The problem on earth is a human problem. We have to take self-responsibility to sort out the shit we created on earth. If aliens with advanced technology do exist they would also want to entrust the advanced technology to a trustworthy species which can take self-responsibility, wouldn’t they? I mean, the point of ‘once we exist as one as equal’ is also a requirement that we as a human species be trustworthy, which can only be so through taking full self-responsibility, being fully accountable for our own creation.

The EMS ensures that we as a human species can be trusted as we live as one as equal and be responsible for ourselves and all as ourselves. In the EMS everything is based on the principle of what is best for all. Thus before implementation of an technology it will be first investigated to make sure that it indeed is what is best for all which entails that the technology is not abused in any way whatsoever. Obviously that is not the case in the current system where there are technologies used without proper consideration of consequences or advanced technologies that can benefit all being suppressed due to profit and greed. In the equal money system, those current advanced technologies that are best for all can already be implemented. And the development of science and technology in EMS will no longer be controlled by profit but determined by what is best for all. Thus our scientific and technological endeavor could go even much faster than it does right now, allowing advanced technology to be developed and implemented for the best benefit of all.

Only when we as a human species becomes trust-worthy as in the EMS do the points of alien and their advanced technology become relevant. Then we can investigate these more advanced points of whether aliens actually exist or whether they will bring us advanced technology. I mean, it is really up to the aliens if they do exist. But human species living in the EMS is definitely a species that is worth having contact with and being trustworthy of being revealed to those advanced technology as they know the technology will be used for what is best for all.

Equal Money System FAQ: What will happen to the elite blood lines?

2011-11-21T06:16:00.000-05:00

What will happen to the elite blood lines?

The elite is a result of the current system that we are all equally responsible for – a system of profit and greed, a system of evolution – ever losing, within which we become less and less and less within abdicating ourselves for survival. The elite has as much power as we give them. We are all equally responsible for the current status of the world as it exists through our acceptance and allowance of who we are within our participation in the current system. Thus we created this world as the image and likeness as what we accepted and allowed ourselves to be as separation, abuse and inequality.

Within the equal money system, the foundational principle is what is best for all. Thus we will establish a system that values life and remove survival from the equation of each one’s life. We honour each other as who honour ourselves and we actually practically live the principle of ‘love thy neighbour as thyself’. No one will have power and control over another and thus elitism will end in the equal money system.

As each one will face what we accepted and allowed within the system of inequality, so will the elite. The accepted self-definition of the elite as being apparently more than other human beings and the practice of power and control over others thereof through whatever means is actually a dishonour of who they really are as life and thus an acceptance of self-abuse and self-limitation, which requires assistance and correction. They will be re-educated with the value of life and realize that what is best for all is also what is best for themselves. The resources that are provided by the earth and nature and the products that are produced by human thus will be available to all equally to benefit all equally.

Since we all accepted and allowed and participated in the current system and are thus are all equally responsible for what is here in this world, it is not valid to judge and blame the elite for why the world is what it is and use that as justification to seek revenge. Revenge only brings more revenge. The only way to stop the cycle of harming each other is forgiveness. Forgive each other as ourselves and make sure we do not create such harm and abuse ever again.

Reference: What will happen to the Elite? -- Equal Money FAQ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lxn_o0GmQQs

Equal Money System FAQ: How will addictions be handled?

2011-10-30T10:57:00.000-04:00

How will addictions be handled?

The extensiveness of addiction problems in the current system is due to its nature of not supporting life. The current economic system is based on survival. Life in the current system for many has become a constant struggle. People who have addictions such as alcohol or drugs mainly use them to escape reality and suppress themselves because they are not satisfied with life. The addictions create a hiding place where one does not face and deal with the true reality but try to forget everything or seek high experiences in illusionary realities in the mind, within which one actually becomes more defeated and abdicate self-responsibility and just accept self as a slave. Within the EMS, all people’s basic physical needs are met through providing an equal amount of money that is sufficient for the person to live a dignified life from birth to death. Thus there won’t be any survival stress that haunts anyone and we can actually start to give us the opportunity to explore what it means to live for the first time. People no longer have the motive to suppress themselves through using alcohol or drugs in order to escape reality and go into illusionary realities, because now they can find happiness and enjoy themselves in real life. Thus addiction problems will drop exponentially in the EMS. The EMS is a fundamental solution to get rid of the root of addiction problems.

In the current unequal abusive economic system, abuses related to addictions are actually promoted because of profit and greed instead of being stopped/intervened/prevented based on the principle of what is best for all. Have you ever wondered why alcohol is legal while drugs are illegal? Is it really because alcohol is less harmful and destructive than drugs? A scientific research [1][2] done by British researchers in 2010 shows ‘Presenting a new scale of drug harm that rates the damage to users themselves and to wider society, the scientists rated alcohol the most harmful overall and almost three times as harmful as cocaine or tobacco.’ ‘Professor David Nutt, chairman of the ISCD, whose work was published in the Lancet medical journal, said the findings showed that ‘aggressively targeting alcohol harms is a valid and necessary public health strategy.’ He said they also showed that current drug classification systems had little relation to the evidence of harm.’ If alcohol being legal is not based on the evidence of harm, what is it based on then? It all boils down to money! One major reason why alcohol is legal while drugs are illegal is because alcohol brings in far more money in tax to the government. When money comes into play everything else gives way. The consequences however are the prevalence of abuses due to alcohol consumption. In the family situation a major cause of child abuse, sexual abuse and domestic violence is due to the effect alcohol has on people using it to suppress themselves and become possessed by their anger and frustration and exert them onto other family members which may cause traumatic experiences or even physical harms on other family members – usually children and women. “The World Health Organization estimates that risks linked to alcohol cause 2.5 million deaths a year from heart and liver disease, road accidents, suicides and cancer -- accounting for 3.8 percent of all deaths. It is the third leading risk factor for premature death and disabilities worldwide.[1]” Within the EMS profit and greed are removed and what is best for all is the basic law. Such atrocities and abuses cannot be tolerated. Once the facts and effects of alcohol are researched thoroughly and are known to all we will all agree on the decision that alcohol should be outlawed. This is an act of intervention/prevention that is best for all rather than deliberate promotion of abuse based on profit as is in the current economic system.

In the EMS people who have developed addiction problems will be assisted immediately and effectively. Eventually technology will allow one’s DNA to be read and according to the output of a person’s DNA the person’s physical-chemical-psychological condition can be detected. Thus if there is an addiction problem it will be reflected on the output of the reading signal of DNA. The person can thus receive immediate assistance and support from necessary professionals at early stages of developing such a problem. There will be also a lot of changes with regards to psychology and psychiatry[11]. In the current system psychology and psychiatry are driven by the motive of making money from the patients and thus the patients’ problems are deliberately not cured actually so that they can continue to be exploited. In the EMS such things cannot be tolerated. Research being done will be focused on discovering the actual reasons for human being’s dysfunctional problems and find real effective practical solutions.

Reference:

[1]: http://www.reuters.com/article/2010/11/01/us-drugs-alcohol-idUSTRE6A000O20101101

[2]:http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/39938704/ns/health-addictions/t/alcohol-more-dangerous-heroin-cocaine-study-finds/

[3]: http://www.urban75.com/Drugs/drugten.html

[4]: http://vodpod.com/watch/5672242-equal-money-system-and-drug-addiction

[5]: http://equalmoney.org/2011/04/war-on-drugs-creates-more-crime-%e2%80%93-equal-money-dip-is-solution/

[6]: http://equalmoney.org/2011/06/why-alcohol-makes-you-a-pre-historic-zombie-moron/

[7]: http://equalmoney.org/2011/03/all-co-hole-ism-till-5-am-from-today/

[8]: http://cathy4worldequality.wordpress.com/2011/08/23/addiction-is-mind-control-you-want-to-stop-the-solution-is-here/

[9]: http://shsbarbi.blogspot.com/2011/04/equal-money-system-solution.html

[10]: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sFPv3Xuzpvo

[11]: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z6Fo1I6mc2A

[12]: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-fysPM0mP84

Equal Money System FAQ: Cars - who will make them and who will get one

2011-10-29T23:40:00.000-04:00

Cars - who will make them and who will get one

Cars are practical tools in the transportation system for us to move around to different locations physically in the world. So cars will still be manufactured and distributed in the Equal Money System. This can be part of the transportation system within the global logistical system for the support and distribution to all equally in EMS. How exactly that is going to work we will all have to decide within the principle of what is best for all.

Practically there exists the necessity of both public transportation such as trains, buses and private transportation such as personal cars.

In the current consumerism economic system, people are promoted to buy and use personal cars as much as possible because of the profit linked to the car industry, which is currently also directly connected to the massive profit-involved oil industry through the dependency of oil consumption by cars. Because of the system is driven by profit and greed rather than consideration of practical living, cars as well as other products in the current system are not made to last long. They have to break so that people can buy more. More products are sold, more profits are gained. Cars with lower quality have to be deliberately manufactured to serve the need of those with lower income. It does not make sense to produce a product with a lower quality when we have the ability to produce it in higher quality, does it? Why not produce all of the products in the highest possible quality? Yet that is what is promoted in our current economic system - a system without common sense. In the EMS this will change. The EMS is based on the principle of what is best for all – a principle of practical common sense. Profit and greed will no longer be the driving force but consideration of life, practical functionality and expression. All cars will be manufactured in the highest possible quality. So that people driving in the car can be well protected rather than injured or die in case of an accident because the car is deliberately made of a lower quality due to profit factor.

From a common sense consideration, it is also still necessary to have a person get a license to ensure their qualification before they drive a vehicle so that they actually know how to drive and what to do in different situations when driving a vehicle so that it does not cause potential danger to anyone. That is best for everyone’s safety.

The various brands of cars will not exist in the EMS. If you look at all the brands in the current system, what is the actual practical functionality of them? Is there actually any? Do they hold value merely because people believe in them through advertisement to generate ideas/beliefs/desires within people’s minds so that more products can be sold and more profits can be gained?

The air pollution problem of vehicle exhaust can also be solved more easily when the profit and cost factors do not stand in the way in the EMS. Our current technology has already been able to make cars that do not depend on oil and pollute the air, but use water, electricity, hydrogen, or compressed air etc and thus more friendly to the environment. The major resisting factor to the implementation of these solutions is still profit. In the current system, the car industry and the oil industry are dependent on each other. If cars no longer use oil, the oil companies will lose profit. In the EMS, with the removal of the profit factor, we will all be able to make informed decisions on what fuel we use for cars within the principle of what is best for all. That of course includes the consideration of our influence on the environment we live in – on the air that we breathe because everything we produce and place into our environment will have an influence back onto ourselves. We have to consider the consequences of what we do onto our environment and thus onto ourselves.

With regards to who will get a car in the EMS that will depend on whether there is such a need for a car. Each one having a car is not necessarily practical. If there are too many cars in this world, there may not be enough space among cars for the traffic to move effectively or enough places to park cars. Imagine the extreme situation where the surface of the whole planet is covered with cars then not even one car can move. Of course the effects of too many cars do not have to get to such an extreme to be revealed. You only need to consider the hours wasted in traffic jams each day you go to work or when you spent half an hour finding a parking lot. Cars are supposed to make life easier not the opposite. Implementing more effective public transportation is a suggested practical solution. In the current economic system, the public transportation is not designed and functioning at its fullest potential. One reason is the profit-driven factor to promote the car industry so the public transportation is suppressed. If we establish well developed effective public transportation such as bus, train, and subway etc, people will start to realize the merit of public transportation and may start to like taking them because it is practical. Then we can effectively reduce the unnecessary amount of cars and help solving the corresponding traffic issues. It is also possible that we can find practical solutions to solve the current traffic problems even without reducing the amount of cars so that the transportation system is more private-transportation based. So there may still exist the two aspects of public transportation and private transportation in the transportation system in EMS. We will just have to see and decide how exactly to make these two aspects work together as effectively as possible.

Read and watch related discussions:

Equal Money system - Transportation solution

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCLaOx0Ws5k

Transport & Equal Money

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NE3pMwkzYYo

Cars in an Equal Money System - Equal Money FAQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sFPv3Xuzpvo

Practical solution for Transportaion that is Best for ALL

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nt0xRDPuOZs

Equal Money System FAQ: Do I still have to clean other people’s toilets in an EMS?

2011-10-28T19:17:00.001-04:00

Let’s have a look at what could possibly be implied within the question with regards to the point of cleaning toilets being mentioned specifically.

In the current world, cleaning toilet is usually seen as a dirty/shitty job and people doing such a job are usually not well respected. It seems to be a custom that our society value mental work much more than physical work. We have, for instance, theoretical physicists developing theories about the universe with eleven dimensions, which is mostly mental work and such scientists have a relatively high status in society. We also have for example plumbers doing the ordinary maintenance work to help fix a leaking pipe if there is such a problem and they have a relatively low social status. Of course, ‘relatively’ is measured according to the current accepted value system of this world.

Our current value system is born from and in turn supports our economic system, which has a lack of recognition of and respect for actual physical living. If you have a look at what actually supports us to exist and function in the physical world – it is the food we eat, the clothes we wear, the house/shelter we live in, the cars/buses we use to move around and the maintenance system that keeps them functioning properly and also some other aspects. However we have taken for granted these physical aspects that allow us to exist and function in this physical reality. How often do we even consider where the food comes from, who made the clothes we wear? What provides the foundation for us to do the so perceived more valuable creative expressive mental work? Why are we so obsessed with the mental delusional alternate realities keeping the current destructive economic system continuing through our participation while destroying this one physical reality that we all exist in together? In the context of the current economic system and the corresponding promoted value system, we do not care and respect that which actually matters which is matter – the physical and the practical living in the physical. That is the problem. And that will change in the Equal Money System.

In the Equal Money System Life is value. That which supports life is valued. Each human being born into this world will receive the same amount of money that is necessary to live a dignified life. Thus survival is out of the equation of living. In terms of cleaning other people’s toilets, in the current system people do it most likely due to lack of money to survive – thus from that perspective it will no longer exist in the EMS because the person’s basic ‘survival needs’ will have been taken care of. We no longer have slaves working for us just because they need money to survive! In the EMS, they can explore and enjoy life as everyone else equally. Each one will take equal responsibility in doing the work necessary for a functioning life. Cleaning toilet regularly is part of such necessary work. It is practical that each one clean one’s own toilet. Or if people who live or work together are sharing a restroom, they can work out a schedule for example to take turns in cleaning toilets on a weekly basis so that each one takes equal responsibility. But still it is not about cleaning other people’s toilets – it is about taking equal responsibility in the necessary work and each one is actually doing it for themselves.

There are also other kind of areas that are critical to the quality of each one’s life on earth, such as agriculture/food production and distribution, the manufacturing of clothing, energy production such as energy, sewage system building and maintenance etc. To ensure these basic supports are provided to everyone, it will be done through a system of conscription – where everyone who finishes school will do 4 years of mandatory labor in any one of those areas required to support the basic support system of the world. In the current system, one can abdicate responsibility of doing such necessary work through using money to buy ‘freedom’ and let those who need money to survive to do all such work. Our current value system of disrespect for physical work is actually glorification of slavery. The four-year labor in areas of the basic support system can be a cool experience to educate ourselves about what it takes to make our life in the physical world function and it could be fun. I myself would definitely enjoy having such an experience of exploring and discovering myself and the world within which I have taken so much for granted and almost knew nothing about.

Within the EMS through reeducating ourselves with how to live practically in the physical and take equal responsibility in the necessary work for our life to function, we may have a different view on cleaning toilet and not see it as such a dirty/shitty job which is but shaped and limited by the current value system that supports slavery instead of life as equality.

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Read and watch related topics:

Who will do the shitty jobs: http://equalmoney.org/2011/10/who-will-do-the-shitty-jobs/

Who will do the shitty jobs: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b4CAwvGi0T0

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Working on Relationship System and Relationship Personality in DIP

2011-09-30T02:36:00.000-04:00

The following self-forgiveness is extracted from my ITD course assignment #10.

1. THE RELATIONSHIP-SYSTEM

Ideal Partner

Self-Forgiveness on ideas, perceptions, beliefs, definitions in relation to ‘Ideal Partner’:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge the word ideal partner with a positive value.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the word ideal partner as positive/good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word ideal partner through judging the word ideal partner as good/positive.

Appearance: Beautiful, looking like my mother and sister

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word appearance to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word appearance within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word appearance and the word ideal partner through defining the word appearance within the word partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word beautiful to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word beautiful within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word beautiful and the word ideal partner through defining the word beautiful within the word partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words mother/sister to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the words mother/sister within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words mother/sister and the word ideal partner through defining the words mother/sister within the word partner in separation of myself.

Figure: sexy

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word figure to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word figure within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word figure and the word ideal partner through defining the word figure within the word partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word sexy to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word sexy within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word sexy and the word ideal partner through defining the word sexy within the word partner in separation of myself.

Intellectuality: smart but not smarter than me

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word intellectuality to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word intellectuality within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word intellectuality and the word ideal partner through defining the word intellectuality within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words smart but not smarter than me to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word smart but not smarter than me within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word smart and from the word ideal partner through defining smart but not smarter than me within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

Character:tender, goodness,considerate, independent

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word character to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word character within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word character and from the word ideal partner through defining the word character within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word tender to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word tender within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word tender and from the word ideal partner through defining the word tender within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word goodness to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word goodness within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word goodness and from the word ideal partner through defining the word goodness within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word considerate to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word considerate within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word considerate and from the word ideal partner through defining the word considerate within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word independent to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word independent within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word independent and the word ideal partner through defining the word independent within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

Work: having a job and earning money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word work to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word work within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word work and form the word ideal partner through defining the word work within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words having a job and earning money to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define having a job and earning money to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from having a job and earning money and from the word ideal partner through defining having a job and earning money within ideal partner in separation of myself.

Loyal/sticking to female’s moral code

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word loyal to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word loyal within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word loyal and from the word ideal partner through defining the word loyal within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect sticking to female’s moral code to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define sticking to female’s moral code within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from sticking to female’s moral code and from the word ideal partner through defining the words sticking to female’s moral code within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

Popularity: popular yet low-key

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word popularity to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word popularity within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word popularity and from the word ideal partner through defining the word popularity within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect popular to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word popular to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word popular and from the word ideal partner through defining the word popular within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word low-key to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word low-key within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word low-key and from the word ideal partner through defining the word low-key within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

Finance: no serious debt

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word finance to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word finance within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word finance and from the word ideal partner through defining the word finance within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word debt to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word debt in polarity to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word debt and from the word popularity through defining the word debt in polarity to the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

Household duties

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word household duties to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word household duties within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word household duties and from the word ideal partner through defining the word household duties within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

Education: at least undergraduate

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word education to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word education within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word education and from the word ideal partner through defining the word education within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word undergraduate to the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word undergraduate within the word ideal partner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word undergraduate and from the word ideal partner through defining the word undergraduate within the word ideal partner in separation of myself.

Re-define ‘ideal partner’:

- Sounding of the words:

The word ideal sounds like the word idea and the word partner contains the word parent.

The ideal partner of the mind is an idea of perfection that is created based on mainly the parents – together with all other factors.

- Dictionary Definition:

Ideal: satisfying one's idea of what is perfect

Partner: either of two people who are married to one another or having a sexual relationship with one another

- New Definition:

The following definition is constructed from various points mentioned in the document relationships, sex and agreements – part 2.

ideal partner is an individual with whom we together walk this process of birthing self as Life from the Physical and establishing Heaven on Earth within the principle of Equality and Oneness as What is Best for All - where we establish an equal and one relationship/agreement with self in getting to know self through self-honesty, self-forgiveness and practical corrective application, and assist and support each other to do so while walking together within self-completion, self-love and self-acceptance within which we explore, discover, share, express and experience self-honesty, self-living, self-expression as who we are here as an in fact practical, physical, tangible, reality-experience of walking with each other, equal and one.

Ideal Relationship

Self-Forgiveness on ideas, perceptions, beliefs, definitions in relation to ‘Ideal Relationship’ as mapped out in the web above:

I am not like my father and my partner is like my mother

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect me not being like my father and my partner being like my mother to the word ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define me not being like my father and my partner being like my mother within the word ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word ideal relationship through defining me not being like my father and my partner being like my mother to the word ideal relationship – in separation of myself.

Different from my parents’ relationship

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect my parents’ relationship to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define my parents’ relationship in polarity to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from my parents’ relationship and ideal relationship through defining the word my parents’ relationship in polarity to ideal relationship – in separation of myself.

Intimacy

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word intimacy to the ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define intimacy within ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word intimacy and ideal relationship through defining intimacy within ideal relationship – in separation of myself.

Security

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect security to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define security within ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from security and from ideal relationship through defining security within ideal relationship – in separation of myself.

Care

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect care to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define care within ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from care and from ideal relationship through defining care within ideal relationship in separation of myself.

Attention

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect attention to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define attention within ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from attention and from ideal relationship through defining attention within ideal relationship – in separation of myself.

Love each other

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect loving each other to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define loving each other within ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from love and from ideal relationship through defining loving each other within ideal relationship in separation of myself.

Equality between partners:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect equality between partners to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define equality between partners within ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from equality between partners and from ideal relationship through defining equality between partners within ideal relationship in separation of myself.

Enough money

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect enough money to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define enough money within ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from enough money and from ideal relationship through defining enough money within ideal relationship – in separation of myself.

Great sex life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect great sex life to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define great sex life within ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from great sex life and from ideal relationship through defining great sex life within ideal relationship in separation of myself.

Peace = no constant quarrel/fighting/domestic violence

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect peace to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define peace within ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from peace and from ideal relationship through defining peace within ideal relationship in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect constant quarrel/fighting/domestic violence to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define constant quarrel/fighting/domestic violence in polarity to ideal relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from constant quarrel/fighting/domestic violence through defining constant quarrel/fighting/domestic violence in polarity to ideal relationship – in separation of myself.

Re-define ‘ideal relationship’:

- Sounding of the words:

The word ideal sounds like the word idea.

As for relationship I do not know yet. From the structure of the word, it is just relation+ship.

- Dictionary Definition:

Ideal: satisfying one's idea of whatis perfect; most suitable

Relationship: a situation in which two people spend time together or live together, and have romantic or sexual feelings for each other

- New Definition:

ideal relationship is an agreement within which two individuals as partners in life walk this process of birthing self as Life from the Physical and establishing Heaven on Earth within the principle of Equality and Oneness as What is Best for All – where we establish an equal and one relationship/agreement with self in getting to know self through self-honesty, self-forgiveness and practical corrective application, and assist and support each other to do so while walking together within self-completion, self-love and self-acceptance within which we explore, discover, share, express and experience self-honesty, self-living, self-expression as who we are here as an in fact practical, physical, tangible, reality-experience of walking with each other, equal and one.

Ideal Sex

Self-Forgiveness on ideas, perceptions, beliefs, definitions in relation to ‘Ideal Sex’ as mapped out in the web above:

Multiple beautiful sexy female partners：

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect multiple beautiful sexy female partners to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define multiple beautiful sexy female partners in ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from female partner and from the word ideal sex through defining multiple beautiful sexy female partners within the word ideal sex – in separation of myself.

In nature with sunny weather

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being in nature with sunny weather to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define being in nature with sunny weather within ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from nature, sunny weather and ideal sex through defining being in nature with sunny weather within ideal sex – in separation of myself.

Without condom

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect condom to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define condom in polarity to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from condom and from ideal sex through defining condom in polarity to ideal sex – in separation of myself.

Various sex positions

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect various sex positions to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define various sex positions within ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from various sex positions and from ideal sex through defining various sex positions within ideal sex.

Sexual sublimation

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect sexual sublimation to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define sexual sublimation within ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from sexual sublimation and from ideal sex through defining sexual sublimation within ideal sex – in separation of myself.

All partners are satisfied

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect all partners being satisfied to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define all partners being satisfied within ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from partners and from ideal sex through defining all partners being satisfied within ideal sex – in separation of myself.

Duration: till I can no longer do it

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the maximum long duration of sex to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the maximum long duration of sex within ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from maximum long duration of sex and ideal sex through defining maximum long duration of sex within ideal sex – in separation of myself.

Explosive orgasms

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect explosive orgasms to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define explosive orgasms within ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from explosive orgasms and from ideal sex through defining explosive orgasms within ideal sex – in separation of myself.

Experience Intimacy like melting together

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the experience of intimacy like melting together to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the experience of intimacy like melting together to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself intimacy and from ideal sex through defining the experience of intimacy like melting together within ideal sex – in separation of myself.

Free from concerns

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect free from concerns to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define free from concerns within ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from concerns and from ideal sex through defining free from concerns within ideal sex – in separation of myself.

Bright place

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect bright place to ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define bright place within ideal sex.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from bright place and from ideal sex through defining bright place within ideal sex – in separation of myself.

Re-define ‘ideal sex’:

- Sounding of the words:

The word ideal sounds like the word idea.

In Veno’s structural resonance document, it is explained that the word sex as per consciousness systems defined sound resonance, exists as follows:

S = I am sending/transferring

E = myself (that is of consciousness systems) energetically/systematically

X = into you, where we both together will crucify ourselves and each other with the integration of each other as consciousness systems.

- Dictionary Definition:

Ideal: satisfying one's idea of what is perfect

Sex: activities that lead to and include sexual intercourse

- New Definition:

From ITD course lesson 7 – the History of Mankind part 6, sex is the key to self-expression.

I would redefine ideal sex as an expression of who I am as life where I am constant – without energy fluctuation, discovering and exploring myself through self-direction and self-movement within, as and through the physical activity of sex with another being.

2. THE RELATIONSHIP-PERSONALITY

Trait 1: open

Trait 2: interesting

Trait 3: talkative

Trait 4: impressive

Trait 5: attentive

Trait 6: intelligent

Trait 7 honest

Trait 8: committed

Trait 9: strong

Trait 10: sexy

Trait 11: secure

Trait 12: trustworthy

Self-Forgiveness Application

open

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 1:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being open instead of being actually open.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 1 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold myself back from being open through fear of being judged or harmed if I dare to be open.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being judged or harmed to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive myself to be autistic.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as being autistic.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the self-perception and self-definition of/as being autistic.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 1 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to bottle everything up within me.

I forgive myself for a ccepting and allowing myself to hide the secrets of who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that who I am is a secret.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am actually able to hide myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that if I hide myself within me then nobody else will know who I am as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself for a ccepting and allowing myself to hide the self-dishonesties that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be fear to be judged/laughed at/ridiculed/harmed if I dare to share myself openly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being judged/laughed at/ridiculed/harmed to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the truth of me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect facing the truth of me to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the truth of me to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

interesting

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 2:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being interesting.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 2 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe myself to be a pretty boring person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto this self-perception/self-belief about myself as being a boring person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I do not have anything interesting to share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself in opposition to being interesting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the trait of being interesting. (It is not that I have to become interesting deliberately to take on another personality of/as defining myself as being an interesting person.)

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to prevent myself from sharing myself because I have believed that I am a boring person and that people would not be interested in hearing me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself through the perception/idea/belief that I am a boring person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be a boring person because I do not have specific hobbies which everyone is supposed to have according to society standard.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 2 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for being ‘boring’ as I have perceived myself to be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge boring as being bad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word boring through judging the word boring as bad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear to be judged by others for being perceived to be bored.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being judged by others for being perceived to be bored to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project self-judgment onto others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not being accepted by others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect not being accepted by others to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project lack of self-acceptance onto others.

talkative

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 3:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being talkative.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 3 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive myself to be an uncommunicative person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard being talkative not my type of thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to prevent myself from being talkative through judging talking too much as being shallow.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive that not talking much make me appear to be profound.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within the perception/idea/believe that I have communication dysfunction and that I am not able to communicate effectively.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from effective communication.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing effective communication as who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to prevent myself from talking due to fear that my words will have consequences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the consequences that go with my words to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that by not speaking I am preventing consequences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that the more I talk the more consequences I will bring to myself and to others and thus that I’d better shut up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive it to be wrong to speak.

I forgive myself for acceping and allowing myself to judge speaking as wrong.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from speaking through judging speaking as wrong.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 3 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being talkative to hide the depression within me due to ineffective communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge depression as bad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from depression through judging depression as bad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear that others may see me being depressed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being seen depressed to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ot fear my own fear.

impressive

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 4:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being impressive.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 4 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe myself to be a low-key person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as a low-key person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place value and worth within being a low-key person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that being a low-key person is a good trait.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge being a low-key person to be good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word low-ley through judging being low-key to be good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold myself back from speaking and expressing through sticking to my self-definition as a low-key person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have created myself as being unnoticed through deliberately making myself unnoticed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear to be noticed as then I will be exposed to criticism, judgment and danger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being noticed to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being noticed to being exposed to criticism, judgment and danger.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 4 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel shitty about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel valueless and worthless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to impress others so that I can believe that I am worthy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to impress others so that I can get accepted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place value in being impressive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from value and worth through defining value and worth within being impressive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that if I impressed someone who I perceive/believe to be superior then I become more valuable and worthy.

attentive

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 5:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being attentive.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 5 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive being attentive as just another personality of the mind which I require to disregard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I am not supposed to accept being attentive as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive to be self-dishonest to be attentive as that would mean to take on a personality of the mind.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing being attentive as who I am – not taking on another personality but live as who I am within consideration of myself and others as myself within the context of what is best for all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from being attentive through perceiving/believing that being attentive can only be from the personality of the mind.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 5 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide the fact that I have transformed myself into caring/taking into consideration of anyone or anything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide the fact that I have transformed myself into not considering others equal and one as myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide the fact that I have not given attention to myself and others as myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide it so that I do not face myself and stop it and change.

intelligent

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 6:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being intelligent.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 6 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see myself as being stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as being stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that if I do not live being intelligent I must become stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in the polarity of stupid/intelligent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the polarity game of stupid/intelligent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to transform myself into stupidity in order to counteract the personality of being intelligent.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing mmyself to perceive/believe that I am able to stop the personality of being intelligent through going to the polar opposite of being stupid.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that going into the polar opposite of a personality trait is essentially supporting the same construct – just a flip of the coin.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I must choose between intelligent and stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be defined by the polarity pair intelligent/stupid.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 6 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being intelligent to hide the stupidity that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide the self-judgment of judging myself as being stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge stupid as bad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word stupidity through judging it as bad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project my own judgment onto others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear others judge me being stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect others judging me as being stupid to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

honest

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 7:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being honest.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 7 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to and as self-deception.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the self-definition of being deceptive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify the self-definition of being deceptive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from being self-honest through holding onto and justifying self-deceptions.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 7 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being honest so that I can hide the deceptions that exist within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear to face the self-deceptions that I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect facing self-deceptions to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being honest so that I can be seen as an honest person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself through other people’s eyes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seek acceptance from others through presenting myself as something that is acceptable according to my imagination of what they would like to see me to be.

committed

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 8:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being committed.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 8 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I am lacking self-commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from self-commitment through holding onto this perception/idea/belief that I am not self-committed and that I cannot be self-committed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have abdicated the self-commitment that I have already developed and have transformed myself into this perception/idea/belief that I cannot be self-committed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that if I abdicated a part of myself I can no longer accept it as myself again.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I have lost self-commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am able to lose self-commitment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that if I am able to lose self-commitment it simply is not real – if I am self-commitment it is here as who I am and cannot be lost.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that self-commitment is here as who I am in every moment of every breath.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 8 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being committed in order to hide that I am not self-committed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge lack of self-commitment as bad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear others see me as not being committed and judge me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being seen as not committed to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

Strong

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 9:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being strong.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 9 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe myself to be weak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as being weak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from strength that is who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be weak because I do not know how to handle certain situations effectively.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stand up within and as me and direct and move myself effectively.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in the polarity of strong/weak – presenting myself to be strong while actually existing as weakness instead of actually living the strength that is who I am in fact within and without.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 9 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being strong so that I can hide the inner weakness within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge weakness as bad and negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see weakness as shameful and thus wanting to hide it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed of myself for being weak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project my own judgment onto others and thus fearing others to judge my weakness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect my weakness being seen by others to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

sexy

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 10:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being sexy.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 10 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive myself to be sexually unattractive because I have never entered into a relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe there is something wrong with me that I am not sexually attractive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I require to become sexy so that I can lure females into a relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for not being charming enough.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be liked by others through presenting myself as being charming and sexy because I do not like myself.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 10 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being sexy and charming so that I can hide the fact I have not accepted myself and being confident as myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from self-acceptance and self-confidence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being sexy and charming so that I can be accepted by others and feel confident which is not self-confidence.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that if I am self-confident I do not need to present myself to be something in order to be accepted by others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide the point that I have not stood as self-acceptance and self-confidence so that I do not face and deal with these points.

secure

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 11:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being secure.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 11 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive myself to be an insecure person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seek security outside of me separate ffrom me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I am able to find security outside of me separate from me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that everything is a potential danger to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seek security constantly.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to give myself security.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use insecurity as a motivation to move.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that if I am secure I am not able to move/motivate myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to never be satisfied with myself – perceiving/believing whatever I do is just a fuck-up and thus seeking acceptance and security outside of me constantly and continuously.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 11 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide the insecurity that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not want to face the insecurity within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I am able to hide the insecurity within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to escape from facing myself as insecurity through hiding from myself.

trustworthy

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 12:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being trustworthy.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 12 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as the self-definition of/as untrustworthy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I can no longer be trustworthy because I betrayed myself before.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the thought “you fucked up once - you do not get another chance and you don’t deserve it.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that self-betrayal has left a scar that cannot be healed and thus I cannot become trustworthy again.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I do not deserve to be trustworthy.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to be trustworthy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be untrustworthy because I have made promises that I did not keep – thus I cannot trust my own words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make promises that I cannot keep and thus compromising self-trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from self-trust.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 12 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present being trustworthy so that I can hide the self-betrayal that I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide the evil that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become which are reflected within my thoughts, words and deeds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the evil that I have become and try to hide it through presenting myself to be trustworthy when I know I do not even trust myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide the self-betrayal that exist within me so that I can continue to exist and justify the self-betrayal that I have become instead of investigating, stopping, standing up from within it and change/transform myself to honour myself and become trustworthy as life.

Self-Corrective Statements

Write self-corrective statements for each trait/characteristic of your Relationship-Personality:

Trait 1 (open)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that it is fear of judgment and being harmed and the perception, idea and belief that I am autistic that is holding me back from being open.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold myself back out of fear of judgment and being harmed.

I do not accept and allow myself to continue to exist as the perception/idea/belief about myself as being autistic to hold me back from living openness.

I accept and allow myself to live as openness as who I am - the practical meaning of which I still require to explore, investigate and discover.

I accept and realize that the reason I present myself as being open is to hide the secrets, self-dishonesties and the truth of who I am so that I do not face myself, stop, stand up and change myself.

I do not accept myself to hide secrets/self-dishonesties/the truth of who I am from myself.

I accept and allow myself to be intimate with and be open to myself so that I do not hide and escape from myself, instead I allow myself to see the truth of me, the self-dishonesties that I have accepted and allowed.

I accept and allow myself to face myself, stop, stand up and change/transform myself through being open to myself.

Practical Script:

When I attempt to present myself as being open, I stop and breathe and simply share what is here in the moment and live as openness as who I am consistently no matter where I am with whom I am.

Trait 2(interesting)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that the reason I present myself as being interesting is that I have perceived/believed/defined myself to be a boring person and has suppressed myself very much and within that attempting to present myself as the opposite of who I am.

I do not accept and allow myself to continue to live the perception/idea/belief about myself as a boring person.

I do not accept and allow myself to suppress myself through holding onto the perception/idea/belief that I am a boring person.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold myself back from expressing myself through believing that people would not be interested in hearing me.

I do not accept and allow myself to present myself as the opposite of who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I do not accept and allow myself to go into the polar opposite of boring which is interesting to just take on another personality trait.

I do not accept and allow myself to play the polarity game flipping the coin.

I accept and allow myself to diffuse/remove the perception/idea/belief that I have created about myself so that I can live free from such limitations.

I accept and realize that I am presenting myself as being interesting to hide my self-definition as a boring person and that the reason I hide it is that I have judged it as being bad/negative and projected this judgement onto others and also an indication that I have not accepted myself.

I do not accept and allow myself to present myself as an interesting to hide my perception that I am a boring person.

I do not accept and allow myself to judge myself for being a boring person.

I do not accept and allow myself to project my self-judgment onto others.

I accept and allow myself to live as self-acceptance – the practical meaning of which I still require to investigate, explore and discover.

Practical Script:

When I attempt to present myself as being interesting, I stop and breathe and express myself here in the moment – without attempt to present myself as something – either being interesting or being boring. When I hold myself back from expressing myself through believing that I am a boring person and that people would not be interested in what I say, I stop and breathe and express and share myself here in the moment of what I have to say.

Trait 3(talkative)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that the reason I present myself as being talkative is to hide my self-definition as an uncommunicative person and the belief that I have communication dysfunctions which prevent me from being communicative and the resulting depressions.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold myself back from expressing and speaking through holding onto my self-definition as an uncommunicative person.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the belief that I have communication dysfunctions and that I am not able to communicate effectively.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold myself back from speaking through fear that my words may bring about consequences that I cannot the belief that by not speaking I am able to prevent those consequences.

I accept and allow myself to stop the judgments that I have imposed on speaking words.

I do not accept and allow myself to take on the opposite personality of being talkative which is just a flip of the polarity coin supporting the same construct.

I do not accept and allow myself to suppress myself and get depressed through holding onto the perception/idea/belief that I am an uncommunicative person.

I accept and allow myself to diffuse and remove the polarity definitions of being uncommunicative and talkative so that I can live free from such limitations and express myself here in the moment as who I am.

Practical Script:

When I present myself as being talkative or going to suppressions and depressions through believing myself to be uncommunicative, I stop and breathe and simply express myself here in the moment in breath as who I am – not being defined or limited by being uncommunicative or being talkative.

Trait 4(impressive)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that the reason I present myself to be impressive is because I have lived the polar opposite self-definition as an unnoticed low-key person and that I hold onto this personality trait through fear that I may be exposed to criticism, judgment and danger if I am noticed. I accept and realize that I am hiding the valuelessness and worthlessness that I have accepted and allowed to be who I am and attempt to impress others in order to gain value and worth.

I accept and allow myself to remove the self-definition as being an unnoticed low-key person.

I accept and allow myself to stop and remove the fear that I may be exposed to criticism, judgment and danger if I am noticed.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the self-definition that I am an unnoticed low-key person.

I do not accept and allow myself to present myself as being impressive to hide the valuelessness and worthlessness that I experience within myself.

I do not accept and allow myself to attempt to gain value and worth through impressing others.

I do not accept and allow myself to place value and worth outside of me separate from me.

I accept and allow value and worth as who I am – the practical meaning of which I still require to investigate, explore and discover.

I do not accept and allow myself to play the polarity game of being impressive and being an unnoticed low-key person.

I accept and allow myself to remove both definitions of being impressive and being unnoticed low-key which support and feed each other so that I can live free from such limitations/definitions.

Practical Script:

When I present myself as being impressive or suppress myself and hold myself back through holding onto the perception/idea/belief about myself as an unnoticed low-key person, I stop and breathe and simply speak, express, direct and move myself here in the moment in breath as who I am – not being defined or limited by being unnoticed low-key or being impressive – not presenting myself as something but expressing myself naturally as who I am in the moment.

Trait 5(attentive)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that the reason I hold myself back from expressing attentive as who I am is that I have defined being attentive merely being a personality of the mind and that to be attentive is self-dishonest without realizing being attentive can be lived as who I am from the perspective of considering myself and others as myself within the context of what is best for all. I accept and realize that I present myself as being attentive in order to hide the fact that I have transformed myself into considering nobody or nothing and that I have not given attention to myself and others as myself.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold myself back from expressing attentive as who I am through regarding it merely a personality of the mind and if lived will be self-dishonest.

I accept and allow attentive as who I am from the perspective of considering myself and others as myself within the context of what is best for all.

I do not accept and allow myself to present myself as being attentive in order to hide that I care/consider no one or nothing.

I do not accept and allow myself to present myself as being attentive in order to hide that I have not give attention to myself and others as myself.

I accept and allow myself to consider myself and others as myself in the context of what is best for all.

I accept and allow myself to give attention to myself and others as myself.

Practical Script:

When a situation presents itself in my world, I breathe, stop being ego-centric and give attention and consider all the people within it in the context of what is best for all.

Trait 6(intelligent)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that the reason I present myself as being intelligent is that I have defined myself as being stupid and try to hide this self-definition through going into its polar opposite – intelligent.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the self-definition of being stupid.

I do not accept and allow myself to justify stupidity.

I do not accept and allow myself to judge the stupidity that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I accept and allow myself to remove the self-definition of being stupid.

I do not accept and allow myself to hide my self-definition of being stupid through presenting myself as its polar opposite as being intelligent.

I do not accept and allow myself to play the polarity game of being stupid and intelligent which support and feed each other.

I accept and allow myself to diffuse and remove both definitions of being stupid and intelligent so that I can live free from such polarity constructs.

Practical Script:

When I attempt to present myself as being intelligent, I stop and breathe and express myself here in the moment as who I am. I use such situations as opportunities to see and investigate where I am still holding onto the polar opposite self-definition of being stupid and remove such definitions through self-forgiveness.

Trait 7(honest)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that what is holding me back from being self-honest is the self-deceptive nature that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and my justification of it. I accept and allow myself to realize that I present myself to be honest so that I can hide the self-deceptions that exist within me and be accepted by others.

I accept and allow myself to remove the self-deceptions that I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I do not accept and allow myself to justify my self-deceptions.

I do not accept and allow myself to justify my self-deceptive nature that I have accepted and allowed.

I do not accept and allow myself to present myself to be honest to hide the self-deceptions that exist within me.

I do not accept and allow myself to present myself as being honest so that I can be accepted by others.

I do not accept and allow myself to play the polarity game of honest/deceptive.

I accept and allow myself to live as self-honesty and self-acceptance as who I am – the practical meaning of which I still require to investigate, explore and discover.

Practical Script:

When I attempt to present myself as being honest, I stop and breathe and express myself here in the moment as who I am within self-honesty. I use such situations as opportunities to see and investigate where I am still existing in self-deception and remove them through self-forgiveness.

Trait 8(committed)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that I present myself as being committed in order to hide my self-definition that I lack self-commitment and that I abdicated self-commitment before and I have lost it and I can no longer be it. I accept and realize that I hide it because I have judged it and I do not want others to see it.

I do not accept and allow myself to hide my self-definition that I lack self-commitment through presenting myself as being committed instead of actually being self-committed.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the perception/idea/belief that I have lost self-commitment and that I can no longer be self-committed.

I accept and allow myself to live self-commitment as who I am – the practical meaning of which I still need to investigate, explore and discover.

I do not accept and allow myself to judge what I have become.

I accept and allow myself to see what I have become, where I require to give direction and correct myself.

Practical Script:

When I see where I am not committed, I give it attention and investigate the cause of it and see what I can practically do or direct and walk the practical correction.

Strong

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 9:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being strong.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 9 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe myself to be weak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as being weak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from strength that is who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be weak because I do not know how to handle certain situations effectively.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to stand up within and as me and direct and move myself effectively.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in the polarity of strong/weak – presenting myself to be strong while actually existing as weakness instead of actually living the strength that is who I am in fact within and without.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 9 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being strong so that I can hide the inner weakness within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge weakness as bad and negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see weakness as shameful and thus wanting to hide it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed of myself for being weak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project my own judgment onto others and thus fearing others to judge my weakness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect my weakness being seen by others to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

Trait 9(Strong)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that I present myself as being strong in order to hide the weakness within me so that I do not get judged by others.

I do not accept and allow myself to hide inner weakness through presenting myself as being strong.

I accept and allow myself to accept and face the inner weakness that I have accepted and allowed .

I accept and allow strength as who I am in fact within and without.

I accept and allow myself to remove the perception/idea/belief about myself as being weak and its polar opposite presentation as being strong.

I do not accept and allow myself to play the polarity game of strong/weak which support and feed each other.

I accept and allow myself to remove the experience of helplessness and powerlessness in handling situations that I feel not knowing what to do and investigate what I can practically do to assist and support myself in such situations.

I do not accept and allow myself to judge my inner weakness.

I do not accept and allow myself to fear that others may judge my weakness.

Practical Script:

When I attempt to present myself as being strong, I stop and breathe and express myself naturally here in the moment as who I am. I use such situations as opportunities to see and investigate where I am still holding onto the polar opposite self-definition of being weak and remove such definitions through self-forgiveness so that I can live strength as who I am in fact within and without.

sexy

Self-Forgiveness for presenting self as Trait 10:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being sexy.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 10 – Answer to question A:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive myself to be sexually unattractive because I have never entered into a relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe there is something wrong with me that I am not sexually attractive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I require to become sexy so that I can lure females into a relationship.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for not being charming enough.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be liked by others through presenting myself as being charming and sexy because I do not like myself.

Self-Forgiveness on Trait 10 – Answer to question B:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being sexy and charming so that I can hide the fact I have not accepted myself and being confident as myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from self-acceptance and self-confidence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to present myself as being sexy and charming so that I can be accepted by others and feel confident which is not self-confidence.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that if I am self-confident I do not need to present myself to be something in order to be accepted by others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide the point that I have not stood as self-acceptance and self-confidence so that I do not face and deal with these points.

Trait 10(sexy)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that I present myself being sexy in order to hide the perception/idea/belief about myself as being unattractive/not charming enough/lack of self-confidence and self-acceptance.

I do not accept and allow myself to hide the perception/idea/belief about myself as being unattractive/not charming enough/lack of self-confidence and self-acceptance through presenting myself as being sexy.

I accept and allow myself to diffuse and remove such perceptions and ideas about myself as being unattractive/not charming enough.

I do not accept and allow myself to play the polarity game of being sexy/unattractive or not charming enough which support and feed each other.

I do not accept and allow myself to gain acceptance from others through presenting myself as being sexy.

I accept and allow myself to develop self-confidence and self-acceptance as who I am.

Practical Script:

When I attempt to present myself as being sexy in the presence of females, I stop and breathe and express myself as I communicate with males equal and one here in the moment as who I am. I use such situations as opportunities to see and investigate where I am still holding onto the polar opposite self-definition of being uncharming/unattractive and see where I am not accepting myself and thus apply self-forgiveness and practical corrections.

Trait 11(secure)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that I present myself as being secure is to hide the insecurity that exist within me and that I have defined myself as an insecure person and this self-definition is holding me back from living security as who I am. I accept and realize that I use insecurity as a means to motivate and move myself which is also a reason I hold onto this self-definition.

I do not accept and allow myself ot hide the insecurity within me through presenting myself as being secure.

I do not accept and allow myself to suppress the insecurity within me.

I accept and allow myself to see and investigate the insecurity within me.

I accept and allow myself to see ‘problems’ as opportunities to assist and support myself and transform ‘problems’ into gifts.

I accept and allow myself to investigate how I am come to be such an insecure person – the cause, origin of it so that I can remove such causes and live free such a definition.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto my self-definition as an insecure person.

I do not accept myself to hold myself back from living security as who I am.

I do not accept and allow myself to seek security outside of me separate from me.

I do not accept and allow myself to justify this self-definition of being an insecure person through using insecurity as a means to motivate and move myself.

I accept and allow security as who I am and self-move and self-motivate myself – not being motivated by insecurity.

Practical Script:

When I attempt to present myself as being secure to others, I stop and breathe and express myself here in the moment as who I am. I use such situations as opportunities to see and investigate where I am still holding onto the polar opposite self-definition of being insecure and apply self-forgiveness accordingly to remove such a definition and transform such a situation into a gift.

Trait 8(trustworthy)

Realisations to be lived:

I accept and realize that I what is holding me back from living trustworthy is my perception/idea/belief about myself as untrustworthy due to self-betrayal that I did to myself before and the belief I can no longer be trustworthy again and that I do not deserve to be trustworthy. I accept and realize that I am hiding the self-betrayal that I accepted and allowed through presenting myself as the opposite as trustworthy.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold myself back from living trustworthy as who I am.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the self-definition that I am not trustworthy.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the self-betrayal that I did to myself and use it as a justification to remain as untrustworthy.

I accept and allow myself to remove the idea that I do not deserve to be trustworthy.

I accept and allow myself to remove the belief that I can no longer be trustworthy again.

I accept and allow myself to be careful in making promises – do not make promises that I know I cannot keep which fucks up my self-trust.

I do not accept and allow myself to hide the self-betrayal that I accepted and allowed.

I do not accept and allow myself to continue to exist as and justify the self-betrayal that I have become instead of investigating, stopping, standing up from within it and change/transform myself to honour myself and become trustworthy as life.

I accept and allow myself to see and investigate what I have done to myself and what I can do practically to correct myself.

I accept and allow myself to live self-trust within self-honesty as who I am here in every moment of breath.

Practical Script:

When I attempt to present myself as being trustworthy to others, I stop and breathe. I use such a situation as an opportunity to see and investigate where I am not trusting myself. Within that stop, stand up from within it and change/transform myself to honour myself and become trustworthy as life.

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Working on the Jealousy System in DIP

2011-08-02T12:51:00.000-04:00

The following is extracted from my 8th assignment of the Introduction to Desteni Course within the Desteni I Process( http://desteniiprocess.com/ ) , where I worked on the Jealousy system.

Writing:

Recently we have been having quite some group discussions on QQ(a software that is like skype but mainly used by people in China Mainland). A person L who recently started to participate actively in Desteni Chinese seemed to have done a lot of reading on various materials and she has been answering people’s questions and directing the situation very effectively. After observing this person’s expressions and what she did, I had a thought of ‘Her contribution is more than me – the boss’(The actual thought is in Chinese“功高盖主”and here I am translating it into English for understanding). I compared myself with her and felt inferior and perceived that my thunder has been stolen. I experienced jealousy towards her for her expression. I noticed this point and applied self-forgiveness on it.

I this assignment I am working with the system of jealousy.

The various components I will be working with:

Thought: Her contribution is more than me – the boss.

Emotions and Feelings: Emotion: sadness

Words: Jealousy

Pictures: the picture is using a fist to beat a person’s head down onto the electric stove.

Memories: My father’s jealousy

The Thoughts Work-Sheet

Her contribution is more than me – the boss.

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’ when I saw the person L was very effective in answering people’s questions in the Desteni QQ group.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’ to seeing the person L being very effective in answering people’s questions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing seeing the person L being very effective in answering people’s questions to exist as a triggering point within me, triggering the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the superior’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in the ability to answer people’s questions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in knowledge and understanding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in comparison and competition with L.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from L through participation in comparison and competition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel inferior to L through my participation in comparison and competition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that inferiority actually exists.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that superiority actually exists.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself in comparison to others as ‘more than’ or ‘less than’ them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in knowledge and understanding of materials.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in answering people’s questions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than in comparison to L in information processing skills and reading abilities.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be superior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the make-belief that I am superior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard L as my subordinate and thus ‘supposedly’ inferior.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see/treat L as my equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from l through regarding L as my subordinate and me as the ‘boss’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create an idea of me being the boss and L as my subordinate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be the boss and that my authority should not be challenged or threatened by my ‘subordinate’.

I forgive myself to perceive/believe that my status as a boss has been threatened because the subordinate is more than me the boss, instead of realizing that the ‘boss’ status is not real in the first place – it is just an idea within my mind which I used to hide the inferiority that exist within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use the boss belief of myself to hide/cover up the inferiority that exists within me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate and exist within the polarity design of inferiority and superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel/perceive/believe that my status of superiority has been threatened by L, instead of realizing that the belief of me being superior is not real in the first place.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the self-definition of being superior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing superiority to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use knowledge and information to create the belief of superiority/inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I know more than others then I am superior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel inferior to a person when that person knows something that I do not know yet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use/abuse/manipulate knowledge and information to hold onto my self-belief of being superior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to always want to win within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to think that I know this knowledge that you do not know so I am still better than you – I am still superior to you.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself to believe that I am still superior to keep my superiority intact.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear losing the believed superior status that I have established within my mind.

I forgive myself to connect losing superiority to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the superiority status that I have established within my mind is not real and is just an idea/belief about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the self-definition of being superior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive that my thunder has been stolen by L because she is getting more attention than me in the group.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to get other people’s attentions because I have not given myself attention.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare myself with L in how much attention is given to us.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire that people focus more on me than on L.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened when I see L gets more attention from others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I cannot tolerate another person being more than me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the belief that the ‘subordinate’ should not be better than the ‘boss’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have the desire to contain the person always less than me so that I can always be more than.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to be always more than others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to always want to win over others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be jealous of L because I perceive/believe that L is more than me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than/more than, inferior/superior through comparison and competition with others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the self-judgments as more than/less than, inferior/superior is real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened by beings who I see as superior to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use nastiness, spite and gossip to exalt myself as ego above the other being within my mind – so that I can feel like I have won and other being has lost.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try and destroy whoever I am jealous about – through nastiness, spite and gossip.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the thought everybody falls as a means to make myself feel that I have won within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to put the being who I perceive to be more than me down so that I do not experience inferiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self-responsibility through believing that it is the person outside me who I perceive to be superior to me that is causing me to be inferior – instead of realizing that I am responsible for what I experience within me – the inferiority/superiority.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that within jealousy lies an opportunity for me to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about – so that I equalize myself with this being.

Self-Corrective Statements:

I accept and realize that comparison and competitions is of the mind, supporting the polarity game of superiority/inferiority, win/lose and does not support who I really am as Life.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in comparison and competition of the mind.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the polarity game of superiority/inferiority, win/lose of the mind through participation in comparison/competition.

I do not accept and allow myself to support my mind of the polarity game.

I support who I really am as LIFE here in breath.

I accept and realize that superiority/inferiority is not real – they are games played within my mind which I believed to be real. I accept and realize that the idea of me being the boss the superior and L being my subordinate the inferior is not real – it is just an idea within my mind and that it is not actually supporting anyone.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe that superiority/inferiority is real.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the mind game of superiority/inferiority.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the perception/idea/belief of me being the boss/superior and L being my subordinate/inferior.

I do not accept and allow myself to support the illusion of myself of my mind as perceptions/ideas/beliefs that I have created as myself which I have believed to be who I am.

I do not accept and allow myself to judge myself or others as less than/more than, superior/inferior through my participation in comparison/competition.

I do not accept and allow myself to judge others as that would be accepting and allowing myself to judge myself.

I accept and realize that whenever anything nasty comes up about another person, it is because I am jealous. I accept and realize that nastiness, spite and gossip are indicators of jealousy.

I accept and allow myself to investigate within myself the point of jealousy when nastiness, spite and gossip come up about another person.

I do not accept and allow myself to feed nastiness, spite and gossip through participation.

I do not accept and allow myself to feed the desire to win within my mind.

I do not accept and allow myself to feed the desire to destroy others, to bring them down because I am jealous of them.

I accept and realize that jealousy furthers the enslavement of separation.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in jealousy.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the enslavement of separation through participation in jealousy.

I accept and realize that within jealousy lies an opportunity for me to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about – so that I equalize myself with this being.

I accept and allow myself to assist and support myself in learning from the person I am jealous about.

I accept and allow myself to equalize myself with the person I am jealous about.

I accept and allow myself to equalize myself with the person L in information processing ability, reading ability, understanding, realizations, ability of answering questions effectively.

Rewriting the script:

When I see L being effective in answering people’s questions in Desteni QQ group, I do not accept myself to participate in the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me the boss’. I stop. I breathe. I do not accept myself to go into comparison and competition or create the self-judgment of inferiority, which is not real. Instead, I assist and support myself to equalize myself with the being in the ability of information processing ability, reading ability, understanding, realizations, ability of answering questions effectively. I stand one and equal with the being L as myself.

The Emotion or Feeling Work-Sheet

Emtion: Sadness

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotion of sadness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the emotion of sadness to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotion of disappointment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the emotion of disappointment to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the emotion of sadness as disappointment to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me-the boss’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed when I perceive that L has surpassed me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because I believe that I have lost my forerunner position.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because I believe that I have been left behind by somebody who joined in later than me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being left behind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect being left behind to fear and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I have lost my position as a forerunner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive this process as running a race.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to my position in the process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as being superior according to my position in the process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel sad and disappointed because of the perceived ‘loss’.

Self-Corrective Statements:

I accept and realize that each one is in their individual process and that my position in the process does not define who I am. And that this process is not like running a race at all – who is the first runner, who runs better, who runs faster, who is ahead, who is behind etc.

I do not accept and allow myself to compare myself with others in where we are currently in our process.

I do not accept and allow myself to define myself according to my position in the process.

I do not accept and allow myself to define others according to their position in their process.

I do not accept and allow myself to use my position to support my ego superiority.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in comparison, competition like running a race in this process.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the emotion of sadness and disappointment based on illusions as ideas of running ahead or being left behind within the ‘race’.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the ‘race’ in this process.

I accept and allow myself to walk this process as who I am equal and one with others walking this process together with me – assisting and supporting each other as who we really are as LIFE.

I accept and realize that I ideas and values that I have attached to forerunner in the process is not real and that it does not support me or anyone.

I do not accept and allow myself to hold onto the ideas and values that I have attached to forerunner.

I accept and allow myself to live here without the ideas and values attached to definitions separate from me here.

I accept and realize that the emotion of sadness and disappointment is based on the idea that I have apparently lost my position in the process and that it is not real.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the emotional experience off sadness and disappointment.

I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by an idea that I have apparently lost my position in the process because that idea is not real in the first place.

I accept and allow myself to drop the values ideas that I have attached to my position in the process.

Rewrite-scripture:

When the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me the boss’ comes up, I stop and breathe. I stop the emotional experience of sadness and disappointment. I accept the being as one and equal as me - assisting and supporting each other as who we really are as LIFE. I assist and support myself and others to equalize each other, learn from each other – not to abuse my position to feed my ego.

The Words Work-Sheet

Word-Web: Central word: Jealousy Connected word: Superior, inferior, Nasty, spitefulness, Comparison/competition, intolerable, Disappointment, Revenge, Best/Top, judgment, win, lose

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge the word jealousy with a negative value.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the word jealousy as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word jealousy through judging the word jealousy as bad/wrong/negative.

Superior:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word jealousy to the word superior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word superior in polarity to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word superior and the word jealousy through defining the word superior in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Inferior:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word inferior to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word inferior within the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word inferior and from the word jealousy through defining the word inferior within the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Nasty:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word nasty to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word nasty within the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word nasty and from the word jealousy through defining the word nasty within the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Spitefulness:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word spitefulness to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word spitefulness within the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word spitefulness and from the word jealousy through defining the word spitefulness within the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Comparison/competition:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words comparison/competition to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the words comparison/competition within the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words comparison, competition, and jealousy through defining the word comparison and competition within the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Intolerable:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word intolerable to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word intolerable within the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word intolerable and from the word jealousy through defining the word intolerable within the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Disappointment:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word disappointment to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word disappointment within the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word disappointment and from jealousy through defining disappointment within the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Revenge:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word revenge to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word revenge within the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word revenge and from jealousy through defining the word revenge within the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Best/Top:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word best/top to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word best/top in polarity to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word best/top and the word jealousy through defining the word best/top in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Judgment:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word judgment to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word judgment within the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word judgment and from jealousy through defining the word judgment within the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Win:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word win to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word win in polarity to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word winand the word jealousy through defining the word win in polarity to the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Lose:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word lose to the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word lose within the word jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word lose and from jealousy through defining the word lose within the word jealousy in separation of myself.

Re-define the word in the centre-circle of the word-web:

Jealousy is a mind consciousness system design which stems from inferiority, superiority, self-judgment and comparison and it is based on pictures and furthers the enslavement of separation – Jail-Us-In.

The Pictures Work-Sheet

The picture is using a fist to beat a person’s head down onto the electric stove: There is a burning electric stove in the middle. A woman’s head is facing downward on the electric stove with a fist hitting at the back of her head – hitting her head onto the electric stove.

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in my mind in the picture of using a fist hitting at the back of a woman’s head to force her head onto the burning electric stove.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the picture of using a fist hitting at the back of a woman’s head to force her head onto the burning electric stove to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down to the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down within the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destroy, abuse, beating down and from the woman within the picture through defining these words within the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I have become the beast of jealousy represented and reflected by this picture within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the boss’ to exist as a trigger point within me, triggering the picture of hitting at the woman’s head onto the electric stove.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the picture of using a fist to hit on the woman’s head onto the electric stove to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me the boss’.

Self-Corrective Statements

I accept and realize that this picture represents the jealousy that exist within and as me of the mind accompanied by nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse and beating down the being that I am jealous of. I accept and realize that the more I react to the picture the more attention and thus power I am giving it thus giving it permission to possess me. Who I really am is not a picture within my mind and that it is not acceptable to allow myself to be directed and controlled by such a picture in my mind.

I do not accept and allow myself to separate myself from my accepted nature as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse.

I accept and allow myself to see and investigate what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse and beating down reflected in the picture within my mind.

I accept and allow myself to stand up within it and take self-responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse.

I accept and allow myself to stand up, stop and transform my accepted nature of jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, desire to destroy and abuse to live as who I really am as LIFE here in breath.

Re-writing the scripture:

When the picture comes up into my mind again, I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back to the physical and participate something in the physical. If the picture keeps coming up over and over again, I check whether there are points that I am still holding onto which I have not applied self-forgiveness to release myself from. I stand up and take responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as jealousy, nastiness, anger, resentment, destruction and abuse. I do not allow myself to continue to live such applied nature. I remain here as breath in and as the physical assisting and supporting myself to walk transformation of my accepted nature into LIFE.

The Memories Work-Sheet

My father’s jealousy: Two years ago when I went back home in China from US. I showed my parents a video of me giving a lecture in English on a class which received some cool audience feedback. After seeing that video, my father also attempted to give a ‘lecture’ in front of us. My mother knew why he was doing that since they have been living together for so many years – the reason is that he was comparing with me in the video and was trying to show us that he is also able to do that sort of things – in my mother’s words he has such a strong ‘upward mobility’. Well, it’s basically driven by comparison and competition - even between father and son. This memory is related to the original thought in that now my father is in the role of the ‘boss’ and I am in the role of the ‘subordinate’ in the hierarchy interpretation of the father-son relationship, while the pattern is the same – comparison and competition.

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the memory of two years ago when I showed my parents a video of me giving a lecture in English on a class and my father participated in comparison and competition and attempted to prove to us that he is able to do the same by trying to give us a lecture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my father for his participation in comparison and competition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from my father through my participation in judgment of my father.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to shift responsibility onto my father instead of realizing that I have become exactly the same as my father within participation in comparison, competition and jealousy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to the video of me giving a lecture in English.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word self-expression to the video of me giving a lecture in English.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define self-expression within the video of me giving a lecture in English.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from self-expression through defining self-expression within the lecture video in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the memory of me showing my parents a lecture video of me where my father participated in comparison and competition to the thought ‘her contribution is more than me – the boss’.

Self-Corrective Statements:

I accept and realize that judging my father for his participation in comparison, competition and jealousy is me shifting my responsibility to others so that I do not face my accepted and allowed mind pattern of comparison, competition and jealousy.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in my mind in memories trying to divert my attention from myself to others so that I can shift my responsibility of working with what I have accepted and allowed.

I do not accept and allow myself to divert my attention away from taking self-responsibility through working with the pattern that I have accepted and allowed.

I do not accept and allow myself to use mental projections to escape from facing myself.

I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility, investigating and working with what I am experiencing and who I am within my experience.

I accept and realize that self-expression is here as who I am in every moment as every breath – not defined by a video where I see myself as being expressive.

I do not accept and allow myself to define my self-expression within a lecture video which I see myself as being expressive.

I do not accept and allow myself to separate myself from self-expression through defining my self-expression within a video.

I accept and allow my self-expression here as who I am in every moment as every breath.

Re-writing the script:

When the thought ‘Her contribution is more than me – the boss(功高盖主)’ comes up, I stop and breathe. I do not accept myself to go into my mind participating in memories – shifting my responsibility to others within memories. I remain here as the breath of life, taking self-responsibility for the point that I am dealing with, and express myself as who I am in the moment as breath.

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Working on the Trust System in DIP

2011-08-02T12:32:00.000-04:00

The following is extracted from my 7th assignment of the Introduction to Desteni Course within the Desteni I Process( http://desteniiprocess.com/ ) , where I worked on the Trust system.

Writing:

I will take the most relevant part of an event that happened in my world for the purpose of this assignment.

The event that took place involved another two persons which I will use F and A to represent them. F and I had disagreements on some issues. F sent to A an email which involved something about me, but I did not know the specific content of that email. But from A’s response, I had a thought that ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.’

The related system design I am going to work on in this assignment is trust.

Various Components I will be working with:

Thought: The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.

Emotion: anger

Words: distrust/trust

Pictures: No specific picture is related to the original thought.

Memories: College entrance examination

The Thoughts Work-Sheet

The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me’ to my interpretation of A’s response by taking it personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my interpretation of A’s response through taking it personally to exist as a trigger point within me, triggering the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself and my trust from myself through placing my trust outside me separate from me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from myself, from my own self-trust, and from the being A through defining and placing my trust within A separate from me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that trusting another outside of me separate from me, defining my trust outside of myself is actually a manifestation of me being a wimp, using an excuse for not trusting myself because I actually fear taking self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place trust outside of me because I fear myself – fear what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear realizing and trusting my own self-honesty – taking responsibility for myself, my life and my creation as this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place trust in someone else so that if they fuck up, then I am able to blame them and then I am not being responsible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to try to get other people to trust me because if they trust me, I can manipulate them to have my way and control my world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be unwilling to admit that I participated in manipulation and control within wanting other people to trust me because then I am a bad person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as a bad person because I have judged the word manipulation and control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the words manipulation and control as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words manipulation and control through judging the words manipulation and control as bad/wrong/negative – in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want/desire/need others to trust me so that I can manipulate and control others for my own advantage of my ego of self-interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want people to trust me so that I can manipulate them to get what I want/need/desire of self-interest.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that if I place my trust in another, then they will betray and deceive me – equal and one to my starting point of self-deception within placing my trust outside of me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that betrayal does not actually exist – what exists is self-betrayal within the very starting point of trusting others and placing trust in separation from myself thus self-dishonesty and therefore I am responsible.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I am responsible for the manifested experience of betrayal because I have betrayed myself through separating myself from self-trust.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that trust has never existed, but trust has been existing as a system hiding deception – what exists behind trust is deception and this world exists in deception.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that placing my trust out there in other human beings creates and compounds emotions and feelings and thoughts and memories and pictures inside the mind, thus assisting and supporting the manifestation and generation of the mind consciousness system within me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that ‘trust’ is the relationship connection line that connects relationships as the mind consciousness systems, which is manifesting this existence of separation.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am self-dishonest from the very starting point of placing my trust within another outside of me separate from me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the web of self-dishonesty and separation is woven through relationship connections of placing trust outside and separate from self, instead of here as self – I am self-trust, I take self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define trust outside separate from me, creating relationship connections of ‘attempting and trying to hide’.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hide behind relationships instead of facing myself and taking self-responsibility within the application of self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that who I am as one as equal as myself is here as every breath and in defining my trust separate from myself within another human being or other human beings within this world, I have separated me from myself which is self-dishonesty because I am separating myself from myself and existing in separation with another human being – which is manifesting a relationship, where two mind systems come together and experience each other together and support and assist each other as mind consciousness systems.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rely on memories to tell me what to do/who to be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust my mind to tell me what to do and who to be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust my memories instead of trusting myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self-responsibility to my mind in trusting my mind rather than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish my self-trust through continuously choosing my mind over me – following what my mind tells me to do, suppressing myself – instead of doing and saying what I see requires to be done or spoken in a moment.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing to act in breath here within the context of what is best for all, live here completely, embracing what is best for all – trusting myself and being trustworthy.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to live the word trust as who I am as the expression of the application of self-honesty as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that within the illusion of defining my trust within another separate from me I am not actually able to trust anything or anyone within this world and within this existence – because self-trust is here as who I am in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that self-trust is the expression of self that manifests in application of self-honesty as self in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that self-trust is an infinite expression of self, is an infinite statement of self in application that remains as self in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that self-trust cannot exist without self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to live self-honesty as me and within self-honesty trust me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that self-honesty and self-trust are equal and one in expression and application.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that self-honesty is the application and self-trust is the expression of the application of self-honesty – both self-honesty and self-trust as one living example of self is who I am here in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be self-dishonest with the experience of myself in the moment (instead of doing and saying what I see requires to be done or spoken in a moment) and continued that self-dishonesty within me in ignoring what I am actually experiencing within me – within that I have ‘lost’ that expression of me of self-honesty and just do what everyone else wants me to do – in that inverting and suppressing myself – and in that my trust is dispersed.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the way my trust is connected to relationships outside of me is because I have suppressed my own self-honesty and therefore no self-trust exists and then I defined my self-trust separate from myself because I have separated myself from my own self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to establish self-certainty as ‘who I am’ in every moment of every breath as the expression of self-trust within and as the application of self-honesty.

Self-Corrective Statements:

I accept and realize that trust is self-dishonesty because within placing trust outside of me, I am separating myself from myself, my trust and other human beings.

I do not accept and allow myself to place trust outside of me separate from me – I accept and allow trust the expression of who I am equal and one with the application of self-honesty as who I am in every moment as every breath.

I accept and realize that defining my trust outside of myself is actually a manifestation of me being a wimp, using an excuse to not trust myself because of fear of taking self-responsibility. And that by placing trust outside of me separate from me – I can use that as an excuse to blame if things fuck up so that I do not have to take self-responsibility.

I do not accept and allow myself to blame others if things fuck up because apparently I have placed trust within them while they have dishonored my trust.

I accept and allow myself to trust my own self-honesty – taking responsibility for myself, my life and my creation as this world.

I accept and realize that me wanting other people to trust me is because I want to manipulate others to have it my way and control my world to support my ego of self-interest

I do not accept and allow myself to use trust to manipulate and control.

I do not accept myself to support my ego of self-interest under the disguise of trust.

I accept and allow myself to stop the manipulation and control under the disguise of trust.

I accept and allow myself to live self-trust as the expression of who I am of self-honesty here in breath.

I accept and realize that the starting-point of/as trusting another outside of self is deception – and that is what I will manifest because I am deceiving myself in the very starting-point of placing my trust outside of self. I accept and realize that I am responsible for the manifested experience of betrayal because I have betrayed myself through separating myself from self-trust.

I do not accept and allow self-betrayal as my starting point of/as separating myself from my self-trust through placing trust outside of me separate from me.

I do not accept and allow myself to blame others to betray me instead I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility within self-honesty and sort out my starting point of self-betrayal.

I accept and realize that trust has never actually existed, but trust has been existing as a system hiding deception. I accept and realize that placing my trust out there in other human beings creates and compounds emotions and feelings and thoughts and memories and pictures inside the mind, thus assisting and supporting the manifestation and generation of the mind consciousness system within me and the manifestation of this existence of separation. I accept and realize that the web of self-dishonesty and separation is woven through relationship connections of placing trust outside and separate from self where two mind systems come together and experience each other together and support and assist each other as mind consciousness systems, instead of self-trust being here as self.

I do not accept and allow myself to hide behind relationships through placing and defining trust outside separate from me thus supporting the mind consciousness system and this manifested consciousness existence of separation.

I accept and realize that if I am continuously dishonest with myself – I’ll lose all trust in myself, because in moments I required to speak or act in self-honesty I followed my mind and suppressed myself and did not do it.

I do not accept myself to rely on my past/memories, thoughts, emotions, and feelings as my mind to tell me what to do and who I am.

I do not accept and allow myself to diminish my self-trust through continuously choosing my mind over me – following what my mind tells me to do, suppressing myself.

I accept and allow myself to assist and support myself to do and say what I see requires to be done or spoken in the here moment in breath within the context of what is best for all - live here completely, embracing what is best for all – trusting myself and being trustworthy.

I accept and allow myself and to take self-responsibility within the application of self-honesty as me here and express myself in self-trust accordingly in the moment of breath as who I am as one as equal as myself here within the consideration of what is best for all.

Re-scripture of the practical solution for the trigger point

When an event occurs which is unclear to me yet, I slow down and breathe. I do not accept myself to rush into reactions. If any reactions such as panic, anger, blame etc come up, I breathe and stop them. I do not accept myself to go into assumptions and interpretations, jump into conclusions, and create opinions and make-beliefs within my mind about what this event is. If such assumptions/interpretations/opinions/beliefs etc do come up, I bring them back to myself and investigate within self-honesty why do such things exist within me – if any points are revealed within investigation I apply self-forgiveness and self corrective application to sort myself out.

The Emotion or Feeling Work-Sheet

Anger

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to connect the emotion of anger and grievance to the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the thought/assumption/perception/idea/belief/interpretation that ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened’ and that has caused A to trust me’ to exist as a trigger point within me, triggering the emotion of grievance and anger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the emotional experience of anger because I believed that it is all F’s fault to mispresent information to A about me which caused A to distrust me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry because I feel that I am not trusted anymore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to be trusted by other people.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only that exists is the anger of self because of self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the anger that I directed and blamed onto F is actually the anger that exist within me due to my participation in self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I am self-dishonest within the very starting point of placing trust within A in separation of myself so that I can manipulate and control.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the emotion of anger because I can no longer manipulate and control if people do not trust me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the emotion of anger because my self-dishonesty is not supported.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the emotion of anger because I believed I am the victim in this event and F is the one who abused me so that I have the right to be angry and blame F.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive/believe that I have the right to be angry because apparently I am the victim in this event and F is the one who abused me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify my anger through manipulating myself to go into the victim self-definition of being treated unfairly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame F for my emotional reaction of anger which originates from my own accepted and allowed self-dishonesty of placing trust outside of me separate from me, so that I do not have to take self-responsibility for my accepted and allowed self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame F for my emotional reaction of anger instead of realizing that I am responsible for my emotional reaction because the anger is actually revealing my accepted and allowed self-dishonesty of placing my trust in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotional experience of grievance because I felt that I had been treated unfairly due to mispresented information about me by F.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame F for my emotional reaction of anger and grievance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the emotional experience based on an assumption that F sent A an email with mispresented information about me while that is merely an assumption and I do not know whether that is a fact or not.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe the assumption that I have made within my mind to be real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be directed by my own make-beliefs within my mind that is not based on facts but based on assumptions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to jump into conclusions based on assumptions/opinions/perceptions/ideas/beliefs – conning myself with illusions that I have conjured up within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be deluded by my conclusions/assumptions/opinions/perceptions/ideas/beliefs that I have made about an event that took place.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place myself into the self-definition of a victim based on make-beliefs that I have convinced myself to be real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to victimize myself using make-beliefs that I have created within my mind so that I can define myself as a victim and participate in the emotion of grievance, blame and anger.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to victimize myself so that I can just dwell on blame instead of taking self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in self-manipulation within manipulating myself into self-victimization so that I do not take self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to the self-victimization.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself into a victim state to abdicate self-responsibility.

Self-Corrective Statements:

I accept and realize that my grievance and anger has nothing to do with F or A because these emotions exist within me and I am responsible for my participation in them – and that I can not blame F for my emotional reaction because blame is abdication of self-responsibility.

I do not accept and allow myself to blame others for my emotional reaction which exist within me and which I accepted and allowed myself to participate in.

I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility to stop the blame that I have directed to F.

I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility to stop the emotion of grievance and anger that I participated in.

I do not accept and allow myself to justify the emotion of grievance and anger using the construct of blame or any other self-manipulation techniques.

I accept and realize that the anger that I experienced is actually anger of myself due to self-dishonesty and that I am self-dishonest from the very starting point of separating myself from my self-trust and desire trust from others so that I can manipulate and control.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the self-dishonesty of placing trust outside of me separate from me.

I do not accept and allow myself to desire/want/need trust from others just so that I can manipulate and control.

I accept and realize that my emotional reaction of anger and grievance is based on an Assumption that F mispresented information about me in an email to A – that is not based on facts but based on assumptions/perceptions/ideas/beliefs/opinions within/of my mind, which is not real and that I am delusional to believe those make-beliefs to be real. I accept and realize that I am manipulating myself into the self-definition of a victim through my make-beliefs so that I can blame instead of taking self-responsibility.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe assumptions/perceptions/ideas/beliefs/opinions to be real.

I do not accept and allow myself to delude myself into believing that which come up into my mind must be real and true.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe whatever my mind tells me merely because those thoughts pop up into my mind.

I do not accept and allow myself to trust my self-deluded make-beliefs.

I do not accept and allow myself to be led into emotional reactions of grievance and anger due to my accepted and allowed delusions as make-beliefs.

I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by make-beliefs/perceptions/ideas/interpretations/assumptions that come up into my mind.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in self-manipulation, manipulating myself into the self-definition as a victim.

I do not accept and allow myself to victimize myself and abdicate self-responsibility.

I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility for myself for what I have accepted and allowed - the make-beliefs that I have created within my mind in the first place and my self-created definition of a victim and the self-manipulation techniques I used to manipulate myself into believing myself to be a victim and the emotional reactions of grievance, anger and blame.

Re-scripture of the practical solution for the trigger point

Please refer to the script that I have written at the end of the thought work-sheet.

The Words Work-Sheet

Word-Web: Central word: Trust/distrust Connected word: Deception, Betrayal, value/worth, Acceptance, Expectation, Disappointment, Control, Manipulation, Resentment, Distrust, The memory of college entrance examination

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word trust with a positive value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word trust as positive/good/right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word positive/good/right through judging it as positive/good/right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word trust with a negative value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word trust as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word trust through judging them as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word deception with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word betrayal with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word value/worth with a positive value and judge it as good/positive/right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word acceptance with a positive value and judge it as good/positive/right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word expectation with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word disappointment with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word control with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word manipulation with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word resentment with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word distrust with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the memory of college entrance examination with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative

deception:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word deception to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word deception in polarity to the word trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word deception and from the word trust through defining the word deception in polarity to the word distrust – in separation of myself.

Betrayal:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word betrayal to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word betrayal in polarity to the word trust

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word betrayal and the word trust through defining the word betrayal in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.

value/worth:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word value/worth to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word value/worth within the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word value/worth and the word trust through defining the word value/worth within the word trust – in separation of myself.

Acceptance:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word acceptance to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word acceptance within the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word acceptance and the word trust through defining the word acceptance within the word trust – in separation of myself.

Expectation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word expectation to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word expectation within the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word expectation and the word trust through defining the word expectation within the word trust – in separation of myself.

Disappointment

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word disappointment to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word disappointment in polarity to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word disappointment and the word trust through defining the word disappointment in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.

Control

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word control to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word control in polarity to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word control and the word trust through defining the word control in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.

Manipulation:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word manipulation to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word manipulation in polarity to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word manipulation and the word trust through defining the word manipulation in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.

Resentment:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word resentment to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word resentment in polarity to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word resentment and the word trust through defining the word resentment in polarity to the word trust in separation of myself.

Distrust:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word distrust to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word distrust in polarity to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word distrust and the word trust through defining the word distrust in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.

College entrance examination:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word college entrance examination to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word college entrance examination in polarity to the word trust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word college entrance examination and the word trust through defining the word college entrance examination in polarity to the word trust – in separation of myself.

Re-define the word in the centre-circle of the word-web:

New definition of the word trust:

Trust placed outside of self separate from self is self-dishonesty which manifests as relationship connections supporting mind consciousness systems and this consciousness existence of separation.

Self-trust is the expression of self that manifests in application of self as self-honesty as who I am here in every moment of every breath.

The Pictures Work-Sheet

No specific pictures are related to that original thought.

The Memories Work-Sheet

College entrance examination: The memory is about my college entrance examination which was about eight years ago. I did not perform well enough to be able to enter the top two universities in China as my father expected. My father was disappointed and angry. His claim was that he had provided me with everything he could do for my study and exam, and thus of course it was my fault that I was not able to enter the top 2 universities as he so eagerly desired. I was disgusted with his drastic change in attitude before and after the exam. I felt betrayed at the difficult time when I needed his support while what he did is to rub salt into my wound. He rubbed his nose in it many times for quite a long period of time after the exam, mentioning to me and others in conversation that my other classmates have entered those top two universities while just left me out. I see that all he cared about me entering the top 2 universities is to gain him glory. When I did not fulfill his desire and meet his expectation, he transformed himself into a completely different man. The ‘trust’ between us was ruptured – although that was not the first time but it was definitely a prominent event which burned into my mind.

Note: some of the descriptions above were made from the starting point of emotional reactions. I will sort them out in self-forgiveness.

Self-Forgiveness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the memory of ‘my college entrance examination ‘failure’ where my father changed dramatically in his attitude towards me before and after the exam and rubbing salt into my wound within which I experienced disgust, betrayal, anger and blame’ to the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me.’

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the memory of ‘my college entrance examination ‘failure’ where my father changed dramatically in his attitude towards me before and after the exam and rubbing salt into my wound within which I experienced disgust, betrayal, anger and blame’.

I forgive for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto the memory because I see it as a traumatic experience where I saw the deceptive nature of my father’s ‘care’ and that I have defined the word betrayal, deception, disgust, and anger within this memory.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto this college entrance exam failure memory because I have defined it as a trauma – instead of realizing that the trauma is of the mind consciousness system and not of who I really am – who I really am as LIFE cannot actually be harmed or traumatized.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perceive believe that I have been harmed emotionally by my father instead of realizing that it is merely a perception of the mind consciousness system within me which I have believed to be who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the words betrayal, deception, disgust, anger and blame within the college entrance exam failure memory.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the words betrayal, deception, disgust, anger through defining these words within the college entrance exam failure memory in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am equal and one with these words betrayal, deception, disgust, anger and that I am responsible for my experience as these words betrayal, deception, disgust and anger because I betrayed and deceived myself from my very starting point of placing trust within my father in separation of myself and thus the disgust and anger I experienced towards my father is actually what I am experiencing within myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as self-dishonesty in self-separation.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I am responsible for my experience of betrayal, deception, disgust, and anger and that I cannot blame my father for what I experienced because then that would be abdication of self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto disgust, anger and blame towards my father instead of taking responsibility for myself for what I have accepted and allowed of self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my father for not supporting me when I was having a difficult time while what he did is to ‘rub salt into my wound’.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that I have separated myself from self-support through placing support into my father in separation of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my father because apparently it is his fault to ‘rub salt into my wound’ instead of realizing that my reaction towards his reaction is my own responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take my father’s words personally – while what he was saying and what he was doing was merely expressing and reflecting what was going on within himself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am responsible for taking my father’s words and actions personally and participating in reactions to my father’s reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my father for rubbing his nose in it many times for quite a long period of time after the exam, mentioning to me and others in conversation that my other classmates have entered those top two universities while just left me out.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to my father’s words of rubbing his nose in it about my college entrance exam failure – instead of realizing that I am responsible for taking them personally and reacting to those words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self-responsibility through blaming my father for my reactions towards his words and actions through taking them personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in the emotional reaction of anger, disgust and blame based on my own reactions towards my father’s words and actions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself according to and as the emotional reaction of anger, disgust and blame – instead of taking self-responsibility for my reactions and stop them.

Self-Corrective Statements:

I accept and realize that I am responsible for my experience of betrayal, deception, disgust and anger because I betrayed and deceived myself from my very starting point of placing trust, care and support within my father in separation of myself and thus the disgust and anger I experienced towards my father is actually what I am experiencing within myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as self-dishonesty in self-separation.

I accept and realize that I am self-responsible for taking my father’s words and actions personally and thus reacting to him and I accept and realize that blaming my father for my reactions is an act of abdication of self-responsibility.

I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility and sort out my starting point of self-dishonesty as placing trust, care, and support within my father in separation of myself.

I accept and realize trust, care, support is here as who I am in every moment of every breath.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in the construct of blame, abdicating self-responsibility.

I do not accept and allow myself to take my father’s words and actions personally or reacting to them.

Re-scripture of the practical solution for the trigger point:

When the thought ‘The email F sent to A must be untrue and misrepresentative about me and what happened and that has caused A to distrust me’ and the word ‘trust’ comes up into my mind, I stop and breathe, I do not accept and allow myself to continue to participate in this thought and go into the memory of college entrance examination failure. I tell myself to ‘Stop!’ ‘Delete!’ If it comes up over and over again I investigate the memory to see whether there are still points that I have not dealt with yet and assist and support myself with effective self-forgiveness and self-corrective-application.

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Working on the Energy Fluntuation System in DIP

2011-08-02T12:12:00.000-04:00

The following is extracted from my 6th assignment of the Introduction to Desteni Course within the Desteni I Process( http://desteniiprocess.com/ ) , where I worked on the energy fluctuation system.

Writing:

The experience I am writing here is related to the design of energy fluctuation that I experienced in my office. When I was studying the Introduction course material in the afternoon after I had some food, I became lethargic/sleepy when I came to the point of the design of anger, which I know is a transcendence point I was facing. This lethargic/sleepy experience also happened before - although not necessarily as this particular case of studying Desteni materials. A thought ‘tired’ – one singular word – came into my mind. I applied self-forgiveness. Later I began to struggle to keep myself awake and I had a strong desire to lie down on the couch in my office to have a rest – that’s also when the thoughts of ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ and ‘I have lie down on the couch’ etc came up into my mind. I also applied SF on them. As I continued to read I dropped into this experience again – my head started to become heavy, the reading became stagnant and ineffective and I just wanted to close my eyes and sleep. I closed my eyes and struggled to open them up several times – each time I was experiencing myself to be like in a dreaming state with pictures or segments of scenarios playing out in my mind. I had the thoughts ‘I can no longer keep myself awake’ and ‘I can’t win the battle if I fight with my mind’ somewhere in between those experiences as wanting to give into this experience. I did not go lie down on the couch and sleep as I did sometimes before. OK. So this is what I am going to work on in this assignment.

Components I'll be working with:

Thought: I have to take a nap on the couch.

Emotions and Feelings: Lethargy/sleepiness

Words: Lethargy/sleepiness

Pictures: The picture of me lying on the couch comfortably and sleep

Memories: The memory in essence is the same as the picture as Sleeping on the couch experience – just in a different place.

The Thought worksheet:

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch.’

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the lethargic/sleepy experience to the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the lethargic/sleepy experience to exist as a trigger point within me – triggering the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to take a nap on the couch.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give power to a thought in the belief that it is me; that it is me telling me that I have to take a nap on the couch.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe a thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ to be real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe what my mind tells me through/as a thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am tired and that I must go to couch to take a nap.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that tiredness exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act upon thoughts through believing it to be real.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question the thought which I have accepted to be so normal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the thought real through believing it to be real.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that thoughts are not who I really am as LIFE – but a design of consciousness within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed thoughts to tell me who I am, how I must experience myself, what I should do and how I should do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be mind-controlled through believing and acting upon thoughts within my mind which I have believed to be who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto my self-definition according to and as thoughts within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as the act of thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe myself to be alive within participation of the act of thinking.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that within participation of thinking I am creating and manifesting my experience in this world and for the rest of humanity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be subject to energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dependent on energy to experience myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as energy of/as a thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled/directed by energy through believing thoughts to be who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience energy in the belief that energy is me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in energy fluctuations instead of realizing that who I am is constant – no fluctuation in any way whatsoever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that highs and lows as energy fluctuations that I experienced to be real instead of realizing that they are of consciousness and only exist within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make energy fluctuations real through believing in them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed and controlled by energy fluctuations and go into the experiences of highs and lows/ups and downs – instead of me directing myself and expressing myself as who I am here as the breath of life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as energy fluctuations and thus make them real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe energy fluctuations actually exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depleted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to be depleted instead of realizing that the experience of depletion is actually me allowing my mind to suppress who I am as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe energy depletion to be real and thus experience it through my acceptance and allowance of such a belief.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that energy exists through my belief in thoughts and then manifest and experience thoughts – which is energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the construct of energy.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that energy is a construct of consciousness and is not who I really am as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by energy instead of standing as the self-directive-principle in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-responsibility through give permission for energy to manifest in my world creating my experience in my world to tell me how I must experience, who and what I must be, how I must act etc.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to express me as LIFE of oneness and equality as who I am.

Self-Corrective-Statements:

I accept and realize that energy is the experience of a thought – when I think a thought, I believe that thought to be me, I then manifest and experience that thought through voicing that thought and then I experience the ‘energy’ of that thought.

I accept and realize that ‘energy’ is when a system and me come together as one and I think I am that system, I give power to that system and I experience that system – that’s what ‘energy’ is.

I do not accept and allow myself to define myself according to thoughts/systems.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe thoughts/systems to be who I am.

I do not accept and allow myself to give power to thoughts/systems – creating and manifesting them in the form of energy.

I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility to stop giving my power away to thoughts/systems.

I accept and allow myself to stand up and take my power back from thoughts/systems.

I accept and allow myself to honor who I am as the breath of LIFE – rather than honoring thoughts/systems.

I do not accept and allow myself to be mind-controlled through believing thoughts/systems to be who I am and acting upon them.

I do not accept and allow thoughts to tell me who I am, how I must experience myself, what I should do and how I should do.

I accept and realize that participation in thoughts/act of thinking is not an indication of me being alive – and that within participation of thinking I am creating and manifesting my experience in this world and for the rest of humanity.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe that if I have thoughts running in my mind/participate in thinking then I am alive – that is not being alive.

I do not accept and allow thoughts and energy to manifest in my world creating my experience in my world to tell me how I must experience, who and what I must be, how I must act etc.

I accept and allow myself to live here as the breath of life – being here as self-presence and self-awareness within and as everything I touch: “Here I am” – here.

I accept and allow myself to apply self-forgiveness to assist me to discharge of the already placed and manifested thoughts in this world and to release the enslavement and control of the thoughts, as well as the emotions and feelings that I have allowed within me.

I accept and realize that I will still be able to communicate and speak with other human beings the moment the silence within me exist, where only who I am remain as the breath of life, remaining silent and here with all that surrounds me.

I accept and realize that what will change is the experience of who I am – the words I speak, how I experience and express myself will come from within me, as me as one with who I am which I live and breathe in every moment as I remain here as who I am.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe that without thoughts/the act of thinking I am not able to function effectively in this world such as communication/participation in activities in my world or that I must become dumb/stupid/idiotic/dysfunctional within stopping thoughts/the act of thinking.

I accept and allow myself to be more effective and expressive within my participation in my world within the process of stopping thoughts/act of thinking.

I accept and allow myself to take responsibility to stop thoughts/act of thinking within my mind through self-forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel depleted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am able to be depleted instead of realizing that the experience of depletion is actually me allowing my mind to suppress who I am as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe energy depletion to be real and thus experience it through my acceptance and allowance of such a belief.

I accept and realize that energy is a construct of consciousness and is not real and that it only exists in the mind – who I am and the expression of me is not dependent on energy.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe energy to be real.

I do not accept and allow myself to be dependent on energy to experience myself.

I do not accept and allow energy fluctuations to tell me who I am, how I should experience myself, what I should experience, what I should do etc.

I accept and allow myself to stand as the self-directive-principle in my world.

I accept and realize that when I experience fluctuation, I am participating in energy, because who I am is constant, stable – only energy fluctuates.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe in energy fluctuations.

I do not accept and allow myself to participate in energy fluctuations.

I do not accept and allow myself to go into the experience of highs and lows/ups and downs of energy fluctuations – that’s not who I am.

I accept and allow myself to live who I am here as the constancy and stability as the breath of life without energy fluctuations.

Re-scripture of the practical solution for the trigger point

When I experience myself as being lethargic/sleepy, I stop and breathe and realize that it is of my mind and is not real. If necessary, speak self-forgiveness/self-statement aloud to stop this experience of energy fluctuation. If it continues, take some physical actions, such as jumping up and down or using some water to wash my face – actions that can shake this lethargic experience off.

The Emotion and Feeling Worksheet:

Self-Forgiveness on emotion/feeling:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the experience of lethargy/sleepiness is real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into the emotional experience of lethargy/sleepiness because I wanted to hide/escape from facing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use lethargy/sleepiness as a means to hide/escape from facing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to give into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness so that I do not have to face myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that lethargy/sleepiness in this particular case is the mechanism of my mind to protect its existence – it is me as the mind manipulating so that I do not have to face myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with myself through giving into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness in order to avoid facing my transcendent point so that I can continue my self-dishonest existence of/as the mind – instead of facing myself Here and transcend the point that I am facing and no longer allow myself to continue to exist as a slave to my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that when I give into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness and actually sleep on the couch – I am actually charging and boosting up my mind to apparently compensate the depletion that I experienced.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the emotion of lethargy/sleepiness to the thought ‘I have to go to take a nap on the couch’.

Self-Corrective Statements:

I accept and realize that the lethargy/sleepiness is actually the mechanism of my mind to protect its existence – it is me as the mind manipulating so that I do not have to face myself/my transcendent point and can continue my self-dishonest existence of/as the mind– thus giving into this experience is deliberately self-dishonest.

I do not accept and allow myself to be controlled/directed by the experience of lethargy/sleepiness.

I do not accept and allow myself to give into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness.

I do not accept and allow myself to fall for the trick/manipulation of myself of/as the mind as the experience of lethargy/sleepiness.

I do not accept and allow myself to escape myself/my transcendent point through giving into/falling for the mind trick of lethargy/sleepiness.

I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility and face myself Here and transcend the point that I am facing to no longer allow myself to continue to exist as a slave to my mind of self-dishonesty.

I accept and realize that when I give into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness and actually sleep on the couch – I am actually recharging/rejuvenating/boosting up my mind to apparently compensate the depletion that I experienced, which gives my mind power and control to enslave me.

I do not accept and allow myself to give into the experience of lethargy/sleepiness and actually go sleep on the couch when my mind tells me to through thoughts in my mind.

I do not accept and allow myself to recharge/rejuvenate/boost up my mind through giving into the lethargy/sleepiness and actually go sleep on the couch.

I do not accept and allow myself to follow what my mind tells me that I am sleepy/lethargic and that I must go sleep on the couch.

I do not accept and allow myself to give my mind power and control to enslave me.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe that depletion actually exists.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe that I need to compensate depletion through going to sleep on the couch when my mind uses that opportunity to recharge/rejuvenate/boost up itself to enslave who I am - self-enslavement.

I do not accept and allow myself to give my mind the opportunity to recharge/rejuvenate/boost up itself to enslave who I am.

The Words Work-Sheet

Word-Web: Central Word: Lethargy/sleepiness Connecting word: Tired, Depletion, Avoid, Escape, bullshit, dishonesty, Yawning, Comfort, Couch, Sluggish, Low energy, normal

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the words lethargy/sleepiness with a negative value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the word lethargy/sleepiness as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the words lethargy/sleepiness through judging them as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word tired with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word depletion with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word avoid with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word escape with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word dishonesty with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word bullshit with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word yawning with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word comfort with a positive value and judge it as good/right/positive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word couch with a positive value and judge it as good/right/positive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word sluggish with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word low energy with a negative value and judge it as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word normal with a positive value and judge it as good/right/positive.

Tired:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word tired to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word tired within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word tired and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word tired within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.

Depletion:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word depletion to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word depletion within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word depletion and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word depletion within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.

Avoid:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word avoid to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word avoid within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word avoid and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word avoid within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.

Escape:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word escape to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word escape within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word escape and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word escape within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.

Dishonesty:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word dishonesty to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word dishonesty within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word dishonesty and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word dishonesty within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.

Bullshit:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word bullshit to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word bullshit within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word bullshit and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word bullshit within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.

Yawning

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word yawning to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word yawning within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word yawning and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word yawning within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.

Comfort

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word comfort to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word comfort in polarity to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word comfort and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word comfort in polarity to the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.

Couch

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word couch to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word couch within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word couch and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word couch within the word lethargy/sleepiness in separation of myself.

Sluggish

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word sluggish to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word sluggish within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word sluggish and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word sluggish within the word lethargy/sleepiness – in separation of myself.

Low energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word low energy to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word low energy within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word low energy and the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word low energy within the word lethargy/sleepiness in separation of myself.

Normal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word normal to the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word normal within the word lethargy/sleepiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word normal and from the word lethargy/sleepiness through defining the word normal within the word lethargy/sleepiness in separation of myself.

Re-define the word in the centre-circle of the word-web:

New definition of the word lethargy: the experience of/through the mind as being of less energy, which is not real but can be perceived to be real through one’s own acceptance and allowance of belief in thoughts/systems/mind.

The Pictures Work-Sheet

The picture of me lying on the couch comfortably and sleep: There is a couch in our office. It is rather comfortable although pretty ragged. In the middle of this picture is just this chair while I am lying on the couch sleeping comfortably. My head is on the armrest on the left side of the picture – my feet on the right side.

Self-Forgiveness:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the picture that I am lying on the couch sleeping comfortably with my head on the armrest on the left while my feet on the right – to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the words comfort, rest, relax, sleep, attraction to the picture of me lying on the couch sleeping comfortably.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the words comfort, rest, relax, sleep, attraction within the picture of me lying on the couch sleeping comfortably.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the words comfort, rest, relax, sleep, attraction through defining them within the picture of me lying on the couch sleeping comfortably – in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge a positive value to the picture of me lying on the couch sleeping comfortably.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the picture as good/positive/right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the picture through judging it as good/positive/right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow what a picture within my mind tells me to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by a picture and the energy attached to the picture instead of standing as the self directive principle in my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the picture of me lying on the couch comfortably sleeping to the thought of ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ to exist as a trigger point within me – triggering the picture of me lying on the couch comfortably together with the positive energetic charge that I have attached to the picture.

Self-Corrective Statements:

I accept and realize that the picture of me lying on the couch sleeping comfortably together with the positive charge that I attached to this picture is not who I am and that within following what this picture presents and the energy attached to it, I am actually falling for the manifestation of the original thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ – which is done from the starting point of escaping/avoiding to face myself/my transcendent point.

I accept and realize that it is not that there is something ‘wrong’ with sleeping on the couch comfortably – it is being directed by a picture and energy in the manifestation of a thought instead of me directing myself that is the problem.

I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by a picture within my mind telling me what to do.

I do not accept and allow myself to be directed by the energy attached to a picture telling me what to do.

I do not accept and allow myself to be dependent on thought/picture/energy to experience myself and do what I do.

I do not accept and allow myself to believe in what a picture and energy presents within my mind telling me what to do.

I accept and allow myself to stand as the self directive principle – me directing me – not being directed by thoughts/pictures/energy.

Re-scripture:

When the thought ‘I have to take a nap on the couch’ come up into my mind, I stop and breathe. I do not accept myself to go into my mind participating in this picture, imagining how comfortable and attractive it is to lie down on the couch and just sleep. Even if the picture comes up, I stop and breathe through the energetic charge if any. I do not allow myself to follow and be directed by the energy.

The Memories Work-Sheet

The memory is in essence the same as the picture.

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Free Will

2011-06-23T02:46:00.000-04:00

Note: The following article was posted on my Chinese blog on October 17, 2009, which I am now moving to the English blog.

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A comment on Youtube from Bella.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LzI6BZ-Phpg

BellaBargilly

we say there is no free-will because you can´t stop eating or shitting and you can´t leave your body and return at will in full awareness - without dying.

we say there is no free-will - because `free-will´ has been used & abused to justify Separation - where one will justify words or actions saying "I have free-will!" - which becomes a problem when the will of an individual is not aligned with Life´s Will as CommonSense as what is Best for All.

prove your free-will by stopping your Mind.

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This comment put the relationships between "wills" into very straightforward perspective. My will as from the starting point of self-interest based on the abusive nature of the mind consciousness system always want to justify/protect its own existence -- free will is the most commonly used excuse/justification/reason to perpetuate the mind's own existence -- "I have free will. I have the right to do whatever i want to do." While the truth is that free will is just another system program to protect the system's own existence through the illusion of free will/free choice while the being who believe such a thing are actually following a program of the mind consciousness system without even knowing that what they are protecting is what is abusing who they really are as Life as all as one as equal. This "my will" is not aligned with Life's will as CommonSense as what's best for all, but based on self-interest -- the abuse of Life. By giving up free will, we give up the protection/defense mechanism of the mind which protects the mind's own existence whose nature is abuse of who we really are as Life as all as one as equal and which always choose self-interest over Life -- within this I replace my will/self-interest with Life's will as CommonSense as what's best for all -- I align myself with who i really am as Life as all as one as equal. Then my will is not personal, not based on self-interest, but the manifestation of Life's will as who i really am as all as one as equal. Give up free will. Give up self-interest. Give up the mind. Give up the personality definition. Give up the individual identity which is based on separation. Give up illusion! For what? For the redeem of who we really are as Life as all as one as equal; for what is real; for a real living. When Life's will is applied individually, heaven is on earth and Life is born in the physical. So this process is to give up my will which is an illusion and align myself with Life's will which is who i really am as who all really are as all as one as equal until it is done until all stand as Life's will as who we really are and we express we live we see what will happen.

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Self-Forgiveness on Judging and Reacting to Family

2011-06-22T00:40:00.001-04:00

Note: The following self-forgiveness is an expansion of those that I posted on my Chinese blog on October 16, 2009.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my family as fucked up systems and that i'd better get away from them so that i do not get influenced.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am not fucked up systems through comparing myself with my family and form opinions about my family and about myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am equally fucked up as everyone else in this world and that I am no better than others in this process.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be superior to my family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my family through judging them as less than me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as the teacher and savior of my family because I am apparently superior/better than/more than them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be influenced by my family.

I forgive myself that I have acceptedand allowed myself to connect being influenced by my family to fear - and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I can only be influenced by external influences unless I give them permission - thus my responsibility.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard my family as disgusted systems and that i'd better keep myself away from them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape from my family instead of realizing that this process is not about keeping my family away from me (neither is it about continuing those family bullshits) - that will not assist and support me or my family or anyone.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that family can be of great support in this process of facing myself and seeing/realizing what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become - it is about the starting point of what I do.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that my family is one and equal with me as me, and that it is separation to judge my family for who they are currently.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge people for who they are currently in their process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my family through judging them for who they are currently in their process.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i should present myself as being harsh/cruel/ruthless in order to present myself as being self-honest, instead of realing that being harsh/cruel/ruthless should not be the starting point or the purpose of my action, but that the starting point should be of equality and oneness - standing one and equal with my family, assisting and supporting them as who they really are equal as me.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to accept my family as my equals.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am justified to just leave my family as what they are without taking actions - instead of realizing that within such an acceptance, I have also given permission to myself to be left to be who I am without assitance and support.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to leave my family as who they accept and allow them to be without taking action.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my family will not hear me anyway so i will not bother to communicate or do something about it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make the assumption that my family will not hear me anyway thus cutting off the communication with my family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seclude myself from my family - defining such an act as of sel-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to experience the apparent argument/conflict if i challenge my family's self-definitions and shake them up because what i say they would not like to hear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect argument/conflict to fear - and thus I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not about my family - it is about who I am within my family - what I have accepted and allowed myself and my family to be and become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place the starting point of my participation within my family to my family in separation of myself - instead of realizing that it is about who I am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to my family's self-dishonesties without taking action because i have accepted that they won't hear me anyway and what i have to say is unpleasent and may offend them so i'd better leave them alone.

I forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to give permission to self-dishonesties within other beings instead of realizing that by doing this i have given permission to self-dishonesties to exist/continue within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I may offend my family.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect offending my family to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that not fearing to offend others does not mean that I have to deliberately offend others in order to prove that I do not fear offending them - offending others should not become the starting point of my participation with others because then my starting point would be of separation from myself - towards others. If what is necessary to be said then it is simply said - not allowing myself to hold myself back out of fear that I may offend them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to my family's reactions towards me, feeling frustrated/threatened by them and fearing to experience such reactions again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of frustrattion/being threatened when my family react to my words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the emotional reaction of frustration/being threatened is who I am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give into reactions instead of reazlizing i was giving my power away to reactions to control/enslave me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by energetic emotional reaction - instead of me directing myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to experience reactions to my family's reactions.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to connect reacting to my family's reactions to fear and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe i should not bother to challenge my family's dishonesties but give permission to them to continue, so that i won't offend them and then we are all OK - instead of realizing that this is how we are supporting each others personalities of the mind existing in self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that i have accpeted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i should avoid offending other beings and avoid conflicts in all situations instead of realizing that I am actually avoiding to face my own fear. -- However, it does not mean that I have to deliberately create situations of unnecessary conflicts.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react in guilt and sadness that i offended my family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of guilt and sadness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I am required to go into guilt and sadness for having offended my family because apparently I have broken their hearts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be conditioned by moraltiy as how I should behave within the family situation where I apparently broken my family's heart.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fall for the manipulation of the minds' protection/defense mechanisms from my family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family for my experience of falling for the manipulation of the mind instead of realizing that I am responsible for how I experienced myself emotionally/energetically.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not of a self-honest starting point to deliberately get invovled in arguments with my father to feed each other's ego.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that my family's reactions to me and my reactions to them are all protection/defense mechanisms of the mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and get angry for falling for the manipulation of the mind's protection/defense mechanisms.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my family to manipulate me - instead of realizing that I am responsible for accepting allowing myself to be manipulated by my own mind.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to risk everything to do whatever needs to be done to chanllege all self-dishonesties/illusions no matter what.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear risking my self-definition as a good/nice person/son/brother.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to protect my own self-definitions/illusions/self-dishonesties through fear.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my father has his right to hold onto his beliefs, instead of realizing that by giving permission to my father the right to continue to exist as who he is I am also giving permission to myself the right to continue to exist as who I am of the mind - abusing who we all really are as Life. Unacceptable!

I will do whatever it takes and risk everything to not accept anyone less than who we all really are as Life as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that since i can not show love to my family, i must present myself as hate which is the polarity opposite of love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I should not show love to my family instead of realizing that this sentence is indicating that I am still believing that love is something that is able to be presented to my family in some way.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if love is required to be shown to someone/something, it implies love is not real in fact as who we are but that the opposite actually exist in order for love to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word love and hate through defining them in my family in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word love to my mother.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word love and from my mother through defining the word love within my mother in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to connec the word hate to my father.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word hate and from my father through defining the word father within the word hate in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto resentment/blame/anger/hatred towards my family, wanting to separate myself from my family, not allowing myself to actually stand one and equal with my family as my family to assist and support them as me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control my family and let them do what I want them to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to do what I want them to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in expectations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to force my family to do what I want them to do and who i want them to be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get angry that my family did not do what I expected/wanted them to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to change my family the way I want them to be.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I can not force others to change - my starting point would then be of separation.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize my starting point within this process must be who I am as self - not in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is not to force my family to change - but to change who I am and live the change as who I am within this process and assist and support those that i come to interaction with to change/transform themselves - but I can not force anyone to change and I can not change for anyone - each has to be willing to be self-willed equals to transform ourselves and this world as ourselves to bring heaven on earth.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as expectations and anticipations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to change to the way I want them to be.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up my family within frustration that i can not change them because they did not do exactely what i expected them to do, and say "they'd better go fuck themselves" - instead of realizing that the starting point of forcing my family to change in the way I would them to be is fucked up in the first place - because then my focus point is not who I am but become all about my family.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take responsibility for myself first, transforming/changing myself and live the self-transformation/self-change as a living example of change to assist and support my family to transform/change as themselves equl and one as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought 'they'd beter go fuck themselves'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' with the emotional reaction of anger and spite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in anger and spite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to and as anger and spite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty that i have participated in the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the emotion of guilt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' through judging the thought as bad/wrong/negative.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abandon my family by saying "they'd better go fuck themselves".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for having the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' because I have regarded this thought as me abandoning my family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as bad/wrong for having the thought 'they'd better go fuck themselves' coming up into my mind - from a morality perspective.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I must 'care' for my family and by saying 'they'd better go fuck themselves' within my mind, I am not doing what I am supposed to do within the context of 'care' as a morality standard within family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that I have done something wrong because I had the thought of abandoning my family and that I am not caring my family enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be blinded/consumed by the family construct, disregarding the rest of the world.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that 'care' in the context of family construct is not real - because how can care exist if I do not care all equally but only care my own family?

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to agree with me to accept my point and when it is not i get frustrated/disappointed and go into spitefulness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in expectation of myself to agree with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my family to support my ego through agreeing with my opinion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel frustrated/disappointed and go into spitefulness because my opinion was not supported.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize the spitefulness towards my family is actually self-spite - me being spiteful to myself through my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat "go fuck yourselves and suffer for what you do" as spitefulness as a punishment to my family.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the backchat "You don't hear me. You will suffer."

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in spite and nastiness for not being able to control my family and let them do what I want them to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become spiteful and nasty for losing control.

I forgive that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my family to suffer because they did not want to hear me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the true nature of me as spite and nastiness revealed when my ego/mind/opinions/control is not supported.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that who they really are is one and equal with who i really am -- we are one and equl as Life -- no matter how deep they are trapped, i will not give them up as who they really are -- i will do whatever it takes until they stand up, take self-responsibility to honour who we all really are as Life -- yet the first step is to take responsibility for myself.

I will not accept myself to react to my family's reactions because of feeling offended, instead i see that their reactions indicate that they are trapped in the mind consciousness systems and that is the suffering of Life the suffering of who i really am. I can not just stop there, saying i will give you up -- you do whatever you want to do. No! That is unacceptable! Within the understanding of Life suffering, within the understanding of their pains and sufferings, within my pains and sufferings, i will not stop until the abuse of Life/the abuse of whowho we all really are stops! If I am in such situations, what do I really need? Practical assistance and support if I have walked through the same points.

Can you just react in spitefulness, resentment because you perceive that you have been offended/you feel bad? Can you just abandon/reject/give up them because of your personal feelings/because you perceive that they offended you? Why do you hold such a grip towards resentment/unforgiveness? Can you place Life over your own personal feelings and emotions? Or do you place your own personal feelings/emotions/reactions over Life? What will you do? What is the honour of Life? Ask yourself. What does risking everything mean? Do you hold onto your own good name/fame/defintions? Give up self-interest entirely/completely! Honour LIFE as who we really are no matter what!

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Self-Forgiveness on Perceptual Reality of the Mind

2011-06-20T23:47:00.000-04:00

Note: The following Self-Forgiveness is based on an article that I posted on my Chinese blog on October 15, 2009.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define reality according to what i perceive through my mind within the condition of my self-definition.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed mself to realize that my mind filters information deliberately according to self-definition.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that what i perceive through my mind is not the true expression of the reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that what i perceived through my mind is real and that reality is just perceptions that exists within my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define what is real as the perceptions/ideas/beliefs that i have formed and created within my mind as my self-definition.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define existence as what exists within my mind as perceptions/ideas/beliefs, and created such a belief that whatever does not exist within my mind does not actually exist.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever does not come into mind/enter into my consciousness does not exist.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form perceptions/ideas/beliefs about reality, and project my perceptions/beliefs/ideas onto the physical reality, perceiving/believing them to be real expressions of reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the existence of perceptual reality and the apparent diversity of perceptual realities.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto my perceptions/ideas/beliefs because i have defined myself as them and fear losing them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect losing my perceptions/ideas/beliefs within my mind to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that whatever i fear losing is not real, who i really am as LIFE can not actually be lost - only illusions can be lost.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to filter information/perceive reality through my mind/my self-definition, ignoring deliberately what do not fit into my perceptions/ideas/beliefs of/as the mind.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have built layers upon layers upon layers of self-definitions through perceiving that which only support my self-definitions and ignoring deliberately that does not support my self-defintions.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore deliberately that which i do not want to see/hear - perceiving/believing that by ignoring them they then do not exist.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by perceiving reality through my mind, I am not actually standin one and equal with reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in oblivion to what is really going on in reality by using my mind to perceive reality, creating perceptions/ideas/beliefs of the physical reality which is not what the physical reality really is and is not what is really going on in this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself by defining myself as my mind, and trusting my mind to perceive and interprete myself and the world as myself for me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to believe whatever i want to believe and that this is my free will/free choice to do so - instead of realizing that I am actually existing as a slave to my mind while believing myself to be free.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to interprete the reality at my own will, instead of realizing that I am actually justifying my illusionary perceptual reality of/as the mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live in self-deception by living in my mind illusionary perceptual reality, perceiving/interpreting reality through my mind consciousness system according to my self-definitions created through thoughts/emotions/feelings/perceptions/ideas/beliefs.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself to believe that everything in this world is OK and that this world should continue to exist as it is, by deliberately ignoring the suffering and pains of other beings in this world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the right to not see/face/consider the abuse, sufferings and pains in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge abuse/sufferings/pains as bad - within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from abuse/sufferings/pains in this world - instead of standing one and equal with them and stop them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i can do nothing about the sufferings and pains of other beings so i will simply ignore them--pretending that they do not exist so that i can continue my own illusionary life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give up who i really am and exist as self-defeat by perceiving that i can do nothing to make a difference but to pretend that they do not exist.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as self-defeat/powerlessness/helplessness/giving up/abdication of self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have become numb to reports of murdings/killings/rapes/abuses/kidnappings/wars etc on newspapers, perceiving/believing that they are so far away from me and that as long as i am OK i will ignore them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore the sufferings and pains of other beings as long as they do not influence me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i can do nothing about what is happening in this world and i will just ignore it as long as it does not influence me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding everything in this physical reality I have disregarded myself as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to disregard LIFE - disregard other beings that exist in this physical reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that it is normal to have such reports as murdings/killings/kidnappings/rapes/abuses/wars etc, and justify the existence of such manifestations of abuse of Life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that whatever i did not see/hear/feel/experience do not exist, such as the slaughtering of animals, the raping of children, wars -- from the perspective of my mind, they seem to be so far away from me that i do not feel them so they do not exist.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to disregard deliberately the sufferings and pains in other beings by saying i do not feel like bothering myself to see/face such horrific manifestations - instead of realizing that I am actually resisting to see/face myself as what I have accepted and allowed, created and manifested within and as this world as who I am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the manifestation of abuses in this reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from other beings by existing in deliberate ignorance of what is actually going on in this world and what beings are actually experiencing.

I forgive msyelf that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to see the truth of this reality by deliberately ignoring that which i perceive to be uncomfortable because i know if i really see what is going on in this world i can not stand with what I am accepting and allowing.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the continuatioin of abuse in this reality by ignoring them deliberately.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself realize that sufferings and pains are physical experiences that are real -- they are not perceptions/ideas/beliefs that exist in the mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the physical reality and ignore what is actually going on and being experienced in the physical reality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to pretend that sufferings and pains do not exist, by being addicted to and lost in my mind perceptual reality -- not even able to discern between what is real and what is not real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify sufferings and pains by perceiving/believing that those beings deserve to experience those sufferings and pains as a punishement.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as my self-defintion as the perception/idea/belief that beings deserve to experience sufferings and pains. Unacceptable!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to sufferings and pains in other beings by saying that "i do not feel like seeing these sufferings and pains which make me uncomfortable"--self-dishonesty. Unacceptable!

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that by disregarding the rest of the world, i have given permission of disregard of who i really am as Life.

Till here no further! Stop! No longer valid! I do not accept myself to justify my mind/self-definitions/perceptual reality/perceptions/ideas/beliefs. No justification of abuses/pains/sufferings. No! Stop!

I am here as breath as the quantum moment as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression.

I transform myself in each and every single breath as each and every single moment till the abuse, sufferings and pains stop within me and within this world as me!

No more ignorace of what is really going on in this world. No more hiding in my mind perceptual reality!

Till here no further!

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Self-Forgiveness on Anger Triggered by a Situation

2011-06-14T02:47:00.002-04:00

Note: the following is based on an article I published on my Chinese blog on October 12, 2009 where I discussed a situation which I also experiened just today.

I was doing my homework tonight while my mother called me. I felt disturbed and went into reaction. The first time the call did not get through and i did not know who was calling. The second time, it came through. I picked it up and heard my mother's voice. I experienced immense resistance and reluctance, and anger started to accumulate within me immediately because i felt disturbed by this call and that i had no time for this call at all. My mother's first question was "Why did not it get through?" With anger, i said "How would i know?"-- words full of reluctance/resistance/anger. Then my mother said she wanted to talk to me and wanted to see me. I was more angry inside but i suppressed it with words "I had no time!" Then my mother connected QQ requiring a video talk. I picked it up with reluctance/resistance/anger. I really did not want to get into any talk at that time. When the camera was connected, i did not watch my mother at all and went on with what i was doing. In a while my mother asked "Are your hairs falling off?" The irritation and anger burst out "I am doing homework！If you do not have anything important to day, we'd better stop it!" So the talk did not last for even a minute. After the talk, I could not focus on what i was doing and i blamed my mother and even cursed her for what i experienced within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to my mother with irritation/resistance/reluctance/anger because I feel that I have been disturbed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate anger within me at that moment, instead of breathing through and stopping the anger within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as irritations/resistance/reluctance/anger and fuel them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my mother for what i experienced within me instead of realizing that it has nothing to do with my mother at all -- it is all about what was going on within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to direct anger to my mother, judging her, blaming her, cursing her - instead of realizing that the anger I experienced is not about my mother - it is about me being angry with myself - and this situation is just showing me that there exists anger within me because I am dishonest with myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that there is only one type of anger that exists as one point of being angry at yourself, and that is when I've not been honest with myself and that I have fucked myself, I've become angry at yourself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress anger, instead of investigating why I am experiencing anger and sort it out so that I no longer go into such an experience over and over again.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that when I suppress that anger, that anger will resonate, manifest and be experienced in different ways within my world - to reflect to me that there exists anger within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anger with myself because I am dishonest to myself - because I am not honouring who i really am - because i am deliberatly against who i really am.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to deliberately fuck myself through being deliberately against myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be diliberately against myself as a way to blame and punish others.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that by being deliberately against who I really am - I am only fucking myself, I am destroying myself, I am dishonouring myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed being deliberately against who I really am as LIFE to become my accepted nature.

I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to create and manifest myself as the representation of being deliberately against LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful to LIFE instead of realizing that I am actually being spiteful to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in self-spitefulness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from LIFE through being spiteful to LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anger with myself because I know I am spiteful to LIFE and that I am dishonouring LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the manifestation of an event to show me that anger exists within me is through the accumulation of self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that anger is the outflow of me not being honest with me in my starting point in every moment, which culminates to anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest within my starting point - delaying what I know I should deal with because I just did not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately postpone and resist that which I know I should give direction to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny dealing with those emails that I know I should deal with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate undealt-with emails.

I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately push away/shut away information about Desteni and withdraw myself from participating actively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed undealt with issues to accumulate into the manifestation of anger within me and within my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be anger with myself because I know I should give direction to situations in my world but I just did not do it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with myself because I have abdicated self-direction.

I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the desire to revenge Desteni because i believe that Desteni is the reason why I am experiencing the fuck up I am experiencing - instead of realizing that I am responsible for my experience that I have created and manifested even when I have 'forgotten' how I actually created and manifested such an experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the belief that Desteni is the reason why I am experiencing the fuck up that I am experiencing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto that belief so that i can continue to blame instead of taking responsibility for myself - stand up and direct myself and correct that which I have created and manifested.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the belief that the reason why I am experiencing the fuck up I am experiencing is because I participated in this process - because I believed that all my problems came after I got involved with Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the strong belief within my mind which I have believed to be real - that Desteni is responsible for my experience of being fucked up.

I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to want to revenge Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to revenge Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to destroy myself so that I can prove Desteni wrong as a form of revenge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful to Desteni as a form of revenge.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately fuck myself up so that I can continue to blame Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed revenging Desteni to become my accpeted nature because I have been obsessed and possessed with the belief that Desteni is responsible for my experience of being fucked up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed and possessed by the desire to revenge Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed by the desire to revenge Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuck myself deliberately so that I can prove that it is all Desteni's fault.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to beliberately destroy myself as a means to revenge Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be possessed by the anger system Demon - because I have accpeted and allowed myself to be consumed by and become the manifestation of anger.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fuck myself up through jumping into conclusions based on the part of Desteni materials that I have read.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry with myself because I fucked myself up through jumping into conclusions in reading Desteni materials.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame Desteni materials to mislead me instead of realizing that I accepted and allowed myself to jump into conclusions in reading Desteni materials - thus I am responsible for those assumptions/interpretations/perceptions/ideas/beliefs that I have created within myself which I have believed to be what Desteni is proposing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not responsible for the conclusions/assumptions/interpretations that I made within reading Desteni materials because those would be the only conclusions that I could draw from those materials based on my understanding at that moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the grudge against Desteni materials.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be unwilling to take responsibility for the conclusions/assumptions/interpretations that I have made within reading Desteni materials.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see within common sense that the best way is to immediately correct myself instead of holding onto the grduge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to convince myself that I am not responsible for those conclusions/assumptions/interpretations that I have made about Desteni materials - so that I do not have to take self-responsibility for what I have created and manifested.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that holding onto grudge against Desteni materials is not going to do me or anybody any good - but to continue fuck myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue to fuck myself through holding onto the belief that Desteni materials have misled me and that it is all Desteni's fault that I have fucked myself.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to attempt to convice myself that it is real/true that I have been misled by Desteni materials.

I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to believe it to be real/true that i have been misled by Desteni materials - because I have persuaded myself to believe it.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to believe something to be real jsut because I have told myself so many times that it is real.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to want to believe that I have been misled by Desteni materials and that Desteni is responsible for my experience of being fucked - so that I do not have to stand up and take responsibility for the fuck-up that I have created and manifested as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed to continue to screw myself up so that I can continue to blame Desteni for my fuck-up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to prove that it is because of my participation in Desteni that I have fucked myself up - even through deliberately fucking myself up in my process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that if I fuck myself up in my process then that proves my belief that my participation in Desteni is the reason why I fucked myself up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that my fucking up is able to prove that Desteni is responsible for my fucking up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to spite myself in order to spite Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be spiteful to myself - instead of realizing that I am merely harming myself.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to abuse myself as a way to revenge Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that by abusing/tortuing/fucking myself I am actually revenging Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in self-abuse and self-torture deliberately as a means of spitefulness to Desteni which is actually self-spitefulness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create the delusion that I have been misled by Desteni materials and that is why I fucked myself up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be consumed by delusions within my mind which I have believed to be so real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become delusional.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be able to distinguish reality from delusions clearly - because I have become delusional.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by delusions instead of living here in and as the physical reality as the breath of life here in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed by delusions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose contact with reality through being obsessed with delusions within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with delusions within my mind which I have firmly believed to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as having a bad temper as my father.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as having a bad temper -- being very easy to get irritated and angry.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as irritation and anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to my temper believing that the bad temper is who i am instead of realizing that it is a program within me that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe to be who i am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that since my father has a bad temper then it is normal/ordinary/natural for me to have the same bad temper.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the shit of bad temper instead of realizing that the temper is a program that i have inherited from my parents or from my environment that i have defined as who i am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be controlled/manipulated/directed by emotions within me which i perceived to be originating from my bad temper.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to the mind consciousness system within me through participating in emotions and feelings within my mind.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to be present in the moment the anger started to take control over me and stop it immediately.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out the shit system that i inherited from my father.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to copy reactions and behaviors from my father and define myself as such reactive behaviors.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my father for why i have such a bad temper and that if i had a different father i would not need to deal with this and experience such reactive behaviors.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to blame my father for my experience instead of realizing that i am responsible for what i was experiencing within me and that by blaming others i was abidicating self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what i was experiencing within me instead of realizing that it is through my permission and participation that the systems within me manifest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to vent my anger on somebody when i experience anger within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to any beings within my world just to find excuses to vent my anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to react to my mother's words just to find excuses to vent my anger and frustration.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel released when i have vent my anger on somebody else.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be deceived by the apparent releas of anger when i direct it onto beings in my world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that if i do not vent my anger on somebody i will explode.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel good after i have vent my anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as anger, being consumed by anger.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that when i was participating in anger and venting my anger onto other beings i was actually allowing myself to be a slave to the systems within me which i have defined as who i am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the anger system within me, and live out my self-definition as the anger system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the reactive habitual behavior when i experienced anger within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give into anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel good when i curse somebody just to vent my anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to suppress anger when i experienced them within me, instead of realizing that suppressing anger is resisting anger and that what i resist persists, thus the anger will finally come out.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as suppression of anger, perceiving that i suppress it it will disappear.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as suppression of anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to copy my father's behavior of beating somebody/something to vent my anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be possessed by anger, becoming the power source of the system within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself by participating in anger and charging the system within me without realizing what i was actually supporting.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad that i have done something out of the control of impulsion of anger.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard anger to be more than me, perceive that i have no power over anger, and that i can not direct anger one and equal.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from anger, instead of standing one and equal with anger, realizing that anger is a program within me and that it is not who ireally am thus simply stop it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to follow anger which is following programs and systems within me which i have accepted and allowed myself to define as who iam.

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Self-Forgiveness on Judgment of the System

2011-06-12T02:47:00.001-04:00

Note: The following self-forgiveness is based on an article published on my Chinese blog on October 11, 2009, which I am now moving here to this English blog.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the system as bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to charge the word system with a negative value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the system through judging the system as bad.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the system to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-responsibility - abdicating responsibility for what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as the system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge nature, the animal kingdom, and the physical manifested universe as being bad/worthless/useless because we are currently in the system and from my idea/perception/belief that the system is bad, i was judging all and everything in this world as bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from nature, animal kingdom, the physical manifested universe through judging them as bad.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that what makes a difference is whether we are of the system or not, not whether we are in the system (actually everything is in the system).

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge nature/animal kingdon/the physical manifested universe merely because they are in the system instead of realizing that nature/animal kingdom/the physical manifested universe has stood up within oneness and equality, taking responsibility for what has been accepted and allowed,and that the only manifestation that has not yet stood up as Life as all as one as equal is human beings who are trapped in the mind consciousness systems which human beings have perceived/believed to be who we are.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that since the whole physical universe is the manifestation of the mind consciousness system, the whole physical universe deserves to be destroyed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify the destruction of the physical manifested universe.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize my oneness and equality with nature/animal kingdom/the manifested physical universe, and i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take the manifested physical universe for granted.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that destroying the world is a solution.

I forgive mself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be trapped by perceptions/ideas/beliefs based on the mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge who i am one and equal with the manifestd physical universe simply because we are currently system manifestations.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for me in the system instead of realizing that what makes a difference is whether i am of the system or not.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to separate myself from what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take the unconditional assistance and support from nature/animal kingdom/the manifeseted physical universe for granted.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to disregard all and everything in this world, instead of realizing that i have disregarded myself as Life.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from Life as who i really am as all as one as equall as the living word as the sound harmonic expression.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take myself for granted.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge animals to be stupid or dumb, perceiving myself to be superior/smart/intelligent, perceiving/believing that animals do not understand oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify killing/murdering animals. It is unacceptable!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in self-rightousness, superiority, and arrogance. Unacceptable!

Be in the system yet not of the system! Stand up, take self-responsibility, live who i really am as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression.

No more judgment of nature/animal kingdom/the manifested physical universe!

No more separation from nature/animal kingdom/the manifested physical universe!

No more separation from that which stands as who i really am as Life as all as one as equal!

I am here assisting and supporting myself to be/live one and equal with nature/animal kingdom/the physical manifested universe!

I am here assisting and supporting myself as the breath of Life as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression!

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Desteni website: http://www.desteni.co.za/

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self-forgivess on Trust

2011-06-11T02:23:00.000-04:00

Osho: Trust is Not Transferable

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qWwMwE_phOE

Note: The following self-forgiveness was published on my Chinese blog on October 11, 2009, which I am now moving here to this English blog.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to knowledge and information, instead of living that which i have realized one and equal as myself, manifesting myself as the realization.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to i have to remeber the realization in order to not forget it, instead of realizing that the reason i am able to forget is because i am existing in separation from that which i am trying to remember with my mind instead of actually living the realization.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to live one and equal the realization through physical application, manifesting myself as that which i have realized one and equal as myself, thus not being able to forget what i have realized and also no need for memoring the realization as merely knowledge and information.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to base my trust on my past moments according to specific applications that i feel effective, instead of trusting myself here in the moment -- a brand new moment, no attachment to the past moments.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to see with common sense that if i am here in the moment completely, i can not have any attachment to the past moments that i have experienced -- i am entirely here in this new moment honouring who i really am in this entirely brand-new moment.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that the past moment has already passed, and i am now in the brand new moment, why would i allow myself to still be attached that which has already passed while not honouring myself here in this new moment?

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that the power is here in this moment and when i participate in my mind and hold onto attachments towards the past moments, i am only missing the moment that is here, not completely being here honouring the moment making the fullest use of the moment here.

I forgive myself that ihave not allowed myself to see with common sense that when i am here why do i have the need to be attached to the past moments?

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my past realizations that is of common sense.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my past, fear my past, perceive/believe that i must separate myself from my past in order to be self-honest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my past realizations are completely useless and that i must do exactly the opposite in order to become self-honest.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-trust that i have built and self-realizations from my past experiences.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to define self-trust according to the past moments instead of realizing self-trust can only exist in every moment -- every moment is a new moment, I am here in the moment then i apply what is here in the moment. I do not accept myself to be defined by my past.

I am not past-defined. I am here in the moment as the moment as breath. I am brand new in every moment. I trust myself as every moment. I am not past-defined. My application is in every moment as every moment as self-trust. No attachment to the past!

I am here! I am here! I am the moment! I am in every moment! I express myself as every brand new moment! I honour myself in every new moment! I trust myself as every new moment!

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Desteni website: http://www.desteni.co.za/

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Self-Forgiveness on Participation in Class

2011-06-08T01:21:00.000-04:00

Note: The following self-forgiveness was published on my Chinese blog on October 03, 2009, which I am now moving to this English blog.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to be clear with my starting point of participating in class.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form the ideat that Chinese students have the tendency to not participate in class.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be sepcial if i particpate in class asking answering questions or pointing out mistakes of the professor.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my participation in class to support my personality design instead of speaking the words/communicating one and equal as me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel special when i participate in class because all other Chinese students dare not to do this.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to feel special about myself and prove that i am special or superior.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in competition with other Chinese students.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want impress the students and professors while participating in class, only supporting my own self-definition.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have been so suppressed all these years in class that i place much value/worth in participation in class.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to place muchh value/worth in participation in class.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard participation in class to be very special/brave/difficult/challenging and feel nervous/anxious when i participate.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to design an idea of me as being out of the box, feeling superior/good about myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate in class with the desire that other students notice me and regard me to be special/smart/clever/brave/different/profound.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to get attention from other students and the professor.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to present myself as being iintelligent/smart/clever/insightful/superior when i participate in class.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire a specific outcome when i participate in class instead of simply me being here communicating as myself.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to participate in class with the starting point of assisting and supporting myself to stop programs within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel anxious/nerous when i participate in class because i placed too much value/worth in such an action and desire a specific outcome.

I frogive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in anticipation/expectation and desire to present myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned with whether i am doing good/right, what is my performance etc.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned with my performance when i participate in class instead of realizing that this indicates i am placing value/worth in what other people think about me which is actually supporting the self-image i hold of myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to hold a self-image of myself which i expect/desire other people to believe in or buy.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may be judged as being stupid if i dare to ask some "stupid" questions or answer incorrectly where i may be judged as being stupid.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may ask trivial questions which can not show my profoundness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to build my self-image as being knowlegable/smart/clever/profound and fear that i may not be able to present my self-image in such a way successfully. Holy Fuck!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by a self-image instead of me directing myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to move accroding to my self-image, being controlled/enslaved by such a self-image.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become a slave to a self-image.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live for my self-image, an idea of myself which i present myself as which is not real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to move according to programs/ideas/perceptions/beliefs within me instead of me moving myself/expressing myself as who i really am unconditionally.

I forgive myself that i have allowed myself to realize what unconditional self-expression_r means and what self-movement means.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may behave stupid which will my self-image as being smart/clever/profound.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to become a slave to a picture within my mind which i hold as who i am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire other students to worship me or admire me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to impress the professor.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncomfortable/anxious/upset after i have answered a question/asked a question/pointed out a mistake because i am concerned with my performance and with what other people may think about me.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to replay the scene that has just happened in my mind and feel that it is difficult to feel peaceful.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel distrubed when i participated in class.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to go up in my mind after i participated in class, replaying the scene again and again, not being able to hear what the professor is talking about.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be intimidated to participate in class.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may make mistakes in participation in class, and fear being judged.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for participating in the class fearing that i may not be behaving well enough.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to participate with a certain expectation that the professor will notice me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned with how i can find an advisor to get into a research group.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to what i am facing/dealing with/handling, separating myself from the situation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear other people may be judging my Englihs pronunciation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge my English pronuciation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad that my pronunciation of the stress of words is incorrect.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to make mistakes.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel stressed out withh how to find an advisor.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire that everything will turn out naturally solved without any effort.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may not be able to find an advisor.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that Verbarschot may backbite me so that i may lose all the opportunities of finding an advisor.

Till Here no further! Stop!

I stop anticipation/expectation of presenting myself according to my self-image within participation in class.

I stop my self-image through my mind as an idea/perception/believe of who i am.

I stop desiring to get attention from the students and professor.

I stop existing in stress/anxiety about finding an advisor.

Till here no further.

I am here as breath as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression_r. I direct. I move. I am self-commitment. I am self-dedication. I am nature. I am earth. I am my human physical body.

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Desteni website: http://www.desteni.co.za/

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Idea of Self-honesty and Self-dishonesty

2011-06-07T02:50:00.000-04:00

Note: The following self-forgiveness is an expansion of those that I published on my Chinese blog on October 03, 2009.

What i have realized is that self-honesty can be designed and developed into an ideas as the polar opposite of the idea of self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form an idea of self-honesty, designing self-idea into an idea which is not lived but merely exist as knowledge and information.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to design self-honesty into the polar opposite of the idea of self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an idea of self-honesty which I have created within my mind, perceiving/believing myself to be self-honest while not actually applying/living self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have already become self-honest and that i am self-honest while it is but a perception/idea/belief within my mind and not the actuality of living application.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the idea of self-honesty which I have created within my mind to protect and hide the actual truth of me as the self-dishonesty that I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that i have accetped and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i am self-honest and there is not much self-dishonesty within me so that i do not need to be diligent within deprogramming myself and releasing myself from the definition of my mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i am self-honest and that all the people around me in my world are all but fucked-up mind consciousness systems living in hypnosis.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel special/superior because i am participating in the process with awareness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive myself to be more than people around me because aparently i believe myself to be self-honest while all the people around me are all self-dishonest fuck-ups.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel that i am the only one that is sober while all others are in hynosis.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have known THE truth and that I am fucking enlightened.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i have the right to judge "the fucked-up mind consciousness systems" around me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in judgment of people in their own processes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be obsessed with the idea that people around me are all fucked-up systems instead of realizing I am actually seeing how fucked I am because I did not even see that but existing in a delusion about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that I must withdraw myself from participation and interaction with all the people within my world because apparently they are all self-dishonest fucked-up systems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself in the polar opposite of the ideas that I have projected onto people within my world as self-dishonest fucked-up systems while me existing in the idea of me being self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the idea that I have projected onto other people is actually a reflection about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in comparison and competition with people around me and create an idea about myself as being more than while regarding people around me as being less than.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel miserable that i am alone with the realization that we are fucked-up mind consciousness systems and that i have to live in the system full of fucked-up systems.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge/deny/resist the system - instead of taking self-responsibility and make a difference in this world through assisting and supporting myself to change myself and live the change in my world as an example.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to claim that "I am self-honest. You are all self-dishonest. You are all fucked-up."

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the thought 'you are all fucked-up' to be real and to be me speaking instead of realizing that it is a thought.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by a thought within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by a belief that I have constructed within my mind which I have believed to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to communicate/interact with other people because i fear that i may be contaminated/influenced by their "fucked-up systems".

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that nobody/nothing can actually influence me unless I give it permission.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being contaminated/influenced by fucked up systems to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect communicating/interacting with other people to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by holding myself back from communicating/interacting with other people in my world - I am actually preventing myself from facing myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that facing myself is here in every moment - not having to hold myself back so that I can focus on myself or going out there so that I can apparently face myself - no, facing self is here in every moment of every breath - no matter where I am and with whom I am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as fucked-up systems within this defining myself as the polar opposite idea of self-honesty and perceive/believe that i need to seclude myself from communicating/interacting with the system and other people in order to prevent me from being influenced/contaminated - which is actually protecting the idea I have created about myself as apparently being self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am actually protecting the idea I have created about as being apparently self-honest while actually hiding the actual truth of me as being self-dishonest through preventing me from interacting with people in my world out of fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by fear instead of being Here directing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word self-honesty to the word self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to define the word self-honesty in polarity to the word self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word self-honesty and self-dishonesty through defining the word self-honesty in polarity to the word self-dishonesty in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to exist in judgement/denial/resistance toward self-dishonesty/system - instead of realizing the judgment is actually the act of fear.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge/deny/resist what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become as a mind consciousness system.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed fear myself as a system of self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect myself as a system of self-dishonesty to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear that i may be discovered to be self-dishonest because i feared to be judged instead of realizing that self-judgement is actually protecting the self-dishonesty within me.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to connect me being discovered to be self-dishonest to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to present myself as the polar opposite of self-dishonesty and live out my self-definition as an idea of self-honesty formed, developed and created through/with/as my mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i need to present myself to be self-honest instead of living self-honesty in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to present self-honesty to the world out there somewhere - instead of realizing that that is not actual self-honesty from the starting point of self as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to misplace my starting point out there somewhere - instead of realizing that this process is for me as me as from me as the starting point of me as who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to perceive/believethat I am able to prove to other people or the world that I am self-honest - instead of living who I am as the self-proof of who I am - it is not about proving anything to anybody; it is about who I am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to put on the personality suit as the idea about myself being self-honest to protect the actual self-dishonesty within.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed to embrace me unconditionally including self-dishonesty which i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, within this embracing to transform/change/stop the self-dishonesty that I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to see with self-honesty what i have accepted and allowed within me.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that judgement/denial/resistance of self-dishonesty and the presentation of me as the idea of self-honesty is preventing me from facing what i have accepted and allowed within me and is prolonging my own process of self-realization as who I am as LIFE of oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use excuses/reasons/justifications to prevent me from seeing the truth of me as my nature/beingness as what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become of self-dishonesty as the mind.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to face the self-dishonesty that i have accetped and allowed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to want to escape from what i have acccepted and allowed within me instead of assisting and supporting myself to stand up, take self-responsibility and stop my existence as self-dishonesty as what i have always been.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself with beings around me and feel good about me because i believe myself to be self-honest while all other people are self-dishonest.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to participate in the feeling of good for the idea of me being apparently self-honest.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to place value and worth in an idea of me being self-honest - in separation of myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to accept the word self-honesty as who I am and live as the word self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be so chickshitted to face what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become that i wanted to use all kinds excuses/reasons/justifications to not face myself and take self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel bad about myself when i see the self-dishonesty that i have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to judge self-dishonesty as bad.

I forgive myelf that I have accpeted and allowed myself to charge self-dishonesty with a negative value.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to separate myself from self-dishonesty through judging it as bad.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the choice to not see/face the self-dishonesty that i have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form an idea about myself as being self-honest and hold onto the self-definition of me being self-honest which is an illusion protecting the real truth as self-dishonesty within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not want to see my self-dishonesty which means not wanting to take self-responsibility for what i have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use free will/free choice as excuses/justifications/reasons to not face the self-dishonesty i have accepted and allowed and continue to exist as and protect the self-dishonesty, which is perpetuating the world to exist as it currently exist which is a fuck-up.

I forigive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to ignore deliberately my self-dishonesty instead of facing myself with brutal self-honesty, embracing what i have become and stopping it completely.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out self-deception as the personality suit as the idea of self-honesty which i have created within my mind.

Till here no further!!!

I stop my self-definition as the personality suit of the idea of self-honesty which is protecting the self-dishonesty within me.

I do not accept and allow myself to hide behind an idea of self-honesty which I created within my mind to protect my self-definitions of/as the mind.

I accept and allow myself to stop my knowledge/information/idea/belief about self-honesty and actually live self-honesty within practical application as who I am.

I do not accept and allow myself to judge beings around me as fucked-up mind consciousness systems which only support my own self-definition as the polar opposite as the idea of self-honesty which i hold onto and to protect the truth of me as self-dishonesty.

I do not accept and allow myself to project the truth of me as fucked-up systems onto others.

I do not accept and allow myself to live in the illusion/delusion of me being apparently self-honest while all others are self-dishonest fucked-up systems.

I do not accept and allow myself to escape/hide from what I have accepted and allowed as who I am.

I accept and allow myself to take self-responsibility and correct myself and chage/transform myself so that I no longer continue to exist within and as that which I have always existed as - of/as the mind of self-dishonesty.

I do not accept and allow myself to use self-judgment as a means to protect my accepted and allowed self-dishonesty.

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Self Forgiveness on Stagnation

2011-06-06T03:04:00.001-04:00

Note: the following self forgiveness is an expansion on those published on my Chinese blog on October 03, 2009.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to exist within and as stagnation because of self-doubt/self-uncertainty/self-distrust.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define mself according to and as stagnation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to doubt/distrust myself all the time, thus existing in uncertainty of what I am doint or what I will do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in and as ambivalence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the experience of ambivalence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be directed by the experience of ambivalence and thus finding it difficult to make decisions - instead of directing myself within standing as the self-directive-principle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to escape from situations which I find difficult to make a decision.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that escaping from a situation is not going to solve the problem - instead the problem is merely accumulating due to ineffective direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to direct the situation that I am facing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel less than what I am facing - instead of standing one and equal with it within the realization that I created such a situation and that I require to correct myself within giving direction to the situation and walk through the consequences that I manifested.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self directive principle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to preoccupy myself with things that I am able to handle while not giving myself 'time' to deal with those situations that I believe I cannot handle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what I am facing in my world.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect what I am facing in my world to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I do not have power to direct my world and what I am facing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my power through abdicating my responsibility for what I have created and manifested as myself within my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to beliefs within my mind to have power to control and direct me - instead of me directing myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the reason the beliefs within myself have power to direct me is because I have believed these beliefs to be real and within that giving power and life to them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the beliefs within my mind to be real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be mind-controlled by beliefs that I have believed to be real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be held back by beliefs within my mind - istead of allowing myself to move beyond the limitations that I have created through the belief systems that I have believed to be real.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to prevent me from moving and expanding myself through fear--fear of fucking up, fear of doing the wrong thing, fear not being allowed to do this/that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect fucking up to fear - and thus I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed msyelf to connect doing the wrong thing to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being wrong.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect being wrong to fear - and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize the stupidity of being held back by fear - not allowing myself to go beyond the limitations that I have set up for myself due to fear.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live as stagnation instead of allowing myself to move/expand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed stagnation to become my accepted nature.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe stagnation to be normal/ordinary because I have become the self-defined nature of stagnation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to move with the group together equal and one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto fixations within my mind about myself - thus not allowing myself to move and expand.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create an idea about being constant - perceiving believing that being constant means holding onto/maintaining a fixed idea about myself.

I forgive myself that I have accpeted and allowed myself to suppress my self-expression instead of allowing my self-expression to flow.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to break through limitations/boundaries and express myself unconditionally.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to express myself unconditionally.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from selff-expression_r.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as stagnation and live out my definition as stagnation, not allowing myself to move myself within self-trust and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to trust myself within self-movement.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i can not figure out why my left pinky and the rim of my left palm are numb.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the manifestation of numbness within my left hand, instead of realizing that the manifested symptom is assisting and supporting me to realize what i am accepting and allowing within me which is not supporting who i really am as Life as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to see and face the manifested symptom of numbness within my left hand, merely desiring that such manifestated symptoms go away without looking into how i have manifested it in the first place through my own participation in my mind consciousness system which is supporting my self-definition and not who i really am.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire that the diseases i experienced go away without questioning how i have manifeseted them in the first place, what they are showing to me and where i am not standing within oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my self-definition as diseases and perceive them to be normal manifestations, not allowing myself to see what they are showing me for me to correct myself and align myself with oneness and equality as Life as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that i have accetped and allowed myself to judge diseases, separating myself from diseases.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed me to trust me within self-trust and self-honesty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to deliberately ignore the manifested disease and justify their manifestations to be normal/ordinary/random and that i am only in bad luck to get them.

I forgive myself to justify my self-dsihonesty as deliberate ignorance/blindness/forgetfulness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that i have free will/free choice to not see what i do not want to see, trapping myself into self-dishonesty that i do not want to see.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to embrace myself unconditionally.

I forigive myself that i have accepted anda llowed myself to exist in judgement/denial/resistance, separating myself from what i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge the self-honesties that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become, not allowing myself to embrace myself unconditionally--embrace all and everything that i have accepted and allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that separating myself from my self-dishonesty with judgement/denial/resistance is preventing me from seeing what i have accetped and allowed myself to be and become and thus preventing me from transforming myself, expanding myself and moving myself but keeping me within stagnation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear what i have accepted and allowed myself to become instead of realizing that fear itself is a program that prevents me from moving/transforming myself within self-honesty and thus keeping me blind with the self-dishonesty.

I forigive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i have the right/free will/free choice to not look into the self-dishonesty that ihave accepted and allowed myself to be and become because i do not feel like facing them.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use the justifications/excuses/reasons to justify why i do not stand up and make a definitive intervention of what i am accepting and allowing within me which does not serve who i really am as Life as all as one as equal.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to realize that i have deliberately deceived/manipulated myself to not see the actual truth of me as the nature/beingness of me as what i have accepted and allowed myself to become which is self-honesty and not a good picture.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be reluctant to the truth of who i have accepted and allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to use Free Will/Free Choice as excuses/justifications/reasons to keep me in stagnation within selff-dishonesty.

Till Here No Further!!!

I stop myself as the programs that i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I stop self-doubt and self-distrust. I stop inferiority. I stop superiority. I stop anxiety. I stop justifying patterns/habitual behaviors/patterns. I stop mind fucking myself. I stop Free Will/Free Choice. I stop justifications/reasons/excuses that prevent me from seeing the truth as my nature/beingness as what i have accepted and allowed myself to become. I stop stagnation.
Till here no further!

I move. I direct. I am the directive principle of me. I am here as the breath of LIFE in every moment.

I am all. I am one. I am equal. I am Life. I am words. I live words. I am the living word. I am sound. I am harmony. I am the sound harmonic expression. I am Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression. I am nature. I am earth. I am my human physical body. I am Here. I am breath. I live breath. I am self-movement. I am self-direction. I am self-trust. I am self-dedication. I am self-commitement. I am self-application. I live self-forgiveness.

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Self-doubt/Self-distrust

2011-06-05T02:12:00.000-04:00

Note: the following is based on an article I published in my Chinese blog on Octobor 03, 2009, which I am now moving here to my English blog with some modifications.

This morning i got a midterm exam to proctor which is part of my responsibility as a teaching assistant. The room that the test will take place is H-137, which i did not know exactly where it is. Although I have been in Stony Brook University for more than a year, i am still not very familiar with locations of the rooms and buildings around. My first reaction was to call Deng another classmate for the information. But I recoganized that this is a habitual behavior that i have designed and accepted as myself. So this time i stopped this tendency and decided to approach the situation myself. There are S,P,M,A,B,C,D level in the physics building, but i never heard of H level like in H-137. Where is H level? Then i recalled a building called Harriman near the physics building and the room 137 rang a bell because i am sure i have been there a long time ago. It made sense that H-137 is that room in Harriman. Then I got there and found it to be just right place.

This seems to be such a trivial thing. But it is one of the limitations that i have accepted as me. There are many other cases when I immediately went to ask somebody else for help when facing an unfamiliar situation even before i trust myself to deal with it by myself. I have the tendency to imagine the situation to be much more difficult than what it really is, and overunderestimate my ability to deal with it. I have accepted my self-definition as helplessness, powerlessness and inferiority within facing a situation that i imagined to be more than me which I have given my power away to. I did not trust myself to direct the situation equal and one as me.

Till here no further.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to jump programs that i have accepted and lived out as my self-definition when i approach a situation that i am not familiar with.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give permission to programs within my mind consciousness system to direct me instead of me directing myself as the situation equal and one.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as and live out my self-definition as powerlessness, helplessness, inferiority within facing a situation that i am not familiar with.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i am not able to handle the situation and that i must ask somebody else who i perceive to be superior to /better than me in dealing with situations to deal with this for me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard Deng Qiang to be more than me/superior to me in dealing with an everyday situation and that i must rely on/depend on him to give me direction/advice or help me to get out of what i am experiencing.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire somebody else to deal with the situation i am facing and want to escape from it because i believe that i can not deal with/handle it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to accept it to be normal/ordinary that i am not able to deal with everyday situation by myself and that i must rely/depend on those that i perceive to be better than/superior to me in dealing with such a situation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself, separating myself from self-trust.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be diffident about my ability to approach a situation and live out my self-definition as diffidence.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to confuse self-confidence with arrogance, aggression or superiority and judge self-confidence as bad.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to regard self-confidence as feeling superior about myself and present myself to be arrogant or aggressive.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i should not have self-confidience because self-confidience is arrogant, aggressive and superior.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive/believe that in order to stop arrrogance/aggression/superiority i must feel diffidence/self-doubt/self-distrust/inferiority and can not have self-trust.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to confuse diffidence/self-doubt/self-distrust/inferioirty with humbleness.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed to go from one polarity to its polar-opposite, perceiving that in this way i can stop what i have created and defined according to polarity manifestation, instead of realizing that by going to the polar opposite i am still supporting what i have created and the solution is to stop existing as polarity.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that by going to the direct opposite of what i have accepted and allowed myself to define as who i am i can "cancel" what i have created instead of realizing that such behavior is simply perpetuating what i have alreay created.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to polarity and give my power away to polarity manifestations instead of assisting and supporting myself to stop my self-definition according to polarity.

I forigive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that going to the direct polar opposite of what i used to define myself will stop my self-definition instead of realizing that i am still supporting what i have created merely by defining myself as its polar opposites and that the solution is to exist in neither polarity points.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to form perceptions/ideas/beliefs about self-confidence and humbleness, and confuse them with polarity manifestations such as arrogance/aggressiveness/superiority and self-doubt/self-distrust/inferiority etc.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my perception/idea/belief about self-confidence and humbleness, trapping myself into polarity manifestations charging the mind consciousness system within me which i have accepted and allowed myself to be and become.

I forgive myself that i have acccepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the situation that is here, react to it, fear it, give my power away to it, instead of standing one and equal with and as the situation to direct the situation one and equal as me.

I forgive myself that i have not allowed myself to trust myself to stand as self-trust within directing a situation that is here as me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as and live out my self-definition as self-doubt/self-distrust/inferiority.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to escape from what i am experiencing within me and desire for somebody else to deal with the situation for me, abdicating self-responsibility and self-trust.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire somebody else to take responsibility for me for what i am experiencing within me instead of taking self-responsibility to stand as self-trust to direct the situation equal and one as me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the polarity manifestation of inferiority and self-doubt while projecting the polar opposite of superiority onto Deng Qiang or other beings that i perceive to be superior to me in handling situations.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to give my power away to my environment or situations, allowing myself to be controlled and enslaved by the environment and situations, not allowing myself to stand one and equal with what is here and direct what is here equal and one as me/self.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to take the programs within me for granted, regarding them to be normal/ordinary never questioning how i have designed/developed them in the first place.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to get used to the programs within me, ingraining the systems and programs within me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to live out my polarity definition of superiority/inferiority.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to follow programs, regrading programs to be more than me/to be superior to me and trust programs to direct me instead of me trusting myself to direct myself within the directive principle of me equal and one.

I forgive myself that ihave accepted and allowed myself to feel that following programs are easy and justify why i follow programs and perceive that self-honesty is so hard that i do not want to do it.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to justify me following programs.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use free will/free choice to justify why i do not stand up, take self-responsibility, and live self-honesty to direct me equal and one to manifest who we really are as Life as all as one as equal as the living word as the sound harmonic expression_r.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the mind bullshit talking to me with justifications, reasons and excuses.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to "would rather" stay in self-dishonesty because self-dishonesty is easier while self-honesty is difficult. FUCK! Not acceptable!

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to have the tendency to imagine the situation to be more than what it really is.

I forgive myself that ihave accepted and allowed myself to have the tendency to think of the worst of a situation, and intimidate myself to deal with the situation equal and one as me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to overunderestimate my ability to handle a situation, jumping the program of self-doubt, instead of trusting myself to simply do what is necessary to be done.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear I may screw up what i am doing, fear the consequences of me screwing up.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be scolded/judged/ridiculed/punished/looked down upon.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to think/imagine what could happen if i fuck up.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear the unknown, fear trusting myself within the unknown.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to experience anxiety and define myself as anxiety within an unkown situation.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself to be stupid within a situation that turned out to be quite simple and easy.

i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge me to be stupid for not trusting myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncertain about myself and live out my self-definition as self-uncertainty.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that i must confirm that i am doing the right thing in the right way by somebody else who i perceive to be more than me/superior to me.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to get confirmation from a source outside me separate from me.

I forgive myself that i have accetped and allowed myself to perceive/believe that i can not be certain of myself and that i must find confirmation before i can trust myself which only indicates i did not trust myself.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to condition myself within self-trust, perceiving that i can only trust myself when i have got confirmation from an authority.

I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to desire to get confirmation from an authority in order to trust me which is separation and is not unconditional self-trust.

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